It took me 25 years but I finished a Book! Sometimes Vlog 4.14.23

0:03 wow look at this beautiful landscape

0:03 wow look at this beautiful landscape nice and warm and sunny the birds are

0:06 nice and warm and sunny the birds are

0:06 nice and warm and sunny the birds are singing children are laughing spring has

0:09 singing children are laughing spring has

0:09 singing children are laughing spring has truly sprung not a cloud in the

0:12 truly sprung not a cloud in the

0:12 truly sprung not a cloud in the wait a minute

0:14 wait a minute

0:14 wait a minute it's cold and gloomy it's not sunny it's

0:16 it's cold and gloomy it's not sunny it's

0:16 it's cold and gloomy it's not sunny it's it's sometimes blow yeah yeah

0:20 it's sometimes blow yeah yeah

0:20 it's sometimes blow yeah yeah we better be quiet actually and respect

0:22 we better be quiet actually and respect

0:22 we better be quiet actually and respect nature yeah yeah

0:24 nature yeah yeah

0:24 nature yeah yeah it's a vlog that happens sometimes now I

0:26 it's a vlog that happens sometimes now I

0:26 it's a vlog that happens sometimes now I didn't have time to build this Vlog to

0:27 didn't have time to build this Vlog to

0:27 didn't have time to build this Vlog to scale or to paint it and I know that my

0:30 scale or to paint it and I know that my

0:30 scale or to paint it and I know that my jacket's going to make this weird little

0:31 jacket's going to make this weird little

0:31 jacket's going to make this weird little noise as we walk and talk so I apologize

0:33 noise as we walk and talk so I apologize

0:33 noise as we walk and talk so I apologize for that but hopefully it will suffice

0:36 for that but hopefully it will suffice

0:36 for that but hopefully it will suffice Hello everybody welcome back to Southern

0:38 Hello everybody welcome back to Southern

0:38 Hello everybody welcome back to Southern California after our Trek into Nevada

0:42 California after our Trek into Nevada

0:42 California after our Trek into Nevada after our Trek back from Nevada and

0:45 after our Trek back from Nevada and

0:45 after our Trek back from Nevada and after I just spent a couple of days out

0:47 after I just spent a couple of days out

0:47 after I just spent a couple of days out there in Boulder City being on the set

0:49 there in Boulder City being on the set

0:49 there in Boulder City being on the set of a punk rock vampire movie called The

0:51 of a punk rock vampire movie called The

0:51 of a punk rock vampire movie called The after dark if you didn't see my two

0:52 after dark if you didn't see my two

0:52 after dark if you didn't see my two episodes about that a random randomly

0:55 episodes about that a random randomly

0:55 episodes about that a random randomly random land episodes go back and check

0:58 random land episodes go back and check

0:58 random land episodes go back and check this out because those will explain what

0:59 this out because those will explain what

0:59 this out because those will explain what I was doing in a visual style far better

1:01 I was doing in a visual style far better

1:01 I was doing in a visual style far better than anything I can explain now but it

1:03 than anything I can explain now but it

1:03 than anything I can explain now but it was a punk rock vampire movie where

1:04 was a punk rock vampire movie where

1:04 was a punk rock vampire movie where essentially I was playing myself from 10

1:06 essentially I was playing myself from 10

1:06 essentially I was playing myself from 10 years ago pretending to be in my own

1:08 years ago pretending to be in my own

1:08 years ago pretending to be in my own band in a vampire Punk Rock Club where

1:12 band in a vampire Punk Rock Club where

1:12 band in a vampire Punk Rock Club where the punk rock vampire Clan uh clashes in

1:15 the punk rock vampire Clan uh clashes in

1:15 the punk rock vampire Clan uh clashes in the movie spoiler alert with the more

1:18 the movie spoiler alert with the more

1:18 the movie spoiler alert with the more Interview with the Vampire style fancy

1:21 Interview with the Vampire style fancy

1:21 Interview with the Vampire style fancy vampires the fan the vampires yes the

1:24 vampires the fan the vampires yes the

1:24 vampires the fan the vampires yes the Punk Pirates and the vampires they do do

1:26 Punk Pirates and the vampires they do do

1:26 Punk Pirates and the vampires they do do battle in this thing and they've got

1:28 battle in this thing and they've got

1:28 battle in this thing and they've got gang girl and Bodhi Bodhi Sin Sin Bodhi

1:31 gang girl and Bodhi Bodhi Sin Sin Bodhi

1:31 gang girl and Bodhi Bodhi Sin Sin Bodhi whatever his name is sin Bodhi some

1:33 whatever his name is sin Bodhi some

1:33 whatever his name is sin Bodhi some professional wrestlers were on the stand

1:35 professional wrestlers were on the stand

1:35 professional wrestlers were on the stand wrestling each other as vampires and

1:37 wrestling each other as vampires and

1:37 wrestling each other as vampires and attacking each other and doing all these

1:39 attacking each other and doing all these

1:39 attacking each other and doing all these wonderful attacking things can I walk

1:42 wonderful attacking things can I walk

1:42 wonderful attacking things can I walk through here there's a little path

1:44 through here there's a little path

1:44 through here there's a little path through here look at this anyway I'm now

1:46 through here look at this anyway I'm now

1:46 through here look at this anyway I'm now back from the desert where it was 37

1:48 back from the desert where it was 37

1:48 back from the desert where it was 37 degrees and I was on night shoes for 12

1:50 degrees and I was on night shoes for 12

1:50 degrees and I was on night shoes for 12 hours a night and got a very puffy face

1:52 hours a night and got a very puffy face

1:52 hours a night and got a very puffy face if you watch that second video about the

1:55 if you watch that second video about the

1:55 if you watch that second video about the monster Museum and the Train Museum

1:56 monster Museum and the Train Museum

1:56 monster Museum and the Train Museum you'll see at the only time that I take

1:59 you'll see at the only time that I take

1:59 you'll see at the only time that I take off my sunglasses you can see it looks

2:00 off my sunglasses you can see it looks

2:00 off my sunglasses you can see it looks like I got stung by a bee I was having

2:02 like I got stung by a bee I was having

2:02 like I got stung by a bee I was having like allergies and something my face was

2:04 like allergies and something my face was

2:04 like allergies and something my face was getting all puffy anyway so I went from

2:06 getting all puffy anyway so I went from

2:06 getting all puffy anyway so I went from the barren coldness of the Desert Nights

2:09 the barren coldness of the Desert Nights

2:09 the barren coldness of the Desert Nights to the warm desert sunshine of coming

2:11 to the warm desert sunshine of coming

2:11 to the warm desert sunshine of coming back to California to this a gloomy gray

2:14 back to California to this a gloomy gray

2:14 back to California to this a gloomy gray day but a beautiful one because of all

2:17 day but a beautiful one because of all

2:17 day but a beautiful one because of all the wonderful flowers here at the

2:20 the wonderful flowers here at the

2:20 the wonderful flowers here at the Fullerton Arboretum that's right so we

2:23 Fullerton Arboretum that's right so we

2:23 Fullerton Arboretum that's right so we are surrounded right now by the 57

2:25 are surrounded right now by the 57

2:25 are surrounded right now by the 57 freeway and dormitories over there and

2:28 freeway and dormitories over there and

2:28 freeway and dormitories over there and uh Titan Stadium is that what it's

2:30 uh Titan Stadium is that what it's

2:30 uh Titan Stadium is that what it's called or Goodwin field or whatever it

2:32 called or Goodwin field or whatever it

2:32 called or Goodwin field or whatever it is the baseball stadium of Fullerton

2:34 is the baseball stadium of Fullerton

2:34 is the baseball stadium of Fullerton College and this is I think it's not

2:37 College and this is I think it's not

2:37 College and this is I think it's not Fullerton College excuse me Cal State

2:39 Fullerton College excuse me Cal State

2:39 Fullerton College excuse me Cal State Fullerton and this is technically

2:41 Fullerton and this is technically

2:41 Fullerton and this is technically Fullerton College would be where I went

2:43 Fullerton College would be where I went

2:43 Fullerton College would be where I went to college Cal State Fullerton is where

2:45 to college Cal State Fullerton is where

2:45 to college Cal State Fullerton is where fancier smarter people go to college I

2:47 fancier smarter people go to college I

2:47 fancier smarter people go to college I think

2:48 think

2:48 think um and I didn't go to college until I

2:50 um and I didn't go to college until I

2:50 um and I didn't go to college until I was like you know 28 or 9 or 30 or

2:53 was like you know 28 or 9 or 30 or

2:53 was like you know 28 or 9 or 30 or something like that and then I only went

2:55 something like that and then I only went

2:55 something like that and then I only went for a while it's a long story but

2:57 for a while it's a long story but

2:57 for a while it's a long story but basically this Arboretum is part of

3:00 basically this Arboretum is part of

3:00 basically this Arboretum is part of Fullerton sorry I almost did it again

3:04 Fullerton sorry I almost did it again

3:04 Fullerton sorry I almost did it again Cal State Fullerton Union diversity and

3:08 Cal State Fullerton Union diversity and

3:08 Cal State Fullerton Union diversity and I think they do do some kind of programs

3:10 I think they do do some kind of programs

3:10 I think they do do some kind of programs are you know agricultural programs and

3:13 are you know agricultural programs and

3:13 are you know agricultural programs and stuff like that here it is connected to

3:14 stuff like that here it is connected to

3:14 stuff like that here it is connected to the school but it's basically a sort of

3:17 the school but it's basically a sort of

3:17 the school but it's basically a sort of a free Arboretum they have a suggested

3:19 a free Arboretum they have a suggested

3:19 a free Arboretum they have a suggested donation all that stuff but it's a place

3:20 donation all that stuff but it's a place

3:20 donation all that stuff but it's a place you can usually come and park for free

3:23 you can usually come and park for free

3:23 you can usually come and park for free wander for free look at the beautiful

3:25 wander for free look at the beautiful

3:25 wander for free look at the beautiful flowers look at the beautiful trees we

3:27 flowers look at the beautiful trees we

3:27 flowers look at the beautiful trees we came out of the Redwood Grove where I

3:29 came out of the Redwood Grove where I

3:29 came out of the Redwood Grove where I started this video but Over Yonder

3:32 started this video but Over Yonder

3:32 started this video but Over Yonder there's also a little bamboo forest and

3:34 there's also a little bamboo forest and

3:34 there's also a little bamboo forest and there's all these little elegant sort of

3:36 there's all these little elegant sort of

3:36 there's all these little elegant sort of tea garden areas and there are palm

3:38 tea garden areas and there are palm

3:38 tea garden areas and there are palm trees and there is all kinds of

3:40 trees and there is all kinds of

3:40 trees and there is all kinds of wonderful stuff and we've been in here

3:41 wonderful stuff and we've been in here

3:41 wonderful stuff and we've been in here together before years ago for the

3:44 together before years ago for the

3:44 together before years ago for the sometimes Vlog I don't know that I've

3:45 sometimes Vlog I don't know that I've

3:45 sometimes Vlog I don't know that I've random land has ever happened here

3:47 random land has ever happened here

3:47 random land has ever happened here anyway so I was out in the desert

3:48 anyway so I was out in the desert

3:48 anyway so I was out in the desert freezing my tail off and getting a puffy

3:52 freezing my tail off and getting a puffy

3:52 freezing my tail off and getting a puffy face which calmed down as soon as I got

3:54 face which calmed down as soon as I got

3:54 face which calmed down as soon as I got home and turned the heater on and was in

3:55 home and turned the heater on and was in

3:55 home and turned the heater on and was in warm temperature for a nice solid couple

3:57 warm temperature for a nice solid couple

3:57 warm temperature for a nice solid couple days and um

3:59 days and um

3:59 days and um and I was good I was I didn't have covet

4:01 and I was good I was I didn't have covet

4:01 and I was good I was I didn't have covet and I didn't have any kind of a disease

4:03 and I didn't have any kind of a disease

4:03 and I didn't have any kind of a disease or anything it was just like a stuffy

4:05 or anything it was just like a stuffy

4:05 or anything it was just like a stuffy kind of head cold I think it's really

4:07 kind of head cold I think it's really

4:07 kind of head cold I think it's really allergy so it's got home and started

4:08 allergy so it's got home and started

4:08 allergy so it's got home and started taking some allergy pills so I don't

4:09 taking some allergy pills so I don't

4:09 taking some allergy pills so I don't know what fired those off but something

4:11 know what fired those off but something

4:11 know what fired those off but something triggered him and I was just and my face

4:13 triggered him and I was just and my face

4:13 triggered him and I was just and my face was I look like a Dick Tracy character

4:15 was I look like a Dick Tracy character

4:15 was I look like a Dick Tracy character for a while it was it was it was weird

4:17 for a while it was it was it was weird

4:18 for a while it was it was it was weird it was pretty weird anyway then as soon

4:19 it was pretty weird anyway then as soon

4:19 it was pretty weird anyway then as soon as I got back I just uh dived into

4:22 as I got back I just uh dived into

4:22 as I got back I just uh dived into another project which just uploaded

4:25 another project which just uploaded

4:25 another project which just uploaded today the full two-hour version for

4:26 today the full two-hour version for

4:26 today the full two-hour version for patreon and a 30-something minute

4:28 patreon and a 30-something minute

4:28 patreon and a 30-something minute version for everybody else which is a

4:31 version for everybody else which is a

4:31 version for everybody else which is a new episode of randomland conversations

4:33 new episode of randomland conversations

4:33 new episode of randomland conversations with David from fresh baked Disney now

4:38 with David from fresh baked Disney now

4:38 with David from fresh baked Disney now if you don't know what fresh baked

4:39 if you don't know what fresh baked

4:39 if you don't know what fresh baked Disney is it is another Channel a

4:41 Disney is it is another Channel a

4:41 Disney is it is another Channel a different Channel and it was the other

4:43 different Channel and it was the other

4:43 different Channel and it was the other show that way back in the day when I

4:47 show that way back in the day when I

4:47 show that way back in the day when I started randomland and I thought I was

4:49 started randomland and I thought I was

4:49 started randomland and I thought I was the only person filming a dedicated

4:51 the only person filming a dedicated

4:51 the only person filming a dedicated because it was dedicated basically to

4:52 because it was dedicated basically to

4:52 because it was dedicated basically to Disneyland at that time a dedicated sort

4:54 Disneyland at that time a dedicated sort

4:54 Disneyland at that time a dedicated sort of Disneyland show the only other guy

4:57 of Disneyland show the only other guy

4:57 of Disneyland show the only other guy down there doing that was David from

4:59 down there doing that was David from

4:59 down there doing that was David from fresh baked Disney he always swore that

5:01 fresh baked Disney he always swore that

5:01 fresh baked Disney he always swore that I started first and I was the first one

5:03 I started first and I was the first one

5:03 I started first and I was the first one down there filming and doing that stuff

5:04 down there filming and doing that stuff

5:04 down there filming and doing that stuff I always swore that it was him it turns

5:06 I always swore that it was him it turns

5:06 I always swore that it was him it turns out I was right technically he was there

5:09 out I was right technically he was there

5:09 out I was right technically he was there a year earlier than me but it was just

5:10 a year earlier than me but it was just

5:10 a year earlier than me but it was just POV he wouldn't even barely talk to the

5:12 POV he wouldn't even barely talk to the

5:12 POV he wouldn't even barely talk to the camera nothing like that no talking no

5:14 camera nothing like that no talking no

5:14 camera nothing like that no talking no kind of show elements this by the way is

5:16 kind of show elements this by the way is

5:16 kind of show elements this by the way is the Dr Clark house I can't remember much

5:19 the Dr Clark house I can't remember much

5:19 the Dr Clark house I can't remember much more about it off the top of my head

5:20 more about it off the top of my head

5:20 more about it off the top of my head than the name I think it's the Dr Clark

5:21 than the name I think it's the Dr Clark

5:21 than the name I think it's the Dr Clark house here in uh the Arboretum a nice

5:24 house here in uh the Arboretum a nice

5:24 house here in uh the Arboretum a nice historic home moved here over to the

5:27 historic home moved here over to the

5:27 historic home moved here over to the Fullerton Arboretum uh anyway I could

5:29 Fullerton Arboretum uh anyway I could

5:29 Fullerton Arboretum uh anyway I could see they're doing a little work back

5:30 see they're doing a little work back

5:30 see they're doing a little work back there they got the work people over here

5:32 there they got the work people over here

5:32 there they got the work people over here and the Arboretum closes in about 30

5:34 and the Arboretum closes in about 30

5:34 and the Arboretum closes in about 30 minutes so we don't want to bother the

5:36 minutes so we don't want to bother the

5:36 minutes so we don't want to bother the workers let's let them get their stuff

5:37 workers let's let them get their stuff

5:37 workers let's let them get their stuff done to get out of their way so they can

5:40 done to get out of their way so they can

5:40 done to get out of their way so they can do what they need to do do their Duty go

5:42 do what they need to do do their Duty go

5:42 do what they need to do do their Duty go home and sleep well anyway David and I

5:45 home and sleep well anyway David and I

5:45 home and sleep well anyway David and I never watched each other's channels we

5:46 never watched each other's channels we

5:46 never watched each other's channels we were sort of uh existing like

5:48 were sort of uh existing like

5:48 were sort of uh existing like independently of each other and we

5:49 independently of each other and we

5:49 independently of each other and we become friendly over the years just from

5:51 become friendly over the years just from

5:51 become friendly over the years just from bumping into each other over and over

5:52 bumping into each other over and over

5:52 bumping into each other over and over and over and our wife lady people uh

5:55 and over and our wife lady people uh

5:55 and over and our wife lady people uh being friends and all that kind of stuff

5:56 being friends and all that kind of stuff

5:56 being friends and all that kind of stuff but he's shy guy he's kind of socially

5:58 but he's shy guy he's kind of socially

5:58 but he's shy guy he's kind of socially awkward I'm shy and socially awkward and

6:00 awkward I'm shy and socially awkward and

6:00 awkward I'm shy and socially awkward and weird as loud as I am believe it or not

6:02 weird as loud as I am believe it or not

6:02 weird as loud as I am believe it or not I am very shy when somebody breaks the

6:04 I am very shy when somebody breaks the

6:04 I am very shy when somebody breaks the ice with me then we're warm friends but

6:06 ice with me then we're warm friends but

6:06 ice with me then we're warm friends but it's hard I I feel uncomfortable too so

6:08 it's hard I I feel uncomfortable too so

6:09 it's hard I I feel uncomfortable too so I totally am with him in spirit we

6:10 I totally am with him in spirit we

6:10 I totally am with him in spirit we actually had a big part of the

6:11 actually had a big part of the

6:12 actually had a big part of the conversation was talking about that how

6:13 conversation was talking about that how

6:13 conversation was talking about that how uh unlike him I was in that band and I

6:16 uh unlike him I was in that band and I

6:16 uh unlike him I was in that band and I would go from town to town and people

6:18 would go from town to town and people

6:18 would go from town to town and people would be like oh that guy in the scar

6:19 would be like oh that guy in the scar

6:19 would be like oh that guy in the scar and he's a jerk he's quiet he doesn't

6:20 and he's a jerk he's quiet he doesn't

6:20 and he's a jerk he's quiet he doesn't talk to anybody he's stuck up whatever

6:23 talk to anybody he's stuck up whatever

6:23 talk to anybody he's stuck up whatever and I would hear these rumors about

6:24 and I would hear these rumors about

6:24 and I would hear these rumors about myself oh and I just had to learn to

6:27 myself oh and I just had to learn to

6:27 myself oh and I just had to learn to force myself to learn to to to talk to

6:30 force myself to learn to to to talk to

6:30 force myself to learn to to to talk to people no matter how much social anxiety

6:32 people no matter how much social anxiety

6:32 people no matter how much social anxiety and shyness I felt I just had to force

6:33 and shyness I felt I just had to force

6:33 and shyness I felt I just had to force myself to learn but on the inside let me

6:35 myself to learn but on the inside let me

6:35 myself to learn but on the inside let me tell you I'm still like that I'm still

6:36 tell you I'm still like that I'm still

6:36 tell you I'm still like that I'm still very shy and awkward I wish more people

6:38 very shy and awkward I wish more people

6:38 very shy and awkward I wish more people knew that I feel I feel uncomfortable

6:40 knew that I feel I feel uncomfortable

6:40 knew that I feel I feel uncomfortable all the time so I totally sympathize

6:43 all the time so I totally sympathize

6:43 all the time so I totally sympathize with that be like you're so natural you

6:44 with that be like you're so natural you

6:44 with that be like you're so natural you talk so much and this and that you're

6:46 talk so much and this and that you're

6:46 talk so much and this and that you're comfortable in every situation not true

6:48 comfortable in every situation not true

6:48 comfortable in every situation not true not comfortable in every situation just

6:51 not comfortable in every situation just

6:51 not comfortable in every situation just comfortable enough with myself I'm

6:53 comfortable enough with myself I'm

6:53 comfortable enough with myself I'm getting more comfortable as I get older

6:54 getting more comfortable as I get older

6:54 getting more comfortable as I get older I'm I'm breaking through a lot of walls

6:56 I'm I'm breaking through a lot of walls

6:56 I'm I'm breaking through a lot of walls as I get older and more comfortable

6:58 as I get older and more comfortable

6:58 as I get older and more comfortable anyway it was a whole fascinating

6:59 anyway it was a whole fascinating

6:59 anyway it was a whole fascinating conversation because we've never knew or

7:02 conversation because we've never knew or

7:02 conversation because we've never knew or cared or really asked each other about

7:03 cared or really asked each other about

7:03 cared or really asked each other about each other's history and both of us are

7:05 each other's history and both of us are

7:05 each other's history and both of us are the kind of people who are so busy

7:07 the kind of people who are so busy

7:07 the kind of people who are so busy making stuff we don't have a lot of time

7:08 making stuff we don't have a lot of time

7:08 making stuff we don't have a lot of time to watch stuff and if you do have time

7:10 to watch stuff and if you do have time

7:10 to watch stuff and if you do have time to watch stuff you're not going to watch

7:11 to watch stuff you're not going to watch

7:11 to watch stuff you're not going to watch stuff about the same type of stuff that

7:12 stuff about the same type of stuff that

7:12 stuff about the same type of stuff that you're making you're going to be

7:14 you're making you're going to be

7:14 you're making you're going to be watching stuff about other stuff and

7:15 watching stuff about other stuff and

7:15 watching stuff about other stuff and getting your mind off of work you know

7:17 getting your mind off of work you know

7:17 getting your mind off of work you know and all that kind of stuff we both

7:18 and all that kind of stuff we both

7:18 and all that kind of stuff we both talked about how we're incredibly lucky

7:19 talked about how we're incredibly lucky

7:19 talked about how we're incredibly lucky to to have have been there at the time

7:22 to to have have been there at the time

7:22 to to have have been there at the time we were and to create the sort of help

7:24 we were and to create the sort of help

7:24 we were and to create the sort of help create those weird genre of things

7:26 create those weird genre of things

7:26 create those weird genre of things that's grown and changed in so many ways

7:28 that's grown and changed in so many ways

7:28 that's grown and changed in so many ways with all kinds of people who have passed

7:30 with all kinds of people who have passed

7:30 with all kinds of people who have passed us by in the views and the popularity

7:32 us by in the views and the popularity

7:33 us by in the views and the popularity and all those kinds of things and what a

7:34 and all those kinds of things and what a

7:34 and all those kinds of things and what a trip it is that you could go from my

7:36 trip it is that you could go from my

7:36 trip it is that you could go from my perspective from something so like dorky

7:38 perspective from something so like dorky

7:38 perspective from something so like dorky and unpopular people make fun of you to

7:39 and unpopular people make fun of you to

7:39 and unpopular people make fun of you to like wow isn't this great that we could

7:41 like wow isn't this great that we could

7:41 like wow isn't this great that we could do this thing and bring other people

7:42 do this thing and bring other people

7:42 do this thing and bring other people along and make other people it's just a

7:43 along and make other people it's just a

7:43 along and make other people it's just a really fascinating conversation and I

7:45 really fascinating conversation and I

7:45 really fascinating conversation and I learned a lot about David uh for example

7:47 learned a lot about David uh for example

7:47 learned a lot about David uh for example I'll give you one little spoiler while I

7:49 I'll give you one little spoiler while I

7:49 I'll give you one little spoiler while I was spending my youth and adolescents

7:52 was spending my youth and adolescents

7:52 was spending my youth and adolescents out there playing punk rock shows and

7:54 out there playing punk rock shows and

7:54 out there playing punk rock shows and early adulthood really they always say

7:56 early adulthood really they always say

7:56 early adulthood really they always say there's two types of people who mature

7:57 there's two types of people who mature

7:57 there's two types of people who mature 10 years behind everybody else musicians

7:59 10 years behind everybody else musicians

7:59 10 years behind everybody else musicians and athletes because they're involved in

8:01 and athletes because they're involved in

8:01 and athletes because they're involved in the little bubble it's certainly true of

8:02 the little bubble it's certainly true of

8:02 the little bubble it's certainly true of musicians let me tell you so when I was

8:04 musicians let me tell you so when I was

8:04 musicians let me tell you so when I was in my little bubble it was 10 years of

8:05 in my little bubble it was 10 years of

8:05 in my little bubble it was 10 years of playing rock and roll in bands and

8:08 playing rock and roll in bands and

8:08 playing rock and roll in bands and touring around the country David his

8:10 touring around the country David his

8:10 touring around the country David his ambition his dream was to become a

8:12 ambition his dream was to become a

8:12 ambition his dream was to become a professional golfer

8:14 professional golfer

8:14 professional golfer that's what he was pursuing golf that

8:17 that's what he was pursuing golf that

8:17 that's what he was pursuing golf that was his thing golf so we're very

8:18 was his thing golf so we're very

8:18 was his thing golf so we're very different from each other I was pursuing

8:20 different from each other I was pursuing

8:20 different from each other I was pursuing something loud and crazy and hectic he's

8:22 something loud and crazy and hectic he's

8:22 something loud and crazy and hectic he's pursuing something very mellow calm putt

8:24 pursuing something very mellow calm putt

8:24 pursuing something very mellow calm putt putting

8:25 putting

8:25 putting four good pot jolly old fellow ooh it

8:29 four good pot jolly old fellow ooh it

8:30 four good pot jolly old fellow ooh it looks like some Wayward youth sir in the

8:31 looks like some Wayward youth sir in the

8:31 looks like some Wayward youth sir in the bamboo forest I wanted to cruise over to

8:33 bamboo forest I wanted to cruise over to

8:33 bamboo forest I wanted to cruise over to the bamboo forest

8:34 the bamboo forest

8:34 the bamboo forest and show you guys the the Beauty and the

8:38 and show you guys the the Beauty and the

8:38 and show you guys the the Beauty and the Mystery but I hear some young

8:41 Mystery but I hear some young

8:41 Mystery but I hear some young some laughter some Young Voices over

8:43 some laughter some Young Voices over

8:43 some laughter some Young Voices over here oh no I've watched a lot of Samurai

8:46 here oh no I've watched a lot of Samurai

8:46 here oh no I've watched a lot of Samurai movies

8:47 movies

8:47 movies and uh whenever you know someone's a

8:49 and uh whenever you know someone's a

8:49 and uh whenever you know someone's a ronin or somebody's

8:52 ronin or somebody's

8:52 ronin or somebody's oh we hear that noise in the trees

8:55 oh we hear that noise in the trees

8:55 oh we hear that noise in the trees oh there they are they're down there

8:56 oh there they are they're down there

8:57 oh there they are they're down there whatever like a ronin or a rogue Samurai

8:59 whatever like a ronin or a rogue Samurai

8:59 whatever like a ronin or a rogue Samurai is on a path through the bamboo forest

9:01 is on a path through the bamboo forest

9:01 is on a path through the bamboo forest and you hear voices like that it could

9:03 and you hear voices like that it could

9:03 and you hear voices like that it could be anything it could be an ambush a

9:05 be anything it could be an ambush a

9:05 be anything it could be an ambush a samurai Ambush a Sam Bush

9:08 samurai Ambush a Sam Bush

9:08 samurai Ambush a Sam Bush Ambush anyway it was a fascinating

9:11 Ambush anyway it was a fascinating

9:11 Ambush anyway it was a fascinating conversation because we're really

9:12 conversation because we're really

9:12 conversation because we're really different but I think we both have

9:13 different but I think we both have

9:13 different but I think we both have similar hearts and we kind of met Heart

9:16 similar hearts and we kind of met Heart

9:16 similar hearts and we kind of met Heart to Heart on uh and had a heart to heart

9:19 to Heart on uh and had a heart to heart

9:19 to Heart on uh and had a heart to heart on just you know being kind being polite

9:21 on just you know being kind being polite

9:21 on just you know being kind being polite being cool feeling grateful and and it's

9:24 being cool feeling grateful and and it's

9:24 being cool feeling grateful and and it's just it was a really interesting and

9:26 just it was a really interesting and

9:26 just it was a really interesting and neat experience so if you're familiar

9:27 neat experience so if you're familiar

9:27 neat experience so if you're familiar with fresh baked at all or that uh that

9:29 with fresh baked at all or that uh that

9:29 with fresh baked at all or that uh that kind of stuff you're interested in the

9:31 kind of stuff you're interested in the

9:31 kind of stuff you're interested in the history of

9:32 history of

9:32 history of the history of people filming YouTube

9:35 the history of people filming YouTube

9:35 the history of people filming YouTube videos at Disneyland I guess it's a it's

9:37 videos at Disneyland I guess it's a it's

9:37 videos at Disneyland I guess it's a it's a pretty fascinating conversation anyway

9:39 a pretty fascinating conversation anyway

9:39 a pretty fascinating conversation anyway I'm not here to talk about that I'm here

9:41 I'm not here to talk about that I'm here

9:41 I'm not here to talk about that I'm here to procrastinate a little bit because

9:42 to procrastinate a little bit because

9:42 to procrastinate a little bit because I'm working on a 10 years of random land

9:44 I'm working on a 10 years of random land

9:44 I'm working on a 10 years of random land video that's literally going to take me

9:45 video that's literally going to take me

9:45 video that's literally going to take me weeks to go through more than a thousand

9:47 weeks to go through more than a thousand

9:47 weeks to go through more than a thousand episodes of stuff and find clips and

9:50 episodes of stuff and find clips and

9:50 episodes of stuff and find clips and then narrow it down it's going to be a

9:51 then narrow it down it's going to be a

9:51 then narrow it down it's going to be a much bigger project than I anticipated

9:53 much bigger project than I anticipated

9:53 much bigger project than I anticipated it was and people made suggestions on

9:54 it was and people made suggestions on

9:54 it was and people made suggestions on which Clips to use it's just it wasn't

9:56 which Clips to use it's just it wasn't

9:56 which Clips to use it's just it wasn't enough or they weren't right or they

9:57 enough or they weren't right or they

9:57 enough or they weren't right or they weren't meet the right parameters most

9:59 weren't meet the right parameters most

9:59 weren't meet the right parameters most of them and I I'm just basically wading

10:01 of them and I I'm just basically wading

10:01 of them and I I'm just basically wading through

10:03 through

10:03 through every video that I've made over the last

10:04 every video that I've made over the last

10:04 every video that I've made over the last 10 years and just kind of scrubbing

10:06 10 years and just kind of scrubbing

10:06 10 years and just kind of scrubbing through trying to find it's a whole

10:07 through trying to find it's a whole

10:07 through trying to find it's a whole nightmare mess and I have to start

10:09 nightmare mess and I have to start

10:09 nightmare mess and I have to start working on it today I haven't been

10:10 working on it today I haven't been

10:10 working on it today I haven't been working on it much because I went to

10:11 working on it much because I went to

10:11 working on it much because I went to Vegas and or went down to Nevada and was

10:13 Vegas and or went down to Nevada and was

10:13 Vegas and or went down to Nevada and was in the movie and then I did the

10:14 in the movie and then I did the

10:14 in the movie and then I did the conversations thing and then you know

10:16 conversations thing and then you know

10:16 conversations thing and then you know I've been filming stuff along the way

10:17 I've been filming stuff along the way

10:17 I've been filming stuff along the way random land episodes and Ali has a house

10:20 random land episodes and Ali has a house

10:20 random land episodes and Ali has a house guest so our whole routine is kind of

10:21 guest so our whole routine is kind of

10:21 guest so our whole routine is kind of thrown off because we're really

10:23 thrown off because we're really

10:23 thrown off because we're really Ali is obviously much more externally

10:25 Ali is obviously much more externally

10:25 Ali is obviously much more externally shy and quiet uh but both of us are

10:29 shy and quiet uh but both of us are

10:29 shy and quiet uh but both of us are really the kind of people that need to

10:30 really the kind of people that need to

10:30 really the kind of people that need to go home and be silent read believe it or

10:33 go home and be silent read believe it or

10:33 go home and be silent read believe it or not yes even me recharge and silence and

10:36 not yes even me recharge and silence and

10:36 not yes even me recharge and silence and the little routine the little bubble of

10:37 the little routine the little bubble of

10:37 the little routine the little bubble of the little Fortress of Solitude kind of

10:39 the little Fortress of Solitude kind of

10:39 the little Fortress of Solitude kind of action and so that just throws

10:40 action and so that just throws

10:40 action and so that just throws everything off a little bit and

10:42 everything off a little bit and

10:42 everything off a little bit and basically I'm finding every excuse in

10:43 basically I'm finding every excuse in

10:43 basically I'm finding every excuse in the book for my ad HD brain is finding

10:46 the book for my ad HD brain is finding

10:46 the book for my ad HD brain is finding every excuse to be like oh completely

10:47 every excuse to be like oh completely

10:47 every excuse to be like oh completely unmotivated about sitting down to this

10:50 unmotivated about sitting down to this

10:50 unmotivated about sitting down to this long task of going through 10 years of

10:53 long task of going through 10 years of

10:53 long task of going through 10 years of videos so I am out here procrastinating

10:55 videos so I am out here procrastinating

10:55 videos so I am out here procrastinating that but that is not what I'm excited

10:57 that but that is not what I'm excited

10:57 that but that is not what I'm excited about what I'm excited about well

10:59 about what I'm excited about well

10:59 about what I'm excited about well several things I'm excited about that

11:00 several things I'm excited about that

11:00 several things I'm excited about that fresh baked uh versus randomly and

11:02 fresh baked uh versus randomly and

11:02 fresh baked uh versus randomly and that's the title of it if you want to go

11:03 that's the title of it if you want to go

11:03 that's the title of it if you want to go find it I'm excited about that I'm

11:06 find it I'm excited about that I'm

11:06 find it I'm excited about that I'm excited about 10th anniversary sick

11:07 excited about 10th anniversary sick

11:07 excited about 10th anniversary sick merge which I maybe should have worn to

11:09 merge which I maybe should have worn to

11:09 merge which I maybe should have worn to demonstrate including for the first time

11:11 demonstrate including for the first time

11:11 demonstrate including for the first time ever I think it's the first time ever

11:13 ever I think it's the first time ever

11:13 ever I think it's the first time ever well the first time ever a proper

11:15 well the first time ever a proper

11:15 well the first time ever a proper sometimes Vlog shirt with a new

11:17 sometimes Vlog shirt with a new

11:17 sometimes Vlog shirt with a new sometimes Vlog logo that you may have

11:18 sometimes Vlog logo that you may have

11:18 sometimes Vlog logo that you may have seen right here

11:21 seen right here

11:21 seen right here in the default picture we'll make this

11:22 in the default picture we'll make this

11:22 in the default picture we'll make this the default picture with the logo right

11:25 the default picture with the logo right

11:25 the default picture with the logo right prominently so you know what I'm talking

11:27 prominently so you know what I'm talking

11:27 prominently so you know what I'm talking about uh we finally got some sick

11:30 about uh we finally got some sick

11:30 about uh we finally got some sick t-shirts of that so those are up on the

11:32 t-shirts of that so those are up on the

11:32 t-shirts of that so those are up on the website right now and it's just uh I'm

11:34 website right now and it's just uh I'm

11:34 website right now and it's just uh I'm excited about those things but that's

11:35 excited about those things but that's

11:35 excited about those things but that's not what I'm here to talk about what I'm

11:37 not what I'm here to talk about what I'm

11:37 not what I'm here to talk about what I'm here to talk if I was here to talk about

11:38 here to talk if I was here to talk about

11:38 here to talk if I was here to talk about that I really failed because I should

11:39 that I really failed because I should

11:39 that I really failed because I should have brought the T-shirt with me like

11:40 have brought the T-shirt with me like

11:40 have brought the T-shirt with me like I'm saying what I'm here to oh I'm not

11:43 I'm saying what I'm here to oh I'm not

11:43 I'm saying what I'm here to oh I'm not on a trail I thought this was a trail I

11:46 on a trail I thought this was a trail I

11:46 on a trail I thought this was a trail I thought wrong I'm a foolish fool I'm a

11:49 thought wrong I'm a foolish fool I'm a

11:49 thought wrong I'm a foolish fool I'm a law breaker and that actually ties right

11:52 law breaker and that actually ties right

11:52 law breaker and that actually ties right in with what I was talking about what if

11:54 in with what I was talking about what if

11:54 in with what I was talking about what if by breaking a simple rule a simple law

11:58 by breaking a simple rule a simple law

11:58 by breaking a simple rule a simple law of Nature and walking there treading

12:00 of Nature and walking there treading

12:00 of Nature and walking there treading upon a path I shouldn't have tread

12:02 upon a path I shouldn't have tread

12:02 upon a path I shouldn't have tread what if I were thrown in jail hard labor

12:05 what if I were thrown in jail hard labor

12:06 what if I were thrown in jail hard labor in the prison ships are too long

12:09 in the prison ships are too long

12:09 in the prison ships are too long what if for stealing a loaf of bread you

12:12 what if for stealing a loaf of bread you

12:12 what if for stealing a loaf of bread you were thrown into prison and once

12:14 were thrown into prison and once

12:14 were thrown into prison and once released from prison you couldn't meet

12:16 released from prison you couldn't meet

12:16 released from prison you couldn't meet the expectations people spat on you and

12:18 the expectations people spat on you and

12:18 the expectations people spat on you and cast you out from society I wouldn't

12:20 cast you out from society I wouldn't

12:20 cast you out from society I wouldn't even let you sleep on a public bench and

12:22 even let you sleep on a public bench and

12:22 even let you sleep on a public bench and everywhere you went you were kicked and

12:24 everywhere you went you were kicked and

12:24 everywhere you went you were kicked and scorned and scoffed at what if that

12:27 scorned and scoffed at what if that

12:27 scorned and scoffed at what if that happened to you my friends well it did

12:29 happened to you my friends well it did

12:29 happened to you my friends well it did happen to someone it did happen to a

12:31 happen to someone it did happen to a

12:31 happen to someone it did happen to a character it happened to them maybe but

12:33 character it happened to them maybe but

12:33 character it happened to them maybe but it also happened to a character in

12:35 it also happened to a character in

12:35 it also happened to a character in literature a character named Jean

12:38 literature a character named Jean

12:38 literature a character named Jean Valjean from the book by Victor Hugo

12:41 Valjean from the book by Victor Hugo

12:41 Valjean from the book by Victor Hugo called Les Miserables or Les Miserables

12:45 called Les Miserables or Les Miserables

12:45 called Les Miserables or Les Miserables if you want to make it easy for yourself

12:46 if you want to make it easy for yourself

12:46 if you want to make it easy for yourself Les Miserables

12:53 and 25 years ago I went and saw the

12:53 and 25 years ago I went and saw the movie version of Les Miserables and it

12:55 movie version of Les Miserables and it

12:55 movie version of Les Miserables and it became one of

12:57 became one of

12:57 became one of I don't want to say one of my favorite

12:59 I don't want to say one of my favorite

12:59 I don't want to say one of my favorite movies because it's not one that I

13:00 movies because it's not one that I

13:00 movies because it's not one that I re-watch every year and it's not one

13:02 re-watch every year and it's not one

13:02 re-watch every year and it's not one that I like pop a poster up in my house

13:04 that I like pop a poster up in my house

13:04 that I like pop a poster up in my house although maybe I should

13:06 although maybe I should

13:06 although maybe I should but it's one of those movies that made

13:07 but it's one of those movies that made

13:07 but it's one of those movies that made it such a huge it was a favorite for you

13:10 it such a huge it was a favorite for you

13:10 it such a huge it was a favorite for you know we rent it and watch it over and

13:11 know we rent it and watch it over and

13:11 know we rent it and watch it over and over again from Blockbuster and that

13:12 over again from Blockbuster and that

13:12 over again from Blockbuster and that kind of thing but it was a favorite in

13:14 kind of thing but it was a favorite in

13:14 kind of thing but it was a favorite in the sense that it made a really deep

13:15 the sense that it made a really deep

13:15 the sense that it made a really deep impact on me the story of the thief Jean

13:18 impact on me the story of the thief Jean

13:18 impact on me the story of the thief Jean Valjean and the way that the bishop

13:21 Valjean and the way that the bishop

13:21 Valjean and the way that the bishop turned him he ransomed him back and I

13:24 turned him he ransomed him back and I

13:24 turned him he ransomed him back and I give you back to what did he say here

13:26 give you back to what did he say here

13:26 give you back to what did he say here I'm ransoming you from evil and I give

13:28 I'm ransoming you from evil and I give

13:28 I'm ransoming you from evil and I give you back to God and then Jean Valjean

13:30 you back to God and then Jean Valjean

13:30 you back to God and then Jean Valjean becomes basically a saint and yet the

13:33 becomes basically a saint and yet the

13:33 becomes basically a saint and yet the law still pursues him because he still

13:35 law still pursues him because he still

13:35 law still pursues him because he still lives outside of the law and so the

13:37 lives outside of the law and so the

13:37 lives outside of the law and so the Inspector Javert who's lived his life

13:39 Inspector Javert who's lived his life

13:39 Inspector Javert who's lived his life perfectly to the letter of the law

13:40 perfectly to the letter of the law

13:40 perfectly to the letter of the law versus Jean Valjean who has the spirit

13:43 versus Jean Valjean who has the spirit

13:43 versus Jean Valjean who has the spirit of the law the spirit of you know

13:45 of the law the spirit of you know

13:45 of the law the spirit of you know Justice and the spirit of forgiveness

13:48 Justice and the spirit of forgiveness

13:48 Justice and the spirit of forgiveness and mercy and all these things and has

13:49 and mercy and all these things and has

13:49 and mercy and all these things and has turned over and reformed and then the

13:51 turned over and reformed and then the

13:51 turned over and reformed and then the rigid legalistic Javert with his with

13:54 rigid legalistic Javert with his with

13:54 rigid legalistic Javert with his with his people don't reform they're either

13:56 his people don't reform they're either

13:56 his people don't reform they're either born criminals is very scientific for

13:58 born criminals is very scientific for

13:58 born criminals is very scientific for the time outlook on it talking about the

14:00 the time outlook on it talking about the

14:00 the time outlook on it talking about the early 19th century of course anyway this

14:03 early 19th century of course anyway this

14:03 early 19th century of course anyway this movie had a massive impact on me

14:07 movie had a massive impact on me

14:07 movie had a massive impact on me um it was kind of a sleet it was kind of

14:09 um it was kind of a sleet it was kind of

14:09 um it was kind of a sleet it was kind of a sleeper like a time bomb for me

14:10 a sleeper like a time bomb for me

14:10 a sleeper like a time bomb for me because it was sort of in my brain for

14:12 because it was sort of in my brain for

14:12 because it was sort of in my brain for years and when I began the Quest for

14:14 years and when I began the Quest for

14:14 years and when I began the Quest for positivity uh Harvey with another movie

14:18 positivity uh Harvey with another movie

14:18 positivity uh Harvey with another movie that was a very big inspiration to me

14:19 that was a very big inspiration to me

14:19 that was a very big inspiration to me I've mentioned that one many times about

14:21 I've mentioned that one many times about

14:21 I've mentioned that one many times about the the quote you know I used to be you

14:23 the the quote you know I used to be you

14:23 the the quote you know I used to be you know well what in this world you can be

14:26 know well what in this world you can be

14:26 know well what in this world you can be oh so smart or oh so pleasant well I

14:30 oh so smart or oh so pleasant well I

14:30 oh so smart or oh so pleasant well I used to be smart now I choose Pleasant

14:32 used to be smart now I choose Pleasant

14:32 used to be smart now I choose Pleasant right that was a huge

14:34 right that was a huge

14:34 right that was a huge huge impact on me no more trying to be

14:36 huge impact on me no more trying to be

14:36 huge impact on me no more trying to be smart no more trying to be cool and

14:38 smart no more trying to be cool and

14:38 smart no more trying to be cool and we're trying to put on this image of a

14:39 we're trying to put on this image of a

14:39 we're trying to put on this image of a tough cool punk rock snarky rude uh and

14:42 tough cool punk rock snarky rude uh and

14:42 tough cool punk rock snarky rude uh and let myself lose myself anymore in my

14:44 let myself lose myself anymore in my

14:44 let myself lose myself anymore in my life but to be pleasant to be nice to be

14:46 life but to be pleasant to be nice to be

14:46 life but to be pleasant to be nice to be as kind as I can and nice as I can to

14:48 as kind as I can and nice as I can to

14:48 as kind as I can and nice as I can to people and change my own mentality and

14:50 people and change my own mentality and

14:50 people and change my own mentality and try to be positive and all that kind of

14:52 try to be positive and all that kind of

14:52 try to be positive and all that kind of stuff right but Les Miserables also had

14:54 stuff right but Les Miserables also had

14:54 stuff right but Les Miserables also had that impact on me and it's really a

14:56 that impact on me and it's really a

14:56 that impact on me and it's really a story about reform it's really a story

14:58 story about reform it's really a story

14:58 story about reform it's really a story about somebody who was wicked evil just

15:01 about somebody who was wicked evil just

15:01 about somebody who was wicked evil just completely gnarled he had he was an

15:03 completely gnarled he had he was an

15:03 completely gnarled he had he was an unfortunate victim of circumstance but

15:05 unfortunate victim of circumstance but

15:05 unfortunate victim of circumstance but the fact that he took responsibility to

15:06 the fact that he took responsibility to

15:06 the fact that he took responsibility to change and to become you know this

15:09 change and to become you know this

15:09 change and to become you know this completely you know almost living Saint

15:12 completely you know almost living Saint

15:12 completely you know almost living Saint type of figure and so 25 years ago I

15:15 type of figure and so 25 years ago I

15:15 type of figure and so 25 years ago I watched that movie and for that entire

15:17 watched that movie and for that entire

15:17 watched that movie and for that entire 25 years because I loved the movie

15:19 25 years because I loved the movie

15:19 25 years because I loved the movie version so much and by the way this has

15:20 version so much and by the way this has

15:21 version so much and by the way this has nothing to do with the musical there are

15:22 nothing to do with the musical there are

15:22 nothing to do with the musical there are no songs in this movie this is the one

15:23 no songs in this movie this is the one

15:23 no songs in this movie this is the one with Liam Neeson and um Claire Danes oh

15:26 with Liam Neeson and um Claire Danes oh

15:26 with Liam Neeson and um Claire Danes oh I think you just crush on Claire Danes

15:29 I think you just crush on Claire Danes

15:29 I think you just crush on Claire Danes in the 90s big time that's the version

15:31 in the 90s big time that's the version

15:31 in the 90s big time that's the version I'm talking about that is such a great

15:33 I'm talking about that is such a great

15:33 I'm talking about that is such a great you got to watch that the uh the uh Les

15:35 you got to watch that the uh the uh Les

15:35 you got to watch that the uh the uh Les Miserables musical Hugh Jackman all that

15:37 Miserables musical Hugh Jackman all that

15:37 Miserables musical Hugh Jackman all that stuff that came out more recently and

15:39 stuff that came out more recently and

15:39 stuff that came out more recently and Hathaway it's good in the musical the

15:41 Hathaway it's good in the musical the

15:41 Hathaway it's good in the musical the stage performance I'm good with all that

15:42 stage performance I'm good with all that

15:42 stage performance I'm good with all that stuff but uh that movie I really like

15:44 stuff but uh that movie I really like

15:44 stuff but uh that movie I really like that movie that's the version that got

15:46 that movie that's the version that got

15:46 that movie that's the version that got me into the story

15:47 me into the story

15:48 me into the story that was about 15 or something like that

15:49 that was about 15 or something like that

15:49 that was about 15 or something like that and for 25 years because I'm a reader

15:53 and for 25 years because I'm a reader

15:53 and for 25 years because I'm a reader and normally I like to read books before

15:54 and normally I like to read books before

15:54 and normally I like to read books before I see the movie or whatever and even

15:56 I see the movie or whatever and even

15:56 I see the movie or whatever and even back then I was a reader of classic

15:57 back then I was a reader of classic

15:57 back then I was a reader of classic literature I tried to bust out Les

16:00 literature I tried to bust out Les

16:00 literature I tried to bust out Les Miserables and read it at 15 in 1998

16:03 Miserables and read it at 15 in 1998

16:03 Miserables and read it at 15 in 1998 nothing doing just no good I could not

16:06 nothing doing just no good I could not

16:06 nothing doing just no good I could not get past it for it's so slow in fact in

16:09 get past it for it's so slow in fact in

16:09 get past it for it's so slow in fact in literary circles it's known see some

16:11 literary circles it's known see some

16:11 literary circles it's known see some people as the brick because it's just

16:13 people as the brick because it's just

16:13 people as the brick because it's just this fat huge book multiple volumes of

16:15 this fat huge book multiple volumes of

16:15 this fat huge book multiple volumes of just this huge story and there are so

16:17 just this huge story and there are so

16:18 just this huge story and there are so many digressions it goes sideways about

16:19 many digressions it goes sideways about

16:19 many digressions it goes sideways about history and Victor Hugo just goes on and

16:21 history and Victor Hugo just goes on and

16:21 history and Victor Hugo just goes on and on about at this Epoch you got to

16:23 on about at this Epoch you got to

16:23 on about at this Epoch you got to remember this and this and this is going

16:24 remember this and this and this is going

16:24 remember this and this and this is going on over in Spain this and this was going

16:26 on over in Spain this and this was going

16:26 on over in Spain this and this was going on here's 10 chapters about the Battle

16:27 on here's 10 chapters about the Battle

16:27 on here's 10 chapters about the Battle Battle of Waterloo that you don't need

16:29 Battle of Waterloo that you don't need

16:29 Battle of Waterloo that you don't need to know about really and a lot of weird

16:31 to know about really and a lot of weird

16:31 to know about really and a lot of weird French history and references to things

16:34 French history and references to things

16:34 French history and references to things that are obscure to maybe audiences from

16:36 that are obscure to maybe audiences from

16:36 that are obscure to maybe audiences from other countries and not from his time

16:38 other countries and not from his time

16:38 other countries and not from his time period it's a very bizarre very overly

16:40 period it's a very bizarre very overly

16:40 period it's a very bizarre very overly long and I just I never wanted to read

16:42 long and I just I never wanted to read

16:42 long and I just I never wanted to read The Abridged shortened versions where

16:44 The Abridged shortened versions where

16:44 The Abridged shortened versions where that says I always wanted to read the

16:45 that says I always wanted to read the

16:45 that says I always wanted to read the real version and I just couldn't do it

16:47 real version and I just couldn't do it

16:47 real version and I just couldn't do it at 15. not because I wasn't a strong

16:50 at 15. not because I wasn't a strong

16:50 at 15. not because I wasn't a strong reader at 15 I had read David

16:52 reader at 15 I had read David

16:52 reader at 15 I had read David Copperfield long novels like that I was

16:54 Copperfield long novels like that I was

16:54 Copperfield long novels like that I was reading Russian literature throughout

16:55 reading Russian literature throughout

16:55 reading Russian literature throughout the years which is harder in some ways

16:58 the years which is harder in some ways

16:58 the years which is harder in some ways to read like Dostoyevsky or something

16:59 to read like Dostoyevsky or something

16:59 to read like Dostoyevsky or something like that

17:00 like that

17:00 like that but I just could not for the life of me

17:02 but I just could not for the life of me

17:02 but I just could not for the life of me get through the beginning of this book

17:05 get through the beginning of this book

17:05 get through the beginning of this book to get into it and finally a couple

17:06 to get into it and finally a couple

17:06 to get into it and finally a couple months ago

17:07 months ago

17:07 months ago no couple weeks ago really six weeks or

17:09 no couple weeks ago really six weeks or

17:09 no couple weeks ago really six weeks or so ago uh it feels like months I broke

17:12 so ago uh it feels like months I broke

17:12 so ago uh it feels like months I broke through oh who would litter the

17:14 through oh who would litter the

17:14 through oh who would litter the Arboretum I broke through the first

17:16 Arboretum I broke through the first

17:16 Arboretum I broke through the first couple chapters and finally made my way

17:19 couple chapters and finally made my way

17:19 couple chapters and finally made my way into the story and I'm happy to say that

17:21 into the story and I'm happy to say that

17:21 into the story and I'm happy to say that as of yesterday I finally finished 25

17:25 as of yesterday I finally finished 25

17:25 as of yesterday I finally finished 25 years later I finally finished all 3

17:30 years later I finally finished all 3

17:30 years later I finally finished all 3 000 pages of Victor Hugo's unabridged

17:34 000 pages of Victor Hugo's unabridged

17:34 000 pages of Victor Hugo's unabridged complete Les Miserables and it was

17:37 complete Les Miserables and it was

17:37 complete Les Miserables and it was wonderful incredible what a wonderful

17:41 wonderful incredible what a wonderful

17:41 wonderful incredible what a wonderful story so much better in book form you

17:42 story so much better in book form you

17:42 story so much better in book form you really see that the depths of Jean

17:44 really see that the depths of Jean

17:44 really see that the depths of Jean Valjean convict his nasty Soul when he

17:49 Valjean convict his nasty Soul when he

17:49 Valjean convict his nasty Soul when he was all angry and bitter and hardened

17:52 was all angry and bitter and hardened

17:52 was all angry and bitter and hardened against this unjust unfair world and his

17:54 against this unjust unfair world and his

17:54 against this unjust unfair world and his transformation and then you go on to

17:56 transformation and then you go on to

17:56 transformation and then you go on to these other characters you get to know

17:58 these other characters you get to know

17:58 these other characters you get to know the other characters who are just barely

18:00 the other characters who are just barely

18:00 the other characters who are just barely in the movie uh so much better and it

18:03 in the movie uh so much better and it

18:03 in the movie uh so much better and it was just a fantastic wonderful read and

18:05 was just a fantastic wonderful read and

18:05 was just a fantastic wonderful read and it's weird because it's one of those

18:06 it's weird because it's one of those

18:06 it's weird because it's one of those books that's so hard to read people have

18:07 books that's so hard to read people have

18:07 books that's so hard to read people have such such a hard time getting through

18:08 such such a hard time getting through

18:09 such such a hard time getting through it's not just me it's famous for this

18:10 it's not just me it's famous for this

18:10 it's not just me it's famous for this but then if you do make it all the way

18:12 but then if you do make it all the way

18:12 but then if you do make it all the way at the end you're like oh my gosh I

18:13 at the end you're like oh my gosh I

18:13 at the end you're like oh my gosh I really want to read that again I don't

18:14 really want to read that again I don't

18:15 really want to read that again I don't recommend the book though especially if

18:16 recommend the book though especially if

18:16 recommend the book though especially if you're not used to reading a big long

18:18 you're not used to reading a big long

18:18 you're not used to reading a big long horrible like have you never read David

18:20 horrible like have you never read David

18:20 horrible like have you never read David Copperfield and or anything like that a

18:22 Copperfield and or anything like that a

18:22 Copperfield and or anything like that a really long novel this is not the novel

18:24 really long novel this is not the novel

18:24 really long novel this is not the novel for you it's very difficult uh it's uh

18:27 for you it's very difficult uh it's uh

18:27 for you it's very difficult uh it's uh it's difficult to get through just

18:28 it's difficult to get through just

18:28 it's difficult to get through just because of the way the writer was and I

18:30 because of the way the writer was and I

18:30 because of the way the writer was and I think he had only written Hunchback of

18:32 think he had only written Hunchback of

18:32 think he had only written Hunchback of Notre Dame before that and then he was

18:33 Notre Dame before that and then he was

18:33 Notre Dame before that and then he was emotionally known as a poet and stuff

18:36 emotionally known as a poet and stuff

18:36 emotionally known as a poet and stuff like that I don't know I don't know too

18:37 like that I don't know I don't know too

18:37 like that I don't know I don't know too much about Victor Hugo but I think

18:39 much about Victor Hugo but I think

18:39 much about Victor Hugo but I think that's the case and so they're different

18:42 that's the case and so they're different

18:42 that's the case and so they're different they're kind of classic works of

18:44 they're kind of classic works of

18:44 they're kind of classic works of literature tough to get through kind of

18:45 literature tough to get through kind of

18:45 literature tough to get through kind of thing and I finally did it and the story

18:48 thing and I finally did it and the story

18:48 thing and I finally did it and the story means a lot to me because Redemption

18:51 means a lot to me because Redemption

18:51 means a lot to me because Redemption means a lot to me and I feel like that's

18:54 means a lot to me and I feel like that's

18:54 means a lot to me and I feel like that's been the case in my own life David and I

18:56 been the case in my own life David and I

18:56 been the case in my own life David and I were actually talking about this to

18:57 were actually talking about this to

18:57 were actually talking about this to bring it back to the fresh baked

18:58 bring it back to the fresh baked

18:58 bring it back to the fresh baked interview look at these beautiful scenes

19:00 interview look at these beautiful scenes

19:00 interview look at these beautiful scenes as we walk isn't this nice we have to do

19:01 as we walk isn't this nice we have to do

19:01 as we walk isn't this nice we have to do some more Arboretum walks together

19:04 some more Arboretum walks together

19:04 some more Arboretum walks together wouldn't that be nice let me know if you

19:06 wouldn't that be nice let me know if you

19:06 wouldn't that be nice let me know if you want to see more Arboretum walks leave a

19:08 want to see more Arboretum walks leave a

19:08 want to see more Arboretum walks leave a comment in the Facebook group that's

19:09 comment in the Facebook group that's

19:09 comment in the Facebook group that's where we do the comments for this show

19:10 where we do the comments for this show

19:10 where we do the comments for this show and the Facebook group The sometimes mob

19:12 and the Facebook group The sometimes mob

19:12 and the Facebook group The sometimes mob I think you can get there by going to

19:13 I think you can get there by going to

19:13 I think you can get there by going to sometimesmob.com if not I'll put a link

19:15 sometimesmob.com if not I'll put a link

19:15 sometimesmob.com if not I'll put a link in the description anyway

19:18 in the description anyway

19:18 in the description anyway Redemption is very important to me

19:19 Redemption is very important to me

19:19 Redemption is very important to me because

19:21 because

19:21 because we've all fallen short at some point or

19:24 we've all fallen short at some point or

19:24 we've all fallen short at some point or another in our lives we've all done

19:25 another in our lives we've all done

19:25 another in our lives we've all done things that we're not proud of or acted

19:28 things that we're not proud of or acted

19:28 things that we're not proud of or acted in ways that we're not proud of or those

19:29 in ways that we're not proud of or those

19:29 in ways that we're not proud of or those of us who have any kind of deep soul

19:31 of us who have any kind of deep soul

19:31 of us who have any kind of deep soul searching or have any kind of crazy you

19:34 searching or have any kind of crazy you

19:34 searching or have any kind of crazy you know

19:35 know

19:35 know philosophical have taken any kind of a

19:38 philosophical have taken any kind of a

19:38 philosophical have taken any kind of a philosophical journey into ourselves

19:40 philosophical journey into ourselves

19:40 philosophical journey into ourselves we'll certainly recognize that we've had

19:42 we'll certainly recognize that we've had

19:42 we'll certainly recognize that we've had points in our life where it's like I'm

19:44 points in our life where it's like I'm

19:44 points in our life where it's like I'm not who I thought I was going to be or

19:46 not who I thought I was going to be or

19:46 not who I thought I was going to be or sometimes even worse I really don't feel

19:49 sometimes even worse I really don't feel

19:49 sometimes even worse I really don't feel like I am who I am or I'm supposed to be

19:52 like I am who I am or I'm supposed to be

19:52 like I am who I am or I'm supposed to be if that makes any sense and I don't mean

19:54 if that makes any sense and I don't mean

19:54 if that makes any sense and I don't mean it in like a

19:55 it in like a

19:55 it in like a I don't mean it in a what's the word I'm

19:58 I don't mean it in a what's the word I'm

19:58 I don't mean it in a what's the word I'm looking for like a material sense I

20:00 looking for like a material sense I

20:00 looking for like a material sense I think a lot of people deal with that a

20:02 think a lot of people deal with that a

20:02 think a lot of people deal with that a lot of people a lot more people deal

20:03 lot of people a lot more people deal

20:03 lot of people a lot more people deal with that like I'm not who I'm supposed

20:05 with that like I'm not who I'm supposed

20:05 with that like I'm not who I'm supposed to be

20:06 to be

20:06 to be something landed on me I'm worried a

20:08 something landed on me I'm worried a

20:08 something landed on me I'm worried a bird pooped on me did a bird poop on me

20:11 bird pooped on me did a bird poop on me

20:11 bird pooped on me did a bird poop on me um

20:12 um

20:12 um everybody feels like that you know I

20:13 everybody feels like that you know I

20:13 everybody feels like that you know I feel like I don't own a house I'm 40

20:15 feel like I don't own a house I'm 40

20:15 feel like I don't own a house I'm 40 years old I don't own my house I rent my

20:17 years old I don't own my house I rent my

20:17 years old I don't own my house I rent my house I'm unlikely to ever own a house

20:19 house I'm unlikely to ever own a house

20:19 house I'm unlikely to ever own a house in Southern California with the way

20:20 in Southern California with the way

20:20 in Southern California with the way things are I don't make a lot of money

20:22 things are I don't make a lot of money

20:22 things are I don't make a lot of money uh you know that kind of stuff so I

20:24 uh you know that kind of stuff so I

20:24 uh you know that kind of stuff so I totally get that I think everyone's on

20:25 totally get that I think everyone's on

20:25 totally get that I think everyone's on that same page but

20:27 that same page but

20:27 that same page but for some of us we've been like that with

20:30 for some of us we've been like that with

20:30 for some of us we've been like that with our internal selves like we have these

20:33 our internal selves like we have these

20:33 our internal selves like we have these moments in your life I'm sure some of

20:34 moments in your life I'm sure some of

20:34 moments in your life I'm sure some of you out there have also had these

20:35 you out there have also had these

20:36 you out there have also had these moments where you're like I am just not

20:37 moments where you're like I am just not

20:37 moments where you're like I am just not who I feel like I am if that makes any

20:39 who I feel like I am if that makes any

20:39 who I feel like I am if that makes any kind of sense like I've wandered so far

20:42 kind of sense like I've wandered so far

20:42 kind of sense like I've wandered so far from the person that it was as a kid or

20:45 from the person that it was as a kid or

20:45 from the person that it was as a kid or when I was 15 or when I was the most

20:47 when I was 15 or when I was the most

20:47 when I was 15 or when I was the most optimistic and lighthearted and and

20:50 optimistic and lighthearted and and

20:50 optimistic and lighthearted and and giving and thoughtful and I just become

20:52 giving and thoughtful and I just become

20:52 giving and thoughtful and I just become maybe not on the outside because you

20:54 maybe not on the outside because you

20:54 maybe not on the outside because you know I still have the same friends from

20:55 know I still have the same friends from

20:55 know I still have the same friends from that time period and stuff like that's

20:57 that time period and stuff like that's

20:57 that time period and stuff like that's not like everybody hated me it's not

20:58 not like everybody hated me it's not

20:58 not like everybody hated me it's not like it was a horrible evil murdering

21:00 like it was a horrible evil murdering

21:00 like it was a horrible evil murdering Thief but

21:01 Thief but

21:01 Thief but I just become so cynical so jaded so

21:04 I just become so cynical so jaded so

21:04 I just become so cynical so jaded so snarky you know I was married to a

21:06 snarky you know I was married to a

21:06 snarky you know I was married to a person that well it didn't work out so

21:08 person that well it didn't work out so

21:08 person that well it didn't work out so it wasn't meant to be I guess uh who

21:10 it wasn't meant to be I guess uh who

21:10 it wasn't meant to be I guess uh who wasn't a giant fan of me and that led to

21:13 wasn't a giant fan of me and that led to

21:13 wasn't a giant fan of me and that led to a lot of conflict and stuff and just

21:15 a lot of conflict and stuff and just

21:15 a lot of conflict and stuff and just there was a lot of me doing what going

21:17 there was a lot of me doing what going

21:17 there was a lot of me doing what going with the flow you go with the flow with

21:19 with the flow you go with the flow with

21:19 with the flow you go with the flow with your friends with your punk rock scene

21:21 your friends with your punk rock scene

21:21 your friends with your punk rock scene in my case with the kind of attitudes

21:24 in my case with the kind of attitudes

21:24 in my case with the kind of attitudes that everybody's got around you and you

21:25 that everybody's got around you and you

21:25 that everybody's got around you and you you could kind of end up losing yourself

21:27 you could kind of end up losing yourself

21:27 you could kind of end up losing yourself in the midst of you know

21:29 in the midst of you know

21:29 in the midst of you know life you sort of end up I'm having a

21:33 life you sort of end up I'm having a

21:33 life you sort of end up I'm having a hard time articulating this but I sort

21:36 hard time articulating this but I sort

21:36 hard time articulating this but I sort of ended up becoming more snarky cynical

21:38 of ended up becoming more snarky cynical

21:38 of ended up becoming more snarky cynical jaded being the person everybody

21:39 jaded being the person everybody

21:39 jaded being the person everybody expected me to be in that time and place

21:42 expected me to be in that time and place

21:42 expected me to be in that time and place and

21:43 and

21:43 and it was after really my son started

21:45 it was after really my son started

21:45 it was after really my son started getting older and growing up I was like

21:47 getting older and growing up I was like

21:47 getting older and growing up I was like I don't want him to be snarky and

21:48 I don't want him to be snarky and

21:48 I don't want him to be snarky and cynical and Jaden I was never like that

21:49 cynical and Jaden I was never like that

21:49 cynical and Jaden I was never like that with him you know being sensitive and

21:51 with him you know being sensitive and

21:51 with him you know being sensitive and teaching him to be in touch with his

21:52 teaching him to be in touch with his

21:52 teaching him to be in touch with his feelings and and to be you know and all

21:55 feelings and and to be you know and all

21:55 feelings and and to be you know and all that stuff and he was crying one time

21:57 that stuff and he was crying one time

21:57 that stuff and he was crying one time because I think uh you know a sports

21:59 because I think uh you know a sports

21:59 because I think uh you know a sports thing or something and somebody told

22:00 thing or something and somebody told

22:00 thing or something and somebody told like be a man don't cry and I was

22:02 like be a man don't cry and I was

22:02 like be a man don't cry and I was telling him like no that's not what that

22:04 telling him like no that's not what that

22:04 telling him like no that's not what that means you know be a man you you want to

22:07 means you know be a man you you want to

22:07 means you know be a man you you want to be a man you got to be in touch with

22:08 be a man you got to be in touch with

22:08 be a man you got to be in touch with your feelings and all anyway this whole

22:10 your feelings and all anyway this whole

22:10 your feelings and all anyway this whole thing

22:11 thing

22:11 thing and it really made me look at myself

22:12 and it really made me look at myself

22:12 and it really made me look at myself like why did I become so cynical and

22:14 like why did I become so cynical and

22:14 like why did I become so cynical and snarky and sarcastic and negative and I

22:17 snarky and sarcastic and negative and I

22:17 snarky and sarcastic and negative and I was talking to David about it it's like

22:20 was talking to David about it it's like

22:20 was talking to David about it it's like people sometimes try to troll Me by

22:21 people sometimes try to troll Me by

22:21 people sometimes try to troll Me by using the Quest for positivity against

22:23 using the Quest for positivity against

22:23 using the Quest for positivity against me uh I'd be like Oh Mr positive over

22:26 me uh I'd be like Oh Mr positive over

22:26 me uh I'd be like Oh Mr positive over here said this this or he got negative

22:28 here said this this or he got negative

22:28 here said this this or he got negative or he wasn't acting very positive that

22:29 or he wasn't acting very positive that

22:29 or he wasn't acting very positive that day or whatever but no that's not what

22:31 day or whatever but no that's not what

22:31 day or whatever but no that's not what the Quest for positivity even is the

22:33 the Quest for positivity even is the

22:33 the Quest for positivity even is the whole thing like we were talking about

22:34 whole thing like we were talking about

22:34 whole thing like we were talking about is I feel like I'm a negative

22:37 is I feel like I'm a negative

22:37 is I feel like I'm a negative pessimistic person by Nature I don't

22:40 pessimistic person by Nature I don't

22:40 pessimistic person by Nature I don't usually take it out on other people

22:41 usually take it out on other people

22:41 usually take it out on other people usually I take it out on myself that's

22:43 usually I take it out on myself that's

22:43 usually I take it out on myself that's where I I'm a self uh hater kind of a

22:46 where I I'm a self uh hater kind of a

22:46 where I I'm a self uh hater kind of a person and I really have struggled with

22:48 person and I really have struggled with

22:48 person and I really have struggled with depression and anxiety disorders and

22:50 depression and anxiety disorders and

22:50 depression and anxiety disorders and stuff like that my entire life

22:52 stuff like that my entire life

22:52 stuff like that my entire life and I think that self-hating

22:55 and I think that self-hating

22:55 and I think that self-hating made it a lot easier to be who other

22:58 made it a lot easier to be who other

22:58 made it a lot easier to be who other people wanted you to be because all of a

23:00 people wanted you to be because all of a

23:00 people wanted you to be because all of a sudden if you're the sarcastic snarky

23:02 sudden if you're the sarcastic snarky

23:02 sudden if you're the sarcastic snarky guys the guitar effing and Jeff and on

23:04 guys the guitar effing and Jeff and on

23:04 guys the guitar effing and Jeff and on stage let's drink then everybody's like

23:07 stage let's drink then everybody's like

23:07 stage let's drink then everybody's like you're oh you're cool man like oh great

23:09 you're oh you're cool man like oh great

23:09 you're oh you're cool man like oh great I praise from praise from others this is

23:12 I praise from praise from others this is

23:12 I praise from praise from others this is who I'm supposed to be and then you

23:13 who I'm supposed to be and then you

23:13 who I'm supposed to be and then you start becoming the person slowly slowly

23:16 start becoming the person slowly slowly

23:16 start becoming the person slowly slowly slowly that other people want you to be

23:17 slowly that other people want you to be

23:17 slowly that other people want you to be or expect you to be or think it would be

23:19 or expect you to be or think it would be

23:19 or expect you to be or think it would be cool for you to be instead of your true

23:22 cool for you to be instead of your true

23:22 cool for you to be instead of your true authentic self and I think it took a

23:23 authentic self and I think it took a

23:23 authentic self and I think it took a long time for me to really get back to

23:26 long time for me to really get back to

23:26 long time for me to really get back to finding myself in the Quest for

23:27 finding myself in the Quest for

23:27 finding myself in the Quest for positivity they're taking some photos

23:29 positivity they're taking some photos

23:29 positivity they're taking some photos over here let's take another path oh

23:30 over here let's take another path oh

23:30 over here let's take another path oh we're also almost out of battery so if

23:31 we're also almost out of battery so if

23:31 we're also almost out of battery so if this suddenly dies goodbye I love you

23:32 this suddenly dies goodbye I love you

23:33 this suddenly dies goodbye I love you thanks for watching

23:34 thanks for watching

23:34 thanks for watching um it took a long time and

23:37 um it took a long time and

23:37 um it took a long time and I I very I I feel like I'm totally

23:40 I I very I I feel like I'm totally

23:40 I I very I I feel like I'm totally different than the person that I was 10

23:42 different than the person that I was 10

23:42 different than the person that I was 10 years ago or 11 or 12 years ago

23:45 years ago or 11 or 12 years ago

23:45 years ago or 11 or 12 years ago um but I'm more like the person that I

23:47 um but I'm more like the person that I

23:47 um but I'm more like the person that I was when I was five or ten years old

23:48 was when I was five or ten years old

23:48 was when I was five or ten years old than that person was if that makes any

23:51 than that person was if that makes any

23:51 than that person was if that makes any sense so anyway the tldr is the story of

23:54 sense so anyway the tldr is the story of

23:54 sense so anyway the tldr is the story of Jean Valjean and stories like that of

23:55 Jean Valjean and stories like that of

23:55 Jean Valjean and stories like that of forgiveness and Redemption those are

23:58 forgiveness and Redemption those are

23:58 forgiveness and Redemption those are very very important we have a lot of

24:01 very very important we have a lot of

24:01 very very important we have a lot of stories about outrage and what's been

24:02 stories about outrage and what's been

24:02 stories about outrage and what's been done wrong and and getting getting

24:05 done wrong and and getting getting

24:05 done wrong and and getting getting revenge or Justice or changing things

24:07 revenge or Justice or changing things

24:07 revenge or Justice or changing things and those are all good things too it's a

24:09 and those are all good things too it's a

24:09 and those are all good things too it's a part of a balance of life to have

24:10 part of a balance of life to have

24:10 part of a balance of life to have certainly like Injustice is corrected

24:13 certainly like Injustice is corrected

24:13 certainly like Injustice is corrected and you know protests and and uh and

24:17 and you know protests and and uh and

24:17 and you know protests and and uh and things negativity against things that

24:19 things negativity against things that

24:19 things negativity against things that are negative I get all that I totally

24:20 are negative I get all that I totally

24:20 are negative I get all that I totally there's a place in this world for

24:21 there's a place in this world for

24:21 there's a place in this world for criticism there's a place in this world

24:23 criticism there's a place in this world

24:23 criticism there's a place in this world for harsh words and there's a time and a

24:25 for harsh words and there's a time and a

24:25 for harsh words and there's a time and a season for everything including

24:27 season for everything including

24:27 season for everything including negativity and being frustrated and even

24:29 negativity and being frustrated and even

24:29 negativity and being frustrated and even being angry and all that kind of stuff

24:31 being angry and all that kind of stuff

24:31 being angry and all that kind of stuff but I think one thing you don't hear

24:33 but I think one thing you don't hear

24:33 but I think one thing you don't hear much about these days in today's modern

24:36 much about these days in today's modern

24:36 much about these days in today's modern times is forgiveness what about the path

24:38 times is forgiveness what about the path

24:38 times is forgiveness what about the path to forgiveness and I think that's so

24:41 to forgiveness and I think that's so

24:41 to forgiveness and I think that's so important not just for forgiving others

24:44 important not just for forgiving others

24:44 important not just for forgiving others other people are going to do their thing

24:45 other people are going to do their thing

24:45 other people are going to do their thing with or without my forgiveness although

24:47 with or without my forgiveness although

24:47 with or without my forgiveness although but it's important for yourself not only

24:49 but it's important for yourself not only

24:49 but it's important for yourself not only for yourself to forgive others which is

24:51 for yourself to forgive others which is

24:51 for yourself to forgive others which is a path to Healing ask any therapist this

24:52 a path to Healing ask any therapist this

24:52 a path to Healing ask any therapist this question

24:54 question

24:54 question but forgiving yourself

24:56 but forgiving yourself

24:56 but forgiving yourself and when you don't hear stories about

24:59 and when you don't hear stories about

24:59 and when you don't hear stories about forgiveness or stories about Redemption

25:02 forgiveness or stories about Redemption

25:02 forgiveness or stories about Redemption really is really what I'm going for

25:03 really is really what I'm going for

25:03 really is really what I'm going for changing yourself and being different

25:06 changing yourself and being different

25:06 changing yourself and being different and following your conscience uh to get

25:09 and following your conscience uh to get

25:09 and following your conscience uh to get yourself out of the weeds of whatever

25:12 yourself out of the weeds of whatever

25:12 yourself out of the weeds of whatever your social life has turned you into

25:15 your social life has turned you into

25:15 your social life has turned you into if you don't have these kind of stories

25:18 if you don't have these kind of stories

25:18 if you don't have these kind of stories then how are people especially young

25:21 then how are people especially young

25:21 then how are people especially young people now I worry and I worried about

25:23 people now I worry and I worried about

25:23 people now I worry and I worried about this for myself I I I how do you I'm

25:26 this for myself I I I how do you I'm

25:26 this for myself I I I how do you I'm dancing around this without being able

25:27 dancing around this without being able

25:27 dancing around this without being able to put my finger on it but

25:29 to put my finger on it but

25:29 to put my finger on it but how are you going to know that it's okay

25:31 how are you going to know that it's okay

25:31 how are you going to know that it's okay to forgive yourself

25:34 to forgive yourself

25:34 to forgive yourself or to give yourself enough forgiveness

25:36 or to give yourself enough forgiveness

25:36 or to give yourself enough forgiveness and enough mercy and enough turn the

25:38 and enough mercy and enough turn the

25:38 and enough mercy and enough turn the other cheekness to yourself

25:40 other cheekness to yourself

25:40 other cheekness to yourself to try to move towards that Redemption

25:43 to try to move towards that Redemption

25:43 to try to move towards that Redemption and how are you ever going to feel

25:45 and how are you ever going to feel

25:45 and how are you ever going to feel satisfied with that redemption or feel

25:46 satisfied with that redemption or feel

25:46 satisfied with that redemption or feel like you're making progress if you can't

25:47 like you're making progress if you can't

25:47 like you're making progress if you can't forgive yourself or you can't you know

25:50 forgive yourself or you can't you know

25:50 forgive yourself or you can't you know go you know what's more important is my

25:51 go you know what's more important is my

25:51 go you know what's more important is my conscience than what other people think

25:53 conscience than what other people think

25:53 conscience than what other people think it's more important than people hating

25:54 it's more important than people hating

25:54 it's more important than people hating me like they hated Jean Valjean they'd

25:56 me like they hated Jean Valjean they'd

25:56 me like they hated Jean Valjean they'd spit on him no matter how many Good

25:57 spit on him no matter how many Good

25:57 spit on him no matter how many Good Deeds he did no matter how good of a

25:59 Deeds he did no matter how good of a

25:59 Deeds he did no matter how good of a person he was they hated him and scoring

26:01 person he was they hated him and scoring

26:01 person he was they hated him and scoring him and he couldn't worry about that he

26:02 him and he couldn't worry about that he

26:02 him and he couldn't worry about that he had to lay down his head at night and go

26:04 had to lay down his head at night and go

26:04 had to lay down his head at night and go I'm going to just follow my conscience

26:07 I'm going to just follow my conscience

26:07 I'm going to just follow my conscience here live by my conscience be the best

26:09 here live by my conscience be the best

26:09 here live by my conscience be the best person I can but it wasn't until the

26:11 person I can but it wasn't until the

26:11 person I can but it wasn't until the very very end of the novel that he

26:14 very very end of the novel that he

26:14 very very end of the novel that he finally forgave himself a spoiler alert

26:17 finally forgave himself a spoiler alert

26:17 finally forgave himself a spoiler alert for you it's not in the movie so it

26:18 for you it's not in the movie so it

26:18 for you it's not in the movie so it won't ruin the movie for you but spoiler

26:20 won't ruin the movie for you but spoiler

26:20 won't ruin the movie for you but spoiler alert you know he forgives himself

26:22 alert you know he forgives himself

26:22 alert you know he forgives himself because he has some other people's

26:23 because he has some other people's

26:23 because he has some other people's forgiveness that are close to him

26:26 forgiveness that are close to him

26:26 forgiveness that are close to him and uh I'm trying not to spoil the novel

26:29 and uh I'm trying not to spoil the novel

26:29 and uh I'm trying not to spoil the novel but but he forgives himself before he

26:32 but but he forgives himself before he

26:32 but but he forgives himself before he expires and by the time he passes away

26:34 expires and by the time he passes away

26:34 expires and by the time he passes away he's finally at peace and stories like

26:37 he's finally at peace and stories like

26:37 he's finally at peace and stories like that are so important so cool so anyway

26:38 that are so important so cool so anyway

26:38 that are so important so cool so anyway I'm I'm happy because I finished 25

26:40 I'm I'm happy because I finished 25

26:40 I'm I'm happy because I finished 25 years of wanting to read this novel

26:43 years of wanting to read this novel

26:43 years of wanting to read this novel and uh feels pretty awesome

26:46 and uh feels pretty awesome

26:46 and uh feels pretty awesome um but I also just think like stories

26:47 um but I also just think like stories

26:47 um but I also just think like stories like that are so important and it's

26:49 like that are so important and it's

26:49 like that are so important and it's unfortunate that this novel is so hard

26:51 unfortunate that this novel is so hard

26:51 unfortunate that this novel is so hard to get into that I can't just recommend

26:53 to get into that I can't just recommend

26:53 to get into that I can't just recommend it to everyone to read There are

26:54 it to everyone to read There are

26:54 it to everyone to read There are Abridged versions so if you find the

26:56 Abridged versions so if you find the

26:56 Abridged versions so if you find the shortest most Abridged version that

26:59 shortest most Abridged version that

26:59 shortest most Abridged version that might be good but the movie I do highly

27:01 might be good but the movie I do highly

27:01 might be good but the movie I do highly recommend that movie what a great movie

27:02 recommend that movie what a great movie

27:02 recommend that movie what a great movie Liam Neeson a Powerhouse in that movie

27:05 Liam Neeson a Powerhouse in that movie

27:05 Liam Neeson a Powerhouse in that movie what a great performance it's very very

27:07 what a great performance it's very very

27:07 what a great performance it's very very oversimplified version of Victor Hugo's

27:09 oversimplified version of Victor Hugo's

27:09 oversimplified version of Victor Hugo's story but I highly recommend Les

27:13 story but I highly recommend Les

27:13 story but I highly recommend Les Miserables and I also recommend to you

27:15 Miserables and I also recommend to you

27:15 Miserables and I also recommend to you that if you don't like yourself you feel

27:16 that if you don't like yourself you feel

27:16 that if you don't like yourself you feel miserable you feel negative you're like

27:17 miserable you feel negative you're like

27:17 miserable you feel negative you're like a negative person it's not the end of

27:19 a negative person it's not the end of

27:19 a negative person it's not the end of the world I'm a very negative person too

27:21 the world I'm a very negative person too

27:21 the world I'm a very negative person too I I get I get frustrated and I get angry

27:24 I I get I get frustrated and I get angry

27:24 I I get I get frustrated and I get angry I get angry at myself a lot uh I get

27:27 I get angry at myself a lot uh I get

27:27 I get angry at myself a lot uh I get anxiety I get all frustrated and I get

27:29 anxiety I get all frustrated and I get

27:29 anxiety I get all frustrated and I get despair full and I get depressed about

27:31 despair full and I get depressed about

27:31 despair full and I get depressed about not being who I want to be or being

27:33 not being who I want to be or being

27:33 not being who I want to be or being where I want to be at or or you know not

27:36 where I want to be at or or you know not

27:36 where I want to be at or or you know not being able to do more for the people

27:37 being able to do more for the people

27:37 being able to do more for the people around me all that kind of stuff

27:39 around me all that kind of stuff

27:39 around me all that kind of stuff it happens to me too and that is why I'm

27:43 it happens to me too and that is why I'm

27:43 it happens to me too and that is why I'm always on the Quest for positivity not

27:44 always on the Quest for positivity not

27:44 always on the Quest for positivity not that I am super positive not that I am

27:46 that I am super positive not that I am

27:46 that I am super positive not that I am perfect not that I am a great wonderful

27:48 perfect not that I am a great wonderful

27:48 perfect not that I am a great wonderful positive person it's that I would like

27:50 positive person it's that I would like

27:50 positive person it's that I would like to be and the only way to get anything

27:52 to be and the only way to get anything

27:52 to be and the only way to get anything in this world and to get anything done

27:54 in this world and to get anything done

27:54 in this world and to get anything done just like me with the 10-year video is

27:56 just like me with the 10-year video is

27:56 just like me with the 10-year video is to go and start to do it so I've got to

27:59 to go and start to do it so I've got to

27:59 to go and start to do it so I've got to go and start working on those clips in a

28:01 go and start working on those clips in a

28:01 go and start working on those clips in a minute but as far as working on yourself

28:02 minute but as far as working on yourself

28:02 minute but as far as working on yourself it's the same thing can't be afraid to

28:04 it's the same thing can't be afraid to

28:04 it's the same thing can't be afraid to maybe go to therapy you can't be afraid

28:06 maybe go to therapy you can't be afraid

28:06 maybe go to therapy you can't be afraid to talk to new people can't be afraid to

28:07 to talk to new people can't be afraid to

28:07 to talk to new people can't be afraid to make new friends can't be afraid to say

28:09 make new friends can't be afraid to say

28:09 make new friends can't be afraid to say you know what I don't want to be this

28:10 you know what I don't want to be this

28:10 you know what I don't want to be this anymore I want to turn around and be

28:12 anymore I want to turn around and be

28:12 anymore I want to turn around and be this I can't be afraid to examine

28:14 this I can't be afraid to examine

28:14 this I can't be afraid to examine yourself and look at yourself for the

28:16 yourself and look at yourself for the

28:16 yourself and look at yourself for the flaws I think it's a healthy thing to

28:18 flaws I think it's a healthy thing to

28:18 flaws I think it's a healthy thing to look at yourself and go okay what about

28:20 look at yourself and go okay what about

28:20 look at yourself and go okay what about this is my fault and how can I change it

28:22 this is my fault and how can I change it

28:22 this is my fault and how can I change it it's not healthy to stay there that's

28:24 it's not healthy to stay there that's

28:24 it's not healthy to stay there that's where I stayed for like 10 years this is

28:25 where I stayed for like 10 years this is

28:25 where I stayed for like 10 years this is all my I mean listen to my old song

28:26 all my I mean listen to my old song

28:26 all my I mean listen to my old song lyrics I'm very hard on myself and it

28:29 lyrics I'm very hard on myself and it

28:29 lyrics I'm very hard on myself and it took a lot of uh time before I even

28:32 took a lot of uh time before I even

28:32 took a lot of uh time before I even started to be able to kind of give

28:35 started to be able to kind of give

28:35 started to be able to kind of give myself enough forgiveness even for my

28:37 myself enough forgiveness even for my

28:37 myself enough forgiveness even for my own moods I don't know how to explain

28:39 own moods I don't know how to explain

28:39 own moods I don't know how to explain mean before I felt like I was really

28:42 mean before I felt like I was really

28:42 mean before I felt like I was really making progress in being a more positive

28:44 making progress in being a more positive

28:44 making progress in being a more positive person and being able to be

28:46 person and being able to be

28:46 person and being able to be more healed so that I could give more to

28:49 more healed so that I could give more to

28:49 more healed so that I could give more to other people around me and be less you

28:52 other people around me and be less you

28:52 other people around me and be less you know less selfish and less of a turd wow

28:55 know less selfish and less of a turd wow

28:55 know less selfish and less of a turd wow you don't want to be a term wow you want

28:58 you don't want to be a term wow you want

28:58 you don't want to be a term wow you want to be a nerd not a turd wow

29:02 to be a nerd not a turd wow

29:02 to be a nerd not a turd wow anyway I do have to get back to work I

29:05 anyway I do have to get back to work I

29:05 anyway I do have to get back to work I do have to get back to the Old Farm the

29:07 do have to get back to the Old Farm the

29:07 do have to get back to the Old Farm the old editing farm and start uh start

29:10 old editing farm and start uh start

29:10 old editing farm and start uh start working on stuff but just remember no

29:12 working on stuff but just remember no

29:12 working on stuff but just remember no matter how cloudy and horrible the day

29:14 matter how cloudy and horrible the day

29:14 matter how cloudy and horrible the day is there's always tomorrow and if you

29:17 is there's always tomorrow and if you

29:17 is there's always tomorrow and if you look hard enough and train yourself in a

29:19 look hard enough and train yourself in a

29:19 look hard enough and train yourself in a way try to think positive be grateful

29:22 way try to think positive be grateful

29:22 way try to think positive be grateful count your blessings think about the

29:24 count your blessings think about the

29:24 count your blessings think about the future give yourself a little

29:25 future give yourself a little

29:25 future give yourself a little forgiveness give yourself a little grace

29:27 forgiveness give yourself a little grace

29:27 forgiveness give yourself a little grace and mercy you too

29:31 and mercy you too

29:31 and mercy you too will start to notice the flowers under

29:33 will start to notice the flowers under

29:33 will start to notice the flowers under the gray skies more than the rain all

29:37 the gray skies more than the rain all

29:37 the gray skies more than the rain all right that's all I've got for you you've

29:38 right that's all I've got for you you've

29:38 right that's all I've got for you you've done your duty my friends go home sleep

29:41 done your duty my friends go home sleep

29:41 done your duty my friends go home sleep well thanks for hanging out with me

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30:13 heading back now I guess to work

30:13 heading back now I guess to work on the stuff

30:16 on the stuff

30:16 on the stuff so you have fun out there sorry I look

30:17 so you have fun out there sorry I look

30:17 so you have fun out there sorry I look like this I can't help it that's the way

30:20 like this I can't help it that's the way

30:20 like this I can't help it that's the way I was born

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