20 minutes on the rocks doing nothing.
It's a busy day, and going to be a busy week, but pull up a rock and have a seat, and let's do nothing together for 20 minutes
Transcript
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Just sit right back and you'll hear a
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Just sit right back and you'll hear a tale. A tale of a fateful trip that
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tale. A tale of a fateful trip that
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tale. A tale of a fateful trip that started from this tropic port aboard
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started from this tropic port aboard
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started from this tropic port aboard that tiny ship. It's the sometimes vlog.
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that tiny ship. It's the sometimes vlog.
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that tiny ship. It's the sometimes vlog. It's a vlog that happens sometimes. I
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It's a vlog that happens sometimes. I
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It's a vlog that happens sometimes. I hope you didn't think it was a real
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hope you didn't think it was a real
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hope you didn't think it was a real episode of Gilligans Island. Even though
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episode of Gilligans Island. Even though
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episode of Gilligans Island. Even though I do get myself into some weird
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I do get myself into some weird
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I do get myself into some weird shenanigans. It's just me, Justin Scard.
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shenanigans. It's just me, Justin Scard.
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shenanigans. It's just me, Justin Scard. That's what they call me cuz I guess
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That's what they call me cuz I guess
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That's what they call me cuz I guess that's what I'm called. right here in
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that's what I'm called. right here in
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that's what I'm called. right here in Long Beach, California. I am sitting
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Long Beach, California. I am sitting
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Long Beach, California. I am sitting over here on this big pile of rocks,
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over here on this big pile of rocks,
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over here on this big pile of rocks, which is uh bespeckled with trash and
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which is uh bespeckled with trash and
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which is uh bespeckled with trash and all kinds of interesting artifacts of
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all kinds of interesting artifacts of
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all kinds of interesting artifacts of humanity. Right on the edge of the big
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humanity. Right on the edge of the big
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humanity. Right on the edge of the big city, Los Angeles that way, the port of
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city, Los Angeles that way, the port of
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city, Los Angeles that way, the port of Los Angeles over here, just yonder that
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Los Angeles over here, just yonder that
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Los Angeles over here, just yonder that way. And behind me, the city of Long
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way. And behind me, the city of Long
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way. And behind me, the city of Long Beach perched right on the edge of the
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Beach perched right on the edge of the
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Beach perched right on the edge of the water. I actually used to live in Long
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water. I actually used to live in Long
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water. I actually used to live in Long Beach for a while. I was thinking of
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Beach for a while. I was thinking of
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Beach for a while. I was thinking of that quote from Return of the Jedi, you
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that quote from Return of the Jedi, you
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that quote from Return of the Jedi, you know, where Luke Skywalker's like,
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know, where Luke Skywalker's like,
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know, where Luke Skywalker's like, "There's not much to see. I used to live
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"There's not much to see. I used to live
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"There's not much to see. I used to live here, you know." And Han Solo turns and
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here, you know." And Han Solo turns and
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here, you know." And Han Solo turns and says, "You're going to die here." You
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says, "You're going to die here." You
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says, "You're going to die here." You know, I always think about that. Anytime
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know, I always think about that. Anytime
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know, I always think about that. Anytime I go somewhere where I used to live,
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I go somewhere where I used to live,
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I go somewhere where I used to live, that quote pops in my head. I don't even
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that quote pops in my head. I don't even
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that quote pops in my head. I don't even know why. Anyway, I've been sitting
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know why. Anyway, I've been sitting
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know why. Anyway, I've been sitting right here on the edge of the ocean just
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right here on the edge of the ocean just
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right here on the edge of the ocean just looking out at that. The Queen Mary over
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looking out at that. The Queen Mary over
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looking out at that. The Queen Mary over there, the RMS Queen Mary. I did a
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there, the RMS Queen Mary. I did a
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there, the RMS Queen Mary. I did a Random Land episode about that, a whole
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Random Land episode about that, a whole
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Random Land episode about that, a whole video wandering around that ship
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video wandering around that ship
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video wandering around that ship actually for two days talking about the
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actually for two days talking about the
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actually for two days talking about the history of the Queen Mary and its ties
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history of the Queen Mary and its ties
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history of the Queen Mary and its ties to Disney. that was actually owned at
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to Disney. that was actually owned at
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to Disney. that was actually owned at one point by the same people that owned
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one point by the same people that owned
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one point by the same people that owned Disneyland Hotel and then later by
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Disneyland Hotel and then later by
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Disneyland Hotel and then later by Disney. Disney, you know, the people
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Disney. Disney, you know, the people
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Disney. Disney, you know, the people with Disneyland, they had control of
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with Disneyland, they had control of
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with Disneyland, they had control of that their vessel and used to do stuff
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that their vessel and used to do stuff
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that their vessel and used to do stuff on it. So, if you want to find out more
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on it. So, if you want to find out more
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on it. So, if you want to find out more about that,
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about that,
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about that, youtube.com/livefast94. Anyway, I'm just
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youtube.com/livefast94. Anyway, I'm just
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youtube.com/livefast94. Anyway, I'm just sitting here watching the boats go in
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sitting here watching the boats go in
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sitting here watching the boats go in and out of the harbor. There's some dark
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and out of the harbor. There's some dark
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and out of the harbor. There's some dark stuff on the horizon there. Over here,
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stuff on the horizon there. Over here,
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stuff on the horizon there. Over here, we got a whole bunch of seagulls and
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we got a whole bunch of seagulls and
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we got a whole bunch of seagulls and pelicans. Kind of reenacting the scenes
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pelicans. Kind of reenacting the scenes
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pelicans. Kind of reenacting the scenes from Finding Nemo. is this pelican right
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from Finding Nemo. is this pelican right
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from Finding Nemo. is this pelican right here. Uh he has been diving and trying
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here. Uh he has been diving and trying
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here. Uh he has been diving and trying to get fish over and over and over again
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to get fish over and over and over again
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to get fish over and over and over again with apparently no luck. Like sometimes
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with apparently no luck. Like sometimes
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with apparently no luck. Like sometimes he'll get up and fly around in a circle
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he'll get up and fly around in a circle
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he'll get up and fly around in a circle and then he'll just dive bomb. Sometimes
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and then he'll just dive bomb. Sometimes
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and then he'll just dive bomb. Sometimes he'll just do that little thing, just
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he'll just do that little thing, just
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he'll just do that little thing, just beat the water. I don't know why he's
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beat the water. I don't know why he's
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beat the water. I don't know why he's beating the water like that. But uh he
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beating the water like that. But uh he
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beating the water like that. But uh he was getting pretty frustrated. I kept
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was getting pretty frustrated. I kept
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was getting pretty frustrated. I kept coming up and just sitting over here and
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coming up and just sitting over here and
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coming up and just sitting over here and I was like, "Man, I know those feels,
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I was like, "Man, I know those feels,
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I was like, "Man, I know those feels, buddy. I know those
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buddy. I know those
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buddy. I know those feels." Yesterday Halloween, not such a
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feels." Yesterday Halloween, not such a
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feels." Yesterday Halloween, not such a great day for me. Not the best day in
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great day for me. Not the best day in
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great day for me. Not the best day in the world. Not the best Halloween. I
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the world. Not the best Halloween. I
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the world. Not the best Halloween. I have been lately just really frustrated.
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have been lately just really frustrated.
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have been lately just really frustrated. There's a lot of things going on in my
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There's a lot of things going on in my
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There's a lot of things going on in my life that I don't really care to discuss
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life that I don't really care to discuss
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life that I don't really care to discuss just because they're too negative. I'm
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just because they're too negative. I'm
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just because they're too negative. I'm still working them out. Uh but uh I will
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still working them out. Uh but uh I will
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still working them out. Uh but uh I will say this, one of the things that's
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say this, one of the things that's
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say this, one of the things that's really frustrating me lately is I just
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really frustrating me lately is I just
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really frustrating me lately is I just am lacking the ability to communicate
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am lacking the ability to communicate
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am lacking the ability to communicate the way I want to with the people I want
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the way I want to with the people I want
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the way I want to with the people I want to. Like do you ever have an argument
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to. Like do you ever have an argument
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to. Like do you ever have an argument with somebody or disagreement with
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with somebody or disagreement with
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with somebody or disagreement with somebody and you feel like if they could
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somebody and you feel like if they could
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somebody and you feel like if they could just understand what you actually meant
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just understand what you actually meant
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just understand what you actually meant and what you actually felt, there would
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and what you actually felt, there would
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and what you actually felt, there would be no problem. But you just can't say it
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be no problem. But you just can't say it
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be no problem. But you just can't say it the right way. You end up fighting with
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the right way. You end up fighting with
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the right way. You end up fighting with people. You end up having conflicts with
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people. You end up having conflicts with
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people. You end up having conflicts with people. You end up just getting angry at
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people. You end up just getting angry at
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people. You end up just getting angry at each other or frustrated. And it's just
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each other or frustrated. And it's just
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each other or frustrated. And it's just because you feel like, oh man, two
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because you feel like, oh man, two
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because you feel like, oh man, two people who are on the same side and they
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people who are on the same side and they
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people who are on the same side and they just can't be on the same side. You know
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just can't be on the same side. You know
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just can't be on the same side. You know what I mean? It's frustrating. So
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what I mean? It's frustrating. So
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what I mean? It's frustrating. So lately, that's kind of been a thing. I
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lately, that's kind of been a thing. I
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lately, that's kind of been a thing. I feel like I've been putting my foot in
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feel like I've been putting my foot in
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feel like I've been putting my foot in my mouth a lot and just getting
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my mouth a lot and just getting
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my mouth a lot and just getting frustrated, having that head cold, being
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frustrated, having that head cold, being
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frustrated, having that head cold, being tired and having all the crowds at
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tired and having all the crowds at
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tired and having all the crowds at Disneyland and throughout my day-to-day
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Disneyland and throughout my day-to-day
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Disneyland and throughout my day-to-day life just having a lot of little tiny
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life just having a lot of little tiny
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life just having a lot of little tiny frustration things. the aggregate has
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frustration things. the aggregate has
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frustration things. the aggregate has has just in the aggregate of all these
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has just in the aggregate of all these
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has just in the aggregate of all these little frustrated things has made me
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little frustrated things has made me
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little frustrated things has made me really like you know being sore and
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really like you know being sore and
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really like you know being sore and tired from the last trip to Disney World
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tired from the last trip to Disney World
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tired from the last trip to Disney World and all that and then coming down with
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and all that and then coming down with
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and all that and then coming down with the cold this week and then kind of not
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the cold this week and then kind of not
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the cold this week and then kind of not having the greatest Halloween was really
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having the greatest Halloween was really
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having the greatest Halloween was really tough. But today I promised myself last
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tough. But today I promised myself last
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tough. But today I promised myself last night I had kind of just the worst night
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night I had kind of just the worst night
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night I had kind of just the worst night and I was laying in bed uh at 4:00 or 5
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and I was laying in bed uh at 4:00 or 5
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and I was laying in bed uh at 4:00 or 5 in the morning this morning and thinking
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in the morning this morning and thinking
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in the morning this morning and thinking to myself,
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to myself,
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to myself, "Okay, look it, I hated today. I mean, I
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"Okay, look it, I hated today. I mean, I
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"Okay, look it, I hated today. I mean, I really hated it. It just wasn't good. It
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really hated it. It just wasn't good. It
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really hated it. It just wasn't good. It wasn't that it was bad. I had fun with
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wasn't that it was bad. I had fun with
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wasn't that it was bad. I had fun with my friends uh when I did get to see my
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my friends uh when I did get to see my
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my friends uh when I did get to see my friends. And of course, I had fun at
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friends. And of course, I had fun at
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friends. And of course, I had fun at Disneyland yesterday. We did a sometimes
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Disneyland yesterday. We did a sometimes
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Disneyland yesterday. We did a sometimes vlog yesterday. Just looking at all the
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vlog yesterday. Just looking at all the
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vlog yesterday. Just looking at all the crazy people in costumes and stuff like
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crazy people in costumes and stuff like
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crazy people in costumes and stuff like that. It was nice running into those
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that. It was nice running into those
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that. It was nice running into those people there that I saw at Disneyland
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people there that I saw at Disneyland
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people there that I saw at Disneyland and everything. So, no, no complaints
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and everything. So, no, no complaints
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and everything. So, no, no complaints about my friends or my circumstances
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about my friends or my circumstances
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about my friends or my circumstances really. It was just one of those days,
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really. It was just one of those days,
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really. It was just one of those days, one of those lonely, weird days. Now,
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one of those lonely, weird days. Now,
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one of those lonely, weird days. Now, maybe you guys don't know a lot about
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maybe you guys don't know a lot about
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maybe you guys don't know a lot about me, although I think some of you have
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me, although I think some of you have
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me, although I think some of you have been around for a while and should, but
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been around for a while and should, but
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been around for a while and should, but I got uh crazy, divorced about a year
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I got uh crazy, divorced about a year
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I got uh crazy, divorced about a year and a half ago. Uh that kind of stuff
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and a half ago. Uh that kind of stuff
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and a half ago. Uh that kind of stuff though is not something that just goes
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though is not something that just goes
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though is not something that just goes away overnight. It was really bad
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away overnight. It was really bad
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away overnight. It was really bad circumstances for me. I had to lose the
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circumstances for me. I had to lose the
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circumstances for me. I had to lose the house, the car, the child, the whole
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house, the car, the child, the whole
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house, the car, the child, the whole thing, and just completely start over my
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thing, and just completely start over my
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thing, and just completely start over my life at, you know, after 30 years old,
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life at, you know, after 30 years old,
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life at, you know, after 30 years old, starting your life from zero, basically.
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starting your life from zero, basically.
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starting your life from zero, basically. So, it was a pretty tough, crazy year.
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So, it was a pretty tough, crazy year.
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So, it was a pretty tough, crazy year. And for the most part, to be honest with
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And for the most part, to be honest with
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And for the most part, to be honest with you, this is part of today is that I
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you, this is part of today is that I
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you, this is part of today is that I woke up today and and thought I am not
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woke up today and and thought I am not
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woke up today and and thought I am not going to have yesterday today. I'm going
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going to have yesterday today. I'm going
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going to have yesterday today. I'm going to have a completely different day.
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to have a completely different day.
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to have a completely different day. Every single day is brand new. Every day
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Every single day is brand new. Every day
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Every single day is brand new. Every day is at least a new chance to start over.
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is at least a new chance to start over.
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is at least a new chance to start over. You don't you you can't always start
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You don't you you can't always start
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You don't you you can't always start over every day. Sometimes things linger
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over every day. Sometimes things linger
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over every day. Sometimes things linger and you frustrations linger, anger
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and you frustrations linger, anger
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and you frustrations linger, anger lingers, uh depression lingers, you
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lingers, uh depression lingers, you
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lingers, uh depression lingers, you know, frustrating circumstances linger.
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know, frustrating circumstances linger.
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know, frustrating circumstances linger. But at least every day is a new chance
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But at least every day is a new chance
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But at least every day is a new chance to try to start over or like at least
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to try to start over or like at least
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to try to start over or like at least reset your brain, refresh your memory.
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reset your brain, refresh your memory.
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reset your brain, refresh your memory. Look at all these people are coming out
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Look at all these people are coming out
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Look at all these people are coming out and looking at the water in the boats.
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and looking at the water in the boats.
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and looking at the water in the boats. Anyway, so I came out here today. I was
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Anyway, so I came out here today. I was
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Anyway, so I came out here today. I was running some errands and getting ready
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running some errands and getting ready
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running some errands and getting ready for some stuff, which I'll talk about in
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for some stuff, which I'll talk about in
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for some stuff, which I'll talk about in a minute. And uh I just I've been
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a minute. And uh I just I've been
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a minute. And uh I just I've been sitting here thinking, you know what,
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sitting here thinking, you know what,
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sitting here thinking, you know what, going to start all over again. I woke up
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going to start all over again. I woke up
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going to start all over again. I woke up this morning just choosing to be
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this morning just choosing to be
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this morning just choosing to be positive. So now I'm out here at the
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positive. So now I'm out here at the
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positive. So now I'm out here at the harbor just sort of looking over all
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harbor just sort of looking over all
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harbor just sort of looking over all this stuff. If I went came to run some
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this stuff. If I went came to run some
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this stuff. If I went came to run some errands and pick up something from
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errands and pick up something from
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errands and pick up something from Shoreline Village and then I'm an
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Shoreline Village and then I'm an
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Shoreline Village and then I'm an aquarium member. There's the Aquarium of
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aquarium member. There's the Aquarium of
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aquarium member. There's the Aquarium of the Pacific up over here. So, I've been
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the Pacific up over here. So, I've been
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the Pacific up over here. So, I've been Snapchatting, Instagramming that all
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Snapchatting, Instagramming that all
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Snapchatting, Instagramming that all day. Both accounts are Live Fast Live
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day. Both accounts are Live Fast Live
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day. Both accounts are Live Fast Live Poor, by the way. And uh just trying to
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Poor, by the way. And uh just trying to
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Poor, by the way. And uh just trying to chill out here and just trying to find a
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chill out here and just trying to find a
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chill out here and just trying to find a new center, be positive, reflect, think
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new center, be positive, reflect, think
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new center, be positive, reflect, think about the things I'm grateful for. And
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about the things I'm grateful for. And
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about the things I'm grateful for. And uh I'm big time grateful that my
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uh I'm big time grateful that my
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uh I'm big time grateful that my circumstances change have changed over
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circumstances change have changed over
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circumstances change have changed over the past year since all that stuff
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the past year since all that stuff
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the past year since all that stuff happened, since all that stuff went
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happened, since all that stuff went
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happened, since all that stuff went down. My circumstances have almost
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down. My circumstances have almost
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down. My circumstances have almost completely and totally and utterly
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completely and totally and utterly
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completely and totally and utterly changed. The sound you're hearing, by
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changed. The sound you're hearing, by
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changed. The sound you're hearing, by the way, because people always ask,
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the way, because people always ask,
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the way, because people always ask, "What's that noise in the background?"
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"What's that noise in the background?"
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"What's that noise in the background?" Just families and people walking their
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Just families and people walking their
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Just families and people walking their dogs and walking their children and
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dogs and walking their children and
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dogs and walking their children and walking maybe their pet sharks and birds
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walking maybe their pet sharks and birds
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walking maybe their pet sharks and birds up along the shore there by this
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up along the shore there by this
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up along the shore there by this beautiful lighthouse. We're sitting down
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beautiful lighthouse. We're sitting down
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beautiful lighthouse. We're sitting down here in the rocks being creepy and weird
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here in the rocks being creepy and weird
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here in the rocks being creepy and weird and talking to ourselves. They don't
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and talking to ourselves. They don't
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and talking to ourselves. They don't know you're in there. They think I'm
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know you're in there. They think I'm
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know you're in there. They think I'm mad. Am I mad? Anyway, uh so I've been
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mad. Am I mad? Anyway, uh so I've been
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mad. Am I mad? Anyway, uh so I've been doing that. I've been sitting here
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doing that. I've been sitting here
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doing that. I've been sitting here thinking about the things I'm grateful
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thinking about the things I'm grateful
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thinking about the things I'm grateful for. And I'm very grateful for the way
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for. And I'm very grateful for the way
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for. And I'm very grateful for the way that things have stacked up for the most
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that things have stacked up for the most
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that things have stacked up for the most part. I'm still really lonely a lot of
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part. I'm still really lonely a lot of
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part. I'm still really lonely a lot of times. I'm still going home to no one at
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times. I'm still going home to no one at
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times. I'm still going home to no one at the moment, but a lot of really cool
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the moment, but a lot of really cool
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the moment, but a lot of really cool stuff has happened. And tomorrow, uh, I
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stuff has happened. And tomorrow, uh, I
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stuff has happened. And tomorrow, uh, I get to fly out of Los Angeles, which is
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get to fly out of Los Angeles, which is
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get to fly out of Los Angeles, which is why I'm here looking out at the West
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why I'm here looking out at the West
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why I'm here looking out at the West Coast. That's the Pacific Ocean out
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Coast. That's the Pacific Ocean out
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Coast. That's the Pacific Ocean out there, everybody. I'm out here looking
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there, everybody. I'm out here looking
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there, everybody. I'm out here looking at the Pacific Ocean and the West Coast
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at the Pacific Ocean and the West Coast
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at the Pacific Ocean and the West Coast because, uh, less than 24 hours from
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because, uh, less than 24 hours from
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because, uh, less than 24 hours from now, I will be standing or well, flying
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now, I will be standing or well, flying
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now, I will be standing or well, flying to the East Coast. I will be in Orlando,
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to the East Coast. I will be in Orlando,
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to the East Coast. I will be in Orlando, Florida tomorrow because I get to take
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Florida tomorrow because I get to take
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Florida tomorrow because I get to take my offspring. That's right. Some people
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my offspring. That's right. Some people
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my offspring. That's right. Some people are like, "Yeah, I can." Yes, I do. Yes,
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are like, "Yeah, I can." Yes, I do. Yes,
6:56
are like, "Yeah, I can." Yes, I do. Yes, I do. Used to be married and had a child
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I do. Used to be married and had a child
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I do. Used to be married and had a child very young. So, I have a little boy and
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very young. So, I have a little boy and
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very young. So, I have a little boy and he is going with me to Florida. I was
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he is going with me to Florida. I was
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he is going with me to Florida. I was lucky enough I've said this in the vlog
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lucky enough I've said this in the vlog
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lucky enough I've said this in the vlog before, but some people miss it. Uh, I
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before, but some people miss it. Uh, I
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before, but some people miss it. Uh, I was lucky enough to have a little bit of
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was lucky enough to have a little bit of
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was lucky enough to have a little bit of extra money and to put aside a little
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extra money and to put aside a little
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extra money and to put aside a little bit of extra money to do something cool.
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bit of extra money to do something cool.
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bit of extra money to do something cool. And uh it worked out where I just
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And uh it worked out where I just
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And uh it worked out where I just thought for once in my life I might be
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thought for once in my life I might be
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thought for once in my life I might be able to afford to pull this off to take
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able to afford to pull this off to take
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able to afford to pull this off to take him out to Orlando, Florida. And in the
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him out to Orlando, Florida. And in the
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him out to Orlando, Florida. And in the past year and a half or so since I
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past year and a half or so since I
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past year and a half or so since I haven't lived uh with him, haven't I
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haven't lived uh with him, haven't I
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haven't lived uh with him, haven't I don't get to live with him and I've been
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don't get to live with him and I've been
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don't get to live with him and I've been totally rebuilding my whole life and
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totally rebuilding my whole life and
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totally rebuilding my whole life and doing all this stuff and starting over
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doing all this stuff and starting over
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doing all this stuff and starting over and all this crazy stuff. I don't get to
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and all this crazy stuff. I don't get to
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and all this crazy stuff. I don't get to I haven't got to do anything prolonged
7:36
I haven't got to do anything prolonged
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I haven't got to do anything prolonged or cool where we get to spend sustained
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or cool where we get to spend sustained
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or cool where we get to spend sustained time together. And before all that
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time together. And before all that
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time together. And before all that happened, I was total stay-at-home
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happened, I was total stay-at-home
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happened, I was total stay-at-home parent, which was mutually agreed upon
7:43
parent, which was mutually agreed upon
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parent, which was mutually agreed upon and everything, but I was a stay at home
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and everything, but I was a stay at home
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and everything, but I was a stay at home parent for his entire life. I worked at
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parent for his entire life. I worked at
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parent for his entire life. I worked at home and I watched uh my offspring. Oh,
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home and I watched uh my offspring. Oh,
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home and I watched uh my offspring. Oh, and here's some other people's offspring
7:52
and here's some other people's offspring
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and here's some other people's offspring running around behind us. So, those are
7:53
running around behind us. So, those are
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running around behind us. So, those are not mine, just so you know. Uh every
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not mine, just so you know. Uh every
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not mine, just so you know. Uh every single day, taught him to walk and talk
7:58
single day, taught him to walk and talk
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single day, taught him to walk and talk and listen and play video games, much to
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and listen and play video games, much to
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and listen and play video games, much to my own chagrin nowadays when that's all
8:03
my own chagrin nowadays when that's all
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my own chagrin nowadays when that's all he wants to do. But what are you going
8:04
he wants to do. But what are you going
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he wants to do. But what are you going to do? And uh then to to be separated
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to do? And uh then to to be separated
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to do? And uh then to to be separated like that and to just not have that
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like that and to just not have that
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like that and to just not have that person in your life every single day, to
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person in your life every single day, to
8:10
person in your life every single day, to not live under the same roof and all
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not live under the same roof and all
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not live under the same roof and all that is really really tough, really
8:13
that is really really tough, really
8:13
that is really really tough, really really hard. So I thought if I have a
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really hard. So I thought if I have a
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really hard. So I thought if I have a little bit of a chance and this might be
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little bit of a chance and this might be
8:18
little bit of a chance and this might be my only chance, who knows? Why not take
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my only chance, who knows? Why not take
8:20
my only chance, who knows? Why not take it? So I pulled the short round, the
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it? So I pulled the short round, the
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it? So I pulled the short round, the mini me, the offspring out of school for
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mini me, the offspring out of school for
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mini me, the offspring out of school for an entire week. And tomorrow, Monday, we
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an entire week. And tomorrow, Monday, we
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an entire week. And tomorrow, Monday, we fly to Walt Disney World and we are
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fly to Walt Disney World and we are
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fly to Walt Disney World and we are going to hang out and do stuff. And I
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going to hang out and do stuff. And I
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going to hang out and do stuff. And I get to show him Disney World. He's
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get to show him Disney World. He's
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get to show him Disney World. He's really excited to see Epcot. So, I think
8:34
really excited to see Epcot. So, I think
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really excited to see Epcot. So, I think we're spending 4 days, four parks,
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we're spending 4 days, four parks,
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we're spending 4 days, four parks, staying uh on property. Super cool.
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staying uh on property. Super cool.
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staying uh on property. Super cool. Somebody helped us stay at the Animal
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Somebody helped us stay at the Animal
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Somebody helped us stay at the Animal Kingdom Lodge, I think, is the plan. And
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Kingdom Lodge, I think, is the plan. And
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Kingdom Lodge, I think, is the plan. And it's going to be really, really cool.
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it's going to be really, really cool.
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it's going to be really, really cool. And I'm really excited and looking
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And I'm really excited and looking
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And I'm really excited and looking forward to it. Although it's not a total
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forward to it. Although it's not a total
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forward to it. Although it's not a total uh pleasure excursion in the sense that
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uh pleasure excursion in the sense that
8:52
uh pleasure excursion in the sense that it's like it's no vacation when you're
8:54
it's like it's no vacation when you're
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it's like it's no vacation when you're watching a small child and taking him
8:55
watching a small child and taking him
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watching a small child and taking him all over a huge place by yourself. It's
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all over a huge place by yourself. It's
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all over a huge place by yourself. It's going to be a little bit of work, but
8:59
going to be a little bit of work, but
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going to be a little bit of work, but it's going to be cool. So, for once, I
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it's going to be cool. So, for once, I
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it's going to be cool. So, for once, I actually get to spend time with him. And
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actually get to spend time with him. And
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actually get to spend time with him. And so as a result, there will probably not
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so as a result, there will probably not
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so as a result, there will probably not be a lot of sometimes vlogging
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be a lot of sometimes vlogging
9:08
be a lot of sometimes vlogging happening. You'll see them and you'll
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happening. You'll see them and you'll
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happening. You'll see them and you'll see a vlog from this week. I will be
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see a vlog from this week. I will be
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see a vlog from this week. I will be probably pretty active on Instagram,
9:15
probably pretty active on Instagram,
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probably pretty active on Instagram, live fast, I poor, Snapchat, live fast,
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live fast, I poor, Snapchat, live fast,
9:17
live fast, I poor, Snapchat, live fast, I poor. But for once, I really like have
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I poor. But for once, I really like have
9:19
I poor. But for once, I really like have to stack things in a different priority
9:22
to stack things in a different priority
9:22
to stack things in a different priority order. Everybody has to work. Everybody
9:24
order. Everybody has to work. Everybody
9:24
order. Everybody has to work. Everybody has to do what they need to do and do
9:26
has to do what they need to do and do
9:26
has to do what they need to do and do their duty. And my duty is running
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their duty. And my duty is running
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their duty. And my duty is running around having crazy adventures and
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around having crazy adventures and
9:29
around having crazy adventures and sharing crazy adventures and my life
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sharing crazy adventures and my life
9:31
sharing crazy adventures and my life with you guys. both through the random
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with you guys. both through the random
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with you guys. both through the random land videos and the vlogs primarily.
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land videos and the vlogs primarily.
9:35
land videos and the vlogs primarily. Social media is kind of aside from all
9:37
Social media is kind of aside from all
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Social media is kind of aside from all that. Um that's just icing on the cake,
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that. Um that's just icing on the cake,
9:40
that. Um that's just icing on the cake, you know, but the cake itself is all the
9:41
you know, but the cake itself is all the
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you know, but the cake itself is all the videos on YouTube and all that kind of
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videos on YouTube and all that kind of
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videos on YouTube and all that kind of stuff. And that's sort of my job and I
9:44
stuff. And that's sort of my job and I
9:44
stuff. And that's sort of my job and I get it. Uh but this week, just for this
9:47
get it. Uh but this week, just for this
9:47
get it. Uh but this week, just for this one week, sort of it's kind of like
9:49
one week, sort of it's kind of like
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one week, sort of it's kind of like everybody takes vacations and stuff with
9:50
everybody takes vacations and stuff with
9:50
everybody takes vacations and stuff with their family and has to spend time
9:52
their family and has to spend time
9:52
their family and has to spend time refocusing on their family and
9:53
refocusing on their family and
9:53
refocusing on their family and refocusing their priorities. So this
9:55
refocusing their priorities. So this
9:55
refocusing their priorities. So this week, I will not be around as much. I
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week, I will not be around as much. I
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week, I will not be around as much. I don't want you to freak out. Nobody
9:59
don't want you to freak out. Nobody
9:59
don't want you to freak out. Nobody freak out. Everything is fine. So,
10:02
freak out. Everything is fine. So,
10:02
freak out. Everything is fine. So, you'll see the mini me and you'll see a
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you'll see the mini me and you'll see a
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you'll see the mini me and you'll see a little bit of Disney World this week,
10:05
little bit of Disney World this week,
10:05
little bit of Disney World this week, but it's not going to be like last time
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but it's not going to be like last time
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but it's not going to be like last time or the time before where it's like,
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or the time before where it's like,
10:07
or the time before where it's like, "Yeah, I run around like crazy." The
10:09
"Yeah, I run around like crazy." The
10:09
"Yeah, I run around like crazy." The point of being here is to vlog. After I
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point of being here is to vlog. After I
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point of being here is to vlog. After I return from Walt Disney World on
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return from Walt Disney World on
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return from Walt Disney World on November, I think 7th or 8th, I'll be
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November, I think 7th or 8th, I'll be
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November, I think 7th or 8th, I'll be back. Is that a hot air balloon? That's
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back. Is that a hot air balloon? That's
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back. Is that a hot air balloon? That's a freaking hot air balloon floating up
10:18
a freaking hot air balloon floating up
10:18
a freaking hot air balloon floating up over that Carnival cruise ship out
10:20
over that Carnival cruise ship out
10:20
over that Carnival cruise ship out there. Wow. I didn't even notice that 5
10:22
there. Wow. I didn't even notice that 5
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there. Wow. I didn't even notice that 5 minutes ago. That thing is booking it.
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minutes ago. That thing is booking it.
10:24
minutes ago. That thing is booking it. Oh, no. That's not a hot air balloon. I
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Oh, no. That's not a hot air balloon. I
10:25
Oh, no. That's not a hot air balloon. I did notice it before. It's the Goodyear
10:27
did notice it before. It's the Goodyear
10:27
did notice it before. It's the Goodyear blimp. It's just pointed at us now. It
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blimp. It's just pointed at us now. It
10:29
blimp. It's just pointed at us now. It looks so colorful. Oo. Those are
10:31
looks so colorful. Oo. Those are
10:31
looks so colorful. Oo. Those are actually new Goodyear blimps. They
10:32
actually new Goodyear blimps. They
10:32
actually new Goodyear blimps. They actually got rid of the ones from the
10:34
actually got rid of the ones from the
10:34
actually got rid of the ones from the 1960s. Uh, they're all gone now. That's
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1960s. Uh, they're all gone now. That's
10:36
1960s. Uh, they're all gone now. That's one of the new Goodyear blimps. How
10:38
one of the new Goodyear blimps. How
10:38
one of the new Goodyear blimps. How about that? Blimp technology has come so
10:41
about that? Blimp technology has come so
10:41
about that? Blimp technology has come so far. Oh, derigibles. You come a long
10:45
far. Oh, derigibles. You come a long
10:45
far. Oh, derigibles. You come a long way, baby. You come a long way. Anyway,
10:48
way, baby. You come a long way. Anyway,
10:48
way, baby. You come a long way. Anyway, that's what I'm going to be out there
10:49
that's what I'm going to be out there
10:49
that's what I'm going to be out there doing. So, I got plenty of stuff to mope
10:51
doing. So, I got plenty of stuff to mope
10:51
doing. So, I got plenty of stuff to mope about and I have plenty of reasons to be
10:53
about and I have plenty of reasons to be
10:53
about and I have plenty of reasons to be angry and I have plenty of reasons to be
10:54
angry and I have plenty of reasons to be
10:54
angry and I have plenty of reasons to be frustrated and I have plenty of reasons
10:56
frustrated and I have plenty of reasons
10:56
frustrated and I have plenty of reasons to be upset. But at the end of the day,
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to be upset. But at the end of the day,
10:58
to be upset. But at the end of the day, as frustrating as uh sometimes the week
11:00
as frustrating as uh sometimes the week
11:00
as frustrating as uh sometimes the week has been and mostly I'll tell you the
11:02
has been and mostly I'll tell you the
11:02
has been and mostly I'll tell you the honest truth is it's not my
11:03
honest truth is it's not my
11:03
honest truth is it's not my circumstances and the other people that
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circumstances and the other people that
11:05
circumstances and the other people that I'm really frustrated with, I'm really
11:07
I'm really frustrated with, I'm really
11:07
I'm really frustrated with, I'm really frustrated with myself. Just like when
11:09
frustrated with myself. Just like when
11:09
frustrated with myself. Just like when somebody's treating you bad and you're
11:09
somebody's treating you bad and you're
11:10
somebody's treating you bad and you're frustrated, you're like, "What the heck
11:10
frustrated, you're like, "What the heck
11:10
frustrated, you're like, "What the heck are they treating me so bad for?" when
11:12
are they treating me so bad for?" when
11:12
are they treating me so bad for?" when you realize that how somebody treats you
11:14
you realize that how somebody treats you
11:14
you realize that how somebody treats you is usually more of a reflection of
11:17
is usually more of a reflection of
11:17
is usually more of a reflection of themselves than it is about you. Uh it's
11:21
themselves than it is about you. Uh it's
11:21
themselves than it is about you. Uh it's sort of like that with me is that I just
11:22
sort of like that with me is that I just
11:22
sort of like that with me is that I just realized like I'm kind of unhappy with
11:24
realized like I'm kind of unhappy with
11:24
realized like I'm kind of unhappy with myself in a lot of ways. Unhappy where
11:25
myself in a lot of ways. Unhappy where
11:25
myself in a lot of ways. Unhappy where I'm at in my own stage of development
11:28
I'm at in my own stage of development
11:28
I'm at in my own stage of development and uh it's it can be good to
11:31
and uh it's it can be good to
11:31
and uh it's it can be good to acknowledge when things suck like really
11:33
acknowledge when things suck like really
11:33
acknowledge when things suck like really good to just go you know what this sucks
11:34
good to just go you know what this sucks
11:34
good to just go you know what this sucks the circumstance sucks today. I'm going
11:35
the circumstance sucks today. I'm going
11:36
the circumstance sucks today. I'm going to start over. But at the same time, you
11:37
to start over. But at the same time, you
11:37
to start over. But at the same time, you don't want to let it fester. You know,
11:38
don't want to let it fester. You know,
11:38
don't want to let it fester. You know, you don't want to be fester and
11:39
you don't want to be fester and
11:39
you don't want to be fester and wallowing in your own misery and
11:41
wallowing in your own misery and
11:41
wallowing in your own misery and sadness, especially when cool things are
11:43
sadness, especially when cool things are
11:43
sadness, especially when cool things are coming up. So, I think I sort of started
11:45
coming up. So, I think I sort of started
11:45
coming up. So, I think I sort of started to let a bunch of little stresses and a
11:47
to let a bunch of little stresses and a
11:47
to let a bunch of little stresses and a bunch of little anxieties, a bunch of
11:48
bunch of little anxieties, a bunch of
11:48
bunch of little anxieties, a bunch of little things sort of stack up and kind
11:50
little things sort of stack up and kind
11:50
little things sort of stack up and kind of get to me. And I'm pretty and I'm
11:52
of get to me. And I'm pretty and I'm
11:52
of get to me. And I'm pretty and I'm pretty frustrated about a lot of things
11:53
pretty frustrated about a lot of things
11:53
pretty frustrated about a lot of things like when is uh too much too much, you
11:57
like when is uh too much too much, you
11:57
like when is uh too much too much, you know, or when is not enough too much?
11:59
know, or when is not enough too much?
11:59
know, or when is not enough too much? And then somebody answered me on Twitter
12:00
And then somebody answered me on Twitter
12:00
And then somebody answered me on Twitter when I tweeted that and said, "When your
12:03
when I tweeted that and said, "When your
12:03
when I tweeted that and said, "When your needs start to outweigh your wants, that
12:07
needs start to outweigh your wants, that
12:07
needs start to outweigh your wants, that is basically what I've been sitting
12:08
is basically what I've been sitting
12:08
is basically what I've been sitting here." Look at that blimp. Oh, it's
12:10
here." Look at that blimp. Oh, it's
12:10
here." Look at that blimp. Oh, it's Metife on the blimp, not Goodyear. I
12:12
Metife on the blimp, not Goodyear. I
12:12
Metife on the blimp, not Goodyear. I think it's still a Goodyear blimp, but
12:14
think it's still a Goodyear blimp, but
12:14
think it's still a Goodyear blimp, but maybe I'm wrong. It's a Metife blimp. A
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maybe I'm wrong. It's a Metife blimp. A
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maybe I'm wrong. It's a Metife blimp. A Metife blimp advertising Peanuts now on
12:19
Metife blimp advertising Peanuts now on
12:19
Metife blimp advertising Peanuts now on the side or Peanuts movie or there's
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the side or Peanuts movie or there's
12:22
the side or Peanuts movie or there's some kind of Peanuts thing happening. I
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some kind of Peanuts thing happening. I
12:24
some kind of Peanuts thing happening. I can't read it cuz we're underneath it
12:26
can't read it cuz we're underneath it
12:26
can't read it cuz we're underneath it instead of a stride of it. Look at that.
12:30
instead of a stride of it. Look at that.
12:30
instead of a stride of it. Look at that. A blimp fly over just for the sometimes
12:32
A blimp fly over just for the sometimes
12:32
A blimp fly over just for the sometimes blog. Look at the kind of power I have
12:34
blog. Look at the kind of power I have
12:34
blog. Look at the kind of power I have now, guys. Look at the kind of power I
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now, guys. Look at the kind of power I
12:37
now, guys. Look at the kind of power I have now. I'm so distracted by the
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have now. I'm so distracted by the
12:39
have now. I'm so distracted by the blimp. I can't think of what I was
12:40
blimp. I can't think of what I was
12:40
blimp. I can't think of what I was saying, but Oh, it's a Yeah, it's for
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saying, but Oh, it's a Yeah, it's for
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saying, but Oh, it's a Yeah, it's for the Peanuts movie. And Metife is getting
12:43
the Peanuts movie. And Metife is getting
12:43
the Peanuts movie. And Metife is getting a little chunk of that change, too. How
12:45
a little chunk of that change, too. How
12:45
a little chunk of that change, too. How about that? I don't know if you guys can
12:46
about that? I don't know if you guys can
12:46
about that? I don't know if you guys can see that blimp up there. It's making me
12:48
see that blimp up there. It's making me
12:48
see that blimp up there. It's making me dizzy looking up like that. Anyway,
12:50
dizzy looking up like that. Anyway,
12:50
dizzy looking up like that. Anyway, frustrated, letting anxiety get to me,
12:53
frustrated, letting anxiety get to me,
12:53
frustrated, letting anxiety get to me, letting a lot of little things get to
12:54
letting a lot of little things get to
12:54
letting a lot of little things get to me. And I just realized that, well, this
12:56
me. And I just realized that, well, this
12:56
me. And I just realized that, well, this is not the character that I want to play
12:58
is not the character that I want to play
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is not the character that I want to play in my own story. This is not how I want
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in my own story. This is not how I want
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in my own story. This is not how I want my own story to go down. So, I've been
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my own story to go down. So, I've been
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my own story to go down. So, I've been thinking about that a lot. Someone just
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thinking about that a lot. Someone just
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thinking about that a lot. Someone just tweeted me the most random thing back,
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tweeted me the most random thing back,
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tweeted me the most random thing back, which was, you know, when is not enough
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which was, you know, when is not enough
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which was, you know, when is not enough too much? And the answer that I got from
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too much? And the answer that I got from
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too much? And the answer that I got from the Twitter sphere was
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the Twitter sphere was
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the Twitter sphere was uh when your needs begin to outweigh
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uh when your needs begin to outweigh
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uh when your needs begin to outweigh your wants. When your need starts to
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your wants. When your need starts to
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your wants. When your need starts to outweigh your desire, things start to
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outweigh your desire, things start to
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outweigh your desire, things start to change, don't they? You know what you
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change, don't they? You know what you
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change, don't they? You know what you want. You want it bad, but when it's not
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want. You want it bad, but when it's not
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want. You want it bad, but when it's not matching up with your needs, adjustments
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matching up with your needs, adjustments
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matching up with your needs, adjustments might have to be made. That's as
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might have to be made. That's as
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might have to be made. That's as specific as I can be. just thinking
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specific as I can be. just thinking
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specific as I can be. just thinking about the future, thinking about uh
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about the future, thinking about uh
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about the future, thinking about uh where I'm at and where I'm going. And uh
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where I'm at and where I'm going. And uh
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where I'm at and where I'm going. And uh so anyway, so November 7th or 8th when I
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so anyway, so November 7th or 8th when I
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so anyway, so November 7th or 8th when I get back, I have lots of plans. I have
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get back, I have lots of plans. I have
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get back, I have lots of plans. I have lots of things I want to film and I have
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lots of things I want to film and I have
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lots of things I want to film and I have no specific agenda or set order of trips
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no specific agenda or set order of trips
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no specific agenda or set order of trips or things that I'm going to do. But I
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or things that I'm going to do. But I
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or things that I'm going to do. But I know I'll hopefully be over this cold. I
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know I'll hopefully be over this cold. I
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know I'll hopefully be over this cold. I will have completed the trip with the
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will have completed the trip with the
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will have completed the trip with the offspring. Cold weather will be starting
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offspring. Cold weather will be starting
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offspring. Cold weather will be starting to set in, but there's all kinds of
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to set in, but there's all kinds of
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to set in, but there's all kinds of adventures that I wanted to have in the
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adventures that I wanted to have in the
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adventures that I wanted to have in the California desert. Uh, and in way
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California desert. Uh, and in way
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California desert. Uh, and in way northern California, like way northern
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northern California, like way northern
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northern California, like way northern actual northern California, not the
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actual northern California, not the
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actual northern California, not the center of California that we call
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center of California that we call
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center of California that we call NorCal, way up in Northern California,
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NorCal, way up in Northern California,
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NorCal, way up in Northern California, Arizona, and a lot of stuff on the east
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Arizona, and a lot of stuff on the east
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Arizona, and a lot of stuff on the east coast. So, who knows? I have no idea
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coast. So, who knows? I have no idea
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coast. So, who knows? I have no idea where I'll be flying to, driving to,
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where I'll be flying to, driving to,
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where I'll be flying to, driving to, walking to. I have absolutely no idea.
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walking to. I have absolutely no idea.
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walking to. I have absolutely no idea. All I know is the future is whatever you
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All I know is the future is whatever you
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All I know is the future is whatever you make it. And I am hoping to make it a
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make it. And I am hoping to make it a
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make it. And I am hoping to make it a good one. So, as frustrated as I am with
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good one. So, as frustrated as I am with
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good one. So, as frustrated as I am with the past, as much as I hated yesterday,
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the past, as much as I hated yesterday,
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the past, as much as I hated yesterday, I really want to love today. And I
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I really want to love today. And I
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I really want to love today. And I really want to look forward to tomorrow.
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really want to look forward to tomorrow.
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really want to look forward to tomorrow. So, I'm doing the thing where I'm
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So, I'm doing the thing where I'm
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So, I'm doing the thing where I'm literally just sitting here trying to
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literally just sitting here trying to
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literally just sitting here trying to adjust my own attitude because I'm kind
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adjust my own attitude because I'm kind
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adjust my own attitude because I'm kind of upset with myself for just focusing
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of upset with myself for just focusing
14:43
of upset with myself for just focusing on what hurts me, focusing on what makes
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on what hurts me, focusing on what makes
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on what hurts me, focusing on what makes me upset. That is no way to win a horse
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me upset. That is no way to win a horse
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me upset. That is no way to win a horse race. Okay? If you want to be the best
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race. Okay? If you want to be the best
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race. Okay? If you want to be the best jockey there is and race your horse
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jockey there is and race your horse
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jockey there is and race your horse through town with a without a head and a
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through town with a without a head and a
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through town with a without a head and a pumpkin in your hand on fire, then you
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pumpkin in your hand on fire, then you
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pumpkin in your hand on fire, then you need to just be a headless horseman. And
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need to just be a headless horseman. And
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need to just be a headless horseman. And you need to let your heart be your own
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you need to let your heart be your own
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you need to let your heart be your own mannequin. You know what I'm saying?
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mannequin. You know what I'm saying?
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mannequin. You know what I'm saying? Exactly. So, I'm here adjusting my own
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Exactly. So, I'm here adjusting my own
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Exactly. So, I'm here adjusting my own attitude, looking out at this. In a few
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attitude, looking out at this. In a few
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attitude, looking out at this. In a few minutes, I got to go home. I got to
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minutes, I got to go home. I got to
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minutes, I got to go home. I got to start packing up, making preparations to
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start packing up, making preparations to
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start packing up, making preparations to fly out of LAX tomorrow and do crazy
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fly out of LAX tomorrow and do crazy
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fly out of LAX tomorrow and do crazy wonderful things, get back to Orlando,
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wonderful things, get back to Orlando,
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wonderful things, get back to Orlando, see Walt Disney World, and spend a
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see Walt Disney World, and spend a
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see Walt Disney World, and spend a little more time there. And of course,
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little more time there. And of course,
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little more time there. And of course, spending time at Walt Disney World
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spending time at Walt Disney World
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spending time at Walt Disney World uh is it has it has the added bonus of
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uh is it has it has the added bonus of
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uh is it has it has the added bonus of being uh able to force myself not to
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being uh able to force myself not to
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being uh able to force myself not to film or do anything cuz I'm taking the
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film or do anything cuz I'm taking the
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film or do anything cuz I'm taking the child there, which means another good
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child there, which means another good
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child there, which means another good chance to like actually soak it in, do a
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chance to like actually soak it in, do a
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chance to like actually soak it in, do a little research, and prepare for other
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little research, and prepare for other
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little research, and prepare for other future videos that I wanted to pull off
15:38
future videos that I wanted to pull off
15:38
future videos that I wanted to pull off last time and couldn't because I failed
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last time and couldn't because I failed
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last time and couldn't because I failed a lot because I way overburdened myself.
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a lot because I way overburdened myself.
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a lot because I way overburdened myself. I'm way too crazy. Um there are a lot
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I'm way too crazy. Um there are a lot
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I'm way too crazy. Um there are a lot more random land videos in the pipe.
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more random land videos in the pipe.
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more random land videos in the pipe. It's just we're really trying to work on
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It's just we're really trying to work on
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It's just we're really trying to work on a mind train through nature's wonderland
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a mind train through nature's wonderland
15:48
a mind train through nature's wonderland random land video that has a little bit
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random land video that has a little bit
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random land video that has a little bit of special sauce on it. So has been
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of special sauce on it. So has been
15:52
of special sauce on it. So has been working on that and it's something we
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working on that and it's something we
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working on that and it's something we never done before. So we're learning.
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never done before. So we're learning.
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never done before. So we're learning. We're learning. We're learning. So it's
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We're learning. We're learning. So it's
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We're learning. We're learning. So it's coming. It's coming. It's coming. And
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coming. It's coming. It's coming. And
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coming. It's coming. It's coming. And then behind it are a bunch of clogged up
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then behind it are a bunch of clogged up
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then behind it are a bunch of clogged up Walt Disney World videos. So we have a
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Walt Disney World videos. So we have a
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Walt Disney World videos. So we have a lot of stuff coming out. Really excited
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lot of stuff coming out. Really excited
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lot of stuff coming out. Really excited about it. And I have a lot of plans for
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about it. And I have a lot of plans for
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about it. And I have a lot of plans for future stuff. Still looking for office
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future stuff. Still looking for office
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future stuff. Still looking for office space. I think we might have found some
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space. I think we might have found some
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space. I think we might have found some in old Santa Ana or maybe the Orange
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in old Santa Ana or maybe the Orange
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in old Santa Ana or maybe the Orange Circle. We're looking in that area. And
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Circle. We're looking in that area. And
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Circle. We're looking in that area. And I have a whole bunch of other plans. I
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I have a whole bunch of other plans. I
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I have a whole bunch of other plans. I was with Tyler last night talking about
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was with Tyler last night talking about
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was with Tyler last night talking about um some future collaboration type
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um some future collaboration type
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um some future collaboration type things. So if you guys are fancy
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things. So if you guys are fancy
16:20
things. So if you guys are fancy yourselves a bit of a good writer,
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yourselves a bit of a good writer,
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yourselves a bit of a good writer, you're a good comedy writer or a good
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you're a good comedy writer or a good
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you're a good comedy writer or a good editor or a good filmer or a good
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editor or a good filmer or a good
16:26
editor or a good filmer or a good graphic person or you do like computery
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graphic person or you do like computery
16:30
graphic person or you do like computery graphicy fun creative stuff. We have a
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graphicy fun creative stuff. We have a
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graphicy fun creative stuff. We have a project that we're working
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project that we're working
16:34
project that we're working on in the concept stage that we want to
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on in the concept stage that we want to
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on in the concept stage that we want to open up for like a lot more
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open up for like a lot more
16:39
open up for like a lot more collaboration because at random you
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collaboration because at random you
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collaboration because at random you can't really collaborate. I go out there
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can't really collaborate. I go out there
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can't really collaborate. I go out there and part of it is that I'm out there
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and part of it is that I'm out there
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and part of it is that I'm out there with you guys and every once in a while
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with you guys and every once in a while
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with you guys and every once in a while there's sometimes uh somebody else with
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there's sometimes uh somebody else with
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there's sometimes uh somebody else with me, but for the most part it's me out
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me, but for the most part it's me out
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me, but for the most part it's me out there talking about things in my own
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there talking about things in my own
16:51
there talking about things in my own words through my own eyes, but we have
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words through my own eyes, but we have
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words through my own eyes, but we have this other one. So, we couldn't really
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this other one. So, we couldn't really
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this other one. So, we couldn't really script it that much. We can't really
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script it that much. We can't really
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script it that much. We can't really like there's only so much you can do
16:57
like there's only so much you can do
16:57
like there's only so much you can do with it before it's like not really a
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with it before it's like not really a
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with it before it's like not really a random land and it becomes something
16:59
random land and it becomes something
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random land and it becomes something different. So, we have something
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different. So, we have something
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different. So, we have something different we want to work on because
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different we want to work on because
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different we want to work on because we'll be able to collaborate more and do
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we'll be able to collaborate more and do
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we'll be able to collaborate more and do some other cool stuff. So, I'm working
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some other cool stuff. So, I'm working
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some other cool stuff. So, I'm working on that. I'm working on other things uh
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on that. I'm working on other things uh
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on that. I'm working on other things uh for especially for Patreon. Especially
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for especially for Patreon. Especially
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for especially for Patreon. Especially for Patreon. Don't get me wrong, having
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for Patreon. Don't get me wrong, having
17:14
for Patreon. Don't get me wrong, having the resources to be able to go out and
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the resources to be able to go out and
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the resources to be able to go out and film wonderful things is very exciting.
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film wonderful things is very exciting.
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film wonderful things is very exciting. And so I'm I am I'm biting my time
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And so I'm I am I'm biting my time
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And so I'm I am I'm biting my time sitting there waiting for you just like
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sitting there waiting for you just like
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sitting there waiting for you just like a spider letting it letting the letting
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a spider letting it letting the letting
17:25
a spider letting it letting the letting the funds replenish for some adventure.
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the funds replenish for some adventure.
17:28
the funds replenish for some adventure. So I have all kinds of sneaky plans.
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So I have all kinds of sneaky plans.
17:31
So I have all kinds of sneaky plans. You'll see. Man, is that the carnival
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You'll see. Man, is that the carnival
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You'll see. Man, is that the carnival cruise ship making it sound?
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cruise ship making it sound?
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cruise ship making it sound? Why does it sound so creepy like a
17:37
Why does it sound so creepy like a
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Why does it sound so creepy like a zombie apocalypse prison camp of
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zombie apocalypse prison camp of
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zombie apocalypse prison camp of death? Why doesn't it sound like hey to
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death? Why doesn't it sound like hey to
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death? Why doesn't it sound like hey to why does it sound like a Popeye
17:45
why does it sound like a Popeye
17:45
why does it sound like a Popeye to you know? Come on, let's go on a fun
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to you know? Come on, let's go on a fun
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to you know? Come on, let's go on a fun cruise. Instead, it's
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cruise. Instead, it's
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cruise. Instead, it's like the carnival ship of death. No, no,
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like the carnival ship of death. No, no,
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like the carnival ship of death. No, no, no. I don't think I want to go on the
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no. I don't think I want to go on the
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no. I don't think I want to go on the Carnival ship of death. Anyway, I'm
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Carnival ship of death. Anyway, I'm
17:59
Carnival ship of death. Anyway, I'm going to sit here for a couple more
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going to sit here for a couple more
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going to sit here for a couple more minutes and then I'm going to go home
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minutes and then I'm going to go home
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minutes and then I'm going to go home and pack. Well, so thank you guys for
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and pack. Well, so thank you guys for
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and pack. Well, so thank you guys for hanging out with me for 20 minutes or so
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hanging out with me for 20 minutes or so
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hanging out with me for 20 minutes or so here on the edge of the known world
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here on the edge of the known world
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here on the edge of the known world looking out over the Pacific Ocean and
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looking out over the Pacific Ocean and
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looking out over the Pacific Ocean and the kind of smoggy dark clouds out there
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the kind of smoggy dark clouds out there
18:14
the kind of smoggy dark clouds out there collecting on the horizon. Hopefully
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collecting on the horizon. Hopefully
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collecting on the horizon. Hopefully hopefully just a little smog and it just
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hopefully just a little smog and it just
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hopefully just a little smog and it just blows away with the breeze. The wind
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blows away with the breeze. The wind
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blows away with the breeze. The wind will change and blow away the smog. And
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will change and blow away the smog. And
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will change and blow away the smog. And that's not just a weather forecast. That
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that's not just a weather forecast. That
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that's not just a weather forecast. That is a metaphor. See, I did it. Metaphors.
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is a metaphor. See, I did it. Metaphors.
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is a metaphor. See, I did it. Metaphors. Nailed it. Uh things get smoggy, stuff
18:32
Nailed it. Uh things get smoggy, stuff
18:32
Nailed it. Uh things get smoggy, stuff builds up in your life. You can't help
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builds up in your life. You can't help
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builds up in your life. You can't help it. It builds up. But if you're just
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it. It builds up. But if you're just
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it. It builds up. But if you're just patient enough and just try to hang in
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patient enough and just try to hang in
18:39
patient enough and just try to hang in there long enough, the wind usually does
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there long enough, the wind usually does
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there long enough, the wind usually does change and blow that smog away and sunny
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change and blow that smog away and sunny
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change and blow that smog away and sunny days will come back again. All right,
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days will come back again. All right,
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days will come back again. All right, I'm going to stay here and watch this
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I'm going to stay here and watch this
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I'm going to stay here and watch this pelican try and get a fish. I believe in
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pelican try and get a fish. I believe in
18:51
pelican try and get a fish. I believe in you, buddy. We can both do it. All
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you, buddy. We can both do it. All
18:52
you, buddy. We can both do it. All right. All right. You catch a fish. You
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right. All right. You catch a fish. You
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right. All right. You catch a fish. You catch the best fish. You know you can do
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catch the best fish. You know you can do
18:59
catch the best fish. You know you can do it, Mr. Pelican. You can catch the best
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it, Mr. Pelican. You can catch the best
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it, Mr. Pelican. You can catch the best fish of all and all the other pelicans
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fish of all and all the other pelicans
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fish of all and all the other pelicans will be your
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friend. All right, guys. I'll talk to
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friend. All right, guys. I'll talk to you later, okay? But just remember, five
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you later, okay? But just remember, five
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you later, okay? But just remember, five passengers set sail that day for a
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passengers set sail that day for a
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passengers set sail that day for a threehour tour. A threehour
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threehour tour. A threehour
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threehour tour. A threehour [Music]
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[Music]
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[Music] tour. Byebye.