STV Random Thoughts June 28, 2018

0:24 [Music]

0:24 [Music] creepy silent echoey

0:27 creepy silent echoey

0:27 creepy silent echoey and creepy down here that's a song some

0:30 and creepy down here that's a song some

0:30 and creepy down here that's a song some of you old school friends of mine will

0:33 of you old school friends of mine will

0:33 of you old school friends of mine will have not heard for a long time I sort of

0:35 have not heard for a long time I sort of

0:35 have not heard for a long time I sort of put that song in storage if you know

0:38 put that song in storage if you know

0:38 put that song in storage if you know what I mean this is a place that we

0:40 what I mean this is a place that we

0:40 what I mean this is a place that we haven't seen in quite a long time as

0:42 haven't seen in quite a long time as

0:42 haven't seen in quite a long time as well the old storage unit the old shoe

0:46 well the old storage unit the old shoe

0:46 well the old storage unit the old shoe house if you will those of you who have

0:50 house if you will those of you who have

0:50 house if you will those of you who have jumped onboard this channel more

0:52 jumped onboard this channel more

0:52 jumped onboard this channel more recently are used to random by an

0:54 recently are used to random by an

0:54 recently are used to random by an adventurous you're used to the short

0:56 adventurous you're used to the short

0:56 adventurous you're used to the short films slash episodes basically

0:59 films slash episodes basically

0:59 films slash episodes basically installments of going out having an

1:01 installments of going out having an

1:01 installments of going out having an adventure seeing something or things

1:03 adventure seeing something or things

1:03 adventure seeing something or things usually a lot of different things and

1:04 usually a lot of different things and

1:04 usually a lot of different things and one thing we see theme parks we see

1:06 one thing we see theme parks we see

1:06 one thing we see theme parks we see historical attractions we see roadside

1:09 historical attractions we see roadside

1:09 historical attractions we see roadside America we see you know piece of history

1:12 America we see you know piece of history

1:12 America we see you know piece of history we see interesting stuff we see the

1:13 we see interesting stuff we see the

1:13 we see interesting stuff we see the inside of target sometimes I don't know

1:15 inside of target sometimes I don't know

1:15 inside of target sometimes I don't know we have different adventures you know

1:16 we have different adventures you know

1:16 we have different adventures you know all kinds of different adventures but

1:18 all kinds of different adventures but

1:18 all kinds of different adventures but you're not used if you've jumped on

1:21 you're not used if you've jumped on

1:21 you're not used if you've jumped on board recently to me actually vlogging

1:25 board recently to me actually vlogging

1:25 board recently to me actually vlogging people like to use that word a lot oh

1:27 people like to use that word a lot oh

1:27 people like to use that word a lot oh you're a vlogger and I understand every

1:28 you're a vlogger and I understand every

1:28 you're a vlogger and I understand every video online has become a vlog to people

1:31 video online has become a vlog to people

1:31 video online has become a vlog to people but actually even though I used to quite

1:33 but actually even though I used to quite

1:33 but actually even though I used to quite often do the sometimes vlog which was a

1:36 often do the sometimes vlog which was a

1:36 often do the sometimes vlog which was a vlog that happens sometimes in between

1:39 vlog that happens sometimes in between

1:39 vlog that happens sometimes in between video and vengers installments episodes

1:42 video and vengers installments episodes

1:42 video and vengers installments episodes big you know quests and cool things that

1:45 big you know quests and cool things that

1:45 big you know quests and cool things that we're doing I used to do this sometimes

1:47 we're doing I used to do this sometimes

1:47 we're doing I used to do this sometimes vlog just as a thing to sort of fill in

1:49 vlog just as a thing to sort of fill in

1:49 vlog just as a thing to sort of fill in in between like okay you know there's no

1:51 in between like okay you know there's no

1:51 in between like okay you know there's no big huge adventure happening today I'm

1:53 big huge adventure happening today I'm

1:53 big huge adventure happening today I'm just sitting around in my socks but I

1:55 just sitting around in my socks but I

1:55 just sitting around in my socks but I have thoughts in my brain or here's

1:57 have thoughts in my brain or here's

1:57 have thoughts in my brain or here's what's going on or I have some some

1:59 what's going on or I have some some

1:59 what's going on or I have some some plans coming up and I really don't do

2:00 plans coming up and I really don't do

2:00 plans coming up and I really don't do much of that lately

2:01 much of that lately

2:01 much of that lately mostly because when I do a lot of people

2:05 mostly because when I do a lot of people

2:05 mostly because when I do a lot of people get confused like huh how come we didn't

2:07 get confused like huh how come we didn't

2:07 get confused like huh how come we didn't go to Knott's Berry Farm or to the you

2:10 go to Knott's Berry Farm or to the you

2:10 go to Knott's Berry Farm or to the you know to Yosemite or to to death

2:12 know to Yosemite or to to death

2:12 know to Yosemite or to to death Valley or to route 66 today that's like

2:15 Valley or to route 66 today that's like

2:15 Valley or to route 66 today that's like well because you know sometimes there's

2:16 well because you know sometimes there's

2:16 well because you know sometimes there's just some in-between stuff so I don't

2:18 just some in-between stuff so I don't

2:18 just some in-between stuff so I don't often do the vlogging anymore also you

2:22 often do the vlogging anymore also you

2:22 often do the vlogging anymore also you know cuz you know just life like it's

2:24 know cuz you know just life like it's

2:24 know cuz you know just life like it's the way I've mostly focused on big

2:26 the way I've mostly focused on big

2:26 the way I've mostly focused on big adventures episodes different things

2:27 adventures episodes different things

2:27 adventures episodes different things lately on patreon for the few patreon

2:30 lately on patreon for the few patreon

2:30 lately on patreon for the few patreon supporters I've done a sort of a not

2:33 supporters I've done a sort of a not

2:34 supporters I've done a sort of a not really a podcast I call it they not cast

2:36 really a podcast I call it they not cast

2:36 really a podcast I call it they not cast but it's also not really not a podcast

2:38 but it's also not really not a podcast

2:38 but it's also not really not a podcast so justly not cast once a month or I do

2:40 so justly not cast once a month or I do

2:40 so justly not cast once a month or I do some QA stuff answer people's questions

2:42 some QA stuff answer people's questions

2:42 some QA stuff answer people's questions talk about the different videos that

2:44 talk about the different videos that

2:44 talk about the different videos that we've made recently or that month kind

2:46 we've made recently or that month kind

2:46 we've made recently or that month kind of do a little recap or answer question

2:48 of do a little recap or answer question

2:48 of do a little recap or answer question it's kind of a kind of a cool little

2:49 it's kind of a kind of a cool little

2:49 it's kind of a kind of a cool little similar thing so that's kind of replaced

2:52 similar thing so that's kind of replaced

2:52 similar thing so that's kind of replaced sort of the classic vlogging here's my

2:55 sort of the classic vlogging here's my

2:55 sort of the classic vlogging here's my feelings here's what I'm doing but today

2:57 feelings here's what I'm doing but today

2:57 feelings here's what I'm doing but today is one of those days where I'm not doing

2:59 is one of those days where I'm not doing

2:59 is one of those days where I'm not doing a big crazy adventure I can't go out to

3:01 a big crazy adventure I can't go out to

3:01 a big crazy adventure I can't go out to the Salton Sea and look for mermaids or

3:03 the Salton Sea and look for mermaids or

3:03 the Salton Sea and look for mermaids or whatever so I'm down here in the storage

3:05 whatever so I'm down here in the storage

3:05 whatever so I'm down here in the storage unit I haven't been in a long time

3:07 unit I haven't been in a long time

3:07 unit I haven't been in a long time looking for a particular book that I

3:10 looking for a particular book that I

3:10 looking for a particular book that I haven't been able to locate for a long

3:12 haven't been able to locate for a long

3:12 haven't been able to locate for a long time and I finally did just find it in

3:14 time and I finally did just find it in

3:14 time and I finally did just find it in here and I was so happy look what else I

3:16 here and I was so happy look what else I

3:16 here and I was so happy look what else I found

3:17 found

3:17 found [Music]

3:24 I always leave that thing right here

3:24 I always leave that thing right here because then I get to come in here go

3:42 part of the reason we're not up in San

3:42 part of the reason we're not up in San Francisco or driving route 66 they're

3:44 Francisco or driving route 66 they're

3:44 Francisco or driving route 66 they're going to a big National Park today is

3:46 going to a big National Park today is

3:46 going to a big National Park today is because I unfortunately some of you have

3:49 because I unfortunately some of you have

3:49 because I unfortunately some of you have known and kind of in the middle of

3:50 known and kind of in the middle of

3:50 known and kind of in the middle of something that's been going on since

3:52 something that's been going on since

3:52 something that's been going on since October a custody argument you know how

3:55 October a custody argument you know how

3:55 October a custody argument you know how many small son he's getting bigger and

3:57 many small son he's getting bigger and

3:57 many small son he's getting bigger and bigger all the time but he's still

3:58 bigger all the time but he's still

3:58 bigger all the time but he's still pretty small and his the other half of

4:01 pretty small and his the other half of

4:01 pretty small and his the other half of his parental equation found a loophole

4:04 his parental equation found a loophole

4:04 his parental equation found a loophole to remove much of our time together just

4:07 to remove much of our time together just

4:07 to remove much of our time together just a paper loophole that was a loophole the

4:10 a paper loophole that was a loophole the

4:10 a paper loophole that was a loophole the lawyers warned me about in the first

4:11 lawyers warned me about in the first

4:11 lawyers warned me about in the first place you know I don't know it's trying

4:13 place you know I don't know it's trying

4:13 place you know I don't know it's trying to be nice anyway it's a long story and

4:16 to be nice anyway it's a long story and

4:16 to be nice anyway it's a long story and for obvious reasons I can't get too

4:17 for obvious reasons I can't get too

4:17 for obvious reasons I can't get too detailed about it or two into it but for

4:19 detailed about it or two into it but for

4:19 detailed about it or two into it but for the past six months or so my son and I

4:22 the past six months or so my son and I

4:22 the past six months or so my son and I have been

4:22 have been

4:22 have been trying to reverse that situation and

4:25 trying to reverse that situation and

4:25 trying to reverse that situation and create a situation with more fair and

4:27 create a situation with more fair and

4:27 create a situation with more fair and equal time this is from our perspective

4:29 equal time this is from our perspective

4:29 equal time this is from our perspective obviously there's two sides to every

4:31 obviously there's two sides to every

4:31 obviously there's two sides to every story like that but so we've been in a

4:32 story like that but so we've been in a

4:32 story like that but so we've been in a custody thing and instead of being able

4:34 custody thing and instead of being able

4:34 custody thing and instead of being able to just talk about it or use logic or

4:37 to just talk about it or use logic or

4:37 to just talk about it or use logic or reason about it or listen to the minor

4:38 reason about it or listen to the minor

4:38 reason about it or listen to the minor child's feelings the other side of the

4:40 child's feelings the other side of the

4:40 child's feelings the other side of the parental equation is decided well no

4:42 parental equation is decided well no

4:42 parental equation is decided well no lawyers have to change it it's gonna

4:44 lawyers have to change it it's gonna

4:44 lawyers have to change it it's gonna take a judge to get me to change my mind

4:46 take a judge to get me to change my mind

4:46 take a judge to get me to change my mind so that's where we're at so yesterday I

4:48 so that's where we're at so yesterday I

4:48 so that's where we're at so yesterday I had my court mediation where they decide

4:51 had my court mediation where they decide

4:51 had my court mediation where they decide that instead of yours going to see a

4:52 that instead of yours going to see a

4:52 that instead of yours going to see a judge presenting the facts and letting a

4:54 judge presenting the facts and letting a

4:54 judge presenting the facts and letting a judge decide fairly they want everyone

4:57 judge decide fairly they want everyone

4:57 judge decide fairly they want everyone to mediate first I think to see if we

5:00 to mediate first I think to see if we

5:00 to mediate first I think to see if we can avoid wasting the judges time if

5:01 can avoid wasting the judges time if

5:01 can avoid wasting the judges time if it's some simple thing that two people

5:03 it's some simple thing that two people

5:03 it's some simple thing that two people wants to get in the room can agree on

5:04 wants to get in the room can agree on

5:04 wants to get in the room can agree on well we cannot agree because once again

5:06 well we cannot agree because once again

5:06 well we cannot agree because once again the other side of the equation is like

5:08 the other side of the equation is like

5:08 the other side of the equation is like now it's going to take a judge to change

5:09 now it's going to take a judge to change

5:09 now it's going to take a judge to change my mind so we cannot agree and that

5:12 my mind so we cannot agree and that

5:12 my mind so we cannot agree and that means that Court is pushed to part of

5:15 means that Court is pushed to part of

5:15 means that Court is pushed to part of next month so it's sort of bunker busted

5:18 next month so it's sort of bunker busted

5:18 next month so it's sort of bunker busted some of my plans like well I'm gonna go

5:20 some of my plans like well I'm gonna go

5:20 some of my plans like well I'm gonna go do this on this week or this week and

5:21 do this on this week or this week and

5:21 do this on this week or this week and it's like no here's the mediation base

5:23 it's like no here's the mediation base

5:23 it's like no here's the mediation base you got a comp plan around it and stuff

5:25 you got a comp plan around it and stuff

5:25 you got a comp plan around it and stuff like that it's also contributing

5:26 like that it's also contributing

5:26 like that it's also contributing massively and may be the cause of who

5:29 massively and may be the cause of who

5:29 massively and may be the cause of who knows just the stress of it and the

5:31 knows just the stress of it and the

5:31 knows just the stress of it and the emotional rollercoaster of it the past

5:34 emotional rollercoaster of it the past

5:34 emotional rollercoaster of it the past two or three days I've just happened

5:35 two or three days I've just happened

5:35 two or three days I've just happened that most gnarly headaches I'm not a

5:36 that most gnarly headaches I'm not a

5:36 that most gnarly headaches I'm not a headache person you know I've never been

5:38 headache person you know I've never been

5:38 headache person you know I've never been a headache guy that gets migraines or

5:41 a headache guy that gets migraines or

5:41 a headache guy that gets migraines or bad headaches but the stress the last

5:43 bad headaches but the stress the last

5:43 bad headaches but the stress the last couple days has just well other than

5:45 couple days has just well other than

5:45 couple days has just well other than when I have that concussion which may

5:47 when I have that concussion which may

5:47 when I have that concussion which may also be affecting me but I'll get to

5:49 also be affecting me but I'll get to

5:49 also be affecting me but I'll get to that in a minute

5:49 that in a minute

5:50 that in a minute but I just had the worst headaches from

5:52 but I just had the worst headaches from

5:52 but I just had the worst headaches from the stress and everything like the kind

5:53 the stress and everything like the kind

5:53 the stress and everything like the kind of make you nauseous there just so many

5:55 of make you nauseous there just so many

5:55 of make you nauseous there just so many of it turn off the lights in the house

5:56 of it turn off the lights in the house

5:56 of it turn off the lights in the house and the whole thing so it's been a

5:58 and the whole thing so it's been a

5:58 and the whole thing so it's been a gnarly couple of days and I started

6:00 gnarly couple of days and I started

6:00 gnarly couple of days and I started thinking well people might be wondering

6:02 thinking well people might be wondering

6:02 thinking well people might be wondering where's the videos what's going on

6:04 where's the videos what's going on

6:05 where's the videos what's going on that's kind of what's been going on

6:06 that's kind of what's been going on

6:06 that's kind of what's been going on there's also been some other drama in

6:08 there's also been some other drama in

6:08 there's also been some other drama in life and here's the thing here's a part

6:10 life and here's the thing here's a part

6:10 life and here's the thing here's a part of why I don't blog much anymore about

6:12 of why I don't blog much anymore about

6:12 of why I don't blog much anymore about the personal stuff in between not that I

6:15 the personal stuff in between not that I

6:15 the personal stuff in between not that I don't want to share the positive parts

6:16 don't want to share the positive parts

6:16 don't want to share the positive parts of my personal life but I usually have a

6:18 of my personal life but I usually have a

6:18 of my personal life but I usually have a philosophy goes with my quest for

6:19 philosophy goes with my quest for

6:19 philosophy goes with my quest for positivity of focusing on the good and

6:21 positivity of focusing on the good and

6:21 positivity of focusing on the good and I'm gonna loop back to that I said

6:23 I'm gonna loop back to that I said

6:23 I'm gonna loop back to that I said focusing on the good not focusing on the

6:25 focusing on the good not focusing on the

6:25 focusing on the good not focusing on the negative and so I don't like to really

6:26 negative and so I don't like to really

6:26 negative and so I don't like to really do a lot of vlogs where I'm like hey

6:29 do a lot of vlogs where I'm like hey

6:29 do a lot of vlogs where I'm like hey guys is this horrible thing is happening

6:31 guys is this horrible thing is happening

6:31 guys is this horrible thing is happening it's so terrible I think it's really

6:34 it's so terrible I think it's really

6:34 it's so terrible I think it's really hard to see life

6:35 hard to see life

6:35 hard to see life Tunnel you know because there's an

6:37 Tunnel you know because there's an

6:37 Tunnel you know because there's an expression that you know eighty percent

6:39 expression that you know eighty percent

6:39 expression that you know eighty percent is eighty percent of the time people are

6:42 is eighty percent of the time people are

6:42 is eighty percent of the time people are rooting against you anyways and the

6:43 rooting against you anyways and the

6:43 rooting against you anyways and the other twenty percent of the time because

6:44 other twenty percent of the time because

6:44 other twenty percent of the time because they be percent of the time nobody is

6:46 they be percent of the time nobody is

6:46 they be percent of the time nobody is gonna care so I think for the last day

6:47 gonna care so I think for the last day

6:47 gonna care so I think for the last day or two I've also kind of been taking

6:49 or two I've also kind of been taking

6:49 or two I've also kind of been taking stock of that you know I'm using the

6:51 stock of that you know I'm using the

6:51 stock of that you know I'm using the whole very stressful negative situation

6:52 whole very stressful negative situation

6:52 whole very stressful negative situation that I'm going through to make me

6:53 that I'm going through to make me

6:53 that I'm going through to make me realize you know what I don't want to be

6:55 realize you know what I don't want to be

6:55 realize you know what I don't want to be negative even while this horrible stuff

6:57 negative even while this horrible stuff

6:57 negative even while this horrible stuff is happening to me and I have every

6:58 is happening to me and I have every

6:58 is happening to me and I have every right to be upset frustrated complain

7:00 right to be upset frustrated complain

7:00 right to be upset frustrated complain you know yell a trash can or whatever I

7:03 you know yell a trash can or whatever I

7:03 you know yell a trash can or whatever I don't want to be that way at the end of

7:04 don't want to be that way at the end of

7:05 don't want to be that way at the end of the day I'd like to be the good guy

7:07 the day I'd like to be the good guy

7:07 the day I'd like to be the good guy think we'd all like to be the good guy

7:08 think we'd all like to be the good guy

7:08 think we'd all like to be the good guy or gal or whatever we'd like to be the

7:10 or gal or whatever we'd like to be the

7:10 or gal or whatever we'd like to be the good one we'd like to be calm we'd like

7:12 good one we'd like to be calm we'd like

7:12 good one we'd like to be calm we'd like to think of ourselves as people who are

7:13 to think of ourselves as people who are

7:13 to think of ourselves as people who are quick to forgive and quick to laugh and

7:16 quick to forgive and quick to laugh and

7:17 quick to forgive and quick to laugh and quick to see the good in other people

7:18 quick to see the good in other people

7:18 quick to see the good in other people quick different you know to forgive and

7:20 quick different you know to forgive and

7:20 quick different you know to forgive and see the positive side of different

7:22 see the positive side of different

7:22 see the positive side of different situations you know it's so you know

7:23 situations you know it's so you know

7:23 situations you know it's so you know some things have got me down lately at

7:25 some things have got me down lately at

7:25 some things have got me down lately at least down in the sense that you know

7:27 least down in the sense that you know

7:27 least down in the sense that you know I've got time where I have to spend

7:28 I've got time where I have to spend

7:28 I've got time where I have to spend dealing with things I really don't want

7:30 dealing with things I really don't want

7:30 dealing with things I really don't want to deal with I don't want to I don't

7:32 to deal with I don't want to I don't

7:32 to deal with I don't want to I don't want to be negative and jaded and

7:34 want to be negative and jaded and

7:34 want to be negative and jaded and cynical bitter and angry that's the

7:35 cynical bitter and angry that's the

7:35 cynical bitter and angry that's the thing I don't want to be a bitter heart

7:37 thing I don't want to be a bitter heart

7:37 thing I don't want to be a bitter heart hearted sarcastic snarky cynical person

7:41 hearted sarcastic snarky cynical person

7:41 hearted sarcastic snarky cynical person I want to be happy you know I want to be

7:43 I want to be happy you know I want to be

7:43 I want to be happy you know I want to be able to see the happy and see the good

7:45 able to see the happy and see the good

7:45 able to see the happy and see the good things in life and be positive and

7:46 things in life and be positive and

7:46 things in life and be positive and appreciate all the fun stuff and in

7:49 appreciate all the fun stuff and in

7:49 appreciate all the fun stuff and in order to do that you gotta you gotta be

7:50 order to do that you gotta you gotta be

7:50 order to do that you gotta you gotta be a little bit a little bit soft you know

7:52 a little bit a little bit soft you know

7:52 a little bit a little bit soft you know what to see the happiness so anyway

7:53 what to see the happiness so anyway

7:53 what to see the happiness so anyway while I was thinking about all that

7:54 while I was thinking about all that

7:54 while I was thinking about all that stuff and coming into this very derelict

7:56 stuff and coming into this very derelict

7:56 stuff and coming into this very derelict dirty dusty storage I haven't been into

8:00 dirty dusty storage I haven't been into

8:00 dirty dusty storage I haven't been into in a while I thought I might as well use

8:01 in a while I thought I might as well use

8:01 in a while I thought I might as well use the opportunity since I'm not on a big

8:03 the opportunity since I'm not on a big

8:03 the opportunity since I'm not on a big crazy adventure where you know sometimes

8:05 crazy adventure where you know sometimes

8:05 crazy adventure where you know sometimes I don't update stuff because simply it

8:07 I don't update stuff because simply it

8:07 I don't update stuff because simply it doesn't fit into the context of what

8:08 doesn't fit into the context of what

8:08 doesn't fit into the context of what we're doing you know for out the middle

8:09 we're doing you know for out the middle

8:09 we're doing you know for out the middle of the petrified National Forest or

8:12 of the petrified National Forest or

8:12 of the petrified National Forest or Petrified Forest National Party make a

8:13 Petrified Forest National Party make a

8:13 Petrified Forest National Party make a lot of sense to say oh you know by the

8:15 lot of sense to say oh you know by the

8:15 lot of sense to say oh you know by the way I'm in the middle of you know trying

8:17 way I'm in the middle of you know trying

8:17 way I'm in the middle of you know trying to be less cynical and realize that sort

8:19 to be less cynical and realize that sort

8:19 to be less cynical and realize that sort of let that drip back into my personal

8:21 of let that drip back into my personal

8:21 of let that drip back into my personal life I mean you know those things don't

8:22 life I mean you know those things don't

8:22 life I mean you know those things don't really fit when you're like look at the

8:24 really fit when you're like look at the

8:24 really fit when you're like look at the stone tree so I thought I would turn my

8:27 stone tree so I thought I would turn my

8:27 stone tree so I thought I would turn my downtime where I wasn't doing what I

8:29 downtime where I wasn't doing what I

8:29 downtime where I wasn't doing what I intended on being doing because the

8:31 intended on being doing because the

8:31 intended on being doing because the stress and the negativity and it just

8:33 stress and the negativity and it just

8:33 stress and the negativity and it just frustration and tiredness

8:35 frustration and tiredness

8:35 frustration and tiredness and that downtime negative into a

8:37 and that downtime negative into a

8:37 and that downtime negative into a positive by talking to you guys and just

8:40 positive by talking to you guys and just

8:40 positive by talking to you guys and just giving you an update on my brain and

8:42 giving you an update on my brain and

8:42 giving you an update on my brain and where it's at for the 50 of you who care

8:44 where it's at for the 50 of you who care

8:44 where it's at for the 50 of you who care some of you will be like I don't want to

8:45 some of you will be like I don't want to

8:45 some of you will be like I don't want to watch this that's fine you can click on

8:46 watch this that's fine you can click on

8:46 watch this that's fine you can click on see the next video and we'll go have

8:49 see the next video and we'll go have

8:49 see the next video and we'll go have some adventures together but you know

8:50 some adventures together but you know

8:50 some adventures together but you know some people are like who'd miss the old

8:52 some people are like who'd miss the old

8:52 some people are like who'd miss the old vlogs I'd like a little bit of an update

8:54 vlogs I'd like a little bit of an update

8:54 vlogs I'd like a little bit of an update so they're you Paula Joy's that I'm not

8:56 so they're you Paula Joy's that I'm not

8:56 so they're you Paula Joy's that I'm not very articulate about I know normally

8:58 very articulate about I know normally

8:58 very articulate about I know normally I'm a little bit more well-spoken when

9:01 I'm a little bit more well-spoken when

9:01 I'm a little bit more well-spoken when it comes to this type of thing you know

9:02 it comes to this type of thing you know

9:02 it comes to this type of thing you know I've thought it out a little bit more

9:03 I've thought it out a little bit more

9:03 I've thought it out a little bit more the last few days especially a headache

9:05 the last few days especially a headache

9:05 the last few days especially a headache Center for us telling you guys what the

9:07 Center for us telling you guys what the

9:07 Center for us telling you guys what the heck's I've just been sort of not

9:09 heck's I've just been sort of not

9:09 heck's I've just been sort of not getting very much sleep so I'm a little

9:11 getting very much sleep so I'm a little

9:11 getting very much sleep so I'm a little bit anchor here and I'm sort of just

9:12 bit anchor here and I'm sort of just

9:12 bit anchor here and I'm sort of just giving you what's on my mind from the

9:14 giving you what's on my mind from the

9:14 giving you what's on my mind from the top of my head so anyway those of you

9:16 top of my head so anyway those of you

9:16 top of my head so anyway those of you who do miss the old vlog each type of

9:17 who do miss the old vlog each type of

9:17 who do miss the old vlog each type of format and talking about different stuff

9:19 format and talking about different stuff

9:19 format and talking about different stuff I've been doing that once a month at

9:21 I've been doing that once a month at

9:21 I've been doing that once a month at least minimum I may start doing it a

9:23 least minimum I may start doing it a

9:23 least minimum I may start doing it a little bit more over on patreon you know

9:26 little bit more over on patreon you know

9:26 little bit more over on patreon you know people support do like a dollar a month

9:28 people support do like a dollar a month

9:28 people support do like a dollar a month or whatever it is and then you have

9:29 or whatever it is and then you have

9:29 or whatever it is and then you have access to this weird little sort of

9:31 access to this weird little sort of

9:31 access to this weird little sort of audio posts that we do it's generally

9:33 audio posts that we do it's generally

9:33 audio posts that we do it's generally about an hour long

9:35 about an hour long

9:35 about an hour long once a month with cue nays and stuff

9:36 once a month with cue nays and stuff

9:36 once a month with cue nays and stuff like that so it's pretty cool generally

9:38 like that so it's pretty cool generally

9:38 like that so it's pretty cool generally speaking I'd rather be having the

9:39 speaking I'd rather be having the

9:39 speaking I'd rather be having the adventure looking at the historic thing

9:41 adventure looking at the historic thing

9:41 adventure looking at the historic thing or the you know the world's largest

9:42 or the you know the world's largest

9:42 or the you know the world's largest artichoke or whatever it is and that's

9:45 artichoke or whatever it is and that's

9:45 artichoke or whatever it is and that's sort of talking about myself I think you

9:46 sort of talking about myself I think you

9:46 sort of talking about myself I think you know people would be a lot less

9:47 know people would be a lot less

9:47 know people would be a lot less interested in that I just thought of you

9:49 interested in that I just thought of you

9:49 interested in that I just thought of you who are gonna be like no do you know we

9:50 who are gonna be like no do you know we

9:50 who are gonna be like no do you know we love the vlogs and we love just the

9:52 love the vlogs and we love just the

9:52 love the vlogs and we love just the chats and the personal convo you know

9:54 chats and the personal convo you know

9:54 chats and the personal convo you know what I'm sorry I'm taking that over to

9:56 what I'm sorry I'm taking that over to

9:56 what I'm sorry I'm taking that over to patreon because it's less than 1%

9:58 patreon because it's less than 1%

9:58 patreon because it's less than 1% support the videos you know a lot of

10:00 support the videos you know a lot of

10:00 support the videos you know a lot of patreon so I figure that's probably the

10:02 patreon so I figure that's probably the

10:02 patreon so I figure that's probably the amount of people issue are gonna want to

10:04 amount of people issue are gonna want to

10:04 amount of people issue are gonna want to see that stuff so that podcast thing

10:06 see that stuff so that podcast thing

10:06 see that stuff so that podcast thing exists over there once a month but who

10:07 exists over there once a month but who

10:07 exists over there once a month but who knows every once in a while I may start

10:09 knows every once in a while I may start

10:09 knows every once in a while I may start doing the sometimes vlog here a little

10:11 doing the sometimes vlog here a little

10:11 doing the sometimes vlog here a little more just sort of filling type of stuff

10:14 more just sort of filling type of stuff

10:14 more just sort of filling type of stuff in between information Oh for example

10:16 in between information Oh for example

10:16 in between information Oh for example we're showing these sweet patches the

10:19 we're showing these sweet patches the

10:19 we're showing these sweet patches the other day I just put on my jacket look

10:22 other day I just put on my jacket look

10:22 other day I just put on my jacket look at these sweet iron on patches nice

10:24 at these sweet iron on patches nice

10:24 at these sweet iron on patches nice thick material shoulder size patches

10:27 thick material shoulder size patches

10:27 thick material shoulder size patches we're gonna put these bad boys up for

10:29 we're gonna put these bad boys up for

10:29 we're gonna put these bad boys up for sale

10:30 sale

10:30 sale pretty soon look at this if you don't

10:32 pretty soon look at this if you don't

10:32 pretty soon look at this if you don't like trucker hats make your own that you

10:35 like trucker hats make your own that you

10:35 like trucker hats make your own that you get a sweet shoulder pad they also come

10:37 get a sweet shoulder pad they also come

10:37 get a sweet shoulder pad they also come with our smaller packs for like fish

10:39 with our smaller packs for like fish

10:39 with our smaller packs for like fish which is actually softer not as thick in

10:42 which is actually softer not as thick in

10:42 which is actually softer not as thick in heart which is like a shirt patch you

10:44 heart which is like a shirt patch you

10:44 heart which is like a shirt patch you saw it on a shirt or about

10:45 saw it on a shirt or about

10:45 saw it on a shirt or about or something like that or if you can't

10:46 or something like that or if you can't

10:46 or something like that or if you can't sell it like me you need the cheat sheet

10:48 sell it like me you need the cheat sheet

10:48 sell it like me you need the cheat sheet you need the iron-on backing there which

10:51 you need the iron-on backing there which

10:51 you need the iron-on backing there which is exactly why I did that so there you

10:53 is exactly why I did that so there you

10:53 is exactly why I did that so there you go that's pretty cool and that's another

10:54 go that's pretty cool and that's another

10:54 go that's pretty cool and that's another example of the kind of thing that you

10:55 example of the kind of thing that you

10:55 example of the kind of thing that you know I'm in the middle of looking at a

10:56 know I'm in the middle of looking at a

10:56 know I'm in the middle of looking at a giant tree or something like that you

10:58 giant tree or something like that you

10:58 giant tree or something like that you know it doesn't really fit in to talk

11:00 know it doesn't really fit in to talk

11:00 know it doesn't really fit in to talk about that but you know every once in a

11:01 about that but you know every once in a

11:01 about that but you know every once in a while I guess it is pretty smart just to

11:03 while I guess it is pretty smart just to

11:03 while I guess it is pretty smart just to give an update or two now speaking of my

11:05 give an update or two now speaking of my

11:05 give an update or two now speaking of my child luckily with all the negative

11:07 child luckily with all the negative

11:07 child luckily with all the negative stuff going on speaking of looking at

11:08 stuff going on speaking of looking at

11:08 stuff going on speaking of looking at the good - I could look at haha gosh as

11:10 the good - I could look at haha gosh as

11:10 the good - I could look at haha gosh as a little stuff mr. McCourt he knows how

11:12 a little stuff mr. McCourt he knows how

11:12 a little stuff mr. McCourt he knows how to come out and I don't know what's

11:13 to come out and I don't know what's

11:13 to come out and I don't know what's going on breathe you gotta focus on the

11:17 going on breathe you gotta focus on the

11:17 going on breathe you gotta focus on the good the good side of it is is I barely

11:19 good the good side of it is is I barely

11:19 good the good side of it is is I barely managed to you but we squeak we managed

11:21 managed to you but we squeak we managed

11:21 managed to you but we squeak we managed to make sure that we're gonna have a

11:23 to make sure that we're gonna have a

11:23 to make sure that we're gonna have a sweet vacation this summer with him so

11:25 sweet vacation this summer with him so

11:25 sweet vacation this summer with him so that's pretty cool we booked some plane

11:27 that's pretty cool we booked some plane

11:27 that's pretty cool we booked some plane tickets to a familiar place we're gonna

11:30 tickets to a familiar place we're gonna

11:30 tickets to a familiar place we're gonna be able to have some adventures there

11:31 be able to have some adventures there

11:31 be able to have some adventures there with you know just the fam and that's

11:33 with you know just the fam and that's

11:33 with you know just the fam and that's gonna be kind of cool of course we'll be

11:35 gonna be kind of cool of course we'll be

11:35 gonna be kind of cool of course we'll be bringing you guys along for a part of

11:36 bringing you guys along for a part of

11:37 bringing you guys along for a part of that that's coming up in another month

11:38 that that's coming up in another month

11:38 that that's coming up in another month or two anymore

11:39 or two anymore

11:39 or two anymore immediate future between the court

11:41 immediate future between the court

11:41 immediate future between the court things and other than going and doing

11:43 things and other than going and doing

11:43 things and other than going and doing some cool stuff around here some parks

11:45 some cool stuff around here some parks

11:45 some cool stuff around here some parks that you may have heard of it do you

11:46 that you may have heard of it do you

11:46 that you may have heard of it do you have some other roadtrip style traveling

11:49 have some other roadtrip style traveling

11:49 have some other roadtrip style traveling plans laughs there's a lot of places up

11:53 plans laughs there's a lot of places up

11:53 plans laughs there's a lot of places up along the Pacific coast or the you know

11:55 along the Pacific coast or the you know

11:55 along the Pacific coast or the you know Pacific Coast area where I haven't done

11:58 Pacific Coast area where I haven't done

11:58 Pacific Coast area where I haven't done any videos and adventures yet with you

12:00 any videos and adventures yet with you

12:00 any videos and adventures yet with you guys partially because when I was in a

12:02 guys partially because when I was in a

12:02 guys partially because when I was in a band is touring up there a lot and when

12:04 band is touring up there a lot and when

12:04 band is touring up there a lot and when I was younger my family took a lot of

12:05 I was younger my family took a lot of

12:05 I was younger my family took a lot of vacations up there

12:06 vacations up there

12:06 vacations up there so it was one of those things where it's

12:08 so it was one of those things where it's

12:08 so it was one of those things where it's like I've seen that a lot in my life

12:10 like I've seen that a lot in my life

12:10 like I've seen that a lot in my life want to go see some other stuff you know

12:11 want to go see some other stuff you know

12:11 want to go see some other stuff you know I'll get back to that I'm sort of

12:13 I'll get back to that I'm sort of

12:13 I'll get back to that I'm sort of mentally circulating back towards a few

12:16 mentally circulating back towards a few

12:16 mentally circulating back towards a few things in the state of California

12:18 things in the state of California

12:18 things in the state of California possibly some Oregonian things maybe to

12:22 possibly some Oregonian things maybe to

12:22 possibly some Oregonian things maybe to go feast a gander upon what you're

12:24 go feast a gander upon what you're

12:24 go feast a gander upon what you're sticking your eyeball on it you know

12:26 sticking your eyeball on it you know

12:26 sticking your eyeball on it you know what I mean I don't want to give too too

12:29 what I mean I don't want to give too too

12:29 what I mean I don't want to give too too much away but the the recent court stuff

12:33 much away but the the recent court stuff

12:33 much away but the the recent court stuff that's gonna put a damper on my original

12:35 that's gonna put a damper on my original

12:35 that's gonna put a damper on my original plan which was to just go all the way up

12:37 plan which was to just go all the way up

12:37 plan which was to just go all the way up California Oregon up yeah Washington

12:40 California Oregon up yeah Washington

12:40 California Oregon up yeah Washington make a big long two or three week trip

12:42 make a big long two or three week trip

12:42 make a big long two or three week trip and swoop around and just do all that

12:43 and swoop around and just do all that

12:43 and swoop around and just do all that stuff in one shot

12:44 stuff in one shot

12:44 stuff in one shot so we're gonna be taking some trips up

12:46 so we're gonna be taking some trips up

12:46 so we're gonna be taking some trips up and down I have no idea what we're gonna

12:48 and down I have no idea what we're gonna

12:48 and down I have no idea what we're gonna see since my grand plan was kind of

12:50 see since my grand plan was kind of

12:50 see since my grand plan was kind of abolish I'm just gonna wing it and have

12:53 abolish I'm just gonna wing it and have

12:53 abolish I'm just gonna wing it and have some adventures up then

12:54 some adventures up then

12:54 some adventures up then erection pretty soon so there's a lot of

12:56 erection pretty soon so there's a lot of

12:56 erection pretty soon so there's a lot of different stuff going on in my brain

12:57 different stuff going on in my brain

12:57 different stuff going on in my brain positive stuff obviously some negative

12:59 positive stuff obviously some negative

12:59 positive stuff obviously some negative stuff and I'm trying to just stay

13:01 stuff and I'm trying to just stay

13:01 stuff and I'm trying to just stay positive through at the end of the day

13:02 positive through at the end of the day

13:02 positive through at the end of the day you know some of them out there's always

13:03 you know some of them out there's always

13:03 you know some of them out there's always got it worse but that's not really what

13:06 got it worse but that's not really what

13:06 got it worse but that's not really what how I want to motivate myself I don't

13:07 how I want to motivate myself I don't

13:07 how I want to motivate myself I don't want to motivate myself maybe to be like

13:08 want to motivate myself maybe to be like

13:08 want to motivate myself maybe to be like oh they you've got it worse so I

13:10 oh they you've got it worse so I

13:10 oh they you've got it worse so I shouldn't complain I think it's a lot

13:12 shouldn't complain I think it's a lot

13:12 shouldn't complain I think it's a lot better motivation I think it's just a

13:14 better motivation I think it's just a

13:14 better motivation I think it's just a lot better for your soul or whatever

13:16 lot better for your soul or whatever

13:16 lot better for your soul or whatever however you want to phrase that to

13:18 however you want to phrase that to

13:18 however you want to phrase that to actually focus on the real positive

13:20 actually focus on the real positive

13:20 actually focus on the real positive things going on you know be grateful for

13:22 things going on you know be grateful for

13:22 things going on you know be grateful for what you really can have a little hope

13:23 what you really can have a little hope

13:23 what you really can have a little hope and faith that even though things may be

13:25 and faith that even though things may be

13:25 and faith that even though things may be tough to you now in your own situation

13:27 tough to you now in your own situation

13:27 tough to you now in your own situation because you can't really compare with

13:28 because you can't really compare with

13:28 because you can't really compare with anyone else you know you have a little

13:29 anyone else you know you have a little

13:29 anyone else you know you have a little hope that things can get better you know

13:31 hope that things can get better you know

13:31 hope that things can get better you know just trust that if you're positive and

13:33 just trust that if you're positive and

13:33 just trust that if you're positive and you try to make good decisions and be

13:35 you try to make good decisions and be

13:35 you try to make good decisions and be nice you know I'd like to believe that

13:37 nice you know I'd like to believe that

13:37 nice you know I'd like to believe that good things will come in the world so

13:39 good things will come in the world so

13:39 good things will come in the world so for myself personally and part of

13:41 for myself personally and part of

13:41 for myself personally and part of telling you guys this is to really

13:43 telling you guys this is to really

13:43 telling you guys this is to really double down you know I told you guys I

13:45 double down you know I told you guys I

13:45 double down you know I told you guys I wasn't gonna drink soda you know for at

13:47 wasn't gonna drink soda you know for at

13:47 wasn't gonna drink soda you know for at least a hundred days and now I'm just

13:49 least a hundred days and now I'm just

13:49 least a hundred days and now I'm just today it's the hundred and twentieth day

13:51 today it's the hundred and twentieth day

13:51 today it's the hundred and twentieth day I was gonna only go to a hundred days

13:53 I was gonna only go to a hundred days

13:53 I was gonna only go to a hundred days and then have a sip of sarsaparilla or

13:55 and then have a sip of sarsaparilla or

13:55 and then have a sip of sarsaparilla or something like that then my friend told

13:56 something like that then my friend told

13:56 something like that then my friend told me I made it to 117 days once so I had

13:58 me I made it to 117 days once so I had

13:58 me I made it to 117 days once so I had to make it to 120 now to motivate myself

14:01 to make it to 120 now to motivate myself

14:01 to make it to 120 now to motivate myself but anyway I told you guys about that

14:03 but anyway I told you guys about that

14:03 but anyway I told you guys about that because I wanted that accountability

14:05 because I wanted that accountability

14:05 because I wanted that accountability that I put that out there you know I'm

14:07 that I put that out there you know I'm

14:07 that I put that out there you know I'm not gonna drink soda for a hundred days

14:09 not gonna drink soda for a hundred days

14:09 not gonna drink soda for a hundred days it was really challenging for me it was

14:10 it was really challenging for me it was

14:10 it was really challenging for me it was a very difficult thing for me to do

14:11 a very difficult thing for me to do

14:11 a very difficult thing for me to do maybe you shouldn't have been but it was

14:13 maybe you shouldn't have been but it was

14:13 maybe you shouldn't have been but it was but I did it so this is kind of the same

14:15 but I did it so this is kind of the same

14:15 but I did it so this is kind of the same thing I wanted to put it out there that

14:16 thing I wanted to put it out there that

14:16 thing I wanted to put it out there that I'm gonna try to repeat double down on

14:19 I'm gonna try to repeat double down on

14:19 I'm gonna try to repeat double down on redouble down that sounds funny Reid

14:21 redouble down that sounds funny Reid

14:21 redouble down that sounds funny Reid double down on the quest for positivity

14:24 double down on the quest for positivity

14:24 double down on the quest for positivity motif our motives are I'm losing my mind

14:29 motif our motives are I'm losing my mind

14:29 motif our motives are I'm losing my mind here with this word I'm by missing a

14:30 here with this word I'm by missing a

14:30 here with this word I'm by missing a word in my brain help on the rule that's

14:34 word in my brain help on the rule that's

14:34 word in my brain help on the rule that's a terrible way of putting it but I guess

14:36 a terrible way of putting it but I guess

14:36 a terrible way of putting it but I guess for lack of a better word the rule

14:37 for lack of a better word the rule

14:37 for lack of a better word the rule trying to see the good in everything if

14:40 trying to see the good in everything if

14:40 trying to see the good in everything if possible so I'm gonna try to work on

14:42 possible so I'm gonna try to work on

14:42 possible so I'm gonna try to work on that get my mind back to focusing on the

14:45 that get my mind back to focusing on the

14:45 that get my mind back to focusing on the good not just silver lining cuz it's

14:47 good not just silver lining cuz it's

14:47 good not just silver lining cuz it's okay to say you know what this sucks it

14:48 okay to say you know what this sucks it

14:48 okay to say you know what this sucks it completely sucks everything about this

14:50 completely sucks everything about this

14:50 completely sucks everything about this sucks let's just the next day look for

14:52 sucks let's just the next day look for

14:52 sucks let's just the next day look for the good in the next day you know that

14:53 the good in the next day you know that

14:53 the good in the next day you know that kind of thing so I'm gonna try I get

14:55 kind of thing so I'm gonna try I get

14:55 kind of thing so I'm gonna try I get back to that mental

14:56 back to that mental

14:56 back to that mental I don't want to go through life focusing

14:58 I don't want to go through life focusing

14:58 I don't want to go through life focusing all the negative and then having a heart

14:59 all the negative and then having a heart

14:59 all the negative and then having a heart attack and then it's over I want to go

15:01 attack and then it's over I want to go

15:01 attack and then it's over I want to go through life and be able to acknowledge

15:02 through life and be able to acknowledge

15:02 through life and be able to acknowledge the negative but then the next day and

15:04 the negative but then the next day and

15:04 the negative but then the next day and go you know what there's a lot of good

15:05 go you know what there's a lot of good

15:05 go you know what there's a lot of good left in the world the whole world isn't

15:07 left in the world the whole world isn't

15:07 left in the world the whole world isn't horrible the whole world isn't

15:09 horrible the whole world isn't

15:09 horrible the whole world isn't completely always falling apart and even

15:11 completely always falling apart and even

15:11 completely always falling apart and even if it is you know there may be some good

15:13 if it is you know there may be some good

15:13 if it is you know there may be some good that we can still do you know we can

15:14 that we can still do you know we can

15:14 that we can still do you know we can make someone laugh today we can make

15:16 make someone laugh today we can make

15:16 make someone laugh today we can make someone smile today we can take five

15:17 someone smile today we can take five

15:17 someone smile today we can take five minutes and look at someone's silly

15:19 minutes and look at someone's silly

15:19 minutes and look at someone's silly ridiculous Facebook post it has no likes

15:21 ridiculous Facebook post it has no likes

15:21 ridiculous Facebook post it has no likes we can give the like and say hey man

15:22 we can give the like and say hey man

15:22 we can give the like and say hey man that's a cool picture you post there

15:24 that's a cool picture you post there

15:24 that's a cool picture you post there just bring a kindness to other people so

15:26 just bring a kindness to other people so

15:26 just bring a kindness to other people so I'm hoping to get kind of back in that

15:29 I'm hoping to get kind of back in that

15:29 I'm hoping to get kind of back in that spirit that's the spirit that I want to

15:31 spirit that's the spirit that I want to

15:31 spirit that's the spirit that I want to have you know and not to be oh woe is me

15:34 have you know and not to be oh woe is me

15:34 have you know and not to be oh woe is me that doesn't get anybody anywhere you

15:37 that doesn't get anybody anywhere you

15:37 that doesn't get anybody anywhere you know so so that's what I would like to

15:38 know so so that's what I would like to

15:38 know so so that's what I would like to have so that's kind of my personal quest

15:41 have so that's kind of my personal quest

15:41 have so that's kind of my personal quest for positivity rededicating moment in

15:45 for positivity rededicating moment in

15:45 for positivity rededicating moment in this summer that's where I really really

15:47 this summer that's where I really really

15:47 this summer that's where I really really want to get back to so that's good I

15:48 want to get back to so that's good I

15:48 want to get back to so that's good I think partly this is getting a little

15:51 think partly this is getting a little

15:51 think partly this is getting a little personal here so again if you hate me

15:52 personal here so again if you hate me

15:52 personal here so again if you hate me you might just want to skip it while

15:53 you might just want to skip it while

15:53 you might just want to skip it while you're watching this but uh I think also

15:56 you're watching this but uh I think also

15:56 you're watching this but uh I think also you guys know I had this weird thing

15:58 you guys know I had this weird thing

15:58 you guys know I had this weird thing where I hit my head I got a pretty

15:59 where I hit my head I got a pretty

15:59 where I hit my head I got a pretty gnarly concussion I had a concussions

16:01 gnarly concussion I had a concussions

16:01 gnarly concussion I had a concussions before but just little ones so you can

16:03 before but just little ones so you can

16:03 before but just little ones so you can feel a little nauseous the next day

16:04 feel a little nauseous the next day

16:04 feel a little nauseous the next day you're fine I'd never had a bad one

16:06 you're fine I'd never had a bad one

16:06 you're fine I'd never had a bad one before and never really play sports I

16:07 before and never really play sports I

16:07 before and never really play sports I never really had an injury like that

16:08 never really had an injury like that

16:08 never really had an injury like that before and there was some really bad

16:11 before and there was some really bad

16:11 before and there was some really bad symptoms for a couple weeks I wasn't

16:13 symptoms for a couple weeks I wasn't

16:13 symptoms for a couple weeks I wasn't suppose to be driving anyways was we

16:14 suppose to be driving anyways was we

16:14 suppose to be driving anyways was we doing stuff I couldn't remember where it

16:15 doing stuff I couldn't remember where it

16:15 doing stuff I couldn't remember where it was sometimes right I get someone go how

16:17 was sometimes right I get someone go how

16:17 was sometimes right I get someone go how do I even why am I even what very

16:21 do I even why am I even what very

16:21 do I even why am I even what very anxiety producing symptoms I'm still

16:23 anxiety producing symptoms I'm still

16:23 anxiety producing symptoms I'm still having a hard time remembering some

16:25 having a hard time remembering some

16:25 having a hard time remembering some stuff you know I've noticed that in the

16:27 stuff you know I've noticed that in the

16:27 stuff you know I've noticed that in the doctors to say that you can take up to a

16:29 doctors to say that you can take up to a

16:29 doctors to say that you can take up to a year sometimes for you know what could

16:33 year sometimes for you know what could

16:33 year sometimes for you know what could see from for symptoms like that to go

16:36 see from for symptoms like that to go

16:36 see from for symptoms like that to go away so I was like okay that's fine so

16:39 away so I was like okay that's fine so

16:39 away so I was like okay that's fine so I've been having trouble remembering

16:40 I've been having trouble remembering

16:40 I've been having trouble remembering people's names more than usual and

16:42 people's names more than usual and

16:42 people's names more than usual and sometimes feels phases which is a really

16:44 sometimes feels phases which is a really

16:44 sometimes feels phases which is a really weird one for me I usually never forget

16:46 weird one for me I usually never forget

16:46 weird one for me I usually never forget a face so that's been kind of traveling

16:48 a face so that's been kind of traveling

16:48 a face so that's been kind of traveling me but also I've realized lately with

16:50 me but also I've realized lately with

16:50 me but also I've realized lately with the haul cynical thing and all that that

16:52 the haul cynical thing and all that that

16:52 the haul cynical thing and all that that I was talking about that part of its

16:54 I was talking about that part of its

16:54 I was talking about that part of its that I've been

16:55 that I've been

16:55 that I've been kind of depressed now there's

16:57 kind of depressed now there's

16:57 kind of depressed now there's circumstances that that go along with

17:00 circumstances that that go along with

17:00 circumstances that that go along with that obviously a whole custody thing in

17:03 that obviously a whole custody thing in

17:03 that obviously a whole custody thing in a court case and having much less time

17:04 a court case and having much less time

17:04 a court case and having much less time with my kid you know that is something

17:07 with my kid you know that is something

17:07 with my kid you know that is something that could depress you that's very no

17:09 that could depress you that's very no

17:09 that could depress you that's very no problem so I thought it was just that

17:10 problem so I thought it was just that

17:10 problem so I thought it was just that plus I've struggled with depression

17:12 plus I've struggled with depression

17:12 plus I've struggled with depression anxiety OCD and you know panic attacks

17:16 anxiety OCD and you know panic attacks

17:16 anxiety OCD and you know panic attacks and and a little bit of Tourette's and

17:19 and and a little bit of Tourette's and

17:19 and and a little bit of Tourette's and ticks and things my whole life I've had

17:22 ticks and things my whole life I've had

17:22 ticks and things my whole life I've had some issues that I've struggled with my

17:23 some issues that I've struggled with my

17:23 some issues that I've struggled with my whole life and one of them really has

17:25 whole life and one of them really has

17:25 whole life and one of them really has been some severe depression at certain

17:27 been some severe depression at certain

17:28 been some severe depression at certain points so it's not unusual for me to get

17:30 points so it's not unusual for me to get

17:30 points so it's not unusual for me to get depressed but since the whole class were

17:31 depressed but since the whole class were

17:31 depressed but since the whole class were positive anything started a few years

17:34 positive anything started a few years

17:34 positive anything started a few years ago I really kind of took control of to

17:37 ago I really kind of took control of to

17:37 ago I really kind of took control of to the degree that you can of that kind of

17:39 the degree that you can of that kind of

17:39 the degree that you can of that kind of thing you know and I've had a lot of

17:40 thing you know and I've had a lot of

17:40 thing you know and I've had a lot of very good success combating and kind of

17:43 very good success combating and kind of

17:43 very good success combating and kind of keeping away depression so what what is

17:45 keeping away depression so what what is

17:45 keeping away depression so what what is it that why is it getting to me more

17:47 it that why is it getting to me more

17:47 it that why is it getting to me more lately now than ever and some friends of

17:49 lately now than ever and some friends of

17:49 lately now than ever and some friends of mine who have played a lot of sports and

17:51 mine who have played a lot of sports and

17:51 mine who have played a lot of sports and had a lot of injuries are like that dude

17:52 had a lot of injuries are like that dude

17:52 had a lot of injuries are like that dude dude have you ever considered that that

17:54 dude have you ever considered that that

17:54 dude have you ever considered that that can also be a symptom so I may be going

17:57 can also be a symptom so I may be going

17:57 can also be a symptom so I may be going back to the doctor just to make sure and

17:59 back to the doctor just to make sure and

17:59 back to the doctor just to make sure and that kind of thing so that's another

18:01 that kind of thing so that's another

18:01 that kind of thing so that's another thing but but knowing that is a good

18:02 thing but but knowing that is a good

18:02 thing but but knowing that is a good thing I hope right like no that could be

18:04 thing I hope right like no that could be

18:04 thing I hope right like no that could be kind of a kind of a symptom anyway my

18:07 kind of a kind of a symptom anyway my

18:07 kind of a kind of a symptom anyway my life is not that bad I don't want you to

18:08 life is not that bad I don't want you to

18:08 life is not that bad I don't want you to think that I'm doing this cuz a whole

18:11 think that I'm doing this cuz a whole

18:11 think that I'm doing this cuz a whole bunch of things to complain about but I

18:12 bunch of things to complain about but I

18:12 bunch of things to complain about but I just realize I haven't talked about

18:14 just realize I haven't talked about

18:14 just realize I haven't talked about what's going on in the personal life for

18:16 what's going on in the personal life for

18:16 what's going on in the personal life for for quite a while other than that you

18:18 for quite a while other than that you

18:18 for quite a while other than that you know the cancer are growing I'm shedding

18:20 know the cancer are growing I'm shedding

18:20 know the cancer are growing I'm shedding fur everywhere and at least doing great

18:23 fur everywhere and at least doing great

18:23 fur everywhere and at least doing great and you know we got a good report card

18:26 and you know we got a good report card

18:26 and you know we got a good report card at the end of the school year for junior

18:29 at the end of the school year for junior

18:29 at the end of the school year for junior there and you know that stuff's pretty

18:31 there and you know that stuff's pretty

18:31 there and you know that stuff's pretty good so there's some good things there's

18:34 good so there's some good things there's

18:34 good so there's some good things there's some bad things some other bad things

18:35 some bad things some other bad things

18:35 some bad things some other bad things going on friends of mine is lives that

18:36 going on friends of mine is lives that

18:36 going on friends of mine is lives that can kind of spill over at family lives

18:38 can kind of spill over at family lives

18:38 can kind of spill over at family lives and you know we have a dog who's sick

18:40 and you know we have a dog who's sick

18:40 and you know we have a dog who's sick that's never a happy thing you know that

18:42 that's never a happy thing you know that

18:42 that's never a happy thing you know that could be a horrible thing yeah just just

18:44 could be a horrible thing yeah just just

18:44 could be a horrible thing yeah just just things like that so yeah it's a balance

18:47 things like that so yeah it's a balance

18:47 things like that so yeah it's a balance there's some bad things going on but

18:48 there's some bad things going on but

18:48 there's some bad things going on but there's some good things going on and I

18:49 there's some good things going on and I

18:49 there's some good things going on and I guess the point I'm really trying to

18:51 guess the point I'm really trying to

18:51 guess the point I'm really trying to make to myself is I'd really like to be

18:53 make to myself is I'd really like to be

18:53 make to myself is I'd really like to be the person who is able to see the good

18:55 the person who is able to see the good

18:55 the person who is able to see the good things also not just see the bad things

18:57 things also not just see the bad things

18:57 things also not just see the bad things and just kind of get sad or bitter or

18:59 and just kind of get sad or bitter or

18:59 and just kind of get sad or bitter or jaded or upset or take it out on other

19:01 jaded or upset or take it out on other

19:01 jaded or upset or take it out on other people even in your own mind

19:03 people even in your own mind

19:03 people even in your own mind and just start looking at everything

19:05 and just start looking at everything

19:05 and just start looking at everything that negatively economists stupid wall

19:06 that negatively economists stupid wall

19:06 that negatively economists stupid wall it's dirty instead of going oh this wall

19:08 it's dirty instead of going oh this wall

19:08 it's dirty instead of going oh this wall over you it's very clean you know you

19:10 over you it's very clean you know you

19:10 over you it's very clean you know you gotta have a mix anyway I hope some of

19:12 gotta have a mix anyway I hope some of

19:12 gotta have a mix anyway I hope some of that rambling kinda made sense I'm

19:15 that rambling kinda made sense I'm

19:15 that rambling kinda made sense I'm wearing my sunglasses indoors because

19:17 wearing my sunglasses indoors because

19:17 wearing my sunglasses indoors because the light is bright my head is really

19:19 the light is bright my head is really

19:19 the light is bright my head is really hurting as you can see from how long

19:20 hurting as you can see from how long

19:20 hurting as you can see from how long this video has gone I've spent a lot

19:22 this video has gone I've spent a lot

19:22 this video has gone I've spent a lot longer in here doing the just 5 minute

19:25 longer in here doing the just 5 minute

19:25 longer in here doing the just 5 minute vlog I thought I was going to do with

19:27 vlog I thought I was going to do with

19:27 vlog I thought I was going to do with you guys but you know what I don't

19:29 you guys but you know what I don't

19:29 you guys but you know what I don't regret it

19:30 regret it

19:30 regret it alright I love you guys I really do

19:32 alright I love you guys I really do

19:32 alright I love you guys I really do honestly I sincerely appreciate every

19:34 honestly I sincerely appreciate every

19:34 honestly I sincerely appreciate every single one of you that watches these

19:35 single one of you that watches these

19:35 single one of you that watches these videos and oh by the way you know what I

19:37 videos and oh by the way you know what I

19:37 videos and oh by the way you know what I really try consciously not to be that

19:40 really try consciously not to be that

19:40 really try consciously not to be that guy that's always like smash the like

19:42 guy that's always like smash the like

19:42 guy that's always like smash the like button comment subscribe

19:50 I don't spam up my videos everywhere hey

19:50 I don't spam up my videos everywhere hey I'm cool you know I'd like to I like the

19:53 I'm cool you know I'd like to I like the

19:53 I'm cool you know I'd like to I like the word of mouth thing I like that if

19:55 word of mouth thing I like that if

19:55 word of mouth thing I like that if someone likes it they share it with

19:56 someone likes it they share it with

19:56 someone likes it they share it with their friend who might also like it

19:58 their friend who might also like it

19:58 their friend who might also like it that's kind of more my speed and every

20:00 that's kind of more my speed and every

20:00 that's kind of more my speed and every once in a while I have to mention that

20:01 once in a while I have to mention that

20:01 once in a while I have to mention that there is a way you can support that with

20:03 there is a way you can support that with

20:03 there is a way you can support that with the patreon thing as little as a dollar

20:04 the patreon thing as little as a dollar

20:04 the patreon thing as little as a dollar a month kind of thing helps those big

20:06 a month kind of thing helps those big

20:07 a month kind of thing helps those big trips and travel and cool places and

20:09 trips and travel and cool places and

20:09 trips and travel and cool places and stuff like now and I do mention

20:11 stuff like now and I do mention

20:11 stuff like now and I do mention sometimes there's HAP toon shirts of

20:12 sometimes there's HAP toon shirts of

20:12 sometimes there's HAP toon shirts of something I was feel kind of awkward

20:13 something I was feel kind of awkward

20:13 something I was feel kind of awkward doing it so I almost never mention the

20:16 doing it so I almost never mention the

20:16 doing it so I almost never mention the stupid valve thing every other person

20:18 stupid valve thing every other person

20:18 stupid valve thing every other person with a youtube channel is always talking

20:20 with a youtube channel is always talking

20:20 with a youtube channel is always talking about the valve but recently a lot of

20:22 about the valve but recently a lot of

20:22 about the valve but recently a lot of people who who are getting notifications

20:25 people who who are getting notifications

20:25 people who who are getting notifications for stuff we're like alright I know you

20:26 for stuff we're like alright I know you

20:26 for stuff we're like alright I know you put out a new video for like a month I'm

20:28 put out a new video for like a month I'm

20:28 put out a new video for like a month I'm not even kidding there's people who have

20:29 not even kidding there's people who have

20:29 not even kidding there's people who have gone to their subscriptions page and

20:31 gone to their subscriptions page and

20:31 gone to their subscriptions page and they haven't seen in they were testing

20:32 they haven't seen in they were testing

20:32 they haven't seen in they were testing different stuff with subscriptions not

20:34 different stuff with subscriptions not

20:34 different stuff with subscriptions not being in order now and YouTube's always

20:36 being in order now and YouTube's always

20:36 being in order now and YouTube's always tweaking stuff so there's this big

20:37 tweaking stuff so there's this big

20:37 tweaking stuff so there's this big glitch that only affected some people

20:39 glitch that only affected some people

20:39 glitch that only affected some people putting up videos I happen to be one of

20:41 putting up videos I happen to be one of

20:41 putting up videos I happen to be one of them and a lot of people are still even

20:43 them and a lot of people are still even

20:43 them and a lot of people are still even today leaving me comments saying I

20:44 today leaving me comments saying I

20:44 today leaving me comments saying I didn't know you put up a video for like

20:45 didn't know you put up a video for like

20:45 didn't know you put up a video for like a whole month so there's that little

20:47 a whole month so there's that little

20:47 a whole month so there's that little bell somewhere if you're watching this

20:49 bell somewhere if you're watching this

20:49 bell somewhere if you're watching this where you can get to the YouTube page

20:51 where you can get to the YouTube page

20:51 where you can get to the YouTube page somewhere there so it's a it's here it's

20:54 somewhere there so it's a it's here it's

20:54 somewhere there so it's a it's here it's here there's a little bow thing and you

20:56 here there's a little bow thing and you

20:56 here there's a little bow thing and you click on it and you can turn on getting

20:59 click on it and you can turn on getting

20:59 click on it and you can turn on getting notifications for the videos on this

21:01 notifications for the videos on this

21:01 notifications for the videos on this channel and like I said not all of them

21:03 channel and like I said not all of them

21:03 channel and like I said not all of them are vloggy like this anymore they're

21:05 are vloggy like this anymore they're

21:05 are vloggy like this anymore they're usually cool crazy adventures and a lot

21:08 usually cool crazy adventures and a lot

21:08 usually cool crazy adventures and a lot of people miss some really good ones the

21:09 of people miss some really good ones the

21:09 of people miss some really good ones the past month we've got some really awesome

21:11 past month we've got some really awesome

21:11 past month we've got some really awesome stuff I went to make garlic

21:13 stuff I went to make garlic

21:13 stuff I went to make garlic themed theme park sorta a lot of food

21:16 themed theme park sorta a lot of food

21:16 themed theme park sorta a lot of food themed rides they're very unusual we

21:18 themed rides they're very unusual we

21:18 themed rides they're very unusual we went to Roswell New Mexico and to see al

21:21 went to Roswell New Mexico and to see al

21:21 went to Roswell New Mexico and to see al yes we went to Billy the kid's grave to

21:23 yes we went to Billy the kid's grave to

21:23 yes we went to Billy the kid's grave to see if there were ghosts we did all

21:25 see if there were ghosts we did all

21:25 see if there were ghosts we did all kinds of stuff well the world's largest

21:26 kinds of stuff well the world's largest

21:26 kinds of stuff well the world's largest chili pepper the world's like a lot of

21:28 chili pepper the world's like a lot of

21:28 chili pepper the world's like a lot of the world's largest a lot of the world's

21:30 the world's largest a lot of the world's

21:30 the world's largest a lot of the world's like we've been back to shore eggs what

21:32 like we've been back to shore eggs what

21:32 like we've been back to shore eggs what I made yeah I do the worst Danish accent

21:35 I made yeah I do the worst Danish accent

21:35 I made yeah I do the worst Danish accent of all the time I really got to work on

21:36 of all the time I really got to work on

21:36 of all the time I really got to work on them maybe I'll go to Denmark but a lot

21:38 them maybe I'll go to Denmark but a lot

21:38 them maybe I'll go to Denmark but a lot of great videos have happened lately so

21:41 of great videos have happened lately so

21:41 of great videos have happened lately so if you missed out on those there's

21:42 if you missed out on those there's

21:42 if you missed out on those there's plenty of those there so if you're sick

21:43 plenty of those there so if you're sick

21:43 plenty of those there so if you're sick of my voice and shaking my face and sick

21:46 of my voice and shaking my face and sick

21:46 of my voice and shaking my face and sick of this storage maybe go check those out

21:47 of this storage maybe go check those out

21:47 of this storage maybe go check those out I guess that's it thank you guys for

21:50 I guess that's it thank you guys for

21:50 I guess that's it thank you guys for watching thank you guys for being

21:51 watching thank you guys for being

21:51 watching thank you guys for being interested I think you guys for

21:52 interested I think you guys for

21:52 interested I think you guys for listening to the weird ramblings that

21:54 listening to the weird ramblings that

21:54 listening to the weird ramblings that come from my unusual brain I love you

21:58 come from my unusual brain I love you

21:58 come from my unusual brain I love you all I appreciate you very very much

22:00 all I appreciate you very very much

22:00 all I appreciate you very very much thank you very much I will see you later

22:02 thank you very much I will see you later

22:02 thank you very much I will see you later Samba minjae for some adventures that

22:06 Samba minjae for some adventures that

22:06 Samba minjae for some adventures that will not be in a hallway so thank you

22:08 will not be in a hallway so thank you

22:08 will not be in a hallway so thank you for watching this

22:08 for watching this

22:08 for watching this sometimes vlog I love you all good that

22:14 sometimes vlog I love you all good that

22:14 sometimes vlog I love you all good that was a terrible goodbye the Hat no no no

22:17 was a terrible goodbye the Hat no no no

22:17 was a terrible goodbye the Hat no no no no no no no no not the Hat what's the

22:20 no no no no no not the Hat what's the

22:20 no no no no no not the Hat what's the point of carrying this around with me if

22:22 point of carrying this around with me if

22:22 point of carrying this around with me if I don't use this who and by the way

22:25 I don't use this who and by the way

22:25 I don't use this who and by the way because I already see I forgot to

22:27 because I already see I forgot to

22:27 because I already see I forgot to mention these these will be on the list

22:29 mention these these will be on the list

22:29 mention these these will be on the list so go to the sometimes mob the Facebook

22:31 so go to the sometimes mob the Facebook

22:31 so go to the sometimes mob the Facebook group or sign up for the pin list you

22:34 group or sign up for the pin list you

22:34 group or sign up for the pin list you know it's an email list that try to see

22:35 know it's an email list that try to see

22:35 know it's an email list that try to see about different stuff it's on the

22:37 about different stuff it's on the

22:37 about different stuff it's on the website Justin Scarr calm and you'll

22:39 website Justin Scarr calm and you'll

22:39 website Justin Scarr calm and you'll figure out where to get one of these

22:40 figure out where to get one of these

22:40 figure out where to get one of these okay bye bye

STV Random Thoughts June 28, 2018

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