I've been thinking... (Q4P)

0:04 look

0:04 look at that

0:07 at that

0:07 at that everyone it's the

0:10 everyone it's the

0:10 everyone it's the monal the

0:12 monal the

0:12 monal the monal the Walt

0:15 monal the Walt

0:15 monal the Walt Disney World

0:18 Disney World

0:18 Disney World montal and isn't it a beautiful site oh

0:23 montal and isn't it a beautiful site oh

0:23 montal and isn't it a beautiful site oh yes we are back at Walt Disney World in

0:26 yes we are back at Walt Disney World in

0:27 yes we are back at Walt Disney World in Epcot as a matter of fact and the way

0:29 Epcot as a matter of fact and the way

0:29 Epcot as a matter of fact and the way you can tell than the Montreal is that

0:31 you can tell than the Montreal is that

0:31 you can tell than the Montreal is that huge ball over there that everyone in

0:33 huge ball over there that everyone in

0:33 huge ball over there that everyone in California Calls the Epcot ball or the

0:37 California Calls the Epcot ball or the

0:37 California Calls the Epcot ball or the giant golf ball but is actually known as

0:41 giant golf ball but is actually known as

0:41 giant golf ball but is actually known as spaceship earth it's the sometimes Vlog

0:46 spaceship earth it's the sometimes Vlog

0:46 spaceship earth it's the sometimes Vlog it's a vlog that happens sometimes look

0:47 it's a vlog that happens sometimes look

0:47 it's a vlog that happens sometimes look at this everybody look at this it's

0:51 at this everybody look at this it's

0:51 at this everybody look at this it's seriously like 70 something degrees out

0:53 seriously like 70 something degrees out

0:53 seriously like 70 something degrees out here it's wonderful it's beautiful it's

0:56 here it's wonderful it's beautiful it's

0:56 here it's wonderful it's beautiful it's sunny and I am so

1:00 sunny and I am so

1:00 sunny and I am so happy for Southern California for

1:03 happy for Southern California for

1:03 happy for Southern California for Southern California let me preface this

1:04 Southern California let me preface this

1:04 Southern California let me preface this by saying for Southern California it has

1:07 by saying for Southern California it has

1:07 by saying for Southern California it has been really really really cold lately

1:10 been really really really cold lately

1:10 been really really really cold lately like I know that it's winter time and

1:12 like I know that it's winter time and

1:12 like I know that it's winter time and all that kind of stuff but January and

1:14 all that kind of stuff but January and

1:14 all that kind of stuff but January and February uh well I guess I wasn't in

1:16 February uh well I guess I wasn't in

1:16 February uh well I guess I wasn't in California in February really but

1:17 California in February really but

1:17 California in February really but January was so cold in California for

1:19 January was so cold in California for

1:19 January was so cold in California for some reason and then I kept going places

1:21 some reason and then I kept going places

1:21 some reason and then I kept going places like in December I kept going to France

1:24 like in December I kept going to France

1:24 like in December I kept going to France and uh I would go to Nevada and I just

1:26 and uh I would go to Nevada and I just

1:26 and uh I would go to Nevada and I just kept going to all these places where it

1:27 kept going to all these places where it

1:27 kept going to all these places where it was 30° or so I know it if you're in

1:30 was 30° or so I know it if you're in

1:30 was 30° or so I know it if you're in Minnesota and it's -20 you're way colder

1:33 Minnesota and it's -20 you're way colder

1:33 Minnesota and it's -20 you're way colder than I am but it doesn't make me any

1:34 than I am but it doesn't make me any

1:34 than I am but it doesn't make me any warmer knowing that you're a little

1:35 warmer knowing that you're a little

1:36 warmer knowing that you're a little colder but I've just been so cold just a

1:37 colder but I've just been so cold just a

1:37 colder but I've just been so cold just a little cold just a little uncomfortable

1:39 little cold just a little uncomfortable

1:39 little cold just a little uncomfortable and a little cold and so for me a

1:42 and a little cold and so for me a

1:42 and a little cold and so for me a Southern California by birth and

1:44 Southern California by birth and

1:44 Southern California by birth and upbringing it is wonderful to be

1:46 upbringing it is wonderful to be

1:46 upbringing it is wonderful to be standing in 70 or

1:48 standing in 70 or

1:48 standing in 70 or 80° in Florida I have been thinking

1:51 80° in Florida I have been thinking

1:51 80° in Florida I have been thinking there's no pressure to spend seven or8

1:53 there's no pressure to spend seven or8

1:53 there's no pressure to spend seven or8 hours have been oh this man's having a

1:55 hours have been oh this man's having a

1:55 hours have been oh this man's having a very serious conversation and I want to

1:56 very serious conversation and I want to

1:56 very serious conversation and I want to have a serious conversation too I've

1:58 have a serious conversation too I've

1:58 have a serious conversation too I've been thinking yes a dangerous Pastime

2:01 been thinking yes a dangerous Pastime

2:01 been thinking yes a dangerous Pastime indeed I know last night I was on the

2:05 indeed I know last night I was on the

2:05 indeed I know last night I was on the ferry boat uh well actually I ran into

2:07 ferry boat uh well actually I ran into

2:07 ferry boat uh well actually I ran into him earlier but I was on the boat for

2:10 him earlier but I was on the boat for

2:10 him earlier but I was on the boat for Magic Kingdom and I was thinking about

2:11 Magic Kingdom and I was thinking about

2:11 Magic Kingdom and I was thinking about this on the boat because I saw another

2:13 this on the boat because I saw another

2:13 this on the boat because I saw another guy again I ran into this guy yesterday

2:16 guy again I ran into this guy yesterday

2:16 guy again I ran into this guy yesterday who was talking to me like oh yeah the

2:18 who was talking to me like oh yeah the

2:18 who was talking to me like oh yeah the videos and all this stuff talking to me

2:19 videos and all this stuff talking to me

2:19 videos and all this stuff talking to me about my YouTube videos and if you don't

2:20 about my YouTube videos and if you don't

2:20 about my YouTube videos and if you don't know I make YouTube videos and YouTube

2:23 know I make YouTube videos and YouTube

2:23 know I make YouTube videos and YouTube vide accessories like Snapchat and

2:25 vide accessories like Snapchat and

2:25 vide accessories like Snapchat and Instagram and do all kinds of wonderful

2:26 Instagram and do all kinds of wonderful

2:26 Instagram and do all kinds of wonderful things I'm like a street performer like

2:28 things I'm like a street performer like

2:28 things I'm like a street performer like I stand there and juggle and some times

2:30 I stand there and juggle and some times

2:30 I stand there and juggle and some times people put a little tip in the Hat and

2:31 people put a little tip in the Hat and

2:31 people put a little tip in the Hat and that is how I work and make my livings

2:33 that is how I work and make my livings

2:34 that is how I work and make my livings not in the face that's how I make my

2:35 not in the face that's how I make my

2:35 not in the face that's how I make my living anyway I was talking to this guy

2:37 living anyway I was talking to this guy

2:37 living anyway I was talking to this guy who recognized me and we're having this

2:39 who recognized me and we're having this

2:39 who recognized me and we're having this whole conversation he likes Disneyland

2:40 whole conversation he likes Disneyland

2:40 whole conversation he likes Disneyland he likes Disney World he goes back and

2:41 he likes Disney World he goes back and

2:42 he likes Disney World he goes back and forth too so he's familiar with both

2:43 forth too so he's familiar with both

2:43 forth too so he's familiar with both parks we're talking about different

2:44 parks we're talking about different

2:44 parks we're talking about different stuff and he was actually brought up

2:46 stuff and he was actually brought up

2:46 stuff and he was actually brought up something that started this whole this

2:50 something that started this whole this

2:50 something that started this whole this whole train of thought last night for me

2:51 whole train of thought last night for me

2:51 whole train of thought last night for me on the ferry boat from Magic Kingdom

2:53 on the ferry boat from Magic Kingdom

2:53 on the ferry boat from Magic Kingdom over the lake there that uh was really

2:56 over the lake there that uh was really

2:56 over the lake there that uh was really interesting and that is that this guy

2:58 interesting and that is that this guy

2:58 interesting and that is that this guy lost his job J he had a very good solid

3:01 lost his job J he had a very good solid

3:01 lost his job J he had a very good solid job and this guy lost his job it was my

3:04 job and this guy lost his job it was my

3:04 job and this guy lost his job it was my first night here in Walt Disney World I

3:06 first night here in Walt Disney World I

3:06 first night here in Walt Disney World I was very jetl I was very tired you can

3:08 was very jetl I was very tired you can

3:08 was very jetl I was very tired you can see that last night on the Vlog I was

3:09 see that last night on the Vlog I was

3:09 see that last night on the Vlog I was getting a little sleepy Sleepless I was

3:11 getting a little sleepy Sleepless I was

3:11 getting a little sleepy Sleepless I was going crazy losing my mind I feel a

3:14 going crazy losing my mind I feel a

3:14 going crazy losing my mind I feel a little better now starting to catch up

3:15 little better now starting to catch up

3:15 little better now starting to catch up still a little jetl but I'm catching up

3:17 still a little jetl but I'm catching up

3:17 still a little jetl but I'm catching up anyway I'm super tired I'm sitting there

3:19 anyway I'm super tired I'm sitting there

3:19 anyway I'm super tired I'm sitting there listening to this guy as I'm thinking

3:20 listening to this guy as I'm thinking

3:20 listening to this guy as I'm thinking like I got all this stuff to do and I'm

3:21 like I got all this stuff to do and I'm

3:21 like I got all this stuff to do and I'm ready to do all this crazy stuff at

3:22 ready to do all this crazy stuff at

3:22 ready to do all this crazy stuff at Disney World and all this stuff I'm so

3:24 Disney World and all this stuff I'm so

3:24 Disney World and all this stuff I'm so tired I got to get going and this guy

3:25 tired I got to get going and this guy

3:25 tired I got to get going and this guy talks about how he just lost his job but

3:29 talks about how he just lost his job but

3:29 talks about how he just lost his job but instead of you know stressing out and

3:31 instead of you know stressing out and

3:31 instead of you know stressing out and looking for a new job he's at Disney

3:33 looking for a new job he's at Disney

3:33 looking for a new job he's at Disney World he decided that since he lost his

3:35 World he decided that since he lost his

3:35 World he decided that since he lost his job he was going to go here in between

3:37 job he was going to go here in between

3:37 job he was going to go here in between and he brought all the stuff up about

3:39 and he brought all the stuff up about

3:39 and he brought all the stuff up about the Quest for positivity if you don't

3:40 the Quest for positivity if you don't

3:41 the Quest for positivity if you don't know what the Quest for positivity is I

3:43 know what the Quest for positivity is I

3:43 know what the Quest for positivity is I got uh went through a very very bad

3:45 got uh went through a very very bad

3:45 got uh went through a very very bad breakup and divorce after a more than

3:47 breakup and divorce after a more than

3:47 breakup and divorce after a more than 10year marriage and was pretty much left

3:50 10year marriage and was pretty much left

3:50 10year marriage and was pretty much left to my own devices at age 30 31 with no

3:54 to my own devices at age 30 31 with no

3:54 to my own devices at age 30 31 with no job skills no nothing my family

3:57 job skills no nothing my family

3:57 job skills no nothing my family destroyed my life in tatters and I had

3:59 destroyed my life in tatters and I had

3:59 destroyed my life in tatters and I had to do something because I was going to

4:01 to do something because I was going to

4:01 to do something because I was going to lose my mind the stress and the

4:03 lose my mind the stress and the

4:03 lose my mind the stress and the uncertainty and the trauma and all the

4:05 uncertainty and the trauma and all the

4:05 uncertainty and the trauma and all the things I had been through was really

4:07 things I had been through was really

4:07 things I had been through was really honestly just I was going to crack up

4:09 honestly just I was going to crack up

4:09 honestly just I was going to crack up and lose it and I had to go on a quest

4:14 and lose it and I had to go on a quest

4:14 and lose it and I had to go on a quest for positivity there's nothing to be

4:15 for positivity there's nothing to be

4:15 for positivity there's nothing to be positive about I really was trying to

4:16 positive about I really was trying to

4:16 positive about I really was trying to take stock and think I got nothing to be

4:19 take stock and think I got nothing to be

4:19 take stock and think I got nothing to be happy about I have nothing to look

4:20 happy about I have nothing to look

4:20 happy about I have nothing to look forward to and I just had to take

4:22 forward to and I just had to take

4:22 forward to and I just had to take control of my situation in that I

4:25 control of my situation in that I

4:25 control of my situation in that I realized I couldn't control my

4:26 realized I couldn't control my

4:26 realized I couldn't control my circumstances I couldn't control the bad

4:28 circumstances I couldn't control the bad

4:28 circumstances I couldn't control the bad things that had happened to me I I

4:29 things that had happened to me I I

4:29 things that had happened to me I I couldn't control the decisions that

4:31 couldn't control the decisions that

4:31 couldn't control the decisions that other people had made that had affected

4:32 other people had made that had affected

4:32 other people had made that had affected me and really brought me down low but I

4:35 me and really brought me down low but I

4:35 me and really brought me down low but I could control as much as I was able to I

4:37 could control as much as I was able to I

4:37 could control as much as I was able to I could try to take control of my reaction

4:39 could try to take control of my reaction

4:39 could try to take control of my reaction to the situation I could try to be

4:41 to the situation I could try to be

4:41 to the situation I could try to be responsible for my own happiness and

4:43 responsible for my own happiness and

4:43 responsible for my own happiness and build some kind of new future and new

4:45 build some kind of new future and new

4:45 build some kind of new future and new happiness and try to see the good in

4:47 happiness and try to see the good in

4:47 happiness and try to see the good in everything that I can obviously there's

4:50 everything that I can obviously there's

4:50 everything that I can obviously there's not always good in everything not always

4:52 not always good in everything not always

4:52 not always good in everything not always honestly and uh obviously some things

4:54 honestly and uh obviously some things

4:54 honestly and uh obviously some things just super suck so it was never about

4:57 just super suck so it was never about

4:57 just super suck so it was never about and this is to clarify too it was never

4:58 and this is to clarify too it was never

4:58 and this is to clarify too it was never about pretending that everything is

5:00 about pretending that everything is

5:00 about pretending that everything is great all the time it is never about

5:02 great all the time it is never about

5:02 great all the time it is never about saying that I am positive and super

5:04 saying that I am positive and super

5:04 saying that I am positive and super perfect and that I will always do

5:05 perfect and that I will always do

5:05 perfect and that I will always do everything that makes everyone else

5:07 everything that makes everyone else

5:07 everything that makes everyone else positive only no of course I will make

5:09 positive only no of course I will make

5:09 positive only no of course I will make people grumpy sometimes I go too far

5:11 people grumpy sometimes I go too far

5:11 people grumpy sometimes I go too far with jokes and make fun of things I

5:13 with jokes and make fun of things I

5:13 with jokes and make fun of things I shouldn't sometimes I'm a little

5:15 shouldn't sometimes I'm a little

5:15 shouldn't sometimes I'm a little sarcastic too sometimes I get a little

5:16 sarcastic too sometimes I get a little

5:16 sarcastic too sometimes I get a little cranky and uh I can be a

5:24 little is that scary I'm sorry I didn't

5:24 little is that scary I'm sorry I didn't mean to scare I didn't mean I didn't

5:25 mean to scare I didn't mean I didn't

5:25 mean to scare I didn't mean I didn't mean to scare anyone but uh but no it

5:29 mean to scare anyone but uh but no it

5:29 mean to scare anyone but uh but no it was about trying to take control of my

5:32 was about trying to take control of my

5:32 was about trying to take control of my own negative attitude and forcing myself

5:34 own negative attitude and forcing myself

5:35 own negative attitude and forcing myself really a quest a really long hard

5:36 really a quest a really long hard

5:36 really a quest a really long hard struggle and a long hard fight to find

5:38 struggle and a long hard fight to find

5:38 struggle and a long hard fight to find something to be positive about well this

5:42 something to be positive about well this

5:42 something to be positive about well this guy just lost his job so he was bringing

5:44 guy just lost his job so he was bringing

5:44 guy just lost his job so he was bringing up the Quest for positivity and how it

5:46 up the Quest for positivity and how it

5:46 up the Quest for positivity and how it inspired him and how he was going to you

5:48 inspired him and how he was going to you

5:48 inspired him and how he was going to you know that he noticed that by being

5:50 know that he noticed that by being

5:50 know that he noticed that by being positive and looking for the good in

5:52 positive and looking for the good in

5:52 positive and looking for the good in things and trying to be calm and look on

5:54 things and trying to be calm and look on

5:54 things and trying to be calm and look on the bright side that it was really

5:55 the bright side that it was really

5:55 the bright side that it was really affecting his decision- making and

5:57 affecting his decision- making and

5:57 affecting his decision- making and making him see the world in a different

5:58 making him see the world in a different

5:58 making him see the world in a different way and Mak makes you make better

6:00 way and Mak makes you make better

6:00 way and Mak makes you make better decisions it lets you see new

6:01 decisions it lets you see new

6:01 decisions it lets you see new possibilities and opportunities or if

6:03 possibilities and opportunities or if

6:03 possibilities and opportunities or if you were just going around being

6:04 you were just going around being

6:04 you were just going around being pessimistic I lost my job my life's over

6:05 pessimistic I lost my job my life's over

6:06 pessimistic I lost my job my life's over what am I going to do what am I going to

6:06 what am I going to do what am I going to

6:06 what am I going to do what am I going to do what am I going to do you wouldn't

6:08 do what am I going to do you wouldn't

6:08 do what am I going to do you wouldn't even be thinking outside the box you'd

6:09 even be thinking outside the box you'd

6:09 even be thinking outside the box you'd be thinking inside the box and I started

6:12 be thinking inside the box and I started

6:12 be thinking inside the box and I started thinking and this has kind of been a

6:13 thinking and this has kind of been a

6:13 thinking and this has kind of been a running theme a little bit lately mostly

6:16 running theme a little bit lately mostly

6:16 running theme a little bit lately mostly just cuz the years end and stuff I

6:17 just cuz the years end and stuff I

6:17 just cuz the years end and stuff I started thinking about a year ago in my

6:18 started thinking about a year ago in my

6:18 started thinking about a year ago in my life I really had no clue that I would

6:21 life I really had no clue that I would

6:21 life I really had no clue that I would be here at Disney World for what the

6:23 be here at Disney World for what the

6:23 be here at Disney World for what the fourth or fifth time now this in the

6:26 fourth or fifth time now this in the

6:26 fourth or fifth time now this in the past

6:27 past

6:27 past year looking at this beautiful sitting

6:30 year looking at this beautiful sitting

6:30 year looking at this beautiful sitting in 70° in the

6:33 in 70° in the

6:33 in 70° in the winter feeling all warm and cozy and

6:36 winter feeling all warm and cozy and

6:36 winter feeling all warm and cozy and good I had no idea that honestly

6:38 good I had no idea that honestly

6:38 good I had no idea that honestly anything good would ever happen in my

6:40 anything good would ever happen in my

6:40 anything good would ever happen in my life again for real I didn't and the

6:42 life again for real I didn't and the

6:42 life again for real I didn't and the only reason that I think anything good

6:44 only reason that I think anything good

6:44 only reason that I think anything good did happen is because I didn't lose it I

6:46 did happen is because I didn't lose it I

6:46 did happen is because I didn't lose it I kept it together just enough and it

6:48 kept it together just enough and it

6:48 kept it together just enough and it wasn't just me either a lot of people

6:49 wasn't just me either a lot of people

6:49 wasn't just me either a lot of people contributed to this including you uh

6:52 contributed to this including you uh

6:52 contributed to this including you uh literally seriously and I'm extremely

6:54 literally seriously and I'm extremely

6:54 literally seriously and I'm extremely grateful for every single person who

6:55 grateful for every single person who

6:55 grateful for every single person who watch the videos who comments who

6:57 watch the videos who comments who

6:57 watch the videos who comments who subscribes who leaves a positive

6:59 subscribes who leaves a positive

6:59 subscribes who leaves a positive feedback who's bought t-shirts donated

7:01 feedback who's bought t-shirts donated

7:01 feedback who's bought t-shirts donated on patreon done all this crazy stuff it

7:04 on patreon done all this crazy stuff it

7:04 on patreon done all this crazy stuff it really keeps me going and the fact that

7:05 really keeps me going and the fact that

7:05 really keeps me going and the fact that I've made anybody happy or entertained

7:07 I've made anybody happy or entertained

7:07 I've made anybody happy or entertained anyone to the smallest

7:09 anyone to the smallest

7:09 anyone to the smallest degree really is my honor and I'm

7:12 degree really is my honor and I'm

7:12 degree really is my honor and I'm actually getting all choked up right now

7:14 actually getting all choked up right now

7:14 actually getting all choked up right now you can't see cuz the sunglasses than

7:15 you can't see cuz the sunglasses than

7:15 you can't see cuz the sunglasses than God but it gets me a little Misty eyed

7:18 God but it gets me a little Misty eyed

7:18 God but it gets me a little Misty eyed and teary eyed when I think about it

7:19 and teary eyed when I think about it

7:19 and teary eyed when I think about it because I owe a lot to you guys for real

7:22 because I owe a lot to you guys for real

7:22 because I owe a lot to you guys for real but I started thinking that this guy

7:23 but I started thinking that this guy

7:23 but I started thinking that this guy just lost his job he's going through it

7:25 just lost his job he's going through it

7:25 just lost his job he's going through it right like when you're down man it's

7:28 right like when you're down man it's

7:28 right like when you're down man it's really easy

7:30 really easy

7:30 really easy like they always say there's no atheist

7:32 like they always say there's no atheist

7:32 like they always say there's no atheist in foxholes right that figure is a

7:34 in foxholes right that figure is a

7:34 in foxholes right that figure is a figure of speech there's no atheist in

7:36 figure of speech there's no atheist in

7:36 figure of speech there's no atheist in foxholes so if you're in the trenches

7:38 foxholes so if you're in the trenches

7:38 foxholes so if you're in the trenches you're in a war and there are bullets

7:39 you're in a war and there are bullets

7:39 you're in a war and there are bullets flying overhead and all bombs going off

7:41 flying overhead and all bombs going off

7:41 flying overhead and all bombs going off everybody prays right that's the old

7:44 everybody prays right that's the old

7:44 everybody prays right that's the old expression and uh even if you're not

7:46 expression and uh even if you're not

7:46 expression and uh even if you're not literally not an atheist anymore cuz

7:49 literally not an atheist anymore cuz

7:49 literally not an atheist anymore cuz maybe you're super hardcore and I'm not

7:50 maybe you're super hardcore and I'm not

7:50 maybe you're super hardcore and I'm not talking about religion here this is what

7:51 talking about religion here this is what

7:52 talking about religion here this is what I'm trying to say not talking about

7:53 I'm trying to say not talking about

7:53 I'm trying to say not talking about religion but let's use the metaphor and

7:55 religion but let's use the metaphor and

7:55 religion but let's use the metaphor and go with it when times are really bad

7:57 go with it when times are really bad

7:57 go with it when times are really bad when you're really struggling when

7:59 when you're really struggling when

7:59 when you're really struggling when things are really hard boy these flowers

8:00 things are really hard boy these flowers

8:00 things are really hard boy these flowers are beautiful uh when things are really

8:02 are beautiful uh when things are really

8:02 are beautiful uh when things are really hard it's really easy to go all right I

8:06 hard it's really easy to go all right I

8:06 hard it's really easy to go all right I got to look on the bright side I mean

8:08 got to look on the bright side I mean

8:08 got to look on the bright side I mean know it's not easy but it's easier to go

8:11 know it's not easy but it's easier to go

8:11 know it's not easy but it's easier to go I'm going to force myself to like you

8:12 I'm going to force myself to like you

8:12 I'm going to force myself to like you know work out or be proactive about my

8:14 know work out or be proactive about my

8:14 know work out or be proactive about my life because otherwise I'll lose it but

8:17 life because otherwise I'll lose it but

8:17 life because otherwise I'll lose it but what happens when things aren't that bad

8:20 what happens when things aren't that bad

8:20 what happens when things aren't that bad like when we get into normal life like

8:22 like when we get into normal life like

8:22 like when we get into normal life like right now like I'm traveling and stuff

8:24 right now like I'm traveling and stuff

8:24 right now like I'm traveling and stuff and it's become sort of normal to me to

8:25 and it's become sort of normal to me to

8:25 and it's become sort of normal to me to travel around and do all this stuff and

8:26 travel around and do all this stuff and

8:26 travel around and do all this stuff and I'm always thinking about what the

8:27 I'm always thinking about what the

8:27 I'm always thinking about what the videos I'm thinking about what videos

8:29 videos I'm thinking about what videos

8:29 videos I'm thinking about what videos come next so I'm not like enjoying

8:30 come next so I'm not like enjoying

8:30 come next so I'm not like enjoying myself or on a vacation or here Doling

8:33 myself or on a vacation or here Doling

8:33 myself or on a vacation or here Doling and twilling my thumbs and just having a

8:35 and twilling my thumbs and just having a

8:35 and twilling my thumbs and just having a good time I'm like thinking okay what

8:36 good time I'm like thinking okay what

8:37 good time I'm like thinking okay what what about this and what about this what

8:38 what about this and what about this what

8:38 what about this and what about this what can I share and what can I do and who am

8:39 can I share and what can I do and who am

8:39 can I share and what can I do and who am I going to meet and whose hands am I

8:40 I going to meet and whose hands am I

8:40 I going to meet and whose hands am I going to shake and what kind of Vlogs

8:41 going to shake and what kind of Vlogs

8:41 going to shake and what kind of Vlogs and this and that what are my plans when

8:43 and this and that what are my plans when

8:43 and this and that what are my plans when I get

8:44 I get

8:44 I get home and I realized something from

8:46 home and I realized something from

8:46 home and I realized something from talking to that guy that it's really

8:47 talking to that guy that it's really

8:47 talking to that guy that it's really easy no atheist and foxholes to be all

8:50 easy no atheist and foxholes to be all

8:50 easy no atheist and foxholes to be all crazy and gung-ho on the Quest for

8:52 crazy and gung-ho on the Quest for

8:52 crazy and gung-ho on the Quest for positivity when times are tough or bad

8:53 positivity when times are tough or bad

8:53 positivity when times are tough or bad you're stressed out you're feeling a lot

8:55 you're stressed out you're feeling a lot

8:55 you're stressed out you're feeling a lot of anxiety which by the way I have been

8:56 of anxiety which by the way I have been

8:56 of anxiety which by the way I have been feeling a lot of anxiety lately super

8:58 feeling a lot of anxiety lately super

8:58 feeling a lot of anxiety lately super weird prob unrelated know for no reason

9:01 weird prob unrelated know for no reason

9:01 weird prob unrelated know for no reason either just like getting anxious

9:04 either just like getting anxious

9:04 either just like getting anxious but when times are okay even not even

9:07 but when times are okay even not even

9:07 but when times are okay even not even good but just okay we tend to gloss over

9:11 good but just okay we tend to gloss over

9:11 good but just okay we tend to gloss over the good and really magnify the bad

9:16 the good and really magnify the bad

9:16 the good and really magnify the bad right and I'm standing over here in this

9:17 right and I'm standing over here in this

9:17 right and I'm standing over here in this weird awkward corner by the way and not

9:18 weird awkward corner by the way and not

9:18 weird awkward corner by the way and not walking around a little more because

9:19 walking around a little more because

9:19 walking around a little more because it's very windy but it seems to have

9:21 it's very windy but it seems to have

9:21 it's very windy but it seems to have dive down so maybe we'll walk on this

9:22 dive down so maybe we'll walk on this

9:22 dive down so maybe we'll walk on this little path right behind

9:24 little path right behind

9:24 little path right behind me sorry this is the old Odyssey

9:27 me sorry this is the old Odyssey

9:27 me sorry this is the old Odyssey Restaurant which has been like empty for

9:28 Restaurant which has been like empty for

9:28 Restaurant which has been like empty for a long long time except for use during

9:31 a long long time except for use during

9:31 a long long time except for use during Food and Wine Festival and other things

9:33 Food and Wine Festival and other things

9:33 Food and Wine Festival and other things these are for different things look at

9:34 these are for different things look at

9:34 these are for different things look at that old school Epcot logo very 8s

9:36 that old school Epcot logo very 8s

9:36 that old school Epcot logo very 8s restaurant here on the water and this

9:39 restaurant here on the water and this

9:39 restaurant here on the water and this walkway over here you see world showcase

9:41 walkway over here you see world showcase

9:41 walkway over here you see world showcase there's all the countries Epcot and over

9:43 there's all the countries Epcot and over

9:43 there's all the countries Epcot and over here future world and so here's this

9:45 here future world and so here's this

9:45 here future world and so here's this weird walkway Between Two Worlds as it

9:48 weird walkway Between Two Worlds as it

9:48 weird walkway Between Two Worlds as it were underneath the Montreal tracks

9:50 were underneath the Montreal tracks

9:50 were underneath the Montreal tracks looking at spaceship earth so there's a

9:52 looking at spaceship earth so there's a

9:52 looking at spaceship earth so there's a little context for where we're standing

9:54 little context for where we're standing

9:54 little context for where we're standing in this beautiful beautiful place and I

9:56 in this beautiful beautiful place and I

9:56 in this beautiful beautiful place and I realize there's a lot of Disney World to

9:57 realize there's a lot of Disney World to

9:57 realize there's a lot of Disney World to see and I should probably be vlogging

9:59 see and I should probably be vlogging

9:59 see and I should probably be vlogging about that today hello but instead I

10:02 about that today hello but instead I

10:02 about that today hello but instead I just have these thoughts and I really

10:03 just have these thoughts and I really

10:03 just have these thoughts and I really wanted to share them uh it's really

10:06 wanted to share them uh it's really

10:06 wanted to share them uh it's really really easy to just skip over everything

10:08 really easy to just skip over everything

10:08 really easy to just skip over everything so for example I'm at Disney World I was

10:11 so for example I'm at Disney World I was

10:11 so for example I'm at Disney World I was here last night and granted I was jet

10:12 here last night and granted I was jet

10:12 here last night and granted I was jet lag and tired and stuff but it's really

10:14 lag and tired and stuff but it's really

10:14 lag and tired and stuff but it's really easy I do this all the time I'll be in

10:16 easy I do this all the time I'll be in

10:16 easy I do this all the time I'll be in it doesn't matter where you are I'll be

10:17 it doesn't matter where you are I'll be

10:17 it doesn't matter where you are I'll be in the craziest happiest place on Earth

10:19 in the craziest happiest place on Earth

10:19 in the craziest happiest place on Earth and I'll be stressed and I'll be

10:21 and I'll be stressed and I'll be

10:21 and I'll be stressed and I'll be thinking of everything that's wrong and

10:23 thinking of everything that's wrong and

10:23 thinking of everything that's wrong and everything that I'm stressed out about

10:25 everything that I'm stressed out about

10:25 everything that I'm stressed out about and every person who said a negative

10:26 and every person who said a negative

10:26 and every person who said a negative thing to me and every thumbs down on a

10:27 thing to me and every thumbs down on a

10:27 thing to me and every thumbs down on a video and every bad comment and every

10:30 video and every bad comment and every

10:30 video and every bad comment and every frustrating thing my friends did and

10:32 frustrating thing my friends did and

10:32 frustrating thing my friends did and people will go yeah well it's really

10:34 people will go yeah well it's really

10:34 people will go yeah well it's really annoying when somebody else brings up no

10:36 annoying when somebody else brings up no

10:36 annoying when somebody else brings up no matter what's wrong I mean you could

10:37 matter what's wrong I mean you could

10:37 matter what's wrong I mean you could step your toe and people go but at least

10:38 step your toe and people go but at least

10:38 step your toe and people go but at least you're a millionaire and you could be

10:39 you're a millionaire and you could be

10:40 you're a millionaire and you could be like shut up you know that's obnoxious

10:42 like shut up you know that's obnoxious

10:42 like shut up you know that's obnoxious but it there is a point to that because

10:45 but it there is a point to that because

10:45 but it there is a point to that because we tend to gloss over the positives like

10:48 we tend to gloss over the positives like

10:48 we tend to gloss over the positives like if you really think about it today is

10:49 if you really think about it today is

10:49 if you really think about it today is probably an average day for most of you

10:51 probably an average day for most of you

10:51 probably an average day for most of you you're probably just going about your

10:52 you're probably just going about your

10:52 you're probably just going about your business going to work doing whatever

10:53 business going to work doing whatever

10:53 business going to work doing whatever and you're probably doing exactly what

10:55 and you're probably doing exactly what

10:55 and you're probably doing exactly what I'm talking about which is magnifying

10:57 I'm talking about which is magnifying

10:57 I'm talking about which is magnifying all the stresses oh hold on let's just

10:58 all the stresses oh hold on let's just

10:58 all the stresses oh hold on let's just take and appreciate this hold on look at

11:01 take and appreciate this hold on look at

11:01 take and appreciate this hold on look at this thing I love

11:05 this thing I love

11:05 this thing I love love love the mon rails here they're so

11:09 love love the mon rails here they're so

11:09 love love the mon rails here they're so cool me they're like mac trucks they're

11:12 cool me they're like mac trucks they're

11:12 cool me they're like mac trucks they're so mighty and big and practical and just

11:16 so mighty and big and practical and just

11:16 so mighty and big and practical and just gorgeous looking look at that that is a

11:19 gorgeous looking look at that that is a

11:19 gorgeous looking look at that that is a jaw-droppingly beautiful inspiring thing

11:22 jaw-droppingly beautiful inspiring thing

11:22 jaw-droppingly beautiful inspiring thing right there Walt Disney was truly a

11:25 right there Walt Disney was truly a

11:25 right there Walt Disney was truly a Visionary anyways we tend to Glass over

11:28 Visionary anyways we tend to Glass over

11:28 Visionary anyways we tend to Glass over the positiv and F on the negatives that

11:30 the positiv and F on the negatives that

11:30 the positiv and F on the negatives that goes without saying almost so everybody

11:32 goes without saying almost so everybody

11:32 goes without saying almost so everybody knows yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah but it's

11:34 knows yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah but it's

11:34 knows yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah but it's really important uh I always said this

11:36 really important uh I always said this

11:36 really important uh I always said this when I was really in distress and this

11:38 when I was really in distress and this

11:38 when I was really in distress and this really really worked when I was

11:40 really really worked when I was

11:40 really really worked when I was distressed and super negative and it was

11:41 distressed and super negative and it was

11:41 distressed and super negative and it was like wow I don't know how I'm going to

11:43 like wow I don't know how I'm going to

11:43 like wow I don't know how I'm going to eat this week and I don't know where I'm

11:45 eat this week and I don't know where I'm

11:45 eat this week and I don't know where I'm going to live and I don't know what's

11:47 going to live and I don't know what's

11:47 going to live and I don't know what's going to happen to me and all this stuff

11:49 going to happen to me and all this stuff

11:49 going to happen to me and all this stuff and there's divorce paperwork and

11:50 and there's divorce paperwork and

11:50 and there's divorce paperwork and lawyers and crazy stuff and you know I

11:52 lawyers and crazy stuff and you know I

11:52 lawyers and crazy stuff and you know I don't get to see my kid and all this

11:54 don't get to see my kid and all this

11:54 don't get to see my kid and all this crazy things were happening to me in my

11:55 crazy things were happening to me in my

11:55 crazy things were happening to me in my life that were just out of control and I

11:57 life that were just out of control and I

11:57 life that were just out of control and I was spiraling and just not knowing how

11:59 was spiraling and just not knowing how

11:59 was spiraling and just not knowing how to deal with it it was really really

12:01 to deal with it it was really really

12:01 to deal with it it was really really easy for me to put my own advice into

12:04 easy for me to put my own advice into

12:04 easy for me to put my own advice into practice and go okay you really need to

12:06 practice and go okay you really need to

12:06 practice and go okay you really need to take stock of what you're grateful for

12:09 take stock of what you're grateful for

12:09 take stock of what you're grateful for and every therapist in the world and

12:10 and every therapist in the world and

12:10 and every therapist in the world and every psychologist and every advice book

12:12 every psychologist and every advice book

12:12 every psychologist and every advice book in the world will tell you that take

12:14 in the world will tell you that take

12:14 in the world will tell you that take stock of what you're grateful for count

12:15 stock of what you're grateful for count

12:15 stock of what you're grateful for count your blessings that type of thing and

12:17 your blessings that type of thing and

12:17 your blessings that type of thing and it's really easy to honestly do that but

12:19 it's really easy to honestly do that but

12:19 it's really easy to honestly do that but you have to force yourself to do it you

12:20 you have to force yourself to do it you

12:20 you have to force yourself to do it you have to okay I'm actually going to sit

12:21 have to okay I'm actually going to sit

12:21 have to okay I'm actually going to sit here and think about it well when you're

12:23 here and think about it well when you're

12:23 here and think about it well when you're kind of positive when you're having your

12:24 kind of positive when you're having your

12:24 kind of positive when you're having your average day today you're not doing that

12:27 average day today you're not doing that

12:27 average day today you're not doing that and if somebody were to remind you when

12:28 and if somebody were to remind you when

12:28 and if somebody were to remind you when you get stressed out let's say you're

12:29 you get stressed out let's say you're

12:29 you get stressed out let's say you're stressed out about something relatively

12:31 stressed out about something relatively

12:31 stressed out about something relatively little I need new tires oh my gosh it's

12:33 little I need new tires oh my gosh it's

12:33 little I need new tires oh my gosh it's going to cost $500 I have $200 in the

12:34 going to cost $500 I have $200 in the

12:34 going to cost $500 I have $200 in the bank I have no idea how I'm going to get

12:35 bank I have no idea how I'm going to get

12:36 bank I have no idea how I'm going to get new tires being positive is not going to

12:38 new tires being positive is not going to

12:38 new tires being positive is not going to help you get the money in your bank

12:40 help you get the money in your bank

12:40 help you get the money in your bank account for tires I totally trust me I

12:43 account for tires I totally trust me I

12:43 account for tires I totally trust me I need some tires too trust me I

12:45 need some tires too trust me I

12:45 need some tires too trust me I understand that everybody thinks that

12:47 understand that everybody thinks that

12:47 understand that everybody thinks that I'm saying some kind of the secret thing

12:48 I'm saying some kind of the secret thing

12:48 I'm saying some kind of the secret thing oh if you will the money to be there

12:50 oh if you will the money to be there

12:50 oh if you will the money to be there it'll be there I I don't buy that at all

12:53 it'll be there I I don't buy that at all

12:53 it'll be there I I don't buy that at all but it will completely change your day

12:55 but it will completely change your day

12:55 but it will completely change your day if you were to actually take time out of

12:57 if you were to actually take time out of

12:57 if you were to actually take time out of your normal day and seriously take 15

12:59 your normal day and seriously take 15

12:59 your normal day and seriously take 15 minutes and go I'm going to go on a

13:01 minutes and go I'm going to go on a

13:01 minutes and go I'm going to go on a break a going to go on a smoke break

13:03 break a going to go on a smoke break

13:03 break a going to go on a smoke break from work or I'm going to go sit down on

13:04 from work or I'm going to go sit down on

13:04 from work or I'm going to go sit down on this bench for 15 minutes I'm going to

13:06 this bench for 15 minutes I'm going to

13:06 this bench for 15 minutes I'm going to put down my cell phone I'm not going to

13:07 put down my cell phone I'm not going to

13:07 put down my cell phone I'm not going to look at the internet and I'm going to

13:09 look at the internet and I'm going to

13:09 look at the internet and I'm going to actually or take the phone out actually

13:11 actually or take the phone out actually

13:11 actually or take the phone out actually make a list I apologize for the wind

13:12 make a list I apologize for the wind

13:12 make a list I apologize for the wind here I can't control the weather yet

13:14 here I can't control the weather yet

13:14 here I can't control the weather yet make a list of the things I'm grateful

13:16 make a list of the things I'm grateful

13:16 make a list of the things I'm grateful for like all of the things I'm truly

13:18 for like all of the things I'm truly

13:18 for like all of the things I'm truly grateful for that I'm lucky to have that

13:20 grateful for that I'm lucky to have that

13:20 grateful for that I'm lucky to have that other people don't have uh maybe I don't

13:22 other people don't have uh maybe I don't

13:22 other people don't have uh maybe I don't even know about that well see it's

13:24 even know about that well see it's

13:24 even know about that well see it's really windy but just the things that

13:26 really windy but just the things that

13:26 really windy but just the things that you're actually grateful for the things

13:28 you're actually grateful for the things

13:28 you're actually grateful for the things in your life like I'm grateful for my

13:30 in your life like I'm grateful for my

13:30 in your life like I'm grateful for my mother what about this I'm grateful for

13:32 mother what about this I'm grateful for

13:32 mother what about this I'm grateful for my mother honestly my mother is like a

13:33 my mother honestly my mother is like a

13:33 my mother honestly my mother is like a saint I love my mother she gets really

13:35 saint I love my mother she gets really

13:35 saint I love my mother she gets really stressed out sometimes she worries about

13:37 stressed out sometimes she worries about

13:37 stressed out sometimes she worries about me and sometimes it drives me crazy how

13:39 me and sometimes it drives me crazy how

13:39 me and sometimes it drives me crazy how much she worries about me and overthinks

13:40 much she worries about me and overthinks

13:40 much she worries about me and overthinks things for me but I love the woman she

13:42 things for me but I love the woman she

13:42 things for me but I love the woman she is the most wonderful woman I've ever

13:44 is the most wonderful woman I've ever

13:44 is the most wonderful woman I've ever known I love my mother right there bam

13:46 known I love my mother right there bam

13:46 known I love my mother right there bam grateful feeling my heart full of

13:49 grateful feeling my heart full of

13:49 grateful feeling my heart full of different kinds of feelings and stress

13:50 different kinds of feelings and stress

13:50 different kinds of feelings and stress about where I'm going to get new shoes

13:52 about where I'm going to get new shoes

13:52 about where I'm going to get new shoes or that it's going to rain tomorrow or

13:54 or that it's going to rain tomorrow or

13:54 or that it's going to rain tomorrow or the wind being in the Vlog or whatever's

13:56 the wind being in the Vlog or whatever's

13:56 the wind being in the Vlog or whatever's wrong whatever little things are wrong

13:59 wrong whatever little things are wrong

13:59 wrong whatever little things are wrong the only way they're going to be

14:00 the only way they're going to be

14:00 the only way they're going to be counterbalanced and not just spiral into

14:02 counterbalanced and not just spiral into

14:02 counterbalanced and not just spiral into a whole giant pile of anxiety hopefully

14:06 a whole giant pile of anxiety hopefully

14:06 a whole giant pile of anxiety hopefully we're out of the wind here the only way

14:08 we're out of the wind here the only way

14:08 we're out of the wind here the only way that doesn't become a huge pile of

14:10 that doesn't become a huge pile of

14:10 that doesn't become a huge pile of stresses is if you add something else so

14:13 stresses is if you add something else so

14:13 stresses is if you add something else so if you're just adding a whole bunch of

14:14 if you're just adding a whole bunch of

14:14 if you're just adding a whole bunch of negatives in your mind all up all day

14:16 negatives in your mind all up all day

14:16 negatives in your mind all up all day like oh my boss yelled at me and my

14:18 like oh my boss yelled at me and my

14:18 like oh my boss yelled at me and my coworker sucks and my shoes are untied

14:20 coworker sucks and my shoes are untied

14:20 coworker sucks and my shoes are untied and I look stupid and my shirt has a

14:22 and I look stupid and my shirt has a

14:22 and I look stupid and my shirt has a stain on it with just mustard all over

14:24 stain on it with just mustard all over

14:24 stain on it with just mustard all over my pants if that's all you're thinking

14:26 my pants if that's all you're thinking

14:26 my pants if that's all you're thinking about you're going to be super heck a

14:28 about you're going to be super heck a

14:28 about you're going to be super heck a negative all day you have to stop and

14:31 negative all day you have to stop and

14:31 negative all day you have to stop and add some positives to it and like I said

14:34 add some positives to it and like I said

14:34 add some positives to it and like I said I was thinking about this last night I

14:35 I was thinking about this last night I

14:35 I was thinking about this last night I was struck by my own quest for

14:37 was struck by my own quest for

14:37 was struck by my own quest for positivity rules and my own advice there

14:39 positivity rules and my own advice there

14:40 positivity rules and my own advice there how little I put that into practice when

14:41 how little I put that into practice when

14:42 how little I put that into practice when things are okay like when things are

14:44 things are okay like when things are

14:44 things are okay like when things are going great it's really easy to be like

14:46 going great it's really easy to be like

14:46 going great it's really easy to be like yeah totally I'm so blessed # blessed

14:48 yeah totally I'm so blessed # blessed

14:48 yeah totally I'm so blessed # blessed feeling it having a fun one when things

14:51 feeling it having a fun one when things

14:51 feeling it having a fun one when things are going bad it's easy to it's easier

14:54 are going bad it's easy to it's easier

14:54 are going bad it's easy to it's easier to try to remember okay I got I got to

14:56 to try to remember okay I got I got to

14:56 to try to remember okay I got I got to get through this and do this because you

14:57 get through this and do this because you

14:57 get through this and do this because you have to for your sanity and for survival

14:59 have to for your sanity and for survival

14:59 have to for your sanity and for survival but when things are going eh okay you

15:01 but when things are going eh okay you

15:01 but when things are going eh okay you don't do any of that stuff you just sort

15:03 don't do any of that stuff you just sort

15:03 don't do any of that stuff you just sort of Breeze through it and I was kind of

15:06 of Breeze through it and I was kind of

15:06 of Breeze through it and I was kind of thinking like gee boy do I waste a lot

15:09 thinking like gee boy do I waste a lot

15:09 thinking like gee boy do I waste a lot of my

15:12 of my

15:12 of my days or do I not take advantage of a lot

15:15 days or do I not take advantage of a lot

15:15 days or do I not take advantage of a lot of days in my life because I let them

15:17 of days in my life because I let them

15:17 of days in my life because I let them just be okay I think about the stress I

15:19 just be okay I think about the stress I

15:19 just be okay I think about the stress I need to do and life's no picnic don't

15:21 need to do and life's no picnic don't

15:21 need to do and life's no picnic don't get me wrong life is no picnic but it

15:23 get me wrong life is no picnic but it

15:23 get me wrong life is no picnic but it can be a lot of fun sometimes if

15:25 can be a lot of fun sometimes if

15:25 can be a lot of fun sometimes if everything can be an adventure if you

15:26 everything can be an adventure if you

15:26 everything can be an adventure if you really try and sometimes we get tired

15:28 really try and sometimes we get tired

15:28 really try and sometimes we get tired and we get cranky don't get me wrong I'm

15:29 and we get cranky don't get me wrong I'm

15:29 and we get cranky don't get me wrong I'm not saying every day has to be perfect

15:30 not saying every day has to be perfect

15:30 not saying every day has to be perfect we need to live in this state of bliss

15:32 we need to live in this state of bliss

15:32 we need to live in this state of bliss all the time but I just started to think

15:34 all the time but I just started to think

15:34 all the time but I just started to think about how many days I do waste and how

15:36 about how many days I do waste and how

15:36 about how many days I do waste and how many at least little moments I miss

15:39 many at least little moments I miss

15:39 many at least little moments I miss because I don't stop to

15:42 because I don't stop to

15:42 because I don't stop to appreciate the things that I'm grateful

15:44 appreciate the things that I'm grateful

15:44 appreciate the things that I'm grateful for when things are okay so I honestly

15:49 for when things are okay so I honestly

15:49 for when things are okay so I honestly strongly wanted to share those thoughts

15:50 strongly wanted to share those thoughts

15:50 strongly wanted to share those thoughts because I want to strongly encourage all

15:52 because I want to strongly encourage all

15:52 because I want to strongly encourage all of you my friends because I do care

15:53 of you my friends because I do care

15:53 of you my friends because I do care about you guys to stop and try and do

15:56 about you guys to stop and try and do

15:56 about you guys to stop and try and do that like I know it sounds cheesy I know

15:57 that like I know it sounds cheesy I know

15:57 that like I know it sounds cheesy I know it's totally corny it's like a Cheesy

15:59 it's totally corny it's like a Cheesy

15:59 it's totally corny it's like a Cheesy really really really corny thing to do I

16:01 really really really corny thing to do I

16:01 really really really corny thing to do I know I know I know but honestly I would

16:03 know I know I know but honestly I would

16:03 know I know I know but honestly I would take 5 minutes today I'm going to do it

16:06 take 5 minutes today I'm going to do it

16:06 take 5 minutes today I'm going to do it I want you to do it this is the

16:07 I want you to do it this is the

16:07 I want you to do it this is the challenge here's my challenge for you

16:09 challenge here's my challenge for you

16:09 challenge here's my challenge for you the Quest for positivity Challenge on a

16:13 the Quest for positivity Challenge on a

16:13 the Quest for positivity Challenge on a normal day take out a piece of paper and

16:16 normal day take out a piece of paper and

16:16 normal day take out a piece of paper and just write down five things that you

16:18 just write down five things that you

16:19 just write down five things that you honestly stop and and think I'm really

16:21 honestly stop and and think I'm really

16:22 honestly stop and and think I'm really grateful for and maybe your mother's

16:23 grateful for and maybe your mother's

16:23 grateful for and maybe your mother's passed away maybe I'm bringing up

16:24 passed away maybe I'm bringing up

16:24 passed away maybe I'm bringing up something that's really painful for you

16:25 something that's really painful for you

16:25 something that's really painful for you your mother passed away your father

16:26 your mother passed away your father

16:26 your mother passed away your father passed away You're were grateful for

16:28 passed away You're were grateful for

16:28 passed away You're were grateful for your father but he's gone on okay then I

16:30 your father but he's gone on okay then I

16:30 your father but he's gone on okay then I want you to do this stop and think about

16:33 want you to do this stop and think about

16:33 want you to do this stop and think about the good memories that you have with

16:34 the good memories that you have with

16:34 the good memories that you have with that person my grandfather passed away

16:36 that person my grandfather passed away

16:37 that person my grandfather passed away when I was a little kid still maybe the

16:39 when I was a little kid still maybe the

16:39 when I was a little kid still maybe the person that I like I've looked up to the

16:41 person that I like I've looked up to the

16:41 person that I like I've looked up to the most in my whole I just love that man so

16:43 most in my whole I just love that man so

16:43 most in my whole I just love that man so much and just when I was a little kid he

16:45 much and just when I was a little kid he

16:45 much and just when I was a little kid he pass away and I and I never it's painful

16:48 pass away and I and I never it's painful

16:48 pass away and I and I never it's painful to think wow you know what if he' Liv

16:50 to think wow you know what if he' Liv

16:50 to think wow you know what if he' Liv longer I could hang out with him or

16:51 longer I could hang out with him or

16:51 longer I could hang out with him or whatever if a lot of other friends have

16:53 whatever if a lot of other friends have

16:53 whatever if a lot of other friends have died way more recently believe me but

16:55 died way more recently believe me but

16:55 died way more recently believe me but I'm just using this as an example stop

16:57 I'm just using this as an example stop

16:57 I'm just using this as an example stop and Take 5 minutes

16:59 and Take 5 minutes

16:59 and Take 5 minutes and think wow I'm really grateful that I

17:01 and think wow I'm really grateful that I

17:01 and think wow I'm really grateful that I knew him at all I'm really grateful that

17:03 knew him at all I'm really grateful that

17:03 knew him at all I'm really grateful that he didn't have to work when I was a kid

17:05 he didn't have to work when I was a kid

17:05 he didn't have to work when I was a kid he could pick me up from preschool and

17:06 he could pick me up from preschool and

17:06 he could pick me up from preschool and kindergarden and I got to spend so much

17:08 kindergarden and I got to spend so much

17:08 kindergarden and I got to spend so much time with him that we drove around that

17:09 time with him that we drove around that

17:09 time with him that we drove around that we had those jokes I have these memories

17:11 we had those jokes I have these memories

17:11 we had those jokes I have these memories of hanging Christmas lights with him up

17:13 of hanging Christmas lights with him up

17:13 of hanging Christmas lights with him up on these ladders I really probably

17:14 on these ladders I really probably

17:14 on these ladders I really probably shouldn't have been on and his junk that

17:16 shouldn't have been on and his junk that

17:16 shouldn't have been on and his junk that he had all piled up in the garage he had

17:18 he had all piled up in the garage he had

17:18 he had all piled up in the garage he had a whole jar full of keys just old rusty

17:20 a whole jar full of keys just old rusty

17:20 a whole jar full of keys just old rusty keys and he just picked them up off the

17:22 keys and he just picked them up off the

17:22 keys and he just picked them up off the ground like parking lots and random

17:23 ground like parking lots and random

17:23 ground like parking lots and random stuff for 50 years so he had all these

17:25 stuff for 50 years so he had all these

17:25 stuff for 50 years so he had all these keys from like basically the 1950s all

17:28 keys from like basically the 1950s all

17:28 keys from like basically the 1950s all the way up to the late 1980s just in a

17:30 the way up to the late 1980s just in a

17:30 the way up to the late 1980s just in a jar in a garage I loved playing with

17:33 jar in a garage I loved playing with

17:33 jar in a garage I loved playing with those keys just little memories and

17:35 those keys just little memories and

17:35 those keys just little memories and things that I'm grateful for because

17:36 things that I'm grateful for because

17:36 things that I'm grateful for because yeah okay he might be gone I don't have

17:38 yeah okay he might be gone I don't have

17:38 yeah okay he might be gone I don't have the jar of keys uh it's really sad and

17:42 the jar of keys uh it's really sad and

17:42 the jar of keys uh it's really sad and then it makes me sad because his sisters

17:44 then it makes me sad because his sisters

17:44 then it makes me sad because his sisters and brother well no brothers but his

17:46 and brother well no brothers but his

17:46 and brother well no brothers but his sisters and um you know my grandmother

17:49 sisters and um you know my grandmother

17:49 sisters and um you know my grandmother and all these people have passed away

17:50 and all these people have passed away

17:50 and all these people have passed away and that makes me sad so there's a thing

17:52 and that makes me sad so there's a thing

17:52 and that makes me sad so there's a thing that makes me sad but what about all the

17:54 that makes me sad but what about all the

17:54 that makes me sad but what about all the times I spent with them all the things

17:56 times I spent with them all the things

17:56 times I spent with them all the things that I'm grateful for grateful to have

17:58 that I'm grateful for grateful to have

17:58 that I'm grateful for grateful to have known things so even when things aren't

17:59 known things so even when things aren't

17:59 known things so even when things aren't going super great now even if you have

18:01 going super great now even if you have

18:01 going super great now even if you have nothing to think of now you're grieving

18:03 nothing to think of now you're grieving

18:03 nothing to think of now you're grieving or something like that uh you can still

18:05 or something like that uh you can still

18:06 or something like that uh you can still be grateful for the memories of things

18:07 be grateful for the memories of things

18:08 be grateful for the memories of things so I really really really really really

18:09 so I really really really really really

18:09 so I really really really really really really really really really got struck

18:11 really really really really got struck

18:11 really really really really got struck last night by the guy talking about how

18:13 last night by the guy talking about how

18:13 last night by the guy talking about how much depress positivity helped him and I

18:16 much depress positivity helped him and I

18:16 much depress positivity helped him and I started thinking man a year ago here's

18:17 started thinking man a year ago here's

18:17 started thinking man a year ago here's something I'm really grateful for CU I'm

18:19 something I'm really grateful for CU I'm

18:19 something I'm really grateful for CU I'm still going with the Grateful thing I

18:20 still going with the Grateful thing I

18:20 still going with the Grateful thing I started thinking a year ago

18:22 started thinking a year ago

18:22 started thinking a year ago man I don't know that I was doing

18:24 man I don't know that I was doing

18:24 man I don't know that I was doing anything for anybody except for holding

18:25 anything for anybody except for holding

18:25 anything for anybody except for holding on to my sanity I mean really honestly

18:29 on to my sanity I mean really honestly

18:29 on to my sanity I mean really honestly there were days I did not feel like

18:30 there were days I did not feel like

18:30 there were days I did not feel like living and uh I can't remember who did

18:33 living and uh I can't remember who did

18:33 living and uh I can't remember who did the quote it was someone that you're

18:34 the quote it was someone that you're

18:34 the quote it was someone that you're like really I think it was Juliet Lewis

18:35 like really I think it was Juliet Lewis

18:35 like really I think it was Juliet Lewis or someone who said the bravest thing

18:37 or someone who said the bravest thing

18:37 or someone who said the bravest thing I've ever done is keep on living when I

18:38 I've ever done is keep on living when I

18:39 I've ever done is keep on living when I wanted to die you know that's so true

18:41 wanted to die you know that's so true

18:41 wanted to die you know that's so true like it takes courage sometimes I mean

18:44 like it takes courage sometimes I mean

18:44 like it takes courage sometimes I mean I'm not even talking about just like

18:46 I'm not even talking about just like

18:46 I'm not even talking about just like trying to commit suicide or anything

18:48 trying to commit suicide or anything

18:48 trying to commit suicide or anything courage sometimes just to get out of bed

18:51 courage sometimes just to get out of bed

18:51 courage sometimes just to get out of bed and be alive doesn't it do you know what

18:53 and be alive doesn't it do you know what

18:53 and be alive doesn't it do you know what I'm talking about sometimes it just

18:54 I'm talking about sometimes it just

18:54 I'm talking about sometimes it just tastes some people don't understand this

18:56 tastes some people don't understand this

18:56 tastes some people don't understand this some people never think some people

18:58 some people never think some people

18:58 some people never think some people aren't very

18:59 aren't very

18:59 aren't very like they don't think in the abstract

19:02 like they don't think in the abstract

19:02 like they don't think in the abstract some people never analyze anything in

19:03 some people never analyze anything in

19:04 some people never analyze anything in their lives and say they're so blessed a

19:06 their lives and say they're so blessed a

19:06 their lives and say they're so blessed a whole other way because they never think

19:07 whole other way because they never think

19:07 whole other way because they never think about this stuff but for some of us it

19:09 about this stuff but for some of us it

19:10 about this stuff but for some of us it really takes courage and is really

19:11 really takes courage and is really

19:11 really takes courage and is really difficult sometimes just to be alive and

19:14 difficult sometimes just to be alive and

19:14 difficult sometimes just to be alive and it's good to stop and think about this

19:17 it's good to stop and think about this

19:17 it's good to stop and think about this stuff because I'm just so grateful that

19:20 stuff because I'm just so grateful that

19:20 stuff because I'm just so grateful that just by hanging on to my own positivity

19:23 just by hanging on to my own positivity

19:23 just by hanging on to my own positivity just by trying to make myself do a

19:26 just by trying to make myself do a

19:26 just by trying to make myself do a little better and looking at the world

19:27 little better and looking at the world

19:27 little better and looking at the world in a more positive way yeah made myself

19:29 in a more positive way yeah made myself

19:29 in a more positive way yeah made myself feel better but look at the Fallout from

19:31 feel better but look at the Fallout from

19:31 feel better but look at the Fallout from it there's also all this Fallout because

19:34 it there's also all this Fallout because

19:34 it there's also all this Fallout because some little things I did or little

19:35 some little things I did or little

19:35 some little things I did or little things I talked about by sharing that

19:36 things I talked about by sharing that

19:36 things I talked about by sharing that struggle with others manag to affect at

19:39 struggle with others manag to affect at

19:39 struggle with others manag to affect at least one or two or three people in a

19:42 least one or two or three people in a

19:42 least one or two or three people in a positive way and I never even would have

19:43 positive way and I never even would have

19:43 positive way and I never even would have expected that so there's another Fringe

19:45 expected that so there's another Fringe

19:45 expected that so there's another Fringe benefit of positivity no you're not

19:46 benefit of positivity no you're not

19:46 benefit of positivity no you're not going to positive you're not going to

19:48 going to positive you're not going to

19:48 going to positive you're not going to mentally positively think your bank

19:50 mentally positively think your bank

19:50 mentally positively think your bank account up to a million dollars or get

19:51 account up to a million dollars or get

19:52 account up to a million dollars or get new tires on your car but you never know

19:55 new tires on your car but you never know

19:55 new tires on your car but you never know what

19:56 what

19:56 what the global effects

19:59 the global effects

19:59 the global effects of your quest for positivity might be so

20:03 of your quest for positivity might be so

20:03 of your quest for positivity might be so yeah it might help you a little you're

20:04 yeah it might help you a little you're

20:04 yeah it might help you a little you're having an okay day I don't really need

20:05 having an okay day I don't really need

20:05 having an okay day I don't really need the whole quest for positivity thing

20:06 the whole quest for positivity thing

20:07 the whole quest for positivity thing today I'm fine I'm just going to go eat

20:08 today I'm fine I'm just going to go eat

20:08 today I'm fine I'm just going to go eat some peanuts and watch the crackerjack

20:10 some peanuts and watch the crackerjack

20:10 some peanuts and watch the crackerjack TV show I don't care if I ever get back

20:13 TV show I don't care if I ever get back

20:13 TV show I don't care if I ever get back for the ball game you know what I'm

20:15 for the ball game you know what I'm

20:15 for the ball game you know what I'm saying but then you don't know you don't

20:18 saying but then you don't know you don't

20:18 saying but then you don't know you don't know that if you did take the time to

20:19 know that if you did take the time to

20:19 know that if you did take the time to stop be grateful how much crazier would

20:22 stop be grateful how much crazier would

20:22 stop be grateful how much crazier would your energy be how much better would

20:24 your energy be how much better would

20:24 your energy be how much better would your day be and how much better would

20:26 your day be and how much better would

20:26 your day be and how much better would you make the days of people around you

20:28 you make the days of people around you

20:28 you make the days of people around you if really on top of it so that's what

20:31 if really on top of it so that's what

20:31 if really on top of it so that's what I've been thinking about today just some

20:33 I've been thinking about today just some

20:33 I've been thinking about today just some thoughts I just thought I would share I

20:35 thoughts I just thought I would share I

20:35 thoughts I just thought I would share I thought I would share my thoughts for

20:37 thought I would share my thoughts for

20:37 thought I would share my thoughts for some of you I am at Walt Disney World I

20:39 some of you I am at Walt Disney World I

20:39 some of you I am at Walt Disney World I will be here for a little bit more than

20:41 will be here for a little bit more than

20:41 will be here for a little bit more than a week so there's all kinds of vlogging

20:43 a week so there's all kinds of vlogging

20:43 a week so there's all kinds of vlogging Adventures to

20:45 Adventures to

20:45 Adventures to have you might be wondering what this is

20:47 have you might be wondering what this is

20:47 have you might be wondering what this is this for the cool wash over here hold on

20:49 this for the cool wash over here hold on

20:49 this for the cool wash over here hold on a second cuz we got test track behind us

20:52 a second cuz we got test track behind us

20:52 a second cuz we got test track behind us which you can go back in my videos by

20:53 which you can go back in my videos by

20:54 which you can go back in my videos by the way there's a Walt Disney World

20:54 the way there's a Walt Disney World

20:54 the way there's a Walt Disney World playlist I think on this channel Vlogs

20:56 playlist I think on this channel Vlogs

20:56 playlist I think on this channel Vlogs you can go back and find routing on test

20:58 you can go back and find routing on test

20:58 you can go back and find routing on test track and doing all kinds of things

20:59 track and doing all kinds of things

20:59 track and doing all kinds of things exploring Epcot on there if you were

21:01 exploring Epcot on there if you were

21:01 exploring Epcot on there if you were more interested in Epcot today but they

21:02 more interested in Epcot today but they

21:02 more interested in Epcot today but they have this cool wash it's a little

21:05 have this cool wash it's a little

21:05 have this cool wash it's a little Coca-Cola thing over here so yeah IC see

21:07 Coca-Cola thing over here so yeah IC see

21:07 Coca-Cola thing over here so yeah IC see ahead and uh-oh it's a cool wash look at

21:10 ahead and uh-oh it's a cool wash look at

21:10 ahead and uh-oh it's a cool wash look at this one it's a cool one they got a test

21:12 this one it's a cool one they got a test

21:13 this one it's a cool one they got a test track car in there and we'll look more

21:14 track car in there and we'll look more

21:14 track car in there and we'll look more at the cool wash another time probably

21:16 at the cool wash another time probably

21:16 at the cool wash another time probably but it's it's a fun one just look at

21:18 but it's it's a fun one just look at

21:18 but it's it's a fun one just look at this if you're going to get a Coke might

21:20 this if you're going to get a Coke might

21:21 this if you're going to get a Coke might as well get a Coke somewhere fun look at

21:22 as well get a Coke somewhere fun look at

21:22 as well get a Coke somewhere fun look at this see it's like a car wash but

21:25 this see it's like a car wash but

21:25 this see it's like a car wash but there's fans and Miss how cool is this

21:29 there's fans and Miss how cool is this

21:29 there's fans and Miss how cool is this how cool is this it's a cool one it's a

21:32 how cool is this it's a cool one it's a

21:32 how cool is this it's a cool one it's a cool one what a cool guy what a cool guy

21:35 cool one what a cool guy what a cool guy

21:35 cool one what a cool guy what a cool guy just Frozen in a block of ice what a

21:37 just Frozen in a block of ice what a

21:37 just Frozen in a block of ice what a cool guy anyway thanks for listening to

21:39 cool guy anyway thanks for listening to

21:39 cool guy anyway thanks for listening to my thoughts you guys are great listeners

21:41 my thoughts you guys are great listeners

21:41 my thoughts you guys are great listeners I really really honestly do appreciate

21:42 I really really honestly do appreciate

21:42 I really really honestly do appreciate you and we'll be back with some more

21:44 you and we'll be back with some more

21:44 you and we'll be back with some more shinanigans I have to go make sure this

21:46 shinanigans I have to go make sure this

21:47 shinanigans I have to go make sure this uploads and get over to Magic Kingdom

21:49 uploads and get over to Magic Kingdom

21:49 uploads and get over to Magic Kingdom today to hang out and I'll see you guys

21:51 today to hang out and I'll see you guys

21:51 today to hang out and I'll see you guys tomorrow

21:57 okay man I'd be grateful if I could talk

21:57 okay man I'd be grateful if I could talk subscribe for some more Adventures from

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