Let's talk about Therapy - Serious Sometimes Vlog

0:03 look at that would you what a

0:03 look at that would you what a beautiful day a beautiful day for a

0:07 beautiful day a beautiful day for a

0:07 beautiful day a beautiful day for a stroll in the park the only problem with

0:11 stroll in the park the only problem with

0:11 stroll in the park the only problem with the parks near where I live is they're

0:14 the parks near where I live is they're

0:14 the parks near where I live is they're infested with

0:15 infested with

0:15 infested with gangs gangs of geese gaggles of geese

0:19 gangs gangs of geese gaggles of geese

0:19 gangs gangs of geese gaggles of geese look at these Canada geese over here

0:23 look at these Canada geese over here

0:23 look at these Canada geese over here here we have a whole gang of

0:26 here we have a whole gang of

0:26 here we have a whole gang of Canada GE come here you want some Mol

0:30 Canada GE come here you want some Mol

0:30 Canada GE come here you want some Mol all right we're going to leave those

0:32 all right we're going to leave those

0:32 all right we're going to leave those candada Gees alone cuz they're not

0:33 candada Gees alone cuz they're not

0:33 candada Gees alone cuz they're not bothering anybody they're just pecking

0:35 bothering anybody they're just pecking

0:35 bothering anybody they're just pecking things out of the grass what is this my

0:37 things out of the grass what is this my

0:37 things out of the grass what is this my friends it's a sometimes

0:40 friends it's a sometimes

0:40 friends it's a sometimes Vlog it's a vlog that happens sometimes

0:45 Vlog it's a vlog that happens sometimes

0:45 Vlog it's a vlog that happens sometimes I almost I almost made it I almost made

0:47 I almost I almost made it I almost made

0:47 I almost I almost made it I almost made it my voice is a little horse from

0:50 it my voice is a little horse from

0:50 it my voice is a little horse from screaming on Indiana Jones yesterday

0:53 screaming on Indiana Jones yesterday

0:53 screaming on Indiana Jones yesterday with Adam the woo for the 20th

0:56 with Adam the woo for the 20th

0:56 with Adam the woo for the 20th anniversary of Indiana Jones and the

0:58 anniversary of Indiana Jones and the

0:58 anniversary of Indiana Jones and the Temple of the forbidden

1:01 Temple of the forbidden

1:01 Temple of the forbidden eye so that was pretty wild and crazy

1:03 eye so that was pretty wild and crazy

1:03 eye so that was pretty wild and crazy and wacky and could not think last night

1:05 and wacky and could not think last night

1:05 and wacky and could not think last night screaming on the ride very sore I put

1:08 screaming on the ride very sore I put

1:08 screaming on the ride very sore I put the brace back on I have actually been

1:09 the brace back on I have actually been

1:09 the brace back on I have actually been wearing the sling again some people have

1:11 wearing the sling again some people have

1:11 wearing the sling again some people have rightly chastised me for taking it off

1:13 rightly chastised me for taking it off

1:13 rightly chastised me for taking it off before doctor's orders but the thing is

1:15 before doctor's orders but the thing is

1:15 before doctor's orders but the thing is when you hold your arm and a sling for a

1:16 when you hold your arm and a sling for a

1:16 when you hold your arm and a sling for a long time you tend to get stiff in other

1:18 long time you tend to get stiff in other

1:18 long time you tend to get stiff in other ways so I do take it off and have a

1:21 ways so I do take it off and have a

1:21 ways so I do take it off and have a break a little break aoo from the old

1:23 break a little break aoo from the old

1:23 break a little break aoo from the old sling arino you know what I'm

1:26 sling arino you know what I'm

1:26 sling arino you know what I'm saying anyway because that was so kind

1:28 saying anyway because that was so kind

1:28 saying anyway because that was so kind of crazy I I thought why don't we just

1:30 of crazy I I thought why don't we just

1:30 of crazy I I thought why don't we just take a lovely stroll in the park past

1:33 take a lovely stroll in the park past

1:33 take a lovely stroll in the park past this gang of geese and Over

1:37 this gang of geese and Over

1:37 this gang of geese and Over Yonder well now there's more geese

1:39 Yonder well now there's more geese

1:39 Yonder well now there's more geese chasing him away but there's a gang of

1:40 chasing him away but there's a gang of

1:40 chasing him away but there's a gang of ducks over here too I don't trust them I

1:43 ducks over here too I don't trust them I

1:43 ducks over here too I don't trust them I was trying to land on my head although

1:45 was trying to land on my head although

1:45 was trying to land on my head although these aren't Disney Ducks so maybe

1:48 these aren't Disney Ducks so maybe

1:48 these aren't Disney Ducks so maybe they'll be a little bit more kind and

1:51 they'll be a little bit more kind and

1:51 they'll be a little bit more kind and gentle I don't know there's a difference

1:55 gentle I don't know there's a difference

1:55 gentle I don't know there's a difference Disney Ducks seem to be pretty docile

1:56 Disney Ducks seem to be pretty docile

1:57 Disney Ducks seem to be pretty docile ducks are docile okay I don't know what

1:59 ducks are docile okay I don't know what

1:59 ducks are docile okay I don't know what I'm talking about anymore anyways it's

2:01 I'm talking about anymore anyways it's

2:01 I'm talking about anymore anyways it's time for a lovely stroll in the park yes

2:04 time for a lovely stroll in the park yes

2:04 time for a lovely stroll in the park yes I'm a little stiff and sore still so

2:05 I'm a little stiff and sore still so

2:06 I'm a little stiff and sore still so you'll have to forgive me on one

2:09 you'll have to forgive me on one

2:09 you'll have to forgive me on one important Point stickers a lot of you

2:11 important Point stickers a lot of you

2:11 important Point stickers a lot of you guys sent me stickers and letters and

2:13 guys sent me stickers and letters and

2:13 guys sent me stickers and letters and wonderful things in the mail and I was

2:18 wonderful things in the mail and I was

2:18 wonderful things in the mail and I was not able to get back to you first I was

2:19 not able to get back to you first I was

2:19 not able to get back to you first I was out of town and I thought okay I'm going

2:21 out of town and I thought okay I'm going

2:21 out of town and I thought okay I'm going to answer all when I get back but of

2:22 to answer all when I get back but of

2:22 to answer all when I get back but of course I wrecked my car before I was

2:24 course I wrecked my car before I was

2:24 course I wrecked my car before I was able to get back to Orange County and so

2:28 able to get back to Orange County and so

2:28 able to get back to Orange County and so I have been stiff and sore and all this

2:29 I have been stiff and sore and all this

2:29 I have been stiff and sore and all this stuff going on and now vehicle less so I

2:32 stuff going on and now vehicle less so I

2:32 stuff going on and now vehicle less so I have cash money to go purchase another

2:35 have cash money to go purchase another

2:35 have cash money to go purchase another vehicle I'm about to go look at one in a

2:37 vehicle I'm about to go look at one in a

2:37 vehicle I'm about to go look at one in a little while so I'm going to start the

2:38 little while so I'm going to start the

2:38 little while so I'm going to start the process of rolling up in people's

2:39 process of rolling up in people's

2:39 process of rolling up in people's driveways and preventing myself from

2:41 driveways and preventing myself from

2:41 driveways and preventing myself from getting Craigslist murdered uh while I

2:44 getting Craigslist murdered uh while I

2:44 getting Craigslist murdered uh while I look at Vehicles don't worry guys I'm

2:46 look at Vehicles don't worry guys I'm

2:46 look at Vehicles don't worry guys I'm not going to get murdered not today

2:47 not going to get murdered not today

2:47 not going to get murdered not today anyways today is too fine a day to be

2:50 anyways today is too fine a day to be

2:50 anyways today is too fine a day to be murdered correct correct whoa see what

2:53 murdered correct correct whoa see what

2:53 murdered correct correct whoa see what I'm

2:54 I'm

2:54 I'm saying we were almost dive bombed by

2:56 saying we were almost dive bombed by

2:56 saying we were almost dive bombed by Ducks being chased by these geese look

2:59 Ducks being chased by these geese look

2:59 Ducks being chased by these geese look at this goose is

3:01 at this goose is

3:01 at this goose is angry that's an angry

3:03 angry that's an angry

3:03 angry that's an angry Goose those Ducks over there their goose

3:05 Goose those Ducks over there their goose

3:05 Goose those Ducks over there their goose is cooked for sure oh see here we have a

3:08 is cooked for sure oh see here we have a

3:08 is cooked for sure oh see here we have a white Goose he's trying so hard to blend

3:13 white Goose he's trying so hard to blend

3:13 white Goose he's trying so hard to blend in to the group of Canada geese but I

3:16 in to the group of Canada geese but I

3:16 in to the group of Canada geese but I don't think he's achieving it or is that

3:19 don't think he's achieving it or is that

3:19 don't think he's achieving it or is that a young Canada Goose I've never seen a

3:21 a young Canada Goose I've never seen a

3:21 a young Canada Goose I've never seen a white Canada

3:24 white Canada

3:24 white Canada Goose a Canada goling I'm not sure I'm

3:27 Goose a Canada goling I'm not sure I'm

3:27 Goose a Canada goling I'm not sure I'm not sure the developmental stages

3:30 not sure the developmental stages

3:30 not sure the developmental stages of the Canada Goose even though I do

3:33 of the Canada Goose even though I do

3:33 of the Canada Goose even though I do have family from Canada okay that's

3:36 have family from Canada okay that's

3:36 have family from Canada okay that's enough about the geese he seems a little

3:37 enough about the geese he seems a little

3:38 enough about the geese he seems a little nervous so we're going to leave him

3:40 nervous so we're going to leave him

3:40 nervous so we're going to leave him alone come on Mr Gander don't worry

3:43 alone come on Mr Gander don't worry

3:43 alone come on Mr Gander don't worry about it okay so let's stroll Yonder

3:46 about it okay so let's stroll Yonder

3:46 about it okay so let's stroll Yonder this way oh yeah so the stickers so I've

3:49 this way oh yeah so the stickers so I've

3:49 this way oh yeah so the stickers so I've been a little slow about sending back

3:50 been a little slow about sending back

3:50 been a little slow about sending back the stickers mostly because some of you

3:52 the stickers mostly because some of you

3:52 the stickers mostly because some of you sent some awesome letters which are

3:54 sent some awesome letters which are

3:55 sent some awesome letters which are going to take me forever to reply to so

3:59 going to take me forever to reply to so

3:59 going to take me forever to reply to so here's the thing

4:00 here's the thing

4:00 here's the thing my buddy Adam the woo does a thing where

4:05 my buddy Adam the woo does a thing where

4:05 my buddy Adam the woo does a thing where when he gets the mail sometimes if he

4:08 when he gets the mail sometimes if he

4:08 when he gets the mail sometimes if he has people write on the mail if it's

4:10 has people write on the mail if it's

4:10 has people write on the mail if it's okay to read it on the Vlog that he does

4:14 okay to read it on the Vlog that he does

4:14 okay to read it on the Vlog that he does every day the daily woo and I was

4:16 every day the daily woo and I was

4:16 every day the daily woo and I was thinking maybe that's a better idea if I

4:18 thinking maybe that's a better idea if I

4:18 thinking maybe that's a better idea if I were to open some of those things and

4:20 were to open some of those things and

4:20 were to open some of those things and read some of the letters or then I'd be

4:23 read some of the letters or then I'd be

4:23 read some of the letters or then I'd be able to answer you faster by doing it in

4:25 able to answer you faster by doing it in

4:25 able to answer you faster by doing it in a sometimes Vlog I don't know you let me

4:27 a sometimes Vlog I don't know you let me

4:27 a sometimes Vlog I don't know you let me know what you think of that idea because

4:29 know what you think of that idea because

4:29 know what you think of that idea because writing back is starting to get harder

4:31 writing back is starting to get harder

4:31 writing back is starting to get harder and harder because my day is so full of

4:33 and harder because my day is so full of

4:33 and harder because my day is so full of crazy stuff so then I just have this

4:35 crazy stuff so then I just have this

4:35 crazy stuff so then I just have this stack of stuff there where I don't send

4:37 stack of stuff there where I don't send

4:37 stack of stuff there where I don't send the stickers faster because instead of

4:39 the stickers faster because instead of

4:39 the stickers faster because instead of just sticking a sticker in an envelope

4:40 just sticking a sticker in an envelope

4:40 just sticking a sticker in an envelope and sending it back to you there's these

4:41 and sending it back to you there's these

4:41 and sending it back to you there's these letters and I I read them all but then

4:44 letters and I I read them all but then

4:44 letters and I I read them all but then to to take time and reply and write it

4:46 to to take time and reply and write it

4:46 to to take time and reply and write it all out on paper and mail it back and

4:48 all out on paper and mail it back and

4:48 all out on paper and mail it back and make sure you know I want to take the

4:50 make sure you know I want to take the

4:50 make sure you know I want to take the time it gets a little much with what's

4:53 time it gets a little much with what's

4:53 time it gets a little much with what's going on at the moment so I have got

4:56 going on at the moment so I have got

4:56 going on at the moment so I have got them all I really appreciate them all I

4:59 them all I really appreciate them all I

4:59 them all I really appreciate them all I actually going to say the coolest part

5:01 actually going to say the coolest part

5:01 actually going to say the coolest part about the whole lip fast IP thing and

5:04 about the whole lip fast IP thing and

5:04 about the whole lip fast IP thing and all the positivity and see I was in

5:08 all the positivity and see I was in

5:08 all the positivity and see I was in bands for years and years and years okay

5:09 bands for years and years and years okay

5:09 bands for years and years and years okay so we're going to have to backtrack I

5:11 so we're going to have to backtrack I

5:11 so we're going to have to backtrack I was in bands for years and years and

5:12 was in bands for years and years and

5:12 was in bands for years and years and years almost like therapy to put all my

5:14 years almost like therapy to put all my

5:14 years almost like therapy to put all my negative feelings and thoughts and

5:16 negative feelings and thoughts and

5:16 negative feelings and thoughts and emotions almost like automatic writing I

5:17 emotions almost like automatic writing I

5:17 emotions almost like automatic writing I never really thought about what I was

5:18 never really thought about what I was

5:18 never really thought about what I was writing write songs and put it out

5:21 writing write songs and put it out

5:21 writing write songs and put it out there being creative but not really in a

5:24 there being creative but not really in a

5:24 there being creative but not really in a negative way I mean it sort of

5:26 negative way I mean it sort of

5:26 negative way I mean it sort of therapeutic but kind

5:28 therapeutic but kind

5:28 therapeutic but kind of I don't know no it wasn't really

5:30 of I don't know no it wasn't really

5:30 of I don't know no it wasn't really doing the same thing what's totally

5:31 doing the same thing what's totally

5:31 doing the same thing what's totally different about live fast I poor is when

5:33 different about live fast I poor is when

5:33 different about live fast I poor is when we started doing different things

5:35 we started doing different things

5:35 we started doing different things started random land and all these

5:36 started random land and all these

5:36 started random land and all these different projects that we started and

5:37 different projects that we started and

5:37 different projects that we started and the Articles the website we set out to

5:40 the Articles the website we set out to

5:40 the Articles the website we set out to not talk about sex religion or politics

5:43 not talk about sex religion or politics

5:43 not talk about sex religion or politics so that as much as humanly possible Al

5:46 so that as much as humanly possible Al

5:46 so that as much as humanly possible Al those are part of human existence so

5:48 those are part of human existence so

5:48 those are part of human existence so it's not possible to entirely avoid them

5:50 it's not possible to entirely avoid them

5:50 it's not possible to entirely avoid them just so mostly so everyone could enjoy

5:52 just so mostly so everyone could enjoy

5:52 just so mostly so everyone could enjoy it so everyone could kind of agree and

5:53 it so everyone could kind of agree and

5:53 it so everyone could kind of agree and get along number one number two we

5:55 get along number one number two we

5:55 get along number one number two we decided we do we wanted to as far as

5:57 decided we do we wanted to as far as

5:57 decided we do we wanted to as far as possible eliminate

6:00 possible eliminate

6:00 possible eliminate cynicism because there sort of a plague

6:02 cynicism because there sort of a plague

6:02 cynicism because there sort of a plague have you noticed a plague of cynicism

6:04 have you noticed a plague of cynicism

6:04 have you noticed a plague of cynicism online like not that there's anything

6:06 online like not that there's anything

6:06 online like not that there's anything wrong with some rchy jokes or talking

6:10 wrong with some rchy jokes or talking

6:10 wrong with some rchy jokes or talking about politics or religion or anything

6:12 about politics or religion or anything

6:12 about politics or religion or anything like that all you know I'm down to talk

6:16 like that all you know I'm down to talk

6:16 like that all you know I'm down to talk about all three of those things in real

6:17 about all three of those things in real

6:17 about all three of those things in real life it's just it seemed to us that

6:19 life it's just it seemed to us that

6:19 life it's just it seemed to us that there's plenty of that on the internet

6:22 there's plenty of that on the internet

6:22 there's plenty of that on the internet there's plenty of coarse humor there's

6:24 there's plenty of coarse humor there's

6:24 there's plenty of coarse humor there's plenty of cynicism and websites and

6:26 plenty of cynicism and websites and

6:26 plenty of cynicism and websites and forums where people complain about

6:27 forums where people complain about

6:27 forums where people complain about different stuff and we just wanted to

6:28 different stuff and we just wanted to

6:28 different stuff and we just wanted to have someplace that was positive that

6:31 have someplace that was positive that

6:31 have someplace that was positive that was as PG rated as we can possibly make

6:34 was as PG rated as we can possibly make

6:34 was as PG rated as we can possibly make it so everyone could kind of enjoy

6:36 it so everyone could kind of enjoy

6:36 it so everyone could kind of enjoy it and uh so we strive strove striven

6:40 it and uh so we strive strove striven

6:40 it and uh so we strive strove striven we've striven to do our best but the

6:41 we've striven to do our best but the

6:42 we've striven to do our best but the coolest part about the whole thing

6:43 coolest part about the whole thing

6:43 coolest part about the whole thing hasn't been any of us it's been all of

6:46 hasn't been any of us it's been all of

6:46 hasn't been any of us it's been all of you guys you guys are so cool and

6:49 you guys you guys are so cool and

6:49 you guys you guys are so cool and positive and there's sort of this little

6:51 positive and there's sort of this little

6:51 positive and there's sort of this little little it's getting bigger by the day

6:53 little it's getting bigger by the day

6:53 little it's getting bigger by the day but this group of all of you out there

6:55 but this group of all of you out there

6:55 but this group of all of you out there who are responded in kind with

6:58 who are responded in kind with

6:58 who are responded in kind with positivity and Good Vibes and all that

7:00 positivity and Good Vibes and all that

7:00 positivity and Good Vibes and all that kind of stuff and it's kind of awesome

7:03 kind of stuff and it's kind of awesome

7:03 kind of stuff and it's kind of awesome so like my buddy Ross Co Rosco Soul

7:07 so like my buddy Ross Co Rosco Soul

7:07 so like my buddy Ross Co Rosco Soul Train he was at Disneyland and met a

7:09 Train he was at Disneyland and met a

7:09 Train he was at Disneyland and met a bunch of people like you who watch the

7:12 bunch of people like you who watch the

7:12 bunch of people like you who watch the sometimes Vlog and the random lands and

7:13 sometimes Vlog and the random lands and

7:13 sometimes Vlog and the random lands and he was just he was telling me the live

7:16 he was just he was telling me the live

7:16 he was just he was telling me the live fast I poor people are all so cool so

7:18 fast I poor people are all so cool so

7:18 fast I poor people are all so cool so when I think of live fast I poor I don't

7:19 when I think of live fast I poor I don't

7:19 when I think of live fast I poor I don't even think of me or Tyler or heimbuck or

7:21 even think of me or Tyler or heimbuck or

7:21 even think of me or Tyler or heimbuck or anybody I think of all of you

7:24 anybody I think of all of you

7:24 anybody I think of all of you guys you guys are awesome so I like

7:27 guys you guys are awesome so I like

7:27 guys you guys are awesome so I like getting your letters I really appreciate

7:29 getting your letters I really appreciate

7:29 getting your letters I really appreciate them some of you have shared some gnarly

7:31 them some of you have shared some gnarly

7:31 them some of you have shared some gnarly experiences with me and some very

7:32 experiences with me and some very

7:32 experiences with me and some very uplifting stories with me I really

7:35 uplifting stories with me I really

7:35 uplifting stories with me I really really appreciate that honestly that

7:38 really appreciate that honestly that

7:38 really appreciate that honestly that seriously has been a huge part of my

7:40 seriously has been a huge part of my

7:40 seriously has been a huge part of my quest for positivity has been all of the

7:43 quest for positivity has been all of the

7:43 quest for positivity has been all of the feedback the letters the stuff from you

7:45 feedback the letters the stuff from you

7:45 feedback the letters the stuff from you guys some people have sent money to buy

7:47 guys some people have sent money to buy

7:47 guys some people have sent money to buy Mountain Dew and uh put gas in the tank

7:50 Mountain Dew and uh put gas in the tank

7:51 Mountain Dew and uh put gas in the tank to go buy to go fil more random lands or

7:53 to go buy to go fil more random lands or

7:53 to go buy to go fil more random lands or use the Donate button on the website for

7:55 use the Donate button on the website for

7:55 use the Donate button on the website for PayPal or bought my paintings which has

7:57 PayPal or bought my paintings which has

7:57 PayPal or bought my paintings which has really helped to you know

8:03 buy me groceries really so that I can

8:04 buy me groceries really so that I can continue to do what I'm doing or put gas

8:06 continue to do what I'm doing or put gas

8:06 continue to do what I'm doing or put gas in the tank when it comes to the

8:07 in the tank when it comes to the

8:07 in the tank when it comes to the donations and stuff like that that is

8:09 donations and stuff like that that is

8:09 donations and stuff like that that is super awesome you guys are amazing I've

8:12 super awesome you guys are amazing I've

8:12 super awesome you guys are amazing I've totally sidetracked and hucked the Vlog

8:15 totally sidetracked and hucked the Vlog

8:15 totally sidetracked and hucked the Vlog with how much I like you guys I don't

8:16 with how much I like you guys I don't

8:16 with how much I like you guys I don't want to get my eyes all sweaty with

8:18 want to get my eyes all sweaty with

8:18 want to get my eyes all sweaty with respect and get all Misty eyed but

8:20 respect and get all Misty eyed but

8:20 respect and get all Misty eyed but honestly really when I do think about it

8:22 honestly really when I do think about it

8:22 honestly really when I do think about it I really think I picture all of you and

8:24 I really think I picture all of you and

8:25 I really think I picture all of you and not us so that's the way I think about

8:27 not us so that's the way I think about

8:27 not us so that's the way I think about it I don't want to let anybody down of

8:29 it I don't want to let anybody down of

8:29 it I don't want to let anybody down of course can't please everyone another

8:30 course can't please everyone another

8:30 course can't please everyone another reference to an Adam D woo Vlog of late

8:33 reference to an Adam D woo Vlog of late

8:33 reference to an Adam D woo Vlog of late but at the same time we do our best to

8:36 but at the same time we do our best to

8:36 but at the same time we do our best to do our duty and keep that smile on your

8:38 do our duty and keep that smile on your

8:38 do our duty and keep that smile on your face has been my greatest honor and

8:41 face has been my greatest honor and

8:41 face has been my greatest honor and privilege and a huge part of staying

8:43 privilege and a huge part of staying

8:43 privilege and a huge part of staying positive for me has been all of you guys

8:47 positive for me has been all of you guys

8:47 positive for me has been all of you guys really just to put a smile on your face

8:50 really just to put a smile on your face

8:50 really just to put a smile on your face if we've done that at all we've done our

8:52 if we've done that at all we've done our

8:52 if we've done that at all we've done our duty we can go

8:53 duty we can go

8:53 duty we can go home sleep well as a matter of fact

8:57 home sleep well as a matter of fact

8:57 home sleep well as a matter of fact tying this into something else

9:00 tying this into something else

9:00 tying this into something else spreadshirt the company called me a

9:02 spreadshirt the company called me a

9:02 spreadshirt the company called me a couple weeks ago they actually called me

9:05 couple weeks ago they actually called me

9:05 couple weeks ago they actually called me and talked to me like a person from a

9:08 and talked to me like a person from a

9:08 and talked to me like a person from a see spreadshirts kind of like Zazzle or

9:10 see spreadshirts kind of like Zazzle or

9:10 see spreadshirts kind of like Zazzle or tea public or those things where they

9:12 tea public or those things where they

9:13 tea public or those things where they they print it and send it to you and so

9:14 they print it and send it to you and so

9:14 they print it and send it to you and so it really has very little to do with us

9:16 it really has very little to do with us

9:16 it really has very little to do with us other than the designs or whatever they

9:17 other than the designs or whatever they

9:17 other than the designs or whatever they take a little portion they give it to us

9:19 take a little portion they give it to us

9:19 take a little portion they give it to us mostly it pays for the printing and the

9:20 mostly it pays for the printing and the

9:20 mostly it pays for the printing and the shipping and all that stuff so they

9:21 shipping and all that stuff so they

9:21 shipping and all that stuff so they handle all that kind of stuff right

9:23 handle all that kind of stuff right

9:24 handle all that kind of stuff right spreadshirt has had so many positive

9:26 spreadshirt has had so many positive

9:26 spreadshirt has had so many positive interactions with all of the positive

9:29 interactions with all of the positive

9:29 interactions with all of the positive live fast I poor people all of you guys

9:32 live fast I poor people all of you guys

9:32 live fast I poor people all of you guys getting the t-shirts and leaving them

9:33 getting the t-shirts and leaving them

9:33 getting the t-shirts and leaving them good feedback and all this stuff that

9:35 good feedback and all this stuff that

9:35 good feedback and all this stuff that they really they looked at the website

9:36 they really they looked at the website

9:36 they really they looked at the website they looked at what we were doing they

9:38 they looked at what we were doing they

9:38 they looked at what we were doing they looked at the t-shirts and they and they

9:40 looked at the t-shirts and they and they

9:40 looked at the t-shirts and they and they actually called me they did a redesign

9:42 actually called me they did a redesign

9:42 actually called me they did a redesign of the little spreadshirt page so it was

9:43 of the little spreadshirt page so it was

9:43 of the little spreadshirt page so it was more custom looking and didn't look like

9:45 more custom looking and didn't look like

9:45 more custom looking and didn't look like the blank like you know sort of plain

9:47 the blank like you know sort of plain

9:47 the blank like you know sort of plain Jan spreadshirt page and um they asked

9:51 Jan spreadshirt page and um they asked

9:51 Jan spreadshirt page and um they asked me what kind of products I thought they

9:54 me what kind of products I thought they

9:54 me what kind of products I thought they should have and I told them I really

9:56 should have and I told them I really

9:56 should have and I told them I really think you guys should have trucker hats

9:57 think you guys should have trucker hats

9:57 think you guys should have trucker hats cuz people kept asking me if I was

9:58 cuz people kept asking me if I was

9:58 cuz people kept asking me if I was getting the MI hat and I really like

10:01 getting the MI hat and I really like

10:01 getting the MI hat and I really like that hat but I really wanted to have a

10:03 that hat but I really wanted to have a

10:03 that hat but I really wanted to have a live fast I po hat I could not figure

10:04 live fast I po hat I could not figure

10:04 live fast I po hat I could not figure out where we could get hats made they

10:05 out where we could get hats made they

10:05 out where we could get hats made they were going to be really expensive if we

10:07 were going to be really expensive if we

10:07 were going to be really expensive if we got them made and two and it would be a

10:09 got them made and two and it would be a

10:09 got them made and two and it would be a whole separate thing separate from the

10:12 whole separate thing separate from the

10:12 whole separate thing separate from the spreadshirt stuff and there was no way

10:14 spreadshirt stuff and there was no way

10:14 spreadshirt stuff and there was no way to do it that made sense where we would

10:16 to do it that made sense where we would

10:16 to do it that made sense where we would have time to ship them or do anything

10:18 have time to ship them or do anything

10:18 have time to ship them or do anything like that and anyway so I told them they

10:21 like that and anyway so I told them they

10:21 like that and anyway so I told them they needed to have uh trucker has and

10:24 needed to have uh trucker has and

10:24 needed to have uh trucker has and spreter is a pretty big company I think

10:26 spreter is a pretty big company I think

10:26 spreter is a pretty big company I think they have branches in Europe and all

10:27 they have branches in Europe and all

10:27 they have branches in Europe and all over the world all crazy so so I was

10:29 over the world all crazy so so I was

10:29 over the world all crazy so so I was thinking they're never going to listen

10:30 thinking they're never going to listen

10:30 thinking they're never going to listen to me but they did they like the lift

10:33 to me but they did they like the lift

10:33 to me but they did they like the lift fast I poor people so they got in touch

10:34 fast I poor people so they got in touch

10:34 fast I poor people so they got in touch with us so they're going to add trucker

10:38 with us so they're going to add trucker

10:38 with us so they're going to add trucker hats apparently very soon anyway they

10:40 hats apparently very soon anyway they

10:40 hats apparently very soon anyway they could not have been nicer better more

10:43 could not have been nicer better more

10:43 could not have been nicer better more awesome people the reason why I chose

10:45 awesome people the reason why I chose

10:45 awesome people the reason why I chose spreadshirt over any of those other

10:47 spreadshirt over any of those other

10:47 spreadshirt over any of those other print on demand this gets a little nerdy

10:48 print on demand this gets a little nerdy

10:48 print on demand this gets a little nerdy in graphic designing is the printable

10:50 in graphic designing is the printable

10:50 in graphic designing is the printable area was much larger I'm a big fan of

10:52 area was much larger I'm a big fan of

10:52 area was much larger I'm a big fan of like 1970s shirts that were big print

10:56 like 1970s shirts that were big print

10:56 like 1970s shirts that were big print most silk screen t-shirts ended up being

10:58 most silk screen t-shirts ended up being

10:58 most silk screen t-shirts ended up being an 11 by 17 print because for years it

11:01 an 11 by 17 print because for years it

11:02 an 11 by 17 print because for years it was easier to print film on 11 x 17

11:04 was easier to print film on 11 x 17

11:04 was easier to print film on 11 x 17 transparency so bands and anybody silk

11:06 transparency so bands and anybody silk

11:06 transparency so bands and anybody silk screening their garage end up with these

11:08 screening their garage end up with these

11:08 screening their garage end up with these very small print areas so t-shirts got

11:10 very small print areas so t-shirts got

11:11 very small print areas so t-shirts got smaller and smaller and smaller as more

11:12 smaller and smaller and smaller as more

11:12 smaller and smaller and smaller as more and more t-shirt start up things it's

11:14 and more t-shirt start up things it's

11:14 and more t-shirt start up things it's smaller screens it's hard to explain

11:16 smaller screens it's hard to explain

11:16 smaller screens it's hard to explain with the whole screen printing process

11:17 with the whole screen printing process

11:17 with the whole screen printing process but over time the trend was smaller and

11:19 but over time the trend was smaller and

11:19 but over time the trend was smaller and smaller print when I started my last

11:21 smaller print when I started my last

11:22 smaller print when I started my last band in 2003 I went full big print one

11:25 band in 2003 I went full big print one

11:25 band in 2003 I went full big print one of the silk screening companies in

11:27 of the silk screening companies in

11:27 of the silk screening companies in Southern California which is really good

11:28 Southern California which is really good

11:28 Southern California which is really good and they still do a of work which is

11:29 and they still do a of work which is

11:29 and they still do a of work which is dead and buried which were friends of

11:31 dead and buried which were friends of

11:31 dead and buried which were friends of mine they really like that so their band

11:33 mine they really like that so their band

11:33 mine they really like that so their band started doing print so big print they

11:35 started doing print so big print they

11:35 started doing print so big print they started offering big print for a lot of

11:36 started offering big print for a lot of

11:36 started offering big print for a lot of other big bands like Norma genene all

11:38 other big bands like Norma genene all

11:38 other big bands like Norma genene all these big bands they started doing big

11:40 these big bands they started doing big

11:40 these big bands they started doing big print so the trend swung the other way

11:42 print so the trend swung the other way

11:42 print so the trend swung the other way and the only print on

11:45 and the only print on

11:45 and the only print on demand site like print per order what

11:48 demand site like print per order what

11:48 demand site like print per order what print on demand basically means that

11:49 print on demand basically means that

11:49 print on demand basically means that instead of having a whole Warehouse full

11:51 instead of having a whole Warehouse full

11:51 instead of having a whole Warehouse full of t-shirts that cost a lot of money to

11:53 of t-shirts that cost a lot of money to

11:53 of t-shirts that cost a lot of money to manufacture and then they have to you

11:55 manufacture and then they have to you

11:55 manufacture and then they have to you know send them out one at a time they

11:56 know send them out one at a time they

11:56 know send them out one at a time they have a whole bunch of you know oh we

11:57 have a whole bunch of you know oh we

11:57 have a whole bunch of you know oh we didn't sell any small so we have 50,000

11:59 didn't sell any small so we have 50,000

11:59 didn't sell any small so we have 50,000 Smalls in a warehouse or something like

12:01 Smalls in a warehouse or something like

12:01 Smalls in a warehouse or something like that they can print digitally one shirt

12:03 that they can print digitally one shirt

12:03 that they can print digitally one shirt at a time so when you order it they make

12:05 at a time so when you order it they make

12:05 at a time so when you order it they make it for you at the size that you ordered

12:08 it for you at the size that you ordered

12:08 it for you at the size that you ordered because they have instead of silk

12:09 because they have instead of silk

12:09 because they have instead of silk screening it in Mass like Mass producing

12:12 screening it in Mass like Mass producing

12:12 screening it in Mass like Mass producing it they produce one so that's why it's a

12:13 it they produce one so that's why it's a

12:13 it they produce one so that's why it's a little more expensive than a silk screen

12:16 little more expensive than a silk screen

12:16 little more expensive than a silk screen t-shirt but it's just as good not only

12:18 t-shirt but it's just as good not only

12:18 t-shirt but it's just as good not only is the quality really good especially

12:20 is the quality really good especially

12:20 is the quality really good especially when you first get it a little like iron

12:22 when you first get it a little like iron

12:22 when you first get it a little like iron Onie feeling but when you wash the

12:23 Onie feeling but when you wash the

12:23 Onie feeling but when you wash the spreadsh shirts they get really soft

12:26 spreadsh shirts they get really soft

12:26 spreadsh shirts they get really soft like a silk screen so I love that but

12:28 like a silk screen so I love that but

12:28 like a silk screen so I love that but the big thing was had this big principal

12:30 the big thing was had this big principal

12:30 the big thing was had this big principal area bigger than any of the other things

12:32 area bigger than any of the other things

12:32 area bigger than any of the other things and I I got a shirt from them um that I

12:35 and I I got a shirt from them um that I

12:35 and I I got a shirt from them um that I designed for Adam and I loved it I loved

12:37 designed for Adam and I loved it I loved

12:37 designed for Adam and I loved it I loved it I loved it I loved it I loved it but

12:39 it I loved it I loved it I loved it but

12:39 it I loved it I loved it I loved it but so then it turns out the company is

12:40 so then it turns out the company is

12:40 so then it turns out the company is actually super super cool the people

12:42 actually super super cool the people

12:42 actually super super cool the people that work for the company are super

12:43 that work for the company are super

12:43 that work for the company are super friendly and cool they really care about

12:45 friendly and cool they really care about

12:45 friendly and cool they really care about the people not just the people like me

12:47 the people not just the people like me

12:47 the people not just the people like me who use it to for Designing shirts and

12:50 who use it to for Designing shirts and

12:50 who use it to for Designing shirts and different stuff like that but they also

12:51 different stuff like that but they also

12:51 different stuff like that but they also really care about the customers and they

12:52 really care about the customers and they

12:52 really care about the customers and they ask us well what are the people who you

12:54 ask us well what are the people who you

12:54 ask us well what are the people who you know get the t-shirts think of the

12:56 know get the t-shirts think of the

12:56 know get the t-shirts think of the shirts and different stuff like that so

12:58 shirts and different stuff like that so

12:58 shirts and different stuff like that so the feed back button on the LIF fast ip.

13:01 the feed back button on the LIF fast ip.

13:01 the feed back button on the LIF fast ip. spreadshirt.com that's ours if you

13:03 spreadshirt.com that's ours if you

13:03 spreadshirt.com that's ours if you haven't been there yet um that goes

13:05 haven't been there yet um that goes

13:05 haven't been there yet um that goes directly to them and they do actually

13:07 directly to them and they do actually

13:07 directly to them and they do actually listen to what you guys say so if you

13:10 listen to what you guys say so if you

13:10 listen to what you guys say so if you have any comments or suggestions or

13:11 have any comments or suggestions or

13:11 have any comments or suggestions or different stuff for spreadshirt that's

13:13 different stuff for spreadshirt that's

13:13 different stuff for spreadshirt that's definitely the spot to use it but I

13:14 definitely the spot to use it but I

13:14 definitely the spot to use it but I highly recommend them if you're an

13:16 highly recommend them if you're an

13:16 highly recommend them if you're an artist or you have a podcast or you do

13:19 artist or you have a podcast or you do

13:19 artist or you have a podcast or you do anything like that and know they're not

13:20 anything like that and know they're not

13:20 anything like that and know they're not paying me to say that or giving me

13:22 paying me to say that or giving me

13:22 paying me to say that or giving me anything extra they're just really super

13:23 anything extra they're just really super

13:23 anything extra they're just really super cool and I like to return coolness with

13:25 cool and I like to return coolness with

13:25 cool and I like to return coolness with coolness um a coolness for a coolness

13:28 coolness um a coolness for a coolness

13:28 coolness um a coolness for a coolness that's what I always say

13:29 that's what I always say

13:29 that's what I always say um yeah highly I don't recommend a lot

13:33 um yeah highly I don't recommend a lot

13:33 um yeah highly I don't recommend a lot of companies for anything because I

13:34 of companies for anything because I

13:34 of companies for anything because I don't interact with a lot of companies

13:36 don't interact with a lot of companies

13:36 don't interact with a lot of companies but I will tell you in years and years

13:37 but I will tell you in years and years

13:37 but I will tell you in years and years of being a graphic designer working with

13:39 of being a graphic designer working with

13:39 of being a graphic designer working with print shops and different stuff like

13:40 print shops and different stuff like

13:40 print shops and different stuff like that never was I more keen to give a

13:43 that never was I more keen to give a

13:43 that never was I more keen to give a plug or a shout out to a company in my

13:46 plug or a shout out to a company in my

13:46 plug or a shout out to a company in my entire life they're awesome super

13:48 entire life they're awesome super

13:48 entire life they're awesome super excellent customer service as far as

13:50 excellent customer service as far as

13:50 excellent customer service as far as helping me and super excellent customer

13:52 helping me and super excellent customer

13:52 helping me and super excellent customer service as far as helping the people who

13:53 service as far as helping the people who

13:53 service as far as helping the people who are ordering the shirts they're just

13:54 are ordering the shirts they're just

13:55 are ordering the shirts they're just really cool so shout out which I never

13:58 really cool so shout out which I never

13:58 really cool so shout out which I never really do you'll have to excuse that

14:00 really do you'll have to excuse that

14:00 really do you'll have to excuse that it's not even a plug for our shirts

14:02 it's not even a plug for our shirts

14:02 it's not even a plug for our shirts which you can find at lift port.com

14:04 which you can find at lift port.com

14:04 which you can find at lift port.com there's a plug for our shirts it's just

14:06 there's a plug for our shirts it's just

14:06 there's a plug for our shirts it's just a plug for that companies so if you have

14:07 a plug for that companies so if you have

14:07 a plug for that companies so if you have a podcast or anything like that or a

14:09 a podcast or anything like that or a

14:09 a podcast or anything like that or a club or something like that where you

14:10 club or something like that where you

14:10 club or something like that where you need shirts printed I especially in

14:13 need shirts printed I especially in

14:13 need shirts printed I especially in small quantities I would highly or one

14:16 small quantities I would highly or one

14:16 small quantities I would highly or one at a time kind of thing I highly

14:17 at a time kind of thing I highly

14:18 at a time kind of thing I highly recommend checking out

14:20 recommend checking out

14:20 recommend checking out spreadshirt definitely definitely

14:22 spreadshirt definitely definitely

14:22 spreadshirt definitely definitely definitely definitely they have offices

14:24 definitely definitely they have offices

14:24 definitely definitely they have offices obviously in the United States I think

14:25 obviously in the United States I think

14:25 obviously in the United States I think they have one big printing operation

14:27 they have one big printing operation

14:27 they have one big printing operation going to Las Vegas so pretty close to

14:29 going to Las Vegas so pretty close to

14:29 going to Las Vegas so pretty close to here um so that they get shipped out

14:32 here um so that they get shipped out

14:32 here um so that they get shipped out really really fast because they print

14:33 really really fast because they print

14:33 really really fast because they print them in different Stu see what I talking

14:34 them in different Stu see what I talking

14:34 them in different Stu see what I talking about those gangs there's

14:36 about those gangs there's

14:36 about those gangs there's gangs gangs in the park ruining the

14:45 park luckily I speak their language I

14:45 park luckily I speak their language I speak the lingo of the duck Street I

14:47 speak the lingo of the duck Street I

14:47 speak the lingo of the duck Street I speak the language of the pond the word

14:49 speak the language of the pond the word

14:49 speak the language of the pond the word on the pond

14:51 on the pond

14:51 on the pond is that this is the sumtime Vlog I don't

14:54 is that this is the sumtime Vlog I don't

14:54 is that this is the sumtime Vlog I don't know what I was going with that anyway

14:56 know what I was going with that anyway

14:56 know what I was going with that anyway so you want to get real let's get real

14:58 so you want to get real let's get real

14:58 so you want to get real let's get real it's like that line from Batman you want

14:59 it's like that line from Batman you want

14:59 it's like that line from Batman you want to get nuts you want to get Ducks let's

15:02 to get nuts you want to get Ducks let's

15:02 to get nuts you want to get Ducks let's get Ducks I am my finger is ridiculously

15:05 get Ducks I am my finger is ridiculously

15:05 get Ducks I am my finger is ridiculously close to that duck have you ever been

15:07 close to that duck have you ever been

15:07 close to that duck have you ever been bitten by a duck I have been bitten by a

15:09 bitten by a duck I have been bitten by a

15:09 bitten by a duck I have been bitten by a duck it hurts surprisingly more than you

15:12 duck it hurts surprisingly more than you

15:12 duck it hurts surprisingly more than you would think it hurts cuz Ducks almost

15:14 would think it hurts cuz Ducks almost

15:14 would think it hurts cuz Ducks almost have like little it's hard to explain

15:17 have like little it's hard to explain

15:17 have like little it's hard to explain look up Duck teeth you'll see what I

15:20 look up Duck teeth you'll see what I

15:20 look up Duck teeth you'll see what I mean don't bite me okay we're friends

15:23 mean don't bite me okay we're friends

15:23 mean don't bite me okay we're friends I'm not going to bother you you just

15:24 I'm not going to bother you you just

15:24 I'm not going to bother you you just hang out right there take a nap it's

15:27 hang out right there take a nap it's

15:27 hang out right there take a nap it's cool okay

15:29 cool okay

15:29 cool okay you want to get nuts let's get nuts come

15:32 you want to get nuts let's get nuts come

15:32 you want to get nuts let's get nuts come on let's get nuts Michael Keaton's so

15:34 on let's get nuts Michael Keaton's so

15:34 on let's get nuts Michael Keaton's so genius as Batman he's so good I I grant

15:38 genius as Batman he's so good I I grant

15:38 genius as Batman he's so good I I grant you that the Christopher Nolan Trilogy

15:41 you that the Christopher Nolan Trilogy

15:41 you that the Christopher Nolan Trilogy is super epic it is the best maybe

15:43 is super epic it is the best maybe

15:43 is super epic it is the best maybe superhero superhero

15:46 superhero superhero

15:46 superhero superhero Trilogy of all time maybe I don't know

15:49 Trilogy of all time maybe I don't know

15:49 Trilogy of all time maybe I don't know so good but Michael Keaton in 1989 Tim

15:54 so good but Michael Keaton in 1989 Tim

15:54 so good but Michael Keaton in 1989 Tim Burton Batman Tim Burton Michael Keaton

15:56 Burton Batman Tim Burton Michael Keaton

15:56 Burton Batman Tim Burton Michael Keaton Jack Nicholson as the Joker always hold

15:59 Jack Nicholson as the Joker always hold

15:59 Jack Nicholson as the Joker always hold a very special place inside of my

16:03 a very special place inside of my

16:03 a very special place inside of my heart okay what was I going to say oh so

16:06 heart okay what was I going to say oh so

16:06 heart okay what was I going to say oh so keeping it real about the

16:08 keeping it real about the

16:08 keeping it real about the Quest for positivity obviously you know

16:11 Quest for positivity obviously you know

16:11 Quest for positivity obviously you know I wrecked my car you know that by now if

16:13 I wrecked my car you know that by now if

16:13 I wrecked my car you know that by now if you didn't know that by now I wrecked my

16:16 you didn't know that by now I wrecked my

16:16 you didn't know that by now I wrecked my car um thing is I was auditioning to be

16:19 car um thing is I was auditioning to be

16:19 car um thing is I was auditioning to be a crash test dummy and I didn't know the

16:22 a crash test dummy and I didn't know the

16:22 a crash test dummy and I didn't know the right way to do that so I decided to

16:23 right way to do that so I decided to

16:23 right way to do that so I decided to check my airbag right when a guy was

16:26 check my airbag right when a guy was

16:26 check my airbag right when a guy was checking his brakes in front of me and

16:28 checking his brakes in front of me and

16:28 checking his brakes in front of me and it didn't turn out well well for anyone

16:31 it didn't turn out well well for anyone

16:31 it didn't turn out well well for anyone really at the moment but it's actually

16:32 really at the moment but it's actually

16:32 really at the moment but it's actually okay it's just a car no worries going to

16:34 okay it's just a car no worries going to

16:34 okay it's just a car no worries going to get a different car hopefully it won't

16:36 get a different car hopefully it won't

16:36 get a different car hopefully it won't be a lemon I'm not very mechanically

16:37 be a lemon I'm not very mechanically

16:37 be a lemon I'm not very mechanically inclined so hopefully I don't Huck

16:39 inclined so hopefully I don't Huck

16:40 inclined so hopefully I don't Huck Myself by picking the wrong car I want

16:43 Myself by picking the wrong car I want

16:43 Myself by picking the wrong car I want to talk about something somebody was

16:44 to talk about something somebody was

16:44 to talk about something somebody was talking about with me on Twitter today

16:47 talking about with me on Twitter today

16:47 talking about with me on Twitter today which is therapy I have actually been to

16:51 which is therapy I have actually been to

16:51 which is therapy I have actually been to therapy and to a therapist in the past

16:55 therapy and to a therapist in the past

16:55 therapy and to a therapist in the past and I was talking to this person online

16:57 and I was talking to this person online

16:57 and I was talking to this person online like blanking on who this girl was I

17:01 like blanking on who this girl was I

17:01 like blanking on who this girl was I can't remember but we're talking about

17:03 can't remember but we're talking about

17:03 can't remember but we're talking about how she touched on the fact that therapy

17:06 how she touched on the fact that therapy

17:06 how she touched on the fact that therapy has a huge stigma for people um I've

17:11 has a huge stigma for people um I've

17:11 has a huge stigma for people um I've mentioned before that there's no shame

17:13 mentioned before that there's no shame

17:13 mentioned before that there's no shame in admitting that you need help that

17:15 in admitting that you need help that

17:15 in admitting that you need help that you're at the end of your toolkit maybe

17:17 you're at the end of your toolkit maybe

17:17 you're at the end of your toolkit maybe going to do that because I get a lot of

17:18 going to do that because I get a lot of

17:18 going to do that because I get a lot of letters from people who say I've also

17:20 letters from people who say I've also

17:20 letters from people who say I've also suffered a lot from depression or this

17:21 suffered a lot from depression or this

17:21 suffered a lot from depression or this or that or this horrible thing happened

17:23 or that or this horrible thing happened

17:23 or that or this horrible thing happened to me or this horrible thing happened to

17:24 to me or this horrible thing happened to

17:24 to me or this horrible thing happened to me I can't get positive or you know so

17:26 me I can't get positive or you know so

17:26 me I can't get positive or you know so and so passed away in my family and it's

17:28 and so passed away in my family and it's

17:28 and so passed away in my family and it's really a Ed me and the way I behave and

17:30 really a Ed me and the way I behave and

17:30 really a Ed me and the way I behave and the way I treat other people and blah

17:31 the way I treat other people and blah

17:31 the way I treat other people and blah blah blah blah blah I don't mean blah

17:33 blah blah blah blah I don't mean blah

17:33 blah blah blah blah I don't mean blah blah blah blah blah to be dismissive but

17:35 blah blah blah blah to be dismissive but

17:35 blah blah blah blah to be dismissive but you know what I mean just bad juju um

17:39 you know what I mean just bad juju um

17:39 you know what I mean just bad juju um it's a little windy out here so I hope

17:41 it's a little windy out here so I hope

17:41 it's a little windy out here so I hope it's not hucking the audio too much for

17:43 it's not hucking the audio too much for

17:43 it's not hucking the audio too much for you

17:45 you

17:45 you guys so what I recommend honestly to a

17:50 guys so what I recommend honestly to a

17:50 guys so what I recommend honestly to a lot of people is if you've been

17:52 lot of people is if you've been

17:52 lot of people is if you've been depressed for 10 years if you've

17:54 depressed for 10 years if you've

17:54 depressed for 10 years if you've suffered maybe you think you might

17:56 suffered maybe you think you might

17:56 suffered maybe you think you might sometimes think you maybe you have

17:57 sometimes think you maybe you have

17:57 sometimes think you maybe you have bipolar disorder or or you're depressed

17:59 bipolar disorder or or you're depressed

17:59 bipolar disorder or or you're depressed or you've just been grieving or grieving

18:01 or you've just been grieving or grieving

18:01 or you've just been grieving or grieving and you haven't been able to move past

18:03 and you haven't been able to move past

18:03 and you haven't been able to move past the death of a loved one or a traumatic

18:05 the death of a loved one or a traumatic

18:05 the death of a loved one or a traumatic thing happened to you that you notice a

18:07 thing happened to you that you notice a

18:07 thing happened to you that you notice a big shift in your life afterwards that

18:09 big shift in your life afterwards that

18:09 big shift in your life afterwards that you really changed maybe for the worst

18:11 you really changed maybe for the worst

18:11 you really changed maybe for the worst that you haven't been able to get past

18:12 that you haven't been able to get past

18:12 that you haven't been able to get past something in your life or get past a

18:13 something in your life or get past a

18:13 something in your life or get past a mental block listen our minds and our

18:18 mental block listen our minds and our

18:18 mental block listen our minds and our lives are like pointal list paintings

18:20 lives are like pointal list paintings

18:20 lives are like pointal list paintings it's often very very easy my therapist

18:23 it's often very very easy my therapist

18:23 it's often very very easy my therapist once told me that I would make a very

18:24 once told me that I would make a very

18:24 once told me that I would make a very good therapist it's often very very easy

18:26 good therapist it's often very very easy

18:26 good therapist it's often very very easy to look at somebody else's life from the

18:27 to look at somebody else's life from the

18:27 to look at somebody else's life from the outside and go I see it you don't set

18:30 outside and go I see it you don't set

18:30 outside and go I see it you don't set boundaries for yourself you don't

18:31 boundaries for yourself you don't

18:31 boundaries for yourself you don't protect yourself from people walking all

18:33 protect yourself from people walking all

18:33 protect yourself from people walking all over you oh you know what I see I see

18:36 over you oh you know what I see I see

18:36 over you oh you know what I see I see that you're you get very depressed you

18:38 that you're you get very depressed you

18:38 that you're you get very depressed you get upset you upset the people in your

18:39 get upset you upset the people in your

18:39 get upset you upset the people in your life and then the next day you're super

18:41 life and then the next day you're super

18:41 life and then the next day you're super cool and everybody loves you and it

18:42 cool and everybody loves you and it

18:42 cool and everybody loves you and it keeps happening maybe you might have

18:44 keeps happening maybe you might have

18:44 keeps happening maybe you might have bipolar disorder or something like that

18:46 bipolar disorder or something like that

18:46 bipolar disorder or something like that it's really easy to diagnose the people

18:49 it's really easy to diagnose the people

18:49 it's really easy to diagnose the people that you love and the other people

18:50 that you love and the other people

18:50 that you love and the other people around you when it comes to yourself

18:52 around you when it comes to yourself

18:52 around you when it comes to yourself though much like a poist painting or an

18:55 though much like a poist painting or an

18:55 though much like a poist painting or an impressionist painting you need some

18:57 impressionist painting you need some

18:57 impressionist painting you need some perspective sometimes you need to back

19:00 perspective sometimes you need to back

19:00 perspective sometimes you need to back way off of

19:01 way off of

19:01 way off of yourself to understand the bigger

19:03 yourself to understand the bigger

19:03 yourself to understand the bigger picture you have to change your

19:05 picture you have to change your

19:05 picture you have to change your perspective get the wide view of the

19:09 perspective get the wide view of the

19:09 perspective get the wide view of the situation now I understand for many

19:11 situation now I understand for many

19:11 situation now I understand for many people they think

19:13 people they think

19:13 people they think therapy that's insane I don't want to go

19:16 therapy that's insane I don't want to go

19:16 therapy that's insane I don't want to go there that's where crazy people go you

19:18 there that's where crazy people go you

19:18 there that's where crazy people go you don't have to be crazy first of all to

19:19 don't have to be crazy first of all to

19:19 don't have to be crazy first of all to go to a therapist second of all what is

19:21 go to a therapist second of all what is

19:21 go to a therapist second of all what is crazy nobody is saying we're all crazy

19:25 crazy nobody is saying we're all crazy

19:25 crazy nobody is saying we're all crazy okay

19:27 okay

19:27 okay uh it's really kind of like I would

19:31 uh it's really kind of like I would

19:31 uh it's really kind of like I would liken it to the stigma around going to a

19:33 liken it to the stigma around going to a

19:33 liken it to the stigma around going to a mechanic if you're one of those manly

19:36 mechanic if you're one of those manly

19:36 mechanic if you're one of those manly men you know I can fix it myself I could

19:38 men you know I can fix it myself I could

19:38 men you know I can fix it myself I could put together a carburetor blah blah blah

19:40 put together a carburetor blah blah blah

19:40 put together a carburetor blah blah blah blah blah well that's fine and a lot of

19:42 blah blah well that's fine and a lot of

19:42 blah blah well that's fine and a lot of people really can a lot of people will

19:44 people really can a lot of people will

19:44 people really can a lot of people will go through their life or they have

19:45 go through their life or they have

19:45 go through their life or they have friends and family or loved ones who've

19:46 friends and family or loved ones who've

19:46 friends and family or loved ones who've been through similar situations when

19:47 been through similar situations when

19:47 been through similar situations when they hit a tough situation they can go

19:49 they hit a tough situation they can go

19:49 they hit a tough situation they can go to those people they can get advice they

19:51 to those people they can get advice they

19:51 to those people they can get advice they can get some perspective that way and

19:53 can get some perspective that way and

19:53 can get some perspective that way and their toolkit is adequate toolkit

19:56 their toolkit is adequate toolkit

19:56 their toolkit is adequate toolkit meaning the people around them the situ

19:58 meaning the people around them the situ

19:58 meaning the people around them the situ sitation they're in uh their experience

20:01 sitation they're in uh their experience

20:01 sitation they're in uh their experience their knowledge and the experience of

20:02 their knowledge and the experience of

20:02 their knowledge and the experience of and knowledge of the loved ones around

20:04 and knowledge of the loved ones around

20:04 and knowledge of the loved ones around them um etc etc their toolkit is

20:09 them um etc etc their toolkit is

20:09 them um etc etc their toolkit is adequate to assess and repair the

20:13 adequate to assess and repair the

20:13 adequate to assess and repair the problem at hand well for a lot of us

20:16 problem at hand well for a lot of us

20:16 problem at hand well for a lot of us we'll run up against

20:18 we'll run up against

20:18 we'll run up against situations where we either don't have

20:21 situations where we either don't have

20:21 situations where we either don't have the necessary information or the right

20:24 the necessary information or the right

20:24 the necessary information or the right people in our lives at the time you can

20:26 people in our lives at the time you can

20:26 people in our lives at the time you can have the greatest parents in the world

20:27 have the greatest parents in the world

20:27 have the greatest parents in the world but if they've never let's say your dad

20:29 but if they've never let's say your dad

20:29 but if they've never let's say your dad is the wisest guy on the planet right

20:31 is the wisest guy on the planet right

20:31 is the wisest guy on the planet right the wisest most kindest most loving

20:34 the wisest most kindest most loving

20:34 the wisest most kindest most loving person in the whole wide world he's been

20:36 person in the whole wide world he's been

20:36 person in the whole wide world he's been through a lot of stuff but your dad has

20:39 through a lot of stuff but your dad has

20:39 through a lot of stuff but your dad has never woken up 25 days in a row wishing

20:41 never woken up 25 days in a row wishing

20:41 never woken up 25 days in a row wishing that he hadn't or something like that so

20:44 that he hadn't or something like that so

20:44 that he hadn't or something like that so he may not have the necessary

20:46 he may not have the necessary

20:46 he may not have the necessary information or knowledge or experience

20:48 information or knowledge or experience

20:48 information or knowledge or experience to give you advice if you find yourself

20:50 to give you advice if you find yourself

20:50 to give you advice if you find yourself in that situation whereas a therapist

20:53 in that situation whereas a therapist

20:53 in that situation whereas a therapist will let's look at it another

20:56 will let's look at it another

20:56 will let's look at it another way uh two or 300 years ago a little

21:00 way uh two or 300 years ago a little

21:00 way uh two or 300 years ago a little longer than that Europeans would show up

21:02 longer than that Europeans would show up

21:02 longer than that Europeans would show up in Japan and other countries and they

21:04 in Japan and other countries and they

21:04 in Japan and other countries and they would go you guys are disgusting do you

21:06 would go you guys are disgusting do you

21:06 would go you guys are disgusting do you know why because Europeans had a

21:08 know why because Europeans had a

21:09 know why because Europeans had a Superstition I think starting in the

21:10 Superstition I think starting in the

21:10 Superstition I think starting in the plague era that if they washed and

21:13 plague era that if they washed and

21:13 plague era that if they washed and bathed them themselves that would invite

21:16 bathed them themselves that would invite

21:16 bathed them themselves that would invite sickness and disease so of course they

21:19 sickness and disease so of course they

21:19 sickness and disease so of course they were rampant with sickness and disease

21:21 were rampant with sickness and disease

21:21 were rampant with sickness and disease because they never washed themselves to

21:23 because they never washed themselves to

21:23 because they never washed themselves to bathe was considered kind of sketchy and

21:26 bathe was considered kind of sketchy and

21:26 bathe was considered kind of sketchy and dangerous that's pretty disgusting but

21:28 dangerous that's pretty disgusting but

21:28 dangerous that's pretty disgusting but that was based on the best science of

21:32 that was based on the best science of

21:32 that was based on the best science of the day clearly We Now understand what

21:35 the day clearly We Now understand what

21:35 the day clearly We Now understand what germs are we're not operating on the

21:37 germs are we're not operating on the

21:37 germs are we're not operating on the four

21:38 four

21:38 four humors uh and we've evolved a little bit

21:42 humors uh and we've evolved a little bit

21:42 humors uh and we've evolved a little bit in terms of scientific knowledge about

21:44 in terms of scientific knowledge about

21:44 in terms of scientific knowledge about hygiene Health Care

21:47 hygiene Health Care

21:48 hygiene Health Care Dentistry diet even though I'm one to

21:50 Dentistry diet even though I'm one to

21:50 Dentistry diet even though I'm one to talk about diet right drinking all that

21:52 talk about diet right drinking all that

21:52 talk about diet right drinking all that Mountain Dew and eating those delicious

21:54 Mountain Dew and eating those delicious

21:54 Mountain Dew and eating those delicious delicious

21:55 delicious

21:55 delicious Doritos but we we know what we're

21:57 Doritos but we we know what we're

21:57 Doritos but we we know what we're talking about when it comes to those

21:59 talking about when it comes to those

21:59 talking about when it comes to those things and most people have accepted

22:00 things and most people have accepted

22:00 things and most people have accepted them well in the last even the last 10

22:03 them well in the last even the last 10

22:03 them well in the last even the last 10 really but the last 10 20 30 years

22:06 really but the last 10 20 30 years

22:06 really but the last 10 20 30 years things have changed a lot in terms of

22:08 things have changed a lot in terms of

22:08 things have changed a lot in terms of psychology and being able to study and

22:09 psychology and being able to study and

22:09 psychology and being able to study and to map out the brain how the brain works

22:12 to map out the brain how the brain works

22:12 to map out the brain how the brain works how different s we've been able to study

22:13 how different s we've been able to study

22:13 how different s we've been able to study and catalog and with computers and the

22:15 and catalog and with computers and the

22:15 and catalog and with computers and the internet they've been able to the

22:16 internet they've been able to the

22:16 internet they've been able to the scientists and the therapists and

22:18 scientists and the therapists and

22:18 scientists and the therapists and psychologists have been able to

22:19 psychologists have been able to

22:19 psychologists have been able to psychiatrists have been able to talk to

22:20 psychiatrists have been able to talk to

22:21 psychiatrists have been able to talk to each

22:22 each

22:22 each other cast these way wider studies we

22:24 other cast these way wider studies we

22:24 other cast these way wider studies we You Now understand human behavior more

22:26 You Now understand human behavior more

22:26 You Now understand human behavior more so now this year as Jose even last year

22:29 so now this year as Jose even last year

22:29 so now this year as Jose even last year than we ever have in history of the

22:31 than we ever have in history of the

22:31 than we ever have in history of the planet ever ever ever so you could have

22:34 planet ever ever ever so you could have

22:34 planet ever ever ever so you could have the greatest parents in the world the

22:35 the greatest parents in the world the

22:35 the greatest parents in the world the greatest grandparents in the world

22:36 greatest grandparents in the world

22:36 greatest grandparents in the world greatest people around you you yourself

22:37 greatest people around you you yourself

22:37 greatest people around you you yourself could have read a really great book a

22:39 could have read a really great book a

22:39 could have read a really great book a lot of years ago that helped you and now

22:40 lot of years ago that helped you and now

22:40 lot of years ago that helped you and now you find yourself struggling there's a

22:42 you find yourself struggling there's a

22:42 you find yourself struggling there's a lot of new information out there so you

22:44 lot of new information out there so you

22:44 lot of new information out there so you may reach the end of your toolkit you

22:45 may reach the end of your toolkit you

22:45 may reach the end of your toolkit you don't have to be insane or crazy or even

22:47 don't have to be insane or crazy or even

22:47 don't have to be insane or crazy or even have some kind of mental disorder it

22:49 have some kind of mental disorder it

22:49 have some kind of mental disorder it could just be that you have a lot of

22:50 could just be that you have a lot of

22:50 could just be that you have a lot of stress in your life you don't see that

22:52 stress in your life you don't see that

22:52 stress in your life you don't see that coming from someone maybe you had

22:54 coming from someone maybe you had

22:54 coming from someone maybe you had parents who did the very best they could

22:56 parents who did the very best they could

22:56 parents who did the very best they could with the best information at the time

22:58 with the best information at the time

22:58 with the best information at the time who told you to suck it up and we're

23:00 who told you to suck it up and we're

23:00 who told you to suck it up and we're cruel or something like that

23:02 cruel or something like that

23:02 cruel or something like that accidentally you could have the most

23:03 accidentally you could have the most

23:03 accidentally you could have the most accidentally cruel or abusive parents in

23:05 accidentally cruel or abusive parents in

23:05 accidentally cruel or abusive parents in the world we had an upbringing that for

23:07 the world we had an upbringing that for

23:07 the world we had an upbringing that for you and your personality was not very

23:09 you and your personality was not very

23:09 you and your personality was not very psychologically healthy there could be

23:11 psychologically healthy there could be

23:11 psychologically healthy there could be damage in there or maybe you hit a

23:13 damage in there or maybe you hit a

23:13 damage in there or maybe you hit a traumatic situation and even it could

23:15 traumatic situation and even it could

23:15 traumatic situation and even it could have been years ago and people gave you

23:17 have been years ago and people gave you

23:17 have been years ago and people gave you the best help available at the time but

23:19 the best help available at the time but

23:19 the best help available at the time but there's honestly no shame it makes no

23:22 there's honestly no shame it makes no

23:22 there's honestly no shame it makes no logical or practical sense to have any

23:24 logical or practical sense to have any

23:24 logical or practical sense to have any kind of stigma about going to a

23:27 kind of stigma about going to a

23:27 kind of stigma about going to a therapist to a counselor to going to

23:29 therapist to a counselor to going to

23:29 therapist to a counselor to going to someone who knows more about human

23:30 someone who knows more about human

23:30 someone who knows more about human behavior the brain trauma uh mental

23:34 behavior the brain trauma uh mental

23:34 behavior the brain trauma uh mental disorder

23:36 disorder

23:36 disorder distress it doesn't make any sense not

23:38 distress it doesn't make any sense not

23:38 distress it doesn't make any sense not to go to that person that would be like

23:39 to go to that person that would be like

23:39 to go to that person that would be like saying my transmission is broken I lack

23:42 saying my transmission is broken I lack

23:42 saying my transmission is broken I lack a lift and the tools to take it apart

23:44 a lift and the tools to take it apart

23:44 a lift and the tools to take it apart and rebuild it but I'm not going to a

23:46 and rebuild it but I'm not going to a

23:46 and rebuild it but I'm not going to a mechanic I'm just going to put my car in

23:48 mechanic I'm just going to put my car in

23:48 mechanic I'm just going to put my car in the garage and stand there it makes no

23:51 the garage and stand there it makes no

23:51 the garage and stand there it makes no sense it's like the guy who won't ask

23:54 sense it's like the guy who won't ask

23:54 sense it's like the guy who won't ask for directions and he's clearly clearly

23:56 for directions and he's clearly clearly

23:56 for directions and he's clearly clearly lost well it's literally like that isn't

23:57 lost well it's literally like that isn't

23:57 lost well it's literally like that isn't it because

23:58 it because

23:58 it because sometimes we just need directions from

24:00 sometimes we just need directions from

24:00 sometimes we just need directions from someone who's either been there or dealt

24:02 someone who's either been there or dealt

24:02 someone who's either been there or dealt with a lot of people who have been there

24:03 with a lot of people who have been there

24:03 with a lot of people who have been there would train especially an experienced

24:05 would train especially an experienced

24:05 would train especially an experienced therapist or counselor or somebody like

24:07 therapist or counselor or somebody like

24:07 therapist or counselor or somebody like that I'm say talking about a

24:08 that I'm say talking about a

24:08 that I'm say talking about a psychiatrist someone who's going to give

24:09 psychiatrist someone who's going to give

24:09 psychiatrist someone who's going to give you pump you full of drugs people are

24:11 you pump you full of drugs people are

24:11 you pump you full of drugs people are very afraid of things like that there's

24:13 very afraid of things like that there's

24:13 very afraid of things like that there's a lot of weird bad stigma I'm talking

24:16 a lot of weird bad stigma I'm talking

24:16 a lot of weird bad stigma I'm talking about a c simply a counselor somebody

24:18 about a c simply a counselor somebody

24:18 about a c simply a counselor somebody who really knows a lot about human

24:19 who really knows a lot about human

24:19 who really knows a lot about human behavior stressful situations they dealt

24:21 behavior stressful situations they dealt

24:21 behavior stressful situations they dealt with a lot of this stuff so I have

24:23 with a lot of this stuff so I have

24:23 with a lot of this stuff so I have absolutely no shame in admitting that me

24:25 absolutely no shame in admitting that me

24:25 absolutely no shame in admitting that me personally I will put myself out there

24:27 personally I will put myself out there

24:27 personally I will put myself out there and say and today was the second week in

24:30 and say and today was the second week in

24:30 and say and today was the second week in a row that I just visited a therapist

24:32 a row that I just visited a therapist

24:32 a row that I just visited a therapist starting last week after I got back from

24:34 starting last week after I got back from

24:34 starting last week after I got back from the crash um the crash was a super huge

24:38 the crash um the crash was a super huge

24:38 the crash um the crash was a super huge wakeup call for me because I've been

24:39 wakeup call for me because I've been

24:39 wakeup call for me because I've been super super positive I've been trying my

24:41 super super positive I've been trying my

24:41 super super positive I've been trying my hardest struggling against all kinds of

24:43 hardest struggling against all kinds of

24:44 hardest struggling against all kinds of horrible bad situations and bad things

24:45 horrible bad situations and bad things

24:45 horrible bad situations and bad things that have happened to me in the past in

24:48 that have happened to me in the past in

24:48 that have happened to me in the past in my life I struggled a lot with

24:50 my life I struggled a lot with

24:50 my life I struggled a lot with depression with anxiety all kinds of

24:52 depression with anxiety all kinds of

24:52 depression with anxiety all kinds of problems which actually cleared up a lot

24:54 problems which actually cleared up a lot

24:54 problems which actually cleared up a lot once a certain person was out of my life

24:56 once a certain person was out of my life

24:56 once a certain person was out of my life I was actually a lot healthier and a lot

24:58 I was actually a lot healthier and a lot

24:58 I was actually a lot healthier and a lot healthier State a lot less stressed out

25:00 healthier State a lot less stressed out

25:00 healthier State a lot less stressed out those problems actually cleared

25:01 those problems actually cleared

25:01 those problems actually cleared themselves up quite a bit but I'll tell

25:04 themselves up quite a bit but I'll tell

25:04 themselves up quite a bit but I'll tell you honestly cuz I have absolutely no

25:06 you honestly cuz I have absolutely no

25:06 you honestly cuz I have absolutely no sense of Shame whatsoever when I hit

25:08 sense of Shame whatsoever when I hit

25:08 sense of Shame whatsoever when I hit that car and the airbag explodes and you

25:11 that car and the airbag explodes and you

25:11 that car and the airbag explodes and you think you're dead for a second and you

25:13 think you're dead for a second and you

25:13 think you're dead for a second and you got out of the car you're standing on

25:14 got out of the car you're standing on

25:14 got out of the car you're standing on the side of the bridge instead of being

25:15 the side of the bridge instead of being

25:15 the side of the bridge instead of being super grateful to be alive I was kind of

25:18 super grateful to be alive I was kind of

25:18 super grateful to be alive I was kind of disappointed not in like a suicidal way

25:22 disappointed not in like a suicidal way

25:22 disappointed not in like a suicidal way but just in like a oh man wouldn't it

25:24 but just in like a oh man wouldn't it

25:24 but just in like a oh man wouldn't it have been easier to just have checked

25:25 have been easier to just have checked

25:26 have been easier to just have checked out right there bang no more stress no

25:28 out right there bang no more stress no

25:28 out right there bang no more stress no more F and that kind of was a huge I'm

25:30 more F and that kind of was a huge I'm

25:30 more F and that kind of was a huge I'm very thankful for the accident honestly

25:32 very thankful for the accident honestly

25:32 very thankful for the accident honestly I don't care about the car I'm thankful

25:34 I don't care about the car I'm thankful

25:34 I don't care about the car I'm thankful for the accident because it it kind of

25:35 for the accident because it it kind of

25:35 for the accident because it it kind of woke me up to the fact that okay I've

25:37 woke me up to the fact that okay I've

25:37 woke me up to the fact that okay I've got pretty far and everybody that I know

25:39 got pretty far and everybody that I know

25:39 got pretty far and everybody that I know and people who've been through similar

25:40 and people who've been through similar

25:40 and people who've been through similar situations said you've done pretty well

25:42 situations said you've done pretty well

25:43 situations said you've done pretty well pretty quickly with all the stuff that

25:44 pretty quickly with all the stuff that

25:44 pretty quickly with all the stuff that you've been going through and staying

25:46 you've been going through and staying

25:46 you've been going through and staying positive staying strong but it woke me

25:49 positive staying strong but it woke me

25:49 positive staying strong but it woke me up to the fact that I pretty much had

25:51 up to the fact that I pretty much had

25:51 up to the fact that I pretty much had reached the end of my toolkit in terms

25:54 reached the end of my toolkit in terms

25:54 reached the end of my toolkit in terms of it's very difficult now I know I've

25:56 of it's very difficult now I know I've

25:57 of it's very difficult now I know I've seen the bad situation I know I can't

25:58 seen the bad situation I know I can't

25:58 seen the bad situation I know I can't control it I can only control my own

26:00 control it I can only control my own

26:00 control it I can only control my own reaction to it but I hit a point where

26:02 reaction to it but I hit a point where

26:02 reaction to it but I hit a point where that kind of woke me up to the fact that

26:04 that kind of woke me up to the fact that

26:04 that kind of woke me up to the fact that there's a lot of stuff I'm dealing with

26:06 there's a lot of stuff I'm dealing with

26:06 there's a lot of stuff I'm dealing with that I don't even know that I'm dealing

26:08 that I don't even know that I'm dealing

26:08 that I don't even know that I'm dealing with I can't see myself from the outside

26:10 with I can't see myself from the outside

26:10 with I can't see myself from the outside so I don't always see the things that

26:11 so I don't always see the things that

26:11 so I don't always see the things that stress me out or the fact that the big

26:13 stress me out or the fact that the big

26:13 stress me out or the fact that the big one is I don't set boundaries with

26:15 one is I don't set boundaries with

26:15 one is I don't set boundaries with people so if I have friends or somebody

26:17 people so if I have friends or somebody

26:17 people so if I have friends or somebody that I love or care about I sort of let

26:19 that I love or care about I sort of let

26:19 that I love or care about I sort of let them walk all over me and as was pointed

26:22 them walk all over me and as was pointed

26:22 them walk all over me and as was pointed out to me uh very aptly you know you're

26:25 out to me uh very aptly you know you're

26:25 out to me uh very aptly you know you're in an abusive relationship more or less

26:27 in an abusive relationship more or less

26:27 in an abusive relationship more or less for years and years and years where

26:29 for years and years and years where

26:29 for years and years and years where somebody doesn't like you that can start

26:33 somebody doesn't like you that can start

26:33 somebody doesn't like you that can start to affect the way you look at yourself

26:34 to affect the way you look at yourself

26:34 to affect the way you look at yourself the way you see other people and see the

26:35 the way you see other people and see the

26:35 the way you see other people and see the world you start to become in my case

26:37 world you start to become in my case

26:37 world you start to become in my case very very submissive you don't set

26:39 very very submissive you don't set

26:39 very very submissive you don't set boundaries with people and you end up

26:40 boundaries with people and you end up

26:40 boundaries with people and you end up doing a lot of things you don't want to

26:42 doing a lot of things you don't want to

26:42 doing a lot of things you don't want to do which I never complain about because

26:44 do which I never complain about because

26:44 do which I never complain about because I I'll do anything I when I'm loyal to

26:45 I I'll do anything I when I'm loyal to

26:45 I I'll do anything I when I'm loyal to someone or I love or care about somebody

26:47 someone or I love or care about somebody

26:47 someone or I love or care about somebody I'm a

26:48 I'm a

26:48 I'm a 100% loyal like kind of Overboard loyal

26:52 100% loyal like kind of Overboard loyal

26:52 100% loyal like kind of Overboard loyal to that person I will do anything they

26:53 to that person I will do anything they

26:53 to that person I will do anything they ask me to that kind of thing the problem

26:56 ask me to that kind of thing the problem

26:56 ask me to that kind of thing the problem with that for me is that if you don't

26:58 with that for me is that if you don't

26:58 with that for me is that if you don't learn to set boundaries with people you

27:01 learn to set boundaries with people you

27:01 learn to set boundaries with people you end up doing a lot of things you don't

27:02 end up doing a lot of things you don't

27:02 end up doing a lot of things you don't want to do cheerfully and

27:05 want to do cheerfully and

27:05 want to do cheerfully and willingly uh but you end up burning

27:07 willingly uh but you end up burning

27:07 willingly uh but you end up burning yourself out the person that you love

27:08 yourself out the person that you love

27:08 yourself out the person that you love and care about isn't trying to burn you

27:10 and care about isn't trying to burn you

27:10 and care about isn't trying to burn you out they don't want to do that to you

27:11 out they don't want to do that to you

27:11 out they don't want to do that to you they they didn't know I was going to do

27:13 they they didn't know I was going to do

27:13 they they didn't know I was going to do that to you you didn't know that was

27:14 that to you you didn't know that was

27:14 that to you you didn't know that was going to do that to you so in my

27:15 going to do that to you so in my

27:15 going to do that to you so in my personal case so tired so burned out

27:19 personal case so tired so burned out

27:19 personal case so tired so burned out trying to stay positive trying to keep

27:21 trying to stay positive trying to keep

27:21 trying to stay positive trying to keep the people around me positive and the

27:23 the people around me positive and the

27:23 the people around me positive and the people that I care about positive and I

27:25 people that I care about positive and I

27:25 people that I care about positive and I just realized I had reached the end of

27:28 just realized I had reached the end of

27:28 just realized I had reached the end of the extent of my own personal knowledge

27:32 the extent of my own personal knowledge

27:32 the extent of my own personal knowledge in terms of how to get myself to the

27:34 in terms of how to get myself to the

27:34 in terms of how to get myself to the next level not a positivity I'm actually

27:37 next level not a positivity I'm actually

27:37 next level not a positivity I'm actually super positive I think the Quest for

27:39 super positive I think the Quest for

27:39 super positive I think the Quest for positivity is going very very well but

27:41 positivity is going very very well but

27:41 positivity is going very very well but just there's a certain amount of

27:42 just there's a certain amount of

27:42 just there's a certain amount of depression or stress or I can't even

27:44 depression or stress or I can't even

27:44 depression or stress or I can't even tell you discomfort or suffering that

27:46 tell you discomfort or suffering that

27:46 tell you discomfort or suffering that I've been through or whatever it is that

27:49 I've been through or whatever it is that

27:49 I've been through or whatever it is that I just hit this Plateau where I don't

27:51 I just hit this Plateau where I don't

27:51 I just hit this Plateau where I don't know how to see myself from the outside

27:54 know how to see myself from the outside

27:54 know how to see myself from the outside well enough to really know like what is

27:56 well enough to really know like what is

27:56 well enough to really know like what is it what's the thing that's bugging me

27:59 it what's the thing that's bugging me

27:59 it what's the thing that's bugging me deep down inside that I can't figure out

28:02 deep down inside that I can't figure out

28:02 deep down inside that I can't figure out what that is what is that thing where

28:03 what that is what is that thing where

28:03 what that is what is that thing where when I'm alone I'm bummed out I don't

28:06 when I'm alone I'm bummed out I don't

28:06 when I'm alone I'm bummed out I don't like it I don't want to be bummed out I

28:07 like it I don't want to be bummed out I

28:07 like it I don't want to be bummed out I can take myself to a place where I'm not

28:09 can take myself to a place where I'm not

28:09 can take myself to a place where I'm not bummed out but that's very very tiring

28:11 bummed out but that's very very tiring

28:11 bummed out but that's very very tiring to have to constantly do that that's the

28:12 to have to constantly do that that's the

28:12 to have to constantly do that that's the first step in the Quest for positivity

28:13 first step in the Quest for positivity

28:13 first step in the Quest for positivity for sure you have to decide you're going

28:15 for sure you have to decide you're going

28:15 for sure you have to decide you're going to be positive the next step is to stick

28:17 to be positive the next step is to stick

28:17 to be positive the next step is to stick to that and every day make that choice

28:19 to that and every day make that choice

28:19 to that and every day make that choice like I always say to make the choice so

28:21 like I always say to make the choice so

28:21 like I always say to make the choice so I do see the world very positively it

28:22 I do see the world very positively it

28:22 I do see the world very positively it has worked it has completely changed my

28:24 has worked it has completely changed my

28:24 has worked it has completely changed my perspective on everything I'm way more

28:26 perspective on everything I'm way more

28:26 perspective on everything I'm way more open to what life in the universe ierse

28:28 open to what life in the universe ierse

28:28 open to what life in the universe ierse or God or not God whatever I don't know

28:30 or God or not God whatever I don't know

28:30 or God or not God whatever I don't know what you believe and I don't want to get

28:31 what you believe and I don't want to get

28:31 what you believe and I don't want to get into that but whatever life has in store

28:34 into that but whatever life has in store

28:35 into that but whatever life has in store for me I'm way more open to it I'm way

28:36 for me I'm way more open to it I'm way

28:36 for me I'm way more open to it I'm way more open to positive possibilities I'm

28:38 more open to positive possibilities I'm

28:38 more open to positive possibilities I'm way less cynical I'm way less negative

28:40 way less cynical I'm way less negative

28:40 way less cynical I'm way less negative I'm way less depressed way less bummed

28:42 I'm way less depressed way less bummed

28:42 I'm way less depressed way less bummed out so the Quest for positivity super

28:44 out so the Quest for positivity super

28:44 out so the Quest for positivity super super

28:45 super

28:45 super works but it can't solve everything you

28:47 works but it can't solve everything you

28:47 works but it can't solve everything you can't solve everything just by willing

28:49 can't solve everything just by willing

28:49 can't solve everything just by willing yourself into positivity because let's

28:52 yourself into positivity because let's

28:52 yourself into positivity because let's face it if something's broken on your

28:53 face it if something's broken on your

28:53 face it if something's broken on your car you can be positive about it you can

28:55 car you can be positive about it you can

28:55 car you can be positive about it you can choose not to be stressed out about it

28:56 choose not to be stressed out about it

28:56 choose not to be stressed out about it you can choose it's like okay so use my

28:59 you can choose it's like okay so use my

28:59 you can choose it's like okay so use my situation as an example I have at this

29:01 situation as an example I have at this

29:01 situation as an example I have at this moment I have no car and a little bit of

29:03 moment I have no car and a little bit of

29:03 moment I have no car and a little bit of money should be enough to get another

29:05 money should be enough to get another

29:05 money should be enough to get another car but most of the cars are priced

29:06 car but most of the cars are priced

29:06 car but most of the cars are priced pretty far above what I've got so I

29:10 pretty far above what I've got so I

29:10 pretty far above what I've got so I could sit here and be negative about it

29:12 could sit here and be negative about it

29:12 could sit here and be negative about it I could say well I'm never going this

29:14 I could say well I'm never going this

29:14 I could say well I'm never going this isn't going to work this is stressful

29:15 isn't going to work this is stressful

29:15 isn't going to work this is stressful this bumps me out I wish I had my old

29:18 this bumps me out I wish I had my old

29:18 this bumps me out I wish I had my old car back that kind of thing that serves

29:20 car back that kind of thing that serves

29:20 car back that kind of thing that serves absolutely no purpose so quest for

29:21 absolutely no purpose so quest for

29:21 absolutely no purpose so quest for positivity step one I'm going to be

29:22 positivity step one I'm going to be

29:22 positivity step one I'm going to be positive about it there's no reason to

29:23 positive about it there's no reason to

29:23 positive about it there's no reason to fret about it I can't do anything to

29:25 fret about it I can't do anything to

29:26 fret about it I can't do anything to change it by worrying about it so don't

29:27 change it by worrying about it so don't

29:27 change it by worrying about it so don't worry about it it so just do your best

29:29 worry about it it so just do your best

29:29 worry about it it so just do your best go forward choose every single day to be

29:31 go forward choose every single day to be

29:31 go forward choose every single day to be positive about it if I don't have a car

29:32 positive about it if I don't have a car

29:33 positive about it if I don't have a car I'm borrowing a car I have a car right

29:34 I'm borrowing a car I have a car right

29:34 I'm borrowing a car I have a car right now it's just not my car you know what I

29:36 now it's just not my car you know what I

29:36 now it's just not my car you know what I mean um so then you go okay so things

29:40 mean um so then you go okay so things

29:40 mean um so then you go okay so things aren't that bad they're going to be

29:41 aren't that bad they're going to be

29:41 aren't that bad they're going to be better blah blah blah but at the end of

29:43 better blah blah blah but at the end of

29:43 better blah blah blah but at the end of the day I still have to get a car

29:45 the day I still have to get a car

29:45 the day I still have to get a car correct correct so the thing still has

29:48 correct correct so the thing still has

29:48 correct correct so the thing still has to be done so if there's damage in your

29:49 to be done so if there's damage in your

29:49 to be done so if there's damage in your life in your heart in your soul and your

29:51 life in your heart in your soul and your

29:51 life in your heart in your soul and your mind there's no shame in going to a

29:55 mind there's no shame in going to a

29:55 mind there's no shame in going to a counselor a pastor a priest AAP Rabbi a

30:00 counselor a pastor a priest AAP Rabbi a

30:00 counselor a pastor a priest AAP Rabbi a therapist um especially if it's

30:02 therapist um especially if it's

30:02 therapist um especially if it's something like really bad depression or

30:03 something like really bad depression or

30:03 something like really bad depression or things that maybe are chemical maybe

30:05 things that maybe are chemical maybe

30:05 things that maybe are chemical maybe they're situational maybe they're

30:08 they're situational maybe they're

30:08 they're situational maybe they're biological you don't know especially if

30:09 biological you don't know especially if

30:10 biological you don't know especially if you don't know it's always good I'll

30:13 you don't know it's always good I'll

30:13 you don't know it's always good I'll tell you from personal experience

30:14 tell you from personal experience

30:14 tell you from personal experience there's nothing weird about it it's not

30:16 there's nothing weird about it it's not

30:16 there's nothing weird about it it's not like um it's not like you it's not like

30:19 like um it's not like you it's not like

30:19 like um it's not like you it's not like the old movies where the person lays on

30:21 the old movies where the person lays on

30:21 the old movies where the person lays on the couch and it's all weird and they

30:24 the couch and it's all weird and they

30:24 the couch and it's all weird and they ask you about your mother it's just not

30:26 ask you about your mother it's just not

30:26 ask you about your mother it's just not like that anymore they've come that

30:28 like that anymore they've come that

30:28 like that anymore they've come that that's sort of the psychological

30:29 that's sort of the psychological

30:29 that's sort of the psychological equivalent of you know bleeding somebody

30:34 equivalent of you know bleeding somebody

30:34 equivalent of you know bleeding somebody blood letting you know um that's not the

30:37 blood letting you know um that's not the

30:37 blood letting you know um that's not the way it goes down not at all it's very

30:39 way it goes down not at all it's very

30:39 way it goes down not at all it's very much like talking to your mother your

30:41 much like talking to your mother your

30:41 much like talking to your mother your father somebody very close to you who

30:43 father somebody very close to you who

30:43 father somebody very close to you who can get close to you only somebody that

30:45 can get close to you only somebody that

30:45 can get close to you only somebody that has a lot of experience a lot of

30:46 has a lot of experience a lot of

30:46 has a lot of experience a lot of training and a lot of knowledge that can

30:49 training and a lot of knowledge that can

30:49 training and a lot of knowledge that can help you in most cases that can help you

30:51 help you in most cases that can help you

30:51 help you in most cases that can help you there I'm sure there's bad therapists

30:52 there I'm sure there's bad therapists

30:52 there I'm sure there's bad therapists just like there's good therapists just

30:54 just like there's good therapists just

30:54 just like there's good therapists just like there's bad anything I mean but for

30:56 like there's bad anything I mean but for

30:56 like there's bad anything I mean but for the most part I have had Absol

30:58 the most part I have had Absol

30:58 the most part I have had Absol amazing wonderful

31:00 amazing wonderful

31:00 amazing wonderful times going to therapy several years ago

31:03 times going to therapy several years ago

31:03 times going to therapy several years ago I was very very stressed out very very

31:04 I was very very stressed out very very

31:04 I was very very stressed out very very bad situation the person that I was with

31:07 bad situation the person that I was with

31:07 bad situation the person that I was with my ex-wife was very very negative very

31:10 my ex-wife was very very negative very

31:10 my ex-wife was very very negative very very negative situation very high stress

31:11 very negative situation very high stress

31:11 very negative situation very high stress situation and turn it wasn't even during

31:13 situation and turn it wasn't even during

31:13 situation and turn it wasn't even during this stressful situation was afterwards

31:15 this stressful situation was afterwards

31:15 this stressful situation was afterwards that I just had a breakdown just a total

31:21 that I just had a breakdown just a total

31:21 that I just had a breakdown just a total emotional breakdown it's like when if

31:23 emotional breakdown it's like when if

31:23 emotional breakdown it's like when if you run a marathon or climb a mountain

31:24 you run a marathon or climb a mountain

31:24 you run a marathon or climb a mountain or something and you know the next day

31:25 or something and you know the next day

31:25 or something and you know the next day you're just too sore to move it was like

31:27 you're just too sore to move it was like

31:27 you're just too sore to move it was like that but just emotionally just drained

31:29 that but just emotionally just drained

31:29 that but just emotionally just drained exhausted just totally lost it was

31:31 exhausted just totally lost it was

31:31 exhausted just totally lost it was anniversary of several family members

31:32 anniversary of several family members

31:32 anniversary of several family members that were really close to me death there

31:34 that were really close to me death there

31:34 that were really close to me death there like just a lot of baggage or something

31:37 like just a lot of baggage or something

31:37 like just a lot of baggage or something and going to a therapist and simply

31:38 and going to a therapist and simply

31:39 and going to a therapist and simply talking about it honestly did the trick

31:40 talking about it honestly did the trick

31:40 talking about it honestly did the trick every single other thing oh you're

31:42 every single other thing oh you're

31:42 every single other thing oh you're depressed you know you go to your oh

31:44 depressed you know you go to your oh

31:44 depressed you know you go to your oh this you're prob no it didn't turn out

31:46 this you're prob no it didn't turn out

31:46 this you're prob no it didn't turn out that it just turned out that I really

31:47 that it just turned out that I really

31:47 that it just turned out that I really need to talk to someone who could talk

31:48 need to talk to someone who could talk

31:48 need to talk to someone who could talk me through the whole this is normal this

31:50 me through the whole this is normal this

31:50 me through the whole this is normal this is not you know this is a little weird

31:52 is not you know this is a little weird

31:52 is not you know this is a little weird whatever it was and just get past it

31:54 whatever it was and just get past it

31:54 whatever it was and just get past it there's a lot of stuff like that where

31:56 there's a lot of stuff like that where

31:56 there's a lot of stuff like that where you're so close you can't see the forest

31:58 you're so close you can't see the forest

31:58 you're so close you can't see the forest for the trees you're so close to your

32:00 for the trees you're so close to your

32:00 for the trees you're so close to your own problems you accept them as being so

32:04 own problems you accept them as being so

32:04 own problems you accept them as being so much a part of who you are in your daily

32:05 much a part of who you are in your daily

32:05 much a part of who you are in your daily life you don't even realize sometimes

32:07 life you don't even realize sometimes

32:07 life you don't even realize sometimes that they are problems so uh in my case

32:09 that they are problems so uh in my case

32:09 that they are problems so uh in my case in particular there's been several times

32:11 in particular there's been several times

32:11 in particular there's been several times where this without therapy but just I

32:14 where this without therapy but just I

32:14 where this without therapy but just I had been stressed out or upset and not

32:16 had been stressed out or upset and not

32:16 had been stressed out or upset and not realize it maybe there were people in my

32:18 realize it maybe there were people in my

32:18 realize it maybe there were people in my life that I was spending a lot of time

32:19 life that I was spending a lot of time

32:19 life that I was spending a lot of time with that were nice that was fine I love

32:22 with that were nice that was fine I love

32:22 with that were nice that was fine I love these people but it turns out they

32:24 these people but it turns out they

32:24 these people but it turns out they weren't really the best people for me to

32:25 weren't really the best people for me to

32:25 weren't really the best people for me to be around in terms of they stressed me

32:27 be around in terms of they stressed me

32:27 be around in terms of they stressed me out it just really stressed me out

32:29 out it just really stressed me out

32:29 out it just really stressed me out really draining they're very toxic

32:31 really draining they're very toxic

32:31 really draining they're very toxic relationships with people sometimes you

32:32 relationships with people sometimes you

32:32 relationships with people sometimes you don't know that because you like these

32:33 don't know that because you like these

32:33 don't know that because you like these people so much you never even think you

32:35 people so much you never even think you

32:35 people so much you never even think you wouldn't even think about that or maybe

32:38 wouldn't even think about that or maybe

32:38 wouldn't even think about that or maybe your relationships with people are off

32:39 your relationships with people are off

32:39 your relationships with people are off balance there's all kinds of stuff like

32:41 balance there's all kinds of stuff like

32:41 balance there's all kinds of stuff like that we go on and on and talk about

32:42 that we go on and on and talk about

32:42 that we go on and on and talk about every hypothetical in the world but the

32:44 every hypothetical in the world but the

32:44 every hypothetical in the world but the whole point of the long discussion is

32:46 whole point of the long discussion is

32:46 whole point of the long discussion is because I've gotten so many letters from

32:48 because I've gotten so many letters from

32:48 because I've gotten so many letters from you guys because you guys have opened

32:50 you guys because you guys have opened

32:50 you guys because you guys have opened yourselves up so kindly to me and shared

32:53 yourselves up so kindly to me and shared

32:53 yourselves up so kindly to me and shared so much with me uh because of the Quest

32:56 so much with me uh because of the Quest

32:56 so much with me uh because of the Quest for positivity and stuff that I have

32:57 for positivity and stuff that I have

32:57 for positivity and stuff that I have absolutely no shame shame in

32:58 absolutely no shame shame in

32:58 absolutely no shame shame in recommending to many of you if you feel

33:01 recommending to many of you if you feel

33:01 recommending to many of you if you feel like oh maybe I should see someone you

33:04 like oh maybe I should see someone you

33:04 like oh maybe I should see someone you probably should it's not that bad it's

33:05 probably should it's not that bad it's

33:05 probably should it's not that bad it's like oh maybe I should see someone

33:06 like oh maybe I should see someone

33:06 like oh maybe I should see someone because there's this weird pain in my

33:07 because there's this weird pain in my

33:07 because there's this weird pain in my tooth it's not bad to go to the dentist

33:10 tooth it's not bad to go to the dentist

33:10 tooth it's not bad to go to the dentist sometimes it's hard to afford it trust

33:11 sometimes it's hard to afford it trust

33:11 sometimes it's hard to afford it trust me I understand that um maybe your

33:14 me I understand that um maybe your

33:14 me I understand that um maybe your insurance doesn't cover it stuff like

33:15 insurance doesn't cover it stuff like

33:16 insurance doesn't cover it stuff like that but there's other things too

33:16 that but there's other things too

33:16 that but there's other things too there's all kinds of counselors and and

33:18 there's all kinds of counselors and and

33:18 there's all kinds of counselors and and people out there so what all I'm really

33:22 people out there so what all I'm really

33:22 people out there so what all I'm really saying is I know there's a stigma to it

33:24 saying is I know there's a stigma to it

33:24 saying is I know there's a stigma to it I know

33:25 I know

33:25 I know especially in the old school you know

33:28 especially in the old school you know

33:28 especially in the old school you know what I mean there's there's a stigma on

33:29 what I mean there's there's a stigma on

33:29 what I mean there's there's a stigma on both sides because there's the stigma of

33:31 both sides because there's the stigma of

33:31 both sides because there's the stigma of only crazy people will go do that or

33:33 only crazy people will go do that or

33:34 only crazy people will go do that or people will you know I don't want to be

33:35 people will you know I don't want to be

33:35 people will you know I don't want to be crazy if I do that then people will

33:37 crazy if I do that then people will

33:37 crazy if I do that then people will think I'm crazy or whatever there's also

33:39 think I'm crazy or whatever there's also

33:40 think I'm crazy or whatever there's also another kind of stigma which is oh yeah

33:41 another kind of stigma which is oh yeah

33:41 another kind of stigma which is oh yeah that's for you know bored Housewives who

33:43 that's for you know bored Housewives who

33:43 that's for you know bored Housewives who go in there and complain I'm not being

33:46 go in there and complain I'm not being

33:46 go in there and complain I'm not being negative I'm just saying this is the

33:47 negative I'm just saying this is the

33:47 negative I'm just saying this is the things I've heard from other people oh

33:48 things I've heard from other people oh

33:49 things I've heard from other people oh that's just so people go in there and

33:50 that's just so people go in there and

33:50 that's just so people go in there and talk about their feelings and Pat

33:52 talk about their feelings and Pat

33:52 talk about their feelings and Pat themselves on the back you know no let's

33:55 themselves on the back you know no let's

33:55 themselves on the back you know no let's be realistic We Now understand was no

33:58 be realistic We Now understand was no

33:58 be realistic We Now understand was no room for machismo when it comes to

34:00 room for machismo when it comes to

34:00 room for machismo when it comes to science We Now understand a lot more

34:02 science We Now understand a lot more

34:02 science We Now understand a lot more about the human brain The Human

34:03 about the human brain The Human

34:03 about the human brain The Human Condition the way humans psychologically

34:05 Condition the way humans psychologically

34:06 Condition the way humans psychologically and literally physically mentally

34:08 and literally physically mentally

34:08 and literally physically mentally operate there's absolutely no shame

34:10 operate there's absolutely no shame

34:10 operate there's absolutely no shame there's nothing wrong in getting

34:11 there's nothing wrong in getting

34:11 there's nothing wrong in getting counseling or help there really isn't

34:15 counseling or help there really isn't

34:15 counseling or help there really isn't and maybe you do have a serious medical

34:17 and maybe you do have a serious medical

34:17 and maybe you do have a serious medical condition or mental condition of some

34:19 condition or mental condition of some

34:19 condition or mental condition of some kind if you do there's no shame in that

34:21 kind if you do there's no shame in that

34:21 kind if you do there's no shame in that either you have ADHD there's nothing

34:22 either you have ADHD there's nothing

34:22 either you have ADHD there's nothing wrong with trying riddling uh stuff like

34:25 wrong with trying riddling uh stuff like

34:25 wrong with trying riddling uh stuff like that you know what I'm saying or you

34:26 that you know what I'm saying or you

34:26 that you know what I'm saying or you have bipolar disorder that doesn't make

34:28 have bipolar disorder that doesn't make

34:28 have bipolar disorder that doesn't make you a bad person doesn't make you a bad

34:30 you a bad person doesn't make you a bad

34:30 you a bad person doesn't make you a bad person if somebody diagnoses you with

34:32 person if somebody diagnoses you with

34:32 person if somebody diagnoses you with bipolar disorder or something in the

34:33 bipolar disorder or something in the

34:33 bipolar disorder or something in the autism spectrum or something like that

34:35 autism spectrum or something like that

34:35 autism spectrum or something like that it doesn't make you worse than anybody

34:38 it doesn't make you worse than anybody

34:38 it doesn't make you worse than anybody else at all some people that I've talked

34:40 else at all some people that I've talked

34:40 else at all some people that I've talked to are I actually know one person who's

34:43 to are I actually know one person who's

34:43 to are I actually know one person who's very very bipolar thinks they're bipolar

34:45 very very bipolar thinks they're bipolar

34:45 very very bipolar thinks they're bipolar knows they're bipolar has been talking

34:46 knows they're bipolar has been talking

34:46 knows they're bipolar has been talking about it for years and years and years

34:48 about it for years and years and years

34:48 about it for years and years and years and was terrified to go to a therapist

34:50 and was terrified to go to a therapist

34:51 and was terrified to go to a therapist or a psychiatrist or psychologist I know

34:52 or a psychiatrist or psychologist I know

34:52 or a psychiatrist or psychologist I know this is running long I'm sorry um

34:55 this is running long I'm sorry um

34:55 this is running long I'm sorry um because they thought kind of if I go

34:57 because they thought kind of if I go

34:57 because they thought kind of if I go there and they say that I'm that then

34:59 there and they say that I'm that then

34:59 there and they say that I'm that then I'll be that and and it it'll be so

35:01 I'll be that and and it it'll be so

35:01 I'll be that and and it it'll be so depressing and and and I'll be worse

35:03 depressing and and and I'll be worse

35:04 depressing and and and I'll be worse somehow it really doesn't make much

35:05 somehow it really doesn't make much

35:05 somehow it really doesn't make much sense when you hear from the outside but

35:07 sense when you hear from the outside but

35:07 sense when you hear from the outside but I kind of understand what what they were

35:08 I kind of understand what what they were

35:08 I kind of understand what what they were going through then they ended up going

35:11 going through then they ended up going

35:11 going through then they ended up going to a psychiatrist they ended up getting

35:12 to a psychiatrist they ended up getting

35:12 to a psychiatrist they ended up getting diagnosed with bipolar disorder they

35:14 diagnosed with bipolar disorder they

35:14 diagnosed with bipolar disorder they ended up getting some very mild

35:16 ended up getting some very mild

35:16 ended up getting some very mild medication which did not alter the good

35:17 medication which did not alter the good

35:17 medication which did not alter the good side of their personality at all it just

35:19 side of their personality at all it just

35:19 side of their personality at all it just helped to balance them out and the thing

35:21 helped to balance them out and the thing

35:21 helped to balance them out and the thing was is that after they got on the

35:22 was is that after they got on the

35:22 was is that after they got on the medication they were talking about how

35:24 medication they were talking about how

35:24 medication they were talking about how much better the quality of their life

35:26 much better the quality of their life

35:26 much better the quality of their life was because they could control their own

35:29 was because they could control their own

35:29 was because they could control their own emotional state much much better instead

35:31 emotional state much much better instead

35:31 emotional state much much better instead of hurting the people around them by

35:33 of hurting the people around them by

35:33 of hurting the people around them by accident when they would go through one

35:34 accident when they would go through one

35:34 accident when they would go through one of their you know time periods and then

35:37 of their you know time periods and then

35:37 of their you know time periods and then you know getting people really pumped up

35:39 you know getting people really pumped up

35:39 you know getting people really pumped up over here for this next thing and then

35:40 over here for this next thing and then

35:40 over here for this next thing and then kind of letting them down and all the

35:41 kind of letting them down and all the

35:41 kind of letting them down and all the stuff that they didn't want to do that

35:43 stuff that they didn't want to do that

35:43 stuff that they didn't want to do that you know what I mean so it actually

35:45 you know what I mean so it actually

35:45 you know what I mean so it actually changed their whole life made them a

35:46 changed their whole life made them a

35:46 changed their whole life made them a whole different person in a good way not

35:48 whole different person in a good way not

35:48 whole different person in a good way not in a bad way there's nothing wrong with

35:51 in a bad way there's nothing wrong with

35:51 in a bad way there's nothing wrong with saying I'm broken there's nothing wrong

35:54 saying I'm broken there's nothing wrong

35:54 saying I'm broken there's nothing wrong with

35:55 with

35:55 with saying I've had too much there's nothing

35:58 saying I've had too much there's nothing

35:58 saying I've had too much there's nothing wrong with saying I don't understand

35:59 wrong with saying I don't understand

36:00 wrong with saying I don't understand this and going to somebody who might so

36:03 this and going to somebody who might so

36:03 this and going to somebody who might so anyway I know that's a very long spiel

36:04 anyway I know that's a very long spiel

36:04 anyway I know that's a very long spiel about that but I I understand the fear I

36:08 about that but I I understand the fear I

36:08 about that but I I understand the fear I understand the stigma I understand that

36:10 understand the stigma I understand that

36:10 understand the stigma I understand that nobody wants to feel or look stupid but

36:13 nobody wants to feel or look stupid but

36:13 nobody wants to feel or look stupid but to be honest with you I think it's a

36:15 to be honest with you I think it's a

36:15 to be honest with you I think it's a little bit silly to not get help if you

36:18 little bit silly to not get help if you

36:18 little bit silly to not get help if you think you might need it and there's

36:20 think you might need it and there's

36:20 think you might need it and there's plenty of people in our lives we all

36:22 plenty of people in our lives we all

36:22 plenty of people in our lives we all know somebody who struggles with one of

36:23 know somebody who struggles with one of

36:23 know somebody who struggles with one of these things and there's absolutely

36:26 these things and there's absolutely

36:26 these things and there's absolutely nothing wrong with telling that person

36:27 nothing wrong with telling that person

36:27 nothing wrong with telling that person to encourage you them like hey man

36:28 to encourage you them like hey man

36:28 to encourage you them like hey man there's nothing wrong with going to that

36:29 there's nothing wrong with going to that

36:29 there's nothing wrong with going to that so maybe if you have none of these

36:30 so maybe if you have none of these

36:30 so maybe if you have none of these problems and none of this applies to you

36:32 problems and none of this applies to you

36:32 problems and none of this applies to you but you definitely probably have loved

36:34 but you definitely probably have loved

36:34 but you definitely probably have loved ones close to you who are you know

36:36 ones close to you who are you know

36:36 ones close to you who are you know they're worried about you know basically

36:38 they're worried about you know basically

36:38 they're worried about you know basically the stigma from people who don't know

36:39 the stigma from people who don't know

36:39 the stigma from people who don't know any better or people who are ignorant

36:41 any better or people who are ignorant

36:41 any better or people who are ignorant and a lot of people who like to run

36:42 and a lot of people who like to run

36:42 and a lot of people who like to run their mouths about things they nothing

36:43 their mouths about things they nothing

36:43 their mouths about things they nothing about think oh you know everyone will

36:45 about think oh you know everyone will

36:45 about think oh you know everyone will judge me or some people find out or

36:47 judge me or some people find out or

36:47 judge me or some people find out or whatever there's nothing wrong maybe

36:49 whatever there's nothing wrong maybe

36:49 whatever there's nothing wrong maybe encourage those people hey have you ever

36:51 encourage those people hey have you ever

36:51 encourage those people hey have you ever thought about this there's nothing wrong

36:52 thought about this there's nothing wrong

36:52 thought about this there's nothing wrong with it maybe just put that idea in

36:53 with it maybe just put that idea in

36:53 with it maybe just put that idea in their head because that might be the

36:55 their head because that might be the

36:55 their head because that might be the thing that tips them over to getting

36:56 thing that tips them over to getting

36:56 thing that tips them over to getting some help they May desperately need and

36:58 some help they May desperately need and

36:58 some help they May desperately need and remember that some of the strongest

37:01 remember that some of the strongest

37:01 remember that some of the strongest people in your life some of the most

37:03 people in your life some of the most

37:03 people in your life some of the most tough strong get things done people

37:05 tough strong get things done people

37:05 tough strong get things done people might be the weakest people on the

37:07 might be the weakest people on the

37:07 might be the weakest people on the inside most unstable

37:10 inside most unstable

37:10 inside most unstable sad whatever it is people on the inside

37:13 sad whatever it is people on the inside

37:13 sad whatever it is people on the inside so there's nothing wrong I think it's

37:16 so there's nothing wrong I think it's

37:16 so there's nothing wrong I think it's important just like we all fostered a

37:18 important just like we all fostered a

37:18 important just like we all fostered a culture of being anti-sexist to kill

37:21 culture of being anti-sexist to kill

37:21 culture of being anti-sexist to kill sexism and kill racism and kill all

37:23 sexism and kill racism and kill all

37:23 sexism and kill racism and kill all these other things I think it's

37:25 these other things I think it's

37:25 these other things I think it's important personally a personal thing

37:27 important personally a personal thing

37:27 important personally a personal thing without trying to touch on something

37:29 without trying to touch on something

37:29 without trying to touch on something political or anything like that I think

37:30 political or anything like that I think

37:30 political or anything like that I think it's important to foster a culture where

37:32 it's important to foster a culture where

37:32 it's important to foster a culture where people don't have to feel ashamed for

37:35 people don't have to feel ashamed for

37:35 people don't have to feel ashamed for getting the help they need especially

37:36 getting the help they need especially

37:36 getting the help they need especially something as simple as therapy because

37:37 something as simple as therapy because

37:38 something as simple as therapy because to be honest with you it's just like

37:39 to be honest with you it's just like

37:39 to be honest with you it's just like talking to a good

37:40 talking to a good

37:40 talking to a good friend really that's that's what it's

37:43 friend really that's that's what it's

37:43 friend really that's that's what it's like it's not weird there's nothing

37:45 like it's not weird there's nothing

37:45 like it's not weird there's nothing wrong with it try it it works

37:50 wrong with it try it it works

37:50 wrong with it try it it works um that's it so now I've gotten deep and

37:53 um that's it so now I've gotten deep and

37:53 um that's it so now I've gotten deep and personal with

37:55 personal with

37:55 personal with you so do me a favor go check out

37:57 you so do me a favor go check out

37:57 you so do me a favor go check out spreadshirt page if you'd like if you

37:59 spreadshirt page if you'd like if you

37:59 spreadshirt page if you'd like if you need some cool

38:01 need some cool

38:01 need some cool t-shirts I don't know how cool they are

38:02 t-shirts I don't know how cool they are

38:02 t-shirts I don't know how cool they are but they are there are t-shirts there

38:04 but they are there are t-shirts there

38:04 but they are there are t-shirts there and they do fit people so there you go

38:09 and they do fit people so there you go

38:09 and they do fit people so there you go um these geese are weirding me out what

38:12 um these geese are weirding me out what

38:12 um these geese are weirding me out what you're not seeing is just this goose and

38:14 you're not seeing is just this goose and

38:15 you're not seeing is just this goose and it's buddy just kind oh oh sure now they

38:18 it's buddy just kind oh oh sure now they

38:18 it's buddy just kind oh oh sure now they turn sideways now that you're looking at

38:20 turn sideways now that you're looking at

38:20 turn sideways now that you're looking at them too they go oh we weren't up to we

38:21 them too they go oh we weren't up to we

38:21 them too they go oh we weren't up to we weren't up to nothing we weren't up to

38:25 weren't up to nothing we weren't up to

38:25 weren't up to nothing we weren't up to nothing I don't believe you goose I

38:27 nothing I don't believe you goose I

38:27 nothing I don't believe you goose I don't believe you

38:29 don't believe you

38:29 don't believe you Goose he's a troublemaker he needs to go

38:32 Goose he's a troublemaker he needs to go

38:32 Goose he's a troublemaker he needs to go to therapy all right I'm just kidding

38:34 to therapy all right I'm just kidding

38:34 to therapy all right I'm just kidding around okay everybody there you go

38:36 around okay everybody there you go

38:36 around okay everybody there you go there's my ranting and raving but really

38:40 there's my ranting and raving but really

38:40 there's my ranting and raving but really I just want to encourage you because

38:41 I just want to encourage you because

38:41 I just want to encourage you because because the Quest for positivity stuff

38:43 because the Quest for positivity stuff

38:43 because the Quest for positivity stuff is attracted a lot of people who

38:44 is attracted a lot of people who

38:44 is attracted a lot of people who suffered with different things or uh

38:47 suffered with different things or uh

38:47 suffered with different things or uh hurt people in their own lives because

38:49 hurt people in their own lives because

38:49 hurt people in their own lives because they maybe struggle with something um if

38:51 they maybe struggle with something um if

38:51 they maybe struggle with something um if you can't do it for yourself think of

38:52 you can't do it for yourself think of

38:52 you can't do it for yourself think of your friends and your family u in the

38:54 your friends and your family u in the

38:54 your friends and your family u in the case of you know bipolar disorder um

38:57 case of you know bipolar disorder um

38:57 case of you know bipolar disorder um think about the times that you've hurt

38:58 think about the times that you've hurt

38:58 think about the times that you've hurt people around you and think about how

39:00 people around you and think about how

39:00 people around you and think about how lovely it would be if you didn't in a

39:01 lovely it would be if you didn't in a

39:01 lovely it would be if you didn't in a case of depression you know think about

39:03 case of depression you know think about

39:03 case of depression you know think about the way that that affects you and the

39:05 the way that that affects you and the

39:05 the way that that affects you and the way that that's affecting the people

39:07 way that that's affecting the people

39:07 way that that's affecting the people around you and how strong the loved ones

39:09 around you and how strong the loved ones

39:09 around you and how strong the loved ones in your life have to be in the case of

39:11 in your life have to be in the case of

39:11 in your life have to be in the case of people who are lonely depressed because

39:12 people who are lonely depressed because

39:12 people who are lonely depressed because you're lonely and there is nobody around

39:14 you're lonely and there is nobody around

39:14 you're lonely and there is nobody around you think about there may be a lot of

39:16 you think about there may be a lot of

39:16 you think about there may be a lot of painful garbage that other people have

39:18 painful garbage that other people have

39:18 painful garbage that other people have put into you that's not even your fault

39:19 put into you that's not even your fault

39:19 put into you that's not even your fault you might not even be aware of it that

39:20 you might not even be aware of it that

39:20 you might not even be aware of it that you've been carrying around with you and

39:22 you've been carrying around with you and

39:22 you've been carrying around with you and sort of wearing on the outside people

39:23 sort of wearing on the outside people

39:23 sort of wearing on the outside people could see it from a mile away like whoa

39:26 could see it from a mile away like whoa

39:26 could see it from a mile away like whoa this person's a little much for me

39:32 almost every problem has a

39:32 almost every problem has a solution so why not consider if this

39:36 solution so why not consider if this

39:36 solution so why not consider if this applies to you and if it doesn't hey

39:37 applies to you and if it doesn't hey

39:37 applies to you and if it doesn't hey good for you awesome everybody has

39:39 good for you awesome everybody has

39:39 good for you awesome everybody has different struggles and everybody has

39:41 different struggles and everybody has

39:41 different struggles and everybody has different kinds of strength not all

39:42 different kinds of strength not all

39:42 different kinds of strength not all strength is the same not all Warriors

39:46 strength is the same not all Warriors

39:46 strength is the same not all Warriors fight the same

39:48 fight the same

39:48 fight the same battles consider if this does apply to

39:50 battles consider if this does apply to

39:50 battles consider if this does apply to you you know taking the next step

39:53 you you know taking the next step

39:53 you you know taking the next step nothing weird about it to be honest

39:55 nothing weird about it to be honest

39:55 nothing weird about it to be honest that's what it boils down to tldr

39:57 that's what it boils down to tldr

39:57 that's what it boils down to tldr nothing weird about that all right

39:59 nothing weird about that all right

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40:07 wackiness tomorrow I am slowly editing

40:07 wackiness tomorrow I am slowly editing random land I know it's all behind and I

40:10 random land I know it's all behind and I

40:10 random land I know it's all behind and I know I'm behind on sending the stickers

40:11 know I'm behind on sending the stickers

40:11 know I'm behind on sending the stickers I really really really do feel bad about

40:13 I really really really do feel bad about

40:13 I really really really do feel bad about that see I'm stressing myself out for no

40:14 that see I'm stressing myself out for no

40:14 that see I'm stressing myself out for no reason I need to not stress out about

40:16 reason I need to not stress out about

40:16 reason I need to not stress out about things that I cannot control but I do

40:18 things that I cannot control but I do

40:18 things that I cannot control but I do care and I want to get them to you so

40:20 care and I want to get them to you so

40:20 care and I want to get them to you so I'm going to do my best and maybe I'll

40:21 I'm going to do my best and maybe I'll

40:21 I'm going to do my best and maybe I'll dump some of the mail on Tyler if

40:24 dump some of the mail on Tyler if

40:24 dump some of the mail on Tyler if you the mail Vlog thing maybe right

40:28 you the mail Vlog thing maybe right

40:28 you the mail Vlog thing maybe right maybe let's talk about that again

40:30 maybe let's talk about that again

40:30 maybe let's talk about that again tomorrow or the next day leave a comment

40:33 tomorrow or the next day leave a comment

40:33 tomorrow or the next day leave a comment tell me what you think about that idea

40:35 tell me what you think about that idea

40:35 tell me what you think about that idea yes because it's a lot easier than

40:36 yes because it's a lot easier than

40:36 yes because it's a lot easier than writing back I mean if you write me some

40:38 writing back I mean if you write me some

40:38 writing back I mean if you write me some long crazy personal letter I really

40:40 long crazy personal letter I really

40:40 long crazy personal letter I really appreciate and I will read it if

40:41 appreciate and I will read it if

40:41 appreciate and I will read it if something that you don't want on a vlog

40:42 something that you don't want on a vlog

40:42 something that you don't want on a vlog obviously I would not put it on the Vlog

40:46 obviously I would not put it on the Vlog

40:46 obviously I would not put it on the Vlog but I might not be able to write back

40:48 but I might not be able to write back

40:48 but I might not be able to write back all the time I feel bad about it but

40:50 all the time I feel bad about it but

40:50 all the time I feel bad about it but it's not enough hours in the day even

40:52 it's not enough hours in the day even

40:52 it's not enough hours in the day even though we're getting more daylight hours

40:54 though we're getting more daylight hours

40:54 though we're getting more daylight hours sweet spring okay this is the longest

40:56 sweet spring okay this is the longest

40:56 sweet spring okay this is the longest sometimes vlog of all time you're

40:59 sometimes vlog of all time you're

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41:01 probably bored I know I'm stiff and sore

41:01 probably bored I know I'm stiff and sore from squatting by that tree see look at

41:04 from squatting by that tree see look at

41:04 from squatting by that tree see look at him what's he doing I never know what

41:06 him what's he doing I never know what

41:06 him what's he doing I never know what he's doing back there okay I love you

41:08 he's doing back there okay I love you

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