Insanity - It's ok to move on. - RandomLand Archive

0:05 well well

0:05 well well well well well

0:08 well well well

0:08 well well well well well well well it's the sometimes

0:14 well well well well it's the sometimes

0:14 well well well well it's the sometimes Vlog it's a vlog that happens sometimes

0:16 Vlog it's a vlog that happens sometimes

0:16 Vlog it's a vlog that happens sometimes welcome back everybody to my favorite

0:19 welcome back everybody to my favorite

0:19 welcome back everybody to my favorite little City Orange California we're here

0:21 little City Orange California we're here

0:22 little City Orange California we're here on the corner of Maple and Pine Street

0:24 on the corner of Maple and Pine Street

0:24 on the corner of Maple and Pine Street very near to the orange circle very near

0:26 very near to the orange circle very near

0:26 very near to the orange circle very near to Old Well very near inside of Oldtown

0:30 to Old Well very near inside of Oldtown

0:30 to Old Well very near inside of Oldtown Orange California the city that rhymes

0:33 Orange California the city that rhymes

0:33 Orange California the city that rhymes with nothing checking out I guess what

0:36 with nothing checking out I guess what

0:36 with nothing checking out I guess what woodpecker holes inside of palm trees

0:38 woodpecker holes inside of palm trees

0:38 woodpecker holes inside of palm trees and this strange and mysterious concrete

0:42 and this strange and mysterious concrete

0:42 and this strange and mysterious concrete tube covered over by a board and some

0:45 tube covered over by a board and some

0:45 tube covered over by a board and some screws and I'm pretty sure that well

0:49 screws and I'm pretty sure that well

0:49 screws and I'm pretty sure that well well well looking what we have here is

0:51 well well looking what we have here is

0:51 well well looking what we have here is this a well I was just thinking that all

0:53 this a well I was just thinking that all

0:53 this a well I was just thinking that all my friends on the East Coast would

0:55 my friends on the East Coast would

0:55 my friends on the East Coast would probably see this area here this

0:56 probably see this area here this

0:56 probably see this area here this beautiful house here that beautiful

0:58 beautiful house here that beautiful

0:58 beautiful house here that beautiful house over there this beautiful house

1:00 house over there this beautiful house

1:00 house over there this beautiful house over here with all the landscaping and

1:01 over here with all the landscaping and

1:01 over here with all the landscaping and think Old Town that doesn't look very

1:04 think Old Town that doesn't look very

1:04 think Old Town that doesn't look very old to me cuz if you're like from New

1:05 old to me cuz if you're like from New

1:05 old to me cuz if you're like from New Jersey or New York or Massachusetts you

1:08 Jersey or New York or Massachusetts you

1:08 Jersey or New York or Massachusetts you guys have houses that were built in the

1:10 guys have houses that were built in the

1:10 guys have houses that were built in the 1700s the 1800s the 1900s all we have is

1:14 1700s the 1800s the 1900s all we have is

1:14 1700s the 1800s the 1900s all we have is the the last well we have the last one

1:15 the the last well we have the last one

1:15 the the last well we have the last one and that's that's pretty much all we

1:17 and that's that's pretty much all we

1:17 and that's that's pretty much all we have most of these houses around here

1:19 have most of these houses around here

1:19 have most of these houses around here were built at the turn of the last

1:21 were built at the turn of the last

1:21 were built at the turn of the last century and they are to us Southern

1:24 century and they are to us Southern

1:24 century and they are to us Southern Californians considered very old very

1:26 Californians considered very old very

1:26 Californians considered very old very ancient if you see something that even

1:28 ancient if you see something that even

1:28 ancient if you see something that even remotely resembles could have been a

1:30 remotely resembles could have been a

1:30 remotely resembles could have been a well might have been an old street light

1:31 well might have been an old street light

1:31 well might have been an old street light for all I know that's like wow something

1:34 for all I know that's like wow something

1:34 for all I know that's like wow something from the Before Time something from the

1:36 from the Before Time something from the

1:36 from the Before Time something from the long long ago before plumbing and

1:38 long long ago before plumbing and

1:38 long long ago before plumbing and electricity in the Disney Channel that's

1:42 electricity in the Disney Channel that's

1:42 electricity in the Disney Channel that's amazing welcome everybody back to Orange

1:45 amazing welcome everybody back to Orange

1:45 amazing welcome everybody back to Orange and back to the sometimes Vlog look at

1:47 and back to the sometimes Vlog look at

1:47 and back to the sometimes Vlog look at this guy up here do you see that Time

1:49 this guy up here do you see that Time

1:49 this guy up here do you see that Time Warner Cable Guy up there in that bucket

1:52 Warner Cable Guy up there in that bucket

1:52 Warner Cable Guy up there in that bucket right here he is I think right now I was

1:55 right here he is I think right now I was

1:55 right here he is I think right now I was going to say he's fixing something but I

1:56 going to say he's fixing something but I

1:56 going to say he's fixing something but I think at the moment he's actually

1:57 think at the moment he's actually

1:57 think at the moment he's actually checking his Twitter and looking at his

1:59 checking his Twitter and looking at his

1:59 checking his Twitter and looking at his phone or doing something he's probably

2:01 phone or doing something he's probably

2:01 phone or doing something he's probably sending cute selfies to his girlfriend

2:03 sending cute selfies to his girlfriend

2:03 sending cute selfies to his girlfriend like hey what's up Bae I'm up in the

2:05 like hey what's up Bae I'm up in the

2:05 like hey what's up Bae I'm up in the bucket again being brave there's this

2:08 bucket again being brave there's this

2:08 bucket again being brave there's this guy down below who's super not brave

2:10 guy down below who's super not brave

2:10 guy down below who's super not brave because he's afraid of heights actually

2:11 because he's afraid of heights actually

2:11 because he's afraid of heights actually I'd like to correct and misunderstanding

2:12 I'd like to correct and misunderstanding

2:13 I'd like to correct and misunderstanding people are always talking about how I'm

2:14 people are always talking about how I'm

2:14 people are always talking about how I'm afraid of heights I am not afraid of

2:17 afraid of heights I am not afraid of

2:17 afraid of heights I am not afraid of heights okay I'm fine with Heights look

2:19 heights okay I'm fine with Heights look

2:19 heights okay I'm fine with Heights look at them up there just being cool the

2:21 at them up there just being cool the

2:21 at them up there just being cool the Heights I'm just afraid of plummeting

2:24 Heights I'm just afraid of plummeting

2:24 Heights I'm just afraid of plummeting from the Heights and there is a big

2:25 from the Heights and there is a big

2:25 from the Heights and there is a big difference I don't mind being up high I

2:29 difference I don't mind being up high I

2:30 difference I don't mind being up high I just mind the fear of falling from the

2:32 just mind the fear of falling from the

2:32 just mind the fear of falling from the being up high so anyway I love this

2:36 being up high so anyway I love this

2:36 being up high so anyway I love this neighborhood this is one of my favorite

2:38 neighborhood this is one of my favorite

2:38 neighborhood this is one of my favorite neighborhoods and areas in Southern

2:39 neighborhoods and areas in Southern

2:39 neighborhoods and areas in Southern California just the little old town here

2:41 California just the little old town here

2:41 California just the little old town here there's a lot of little craftsman style

2:43 there's a lot of little craftsman style

2:43 there's a lot of little craftsman style bungalow houses and there's a lot of

2:44 bungalow houses and there's a lot of

2:45 bungalow houses and there's a lot of like Spanish mission Revival

2:47 like Spanish mission Revival

2:47 like Spanish mission Revival architecture and stuff like that down

2:48 architecture and stuff like that down

2:48 architecture and stuff like that down here that whole turn of the last century

2:49 here that whole turn of the last century

2:49 here that whole turn of the last century architecture there's all these little

2:51 architecture there's all these little

2:51 architecture there's all these little houses like this look at this house

2:53 houses like this look at this house

2:53 houses like this look at this house right here this is a not the not the

2:56 right here this is a not the not the

2:56 right here this is a not the not the bird house casturi eyes this way look at

2:59 bird house casturi eyes this way look at

2:59 bird house casturi eyes this way look at that look look at this house here this

3:01 that look look at this house here this

3:01 that look look at this house here this one has a plaque on the front that says

3:03 one has a plaque on the front that says

3:03 one has a plaque on the front that says 1900 so I'm assuming that would be the

3:06 1900 so I'm assuming that would be the

3:06 1900 so I'm assuming that would be the year the house was built uh I know that

3:08 year the house was built uh I know that

3:09 year the house was built uh I know that Chapman University which is very nearby

3:11 Chapman University which is very nearby

3:11 Chapman University which is very nearby often helps to restore these houses and

3:13 often helps to restore these houses and

3:13 often helps to restore these houses and gives them little plaque saying what

3:15 gives them little plaque saying what

3:15 gives them little plaque saying what date they were built I think that one's

3:17 date they were built I think that one's

3:17 date they were built I think that one's 1900s all these little houses here's a

3:18 1900s all these little houses here's a

3:18 1900s all these little houses here's a little Bungalow looking house here I

3:20 little Bungalow looking house here I

3:20 little Bungalow looking house here I don't know the the technical names for

3:22 don't know the the technical names for

3:22 don't know the the technical names for all this architecture stuff look at that

3:23 all this architecture stuff look at that

3:23 all this architecture stuff look at that wraparound porch though that is so cool

3:26 wraparound porch though that is so cool

3:26 wraparound porch though that is so cool I actually really like architecture I

3:29 I actually really like architecture I

3:29 I actually really like architecture I really like houses I spend hours and

3:31 really like houses I spend hours and

3:31 really like houses I spend hours and hours like going like realtor.com and

3:33 hours like going like realtor.com and

3:33 hours like going like realtor.com and places like that just looking at all

3:34 places like that just looking at all

3:34 places like that just looking at all these different houses a flut by look at

3:37 these different houses a flut by look at

3:37 these different houses a flut by look at that butterfly fluttering by and doing

3:39 that butterfly fluttering by and doing

3:39 that butterfly fluttering by and doing this thing over there looking so

3:40 this thing over there looking so

3:41 this thing over there looking so beautiful and graceful I just like

3:42 beautiful and graceful I just like

3:42 beautiful and graceful I just like looking at houses in different spots I

3:44 looking at houses in different spots I

3:44 looking at houses in different spots I think it started because my parents used

3:45 think it started because my parents used

3:45 think it started because my parents used to drive around in all kinds of

3:47 to drive around in all kinds of

3:47 to drive around in all kinds of different neighborhoods they'd go to the

3:48 different neighborhoods they'd go to the

3:48 different neighborhoods they'd go to the rich neighborhoods and all these

3:49 rich neighborhoods and all these

3:49 rich neighborhoods and all these different areas or if we went on family

3:52 different areas or if we went on family

3:52 different areas or if we went on family vacation they' have to go check out all

3:53 vacation they' have to go check out all

3:53 vacation they' have to go check out all the houses just look at the way the

3:54 the houses just look at the way the

3:54 the houses just look at the way the houses were built and all this stuff my

3:56 houses were built and all this stuff my

3:56 houses were built and all this stuff my dad I think wanted to be an architect

3:58 dad I think wanted to be an architect

3:58 dad I think wanted to be an architect before I came along and switched up all

4:00 before I came along and switched up all

4:00 before I came along and switched up all the plans with having a family and all

4:01 the plans with having a family and all

4:01 the plans with having a family and all that stuff I think at one point he

4:02 that stuff I think at one point he

4:02 that stuff I think at one point he wanted to be an architect so I think it

4:04 wanted to be an architect so I think it

4:04 wanted to be an architect so I think it comes from them but anyway I am totally

4:07 comes from them but anyway I am totally

4:07 comes from them but anyway I am totally distracted I have totally digressed from

4:08 distracted I have totally digressed from

4:08 distracted I have totally digressed from my original thought process today

4:11 my original thought process today

4:11 my original thought process today yesterday morning I awoke a little

4:13 yesterday morning I awoke a little

4:13 yesterday morning I awoke a little negatively because I had to be on the

4:15 negatively because I had to be on the

4:15 negatively because I had to be on the phone with a guy that I had some shady

4:18 phone with a guy that I had some shady

4:18 phone with a guy that I had some shady business dealings not from my side but

4:20 business dealings not from my side but

4:20 business dealings not from my side but from my in my opinion from his side

4:21 from my in my opinion from his side

4:21 from my in my opinion from his side years ago who had some uh disagreements

4:25 years ago who had some uh disagreements

4:25 years ago who had some uh disagreements with a whole large group of my friends

4:27 with a whole large group of my friends

4:27 with a whole large group of my friends and me years ago and I had to get on the

4:29 and me years ago and I had to get on the

4:29 and me years ago and I had to get on the phone and kind of relive old drama have

4:32 phone and kind of relive old drama have

4:32 phone and kind of relive old drama have you ever had to do that you think

4:33 you ever had to do that you think

4:33 you ever had to do that you think something's over to see this one says

4:35 something's over to see this one says

4:35 something's over to see this one says 1908 so it must be the year they were

4:36 1908 so it must be the year they were

4:36 1908 so it must be the year they were built you ever had old Drama Oh gosh

4:39 built you ever had old Drama Oh gosh

4:39 built you ever had old Drama Oh gosh this is goals I'm sorry I'm getting

4:41 this is goals I'm sorry I'm getting

4:41 this is goals I'm sorry I'm getting distracted now for my own thing I was

4:43 distracted now for my own thing I was

4:43 distracted now for my own thing I was like I'll just take a walk down the

4:44 like I'll just take a walk down the

4:44 like I'll just take a walk down the street I've been walking for a couple of

4:45 street I've been walking for a couple of

4:46 street I've been walking for a couple of miles and instead of vlogging I've been

4:47 miles and instead of vlogging I've been

4:47 miles and instead of vlogging I've been looking at this house and this house and

4:50 looking at this house and this house and

4:50 looking at this house and this house and that house and thinking wow doesn't this

4:52 that house and thinking wow doesn't this

4:52 that house and thinking wow doesn't this amazing wouldn't you love to live in

4:54 amazing wouldn't you love to live in

4:54 amazing wouldn't you love to live in this house till you find out all the

4:55 this house till you find out all the

4:55 this house till you find out all the plumbing leaks or something like that

4:56 plumbing leaks or something like that

4:56 plumbing leaks or something like that who you never know you never know the

4:58 who you never know you never know the

4:58 who you never know you never know the hidden dangers of a Bo there could be

5:00 hidden dangers of a Bo there could be

5:00 hidden dangers of a Bo there could be turbines okay anyway um look at this one

5:04 turbines okay anyway um look at this one

5:04 turbines okay anyway um look at this one that's obviously 40s or 50s but look at

5:06 that's obviously 40s or 50s but look at

5:06 that's obviously 40s or 50s but look at it with the little lines and the little

5:07 it with the little lines and the little

5:07 it with the little lines and the little brick chimney and all that I love houses

5:09 brick chimney and all that I love houses

5:09 brick chimney and all that I love houses they're so cool look at this cute little

5:11 they're so cool look at this cute little

5:11 they're so cool look at this cute little house look at that cute little house

5:13 house look at that cute little house

5:13 house look at that cute little house look at that cute little house right

5:14 look at that cute little house right

5:14 look at that cute little house right there it's gos anyway I am not walking

5:18 there it's gos anyway I am not walking

5:18 there it's gos anyway I am not walking around here trying to Vlog here because

5:20 around here trying to Vlog here because

5:20 around here trying to Vlog here because I'm trying to do something a little

5:22 I'm trying to do something a little

5:22 I'm trying to do something a little different than normal normally we're at

5:24 different than normal normally we're at

5:24 different than normal normally we're at a theme park we're at this we're at that

5:26 a theme park we're at this we're at that

5:26 a theme park we're at this we're at that I try of been kind of trying to

5:30 I try of been kind of trying to

5:30 I try of been kind of trying to wow I'm stuttering I have been kind of

5:33 wow I'm stuttering I have been kind of

5:33 wow I'm stuttering I have been kind of trying to mix it up slightly just a

5:35 trying to mix it up slightly just a

5:36 trying to mix it up slightly just a little bit when I do the Vlogs lately

5:38 little bit when I do the Vlogs lately

5:38 little bit when I do the Vlogs lately and I thought today let's go out and do

5:39 and I thought today let's go out and do

5:39 and I thought today let's go out and do something a little different and that is

5:40 something a little different and that is

5:40 something a little different and that is the point of today's Vlog when I was

5:42 the point of today's Vlog when I was

5:42 the point of today's Vlog when I was talking to this person

5:44 talking to this person

5:44 talking to this person yesterday reliving old drama and old

5:47 yesterday reliving old drama and old

5:47 yesterday reliving old drama and old trouble we actually worked it out and it

5:48 trouble we actually worked it out and it

5:48 trouble we actually worked it out and it was all fine because as much as I

5:50 was all fine because as much as I

5:50 was all fine because as much as I disagree with this person and disagree

5:51 disagree with this person and disagree

5:52 disagree with this person and disagree with certain things that have happened

5:52 with certain things that have happened

5:53 with certain things that have happened in Old bad business and all this kind of

5:54 in Old bad business and all this kind of

5:54 in Old bad business and all this kind of stuff I think both of us are the kind of

5:56 stuff I think both of us are the kind of

5:56 stuff I think both of us are the kind of people who would rather you know like

5:58 people who would rather you know like

5:58 people who would rather you know like make each other Happ happy and put this

6:00 make each other Happ happy and put this

6:00 make each other Happ happy and put this all behind us no I'm not talking about

6:01 all behind us no I'm not talking about

6:01 all behind us no I'm not talking about my ex or something like that this is a

6:03 my ex or something like that this is a

6:03 my ex or something like that this is a legitimate like a thing from my band in

6:04 legitimate like a thing from my band in

6:04 legitimate like a thing from my band in the old days if you don't know I used to

6:07 the old days if you don't know I used to

6:07 the old days if you don't know I used to be in a band and I'm this is going to be

6:08 be in a band and I'm this is going to be

6:08 be in a band and I'm this is going to be important because I'm going to use this

6:09 important because I'm going to use this

6:09 important because I'm going to use this as an analogy a little bit the musician

6:11 as an analogy a little bit the musician

6:11 as an analogy a little bit the musician thing and I'm not picking on musicians

6:13 thing and I'm not picking on musicians

6:13 thing and I'm not picking on musicians or people in bands and I'm not saying

6:14 or people in bands and I'm not saying

6:14 or people in bands and I'm not saying this applies to every person who's in a

6:16 this applies to every person who's in a

6:16 this applies to every person who's in a band or ever has been in a band or

6:18 band or ever has been in a band or

6:18 band or ever has been in a band or dreams of being in a band but because

6:20 dreams of being in a band but because

6:20 dreams of being in a band but because that's my experience in life I'm going

6:22 that's my experience in life I'm going

6:22 that's my experience in life I'm going to use that as the example because

6:23 to use that as the example because

6:23 to use that as the example because that's my personal path I was in a band

6:26 that's my personal path I was in a band

6:26 that's my personal path I was in a band for years and years and years and I've

6:29 for years and years and years and I've

6:29 for years and years and years and I've had many a frustrating deal with record

6:31 had many a frustrating deal with record

6:31 had many a frustrating deal with record labels and promoters and people who

6:33 labels and promoters and people who

6:33 labels and promoters and people who ripped me off and owed me money and some

6:36 ripped me off and owed me money and some

6:36 ripped me off and owed me money and some of these people were great people that

6:37 of these people were great people that

6:37 of these people were great people that never had any bad intent but they ended

6:39 never had any bad intent but they ended

6:39 never had any bad intent but they ended up ripping you off or you ended up

6:40 up ripping you off or you ended up

6:40 up ripping you off or you ended up having a bad business deal or something

6:42 having a bad business deal or something

6:42 having a bad business deal or something like that and it can affect your

6:43 like that and it can affect your

6:43 like that and it can affect your friendships it can affect all these

6:44 friendships it can affect all these

6:44 friendships it can affect all these different things anyway I'm talking to

6:46 different things anyway I'm talking to

6:46 different things anyway I'm talking to this person we worked out our deal was

6:48 this person we worked out our deal was

6:48 this person we worked out our deal was was all squash and fixed and we worked

6:50 was all squash and fixed and we worked

6:50 was all squash and fixed and we worked it all out and it was okay but then this

6:52 it all out and it was okay but then this

6:52 it all out and it was okay but then this person starts talking to me about their

6:53 person starts talking to me about their

6:53 person starts talking to me about their personal life and I couldn't help but

6:55 personal life and I couldn't help but

6:55 personal life and I couldn't help but notice that this person's personal life

6:58 notice that this person's personal life

6:58 notice that this person's personal life and all their stress and talking about

7:00 and all their stress and talking about

7:00 and all their stress and talking about like a serious mental stress and mental

7:02 like a serious mental stress and mental

7:02 like a serious mental stress and mental breakdown and how frustrated they are

7:04 breakdown and how frustrated they are

7:04 breakdown and how frustrated they are and all this stuff and I could not help

7:06 and all this stuff and I could not help

7:06 and all this stuff and I could not help but notice and bring up to the person

7:08 but notice and bring up to the person

7:08 but notice and bring up to the person that this is exactly the same

7:10 that this is exactly the same

7:10 that this is exactly the same conversation that we had had 5 years

7:14 conversation that we had had 5 years

7:14 conversation that we had had 5 years previous and I brought up to this person

7:17 previous and I brought up to this person

7:17 previous and I brought up to this person who runs a record label have you ever

7:20 who runs a record label have you ever

7:20 who runs a record label have you ever thought about just not running your

7:23 thought about just not running your

7:23 thought about just not running your record label have you ever thought about

7:26 record label have you ever thought about

7:26 record label have you ever thought about quitting and after I hung up with this

7:28 quitting and after I hung up with this

7:28 quitting and after I hung up with this person there's a whole longer convers

7:29 person there's a whole longer convers

7:29 person there's a whole longer convers ation than that but moving on from there

7:31 ation than that but moving on from there

7:31 ation than that but moving on from there for our

7:32 for our

7:32 for our purposes after I hung up I started

7:34 purposes after I hung up I started

7:34 purposes after I hung up I started thinking about all the years that I

7:37 thinking about all the years that I

7:37 thinking about all the years that I spent in a band my dream was to be in a

7:42 spent in a band my dream was to be in a

7:42 spent in a band my dream was to be in a cool punk rock band I spent a decade

7:45 cool punk rock band I spent a decade

7:45 cool punk rock band I spent a decade studying theology studying economics and

7:49 studying theology studying economics and

7:49 studying theology studying economics and political Theory and all this different

7:50 political Theory and all this different

7:50 political Theory and all this different stuff and traveling around and meeting

7:53 stuff and traveling around and meeting

7:53 stuff and traveling around and meeting people and being in this band and trying

7:55 people and being in this band and trying

7:55 people and being in this band and trying to write good lyrics and trying to write

7:58 to write good lyrics and trying to write

7:58 to write good lyrics and trying to write good songs and meeting people shaking

8:00 good songs and meeting people shaking

8:00 good songs and meeting people shaking hands having interesting conversations

8:01 hands having interesting conversations

8:01 hands having interesting conversations and being deep and being thoughtful and

8:05 and being deep and being thoughtful and

8:05 and being deep and being thoughtful and that entire time I've always been this

8:07 that entire time I've always been this

8:07 that entire time I've always been this spazy person I always sing everything

8:09 spazy person I always sing everything

8:09 spazy person I always sing everything that I want to talk oh my gosh that Mrs

8:11 that I want to talk oh my gosh that Mrs

8:11 that I want to talk oh my gosh that Mrs claw up here on this porch this person's

8:13 claw up here on this porch this person's

8:13 claw up here on this porch this person's porch just

8:14 porch just

8:14 porch just scared The Living Daylights out of me I

8:17 scared The Living Daylights out of me I

8:17 scared The Living Daylights out of me I was cool about it but this Mrs Claus and

8:19 was cool about it but this Mrs Claus and

8:19 was cool about it but this Mrs Claus and this Santa Claus here I thought were

8:21 this Santa Claus here I thought were

8:21 this Santa Claus here I thought were little people little old people staring

8:24 little people little old people staring

8:24 little people little old people staring at me from the there's Christmas stuff

8:26 at me from the there's Christmas stuff

8:26 at me from the there's Christmas stuff in that person's house they need to

8:27 in that person's house they need to

8:27 in that person's house they need to undecorate for Christmas maybe it's

8:29 undecorate for Christmas maybe it's

8:29 undecorate for Christmas maybe it's Christmas year in that house I don't

8:30 Christmas year in that house I don't

8:30 Christmas year in that house I don't know all I know is that Mrs Claus scared

8:32 know all I know is that Mrs Claus scared

8:32 know all I know is that Mrs Claus scared me and that's totally distracts me now

8:34 me and that's totally distracts me now

8:34 me and that's totally distracts me now anyway look at this house oh my gosh

8:37 anyway look at this house oh my gosh

8:37 anyway look at this house oh my gosh okay that house right there what a cool

8:39 okay that house right there what a cool

8:39 okay that house right there what a cool house I am jealous I'm going to admit it

8:42 house I am jealous I'm going to admit it

8:42 house I am jealous I'm going to admit it of that house and this feeds into what

8:43 of that house and this feeds into what

8:43 of that house and this feeds into what I'm talking about a little

8:45 I'm talking about a little

8:45 I'm talking about a little bit okay so what am I talking about I'm

8:47 bit okay so what am I talking about I'm

8:47 bit okay so what am I talking about I'm trying to remember I'm getting

8:48 trying to remember I'm getting

8:48 trying to remember I'm getting distracted by the beautiful orange and

8:51 distracted by the beautiful orange and

8:51 distracted by the beautiful orange and is that a Mustang under there we don't

8:52 is that a Mustang under there we don't

8:52 is that a Mustang under there we don't have time to look at Mustangs oh my gosh

8:54 have time to look at Mustangs oh my gosh

8:54 have time to look at Mustangs oh my gosh I'm getting distracted by this

8:55 I'm getting distracted by this

8:55 I'm getting distracted by this neighborhood gos um what was I going to

8:58 neighborhood gos um what was I going to

8:58 neighborhood gos um what was I going to say I wanted to be in a band I wanted to

9:01 say I wanted to be in a band I wanted to

9:01 say I wanted to be in a band I wanted to play music I wanted to be this serious

9:03 play music I wanted to be this serious

9:03 play music I wanted to be this serious person that was taken seriously and all

9:04 person that was taken seriously and all

9:04 person that was taken seriously and all this stuff but the entire time I've

9:05 this stuff but the entire time I've

9:05 this stuff but the entire time I've always been this Spazzy hyper wacky

9:09 always been this Spazzy hyper wacky

9:09 always been this Spazzy hyper wacky let's run around be funny and sniff the

9:11 let's run around be funny and sniff the

9:11 let's run around be funny and sniff the bush and roll around on the floor and

9:13 bush and roll around on the floor and

9:13 bush and roll around on the floor and make the joke and I've always been the

9:15 make the joke and I've always been the

9:15 make the joke and I've always been the person that I am now pretty much but I

9:17 person that I am now pretty much but I

9:17 person that I am now pretty much but I spent all these years with this dream

9:19 spent all these years with this dream

9:19 spent all these years with this dream and this vision for what I wanted to do

9:21 and this vision for what I wanted to do

9:21 and this vision for what I wanted to do and it constantly and

9:25 and it constantly and

9:25 and it constantly and continuously failed now there's

9:28 continuously failed now there's

9:28 continuously failed now there's something to be said I have to put this

9:30 something to be said I have to put this

9:30 something to be said I have to put this in here there's something to be said for

9:32 in here there's something to be said for

9:32 in here there's something to be said for never giving up on your dream for never

9:35 never giving up on your dream for never

9:35 never giving up on your dream for never stopping your quest for going for it for

9:37 stopping your quest for going for it for

9:37 stopping your quest for going for it for going for your goals and there are

9:39 going for your goals and there are

9:39 going for your goals and there are people who struggle for 20 30 years

9:41 people who struggle for 20 30 years

9:41 people who struggle for 20 30 years because they have a goal and they never

9:43 because they have a goal and they never

9:43 because they have a goal and they never give up and they achieve that goal and

9:44 give up and they achieve that goal and

9:44 give up and they achieve that goal and there are people who are like I once saw

9:46 there are people who are like I once saw

9:46 there are people who are like I once saw you know Behind the Music On Aerosmith

9:48 you know Behind the Music On Aerosmith

9:48 you know Behind the Music On Aerosmith or something like that stepen Tyler was

9:49 or something like that stepen Tyler was

9:49 or something like that stepen Tyler was like just stick around long enough and I

9:52 like just stick around long enough and I

9:52 like just stick around long enough and I always used to think about that and

9:54 always used to think about that and

9:54 always used to think about that and think about all those people who

9:55 think about all those people who

9:55 think about all those people who persevered through all the trials and

9:57 persevered through all the trials and

9:57 persevered through all the trials and they finally made it like this person

9:58 they finally made it like this person

9:58 they finally made it like this person yesterday was like I can't decide you

10:01 yesterday was like I can't decide you

10:01 yesterday was like I can't decide you know if he's like if there is a God

10:04 know if he's like if there is a God

10:04 know if he's like if there is a God quoting this person if there's a God I

10:06 quoting this person if there's a God I

10:06 quoting this person if there's a God I can't decide if I've been through all

10:08 can't decide if I've been through all

10:08 can't decide if I've been through all this horrible stuff and all these

10:09 this horrible stuff and all these

10:09 this horrible stuff and all these frustrating things and all these

10:10 frustrating things and all these

10:10 frustrating things and all these failures and bankruptcies and things

10:12 failures and bankruptcies and things

10:12 failures and bankruptcies and things because it's something I have to

10:14 because it's something I have to

10:14 because it's something I have to persevere through or it's a sign that I

10:17 persevere through or it's a sign that I

10:17 persevere through or it's a sign that I should quit and whether you believe in

10:19 should quit and whether you believe in

10:19 should quit and whether you believe in God or not you put that all aside I was

10:21 God or not you put that all aside I was

10:21 God or not you put that all aside I was like I think maybe it's a sign you

10:22 like I think maybe it's a sign you

10:22 like I think maybe it's a sign you should quit because even though there's

10:24 should quit because even though there's

10:24 should quit because even though there's something to sticking with your

10:26 something to sticking with your

10:26 something to sticking with your dreams I've been able to do a lot of

10:28 dreams I've been able to do a lot of

10:28 dreams I've been able to do a lot of amazing things things in the past year

10:30 amazing things things in the past year

10:30 amazing things things in the past year I've been able to go to a lot of amazing

10:31 I've been able to go to a lot of amazing

10:31 I've been able to go to a lot of amazing places do a lot of amazing things meet a

10:33 places do a lot of amazing things meet a

10:33 places do a lot of amazing things meet a lot of amazing people have a lot of

10:34 lot of amazing people have a lot of

10:34 lot of amazing people have a lot of amazing experiences I would have never

10:36 amazing experiences I would have never

10:36 amazing experiences I would have never had before in my entire life precisely

10:39 had before in my entire life precisely

10:40 had before in my entire life precisely because I quit my band for 10 years it

10:44 because I quit my band for 10 years it

10:44 because I quit my band for 10 years it was right songs record an album go on

10:47 was right songs record an album go on

10:47 was right songs record an album go on tour the tour would have bad nights

10:49 tour the tour would have bad nights

10:49 tour the tour would have bad nights there would be Shady deals and bad

10:52 there would be Shady deals and bad

10:52 there would be Shady deals and bad promoters and sketchy crows and my D

10:54 promoters and sketchy crows and my D

10:54 promoters and sketchy crows and my D would never be oh it's a sometimes dog

10:56 would never be oh it's a sometimes dog

10:56 would never be oh it's a sometimes dog we got a sometimes dog back here oh hi

11:00 we got a sometimes dog back here oh hi

11:00 we got a sometimes dog back here oh hi puppy anyway we have all kinds of

11:02 puppy anyway we have all kinds of

11:02 puppy anyway we have all kinds of struggles and troubles and struggles and

11:05 struggles and troubles and struggles and

11:05 struggles and troubles and struggles and troubles okay I thought I said struggles

11:07 troubles okay I thought I said struggles

11:07 troubles okay I thought I said struggles and stroubles but I had those too we

11:09 and stroubles but I had those too we

11:09 and stroubles but I had those too we would go and do all this crazy stuff we'

11:11 would go and do all this crazy stuff we'

11:11 would go and do all this crazy stuff we' run out of money we'd have to borrow

11:13 run out of money we'd have to borrow

11:13 run out of money we'd have to borrow money to make merchandise sometimes and

11:14 money to make merchandise sometimes and

11:15 money to make merchandise sometimes and not be able to pay it back because you'd

11:16 not be able to pay it back because you'd

11:16 not be able to pay it back because you'd sell out the merchandise but you'd have

11:17 sell out the merchandise but you'd have

11:17 sell out the merchandise but you'd have to use it for gas it's the constant

11:18 to use it for gas it's the constant

11:18 to use it for gas it's the constant struggle of a band if you've ever been

11:20 struggle of a band if you've ever been

11:20 struggle of a band if you've ever been in a band you completely understand this

11:23 in a band you completely understand this

11:23 in a band you completely understand this there's never enough money there's never

11:26 there's never enough money there's never

11:26 there's never enough money there's never enough promotion there's never a good

11:27 enough promotion there's never a good

11:27 enough promotion there's never a good enough show Hey look it's my car over

11:29 enough show Hey look it's my car over

11:29 enough show Hey look it's my car over there uh there's never which means I've

11:31 there uh there's never which means I've

11:31 there uh there's never which means I've walked quite a ways today um there's

11:34 walked quite a ways today um there's

11:34 walked quite a ways today um there's just this constant ongoing struggle of

11:36 just this constant ongoing struggle of

11:36 just this constant ongoing struggle of putting everything that you have into

11:38 putting everything that you have into

11:38 putting everything that you have into the band so you're constantly having to

11:40 the band so you're constantly having to

11:40 the band so you're constantly having to pump money into it you're constantly

11:41 pump money into it you're constantly

11:42 pump money into it you're constantly having to call people and ask for money

11:44 having to call people and ask for money

11:44 having to call people and ask for money like I don't want to make it sound like

11:45 like I don't want to make it sound like

11:45 like I don't want to make it sound like you know like a crazy like a drug addict

11:47 you know like a crazy like a drug addict

11:47 you know like a crazy like a drug addict or something but there is these times

11:48 or something but there is these times

11:48 or something but there is these times where you're out on the road there's no

11:50 where you're out on the road there's no

11:50 where you're out on the road there's no other option but to call people and say

11:52 other option but to call people and say

11:52 other option but to call people and say hey we are out of money we have to get

11:54 hey we are out of money we have to get

11:54 hey we are out of money we have to get from Connecticut down to Virginia

11:57 from Connecticut down to Virginia

11:57 from Connecticut down to Virginia tomorrow you have to borrow money then

11:59 tomorrow you have to borrow money then

11:59 tomorrow you have to borrow money then you you may maybe the next day you make

12:00 you you may maybe the next day you make

12:00 you you may maybe the next day you make $2 $3,000 out the show but by the time

12:02 $2 $3,000 out the show but by the time

12:02 $2 $3,000 out the show but by the time you get back home you don't pay people

12:04 you get back home you don't pay people

12:04 you get back home you don't pay people everybody's sick and tired of hearing

12:05 everybody's sick and tired of hearing

12:05 everybody's sick and tired of hearing you talk about your band you're constant

12:07 you talk about your band you're constant

12:07 you talk about your band you're constant to fly do all this crazy stuff and for

12:09 to fly do all this crazy stuff and for

12:09 to fly do all this crazy stuff and for me for my band it never we had years

12:12 me for my band it never we had years

12:12 me for my band it never we had years where we were on record labels where we

12:14 where we were on record labels where we

12:14 where we were on record labels where we were able to do these cool tours where

12:16 were able to do these cool tours where

12:16 were able to do these cool tours where we were able to do all this cool stuff

12:18 we were able to do all this cool stuff

12:18 we were able to do all this cool stuff but it was never super super successful

12:21 but it was never super super successful

12:21 but it was never super super successful it was never like sell out the House of

12:23 it was never like sell out the House of

12:23 it was never like sell out the House of Blues all across the country it was

12:25 Blues all across the country it was

12:25 Blues all across the country it was never playing an arena play in a stadium

12:27 never playing an arena play in a stadium

12:27 never playing an arena play in a stadium and while there's something to be said

12:28 and while there's something to be said

12:28 and while there's something to be said for never give on your dreams my

12:31 for never give on your dreams my

12:31 for never give on your dreams my personal life became all about the band

12:33 personal life became all about the band

12:33 personal life became all about the band The only friends I had were the people

12:35 The only friends I had were the people

12:35 The only friends I had were the people that were in bands that were constantly

12:36 that were in bands that were constantly

12:36 that were in bands that were constantly living the dream man keep pumping

12:38 living the dream man keep pumping

12:38 living the dream man keep pumping through the dream everybody else around

12:39 through the dream everybody else around

12:39 through the dream everybody else around me grew up got married bought beautiful

12:43 me grew up got married bought beautiful

12:43 me grew up got married bought beautiful homes probably not this home here

12:45 homes probably not this home here

12:45 homes probably not this home here because this looks like it would

12:46 because this looks like it would

12:46 because this looks like it would probably cost in this neighborhood two

12:49 probably cost in this neighborhood two

12:49 probably cost in this neighborhood two maybe $3

12:51 maybe $3

12:51 maybe $3 million look at that anywhere else in

12:53 million look at that anywhere else in

12:53 million look at that anywhere else in America you'd be able to pick up this

12:54 America you'd be able to pick up this

12:54 America you'd be able to pick up this home for a steel but not here not in the

12:56 home for a steel but not here not in the

12:57 home for a steel but not here not in the orange circle um anyway

12:59 orange circle um anyway

12:59 orange circle um anyway they all went and all had these

13:01 they all went and all had these

13:01 they all went and all had these experiences they'd be like oh I went to

13:02 experiences they'd be like oh I went to

13:02 experiences they'd be like oh I went to Europe or I did this or I did this other

13:04 Europe or I did this or I did this other

13:04 Europe or I did this or I did this other thing and I think the reason why I

13:07 thing and I think the reason why I

13:07 thing and I think the reason why I missed out on a lot of opportunities and

13:09 missed out on a lot of opportunities and

13:09 missed out on a lot of opportunities and I missed out on a lot of growing up and

13:12 I missed out on a lot of growing up and

13:12 I missed out on a lot of growing up and a lot of cool experiences and I

13:14 a lot of cool experiences and I

13:14 a lot of cool experiences and I certainly had my fair share of them

13:15 certainly had my fair share of them

13:15 certainly had my fair share of them because I was in the band but I missed

13:17 because I was in the band but I missed

13:17 because I was in the band but I missed out on a lot because I was in that band

13:19 out on a lot because I was in that band

13:19 out on a lot because I was in that band too and I never once thought I know this

13:21 too and I never once thought I know this

13:21 too and I never once thought I know this is kind of long-winded but it's really

13:23 is kind of long-winded but it's really

13:23 is kind of long-winded but it's really hard to take 20 years worth of memories

13:25 hard to take 20 years worth of memories

13:25 hard to take 20 years worth of memories and things and compress it into one

13:27 and things and compress it into one

13:27 and things and compress it into one point I'm sorry but

13:29 point I'm sorry but

13:29 point I'm sorry but oh wow that's a cool house right there

13:31 oh wow that's a cool house right there

13:31 oh wow that's a cool house right there isn't it that's awesome oh and look at

13:33 isn't it that's awesome oh and look at

13:33 isn't it that's awesome oh and look at this Craftsman guy over here I love this

13:35 this Craftsman guy over here I love this

13:35 this Craftsman guy over here I love this I think they're so cool and interesting

13:36 I think they're so cool and interesting

13:36 I think they're so cool and interesting look at this guy right here they're all

13:38 look at this guy right here they're all

13:38 look at this guy right here they're all like cute little houses like from up or

13:39 like cute little houses like from up or

13:39 like cute little houses like from up or something I want to live in that anyway

13:43 something I want to live in that anyway

13:43 something I want to live in that anyway um what was I

13:46 um what was I

13:46 um what was I talking I really think here's the tldr

13:49 talking I really think here's the tldr

13:49 talking I really think here's the tldr on this I really think that I missed out

13:51 on this I really think that I missed out

13:51 on this I really think that I missed out on a lot of opportunities and I missed

13:53 on a lot of opportunities and I missed

13:53 on a lot of opportunities and I missed out on a lot of things in my life

13:56 out on a lot of things in my life

13:56 out on a lot of things in my life because I didn't quit

13:59 because I didn't quit

13:59 because I didn't quit I couldn't call it a day and say this

14:01 I couldn't call it a day and say this

14:01 I couldn't call it a day and say this isn't working I have known a lot of

14:04 isn't working I have known a lot of

14:04 isn't working I have known a lot of musicians I have to use musicians as my

14:06 musicians I have to use musicians as my

14:06 musicians I have to use musicians as my example like I was saying who just will

14:08 example like I was saying who just will

14:08 example like I was saying who just will not quit I was at n the other day or you

14:11 not quit I was at n the other day or you

14:12 not quit I was at n the other day or you know a couple weeks ago or whatever that

14:13 know a couple weeks ago or whatever that

14:13 know a couple weeks ago or whatever that big n convention big music convention

14:15 big n convention big music convention

14:15 big n convention big music convention and I was there with a friend of mine

14:16 and I was there with a friend of mine

14:16 and I was there with a friend of mine who stopped being in bands full-time a

14:19 who stopped being in bands full-time a

14:19 who stopped being in bands full-time a long time ago used to have a recording

14:20 long time ago used to have a recording

14:20 long time ago used to have a recording studio and stopped doing that now he is

14:21 studio and stopped doing that now he is

14:21 studio and stopped doing that now he is working at this really great job a

14:23 working at this really great job a

14:24 working at this really great job a corporate level for these big music

14:25 corporate level for these big music

14:25 corporate level for these big music companies going and buying stuff he gets

14:27 companies going and buying stuff he gets

14:27 companies going and buying stuff he gets to deal with musicians and new equipment

14:29 to deal with musicians and new equipment

14:29 to deal with musicians and new equipment and do all this stuff he gets to

14:30 and do all this stuff he gets to

14:30 and do all this stuff he gets to constantly deal with bands and recording

14:32 constantly deal with bands and recording

14:32 constantly deal with bands and recording stuff he gets to do something that he

14:35 stuff he gets to do something that he

14:35 stuff he gets to do something that he likes basically and be involved with the

14:36 likes basically and be involved with the

14:37 likes basically and be involved with the stuff that he likes but he's got to make

14:39 stuff that he likes but he's got to make

14:39 stuff that he likes but he's got to make a career out of it precisely because he

14:42 a career out of it precisely because he

14:42 a career out of it precisely because he didn't think about playing music anymore

14:44 didn't think about playing music anymore

14:44 didn't think about playing music anymore and I was walking around with the CEO of

14:46 and I was walking around with the CEO of

14:46 and I was walking around with the CEO of this company and meeting all these

14:48 this company and meeting all these

14:48 this company and meeting all these people who are into marketing and doing

14:49 people who are into marketing and doing

14:50 people who are into marketing and doing all these interesting creative things

14:51 all these interesting creative things

14:51 all these interesting creative things and of course I have a lot of friends

14:52 and of course I have a lot of friends

14:52 and of course I have a lot of friends who are very successful in the music

14:54 who are very successful in the music

14:54 who are very successful in the music business so I have friends who are

14:56 business so I have friends who are

14:56 business so I have friends who are successful artists and stuff like that

14:57 successful artists and stuff like that

14:57 successful artists and stuff like that and I have friends who are success ful

14:59 and I have friends who are success ful

14:59 and I have friends who are success ful you know managers and different things

15:00 you know managers and different things

15:00 you know managers and different things like that so it's not that you can't be

15:02 like that so it's not that you can't be

15:02 like that so it's not that you can't be success as a musician again let me make

15:04 success as a musician again let me make

15:04 success as a musician again let me make that very clear but I also saw a ton of

15:08 that very clear but I also saw a ton of

15:08 that very clear but I also saw a ton of people I kept running into people there

15:10 people I kept running into people there

15:10 people I kept running into people there that I had known from my musician days

15:13 that I had known from my musician days

15:13 that I had known from my musician days where I would strike up a conversation

15:15 where I would strike up a conversation

15:15 where I would strike up a conversation with them and my life is so dramatically

15:17 with them and my life is so dramatically

15:17 with them and my life is so dramatically different now I've been going around the

15:19 different now I've been going around the

15:19 different now I've been going around the world and traveling to Death Valley in

15:21 world and traveling to Death Valley in

15:21 world and traveling to Death Valley in the Heatwave and making all these videos

15:23 the Heatwave and making all these videos

15:23 the Heatwave and making all these videos and meeting all of you guys and having

15:24 and meeting all of you guys and having

15:24 and meeting all of you guys and having all these crazy adventures and I got to

15:26 all these crazy adventures and I got to

15:26 all these crazy adventures and I got to these people and they're like oh yeah

15:28 these people and they're like oh yeah

15:28 these people and they're like oh yeah man we got got 50 shows coming up this

15:31 man we got got 50 shows coming up this

15:31 man we got got 50 shows coming up this year man we're playing at this bar and

15:33 year man we're playing at this bar and

15:33 year man we're playing at this bar and that bar and the other thing and I'm

15:35 that bar and the other thing and I'm

15:35 that bar and the other thing and I'm like oh cool and they're talking about

15:39 like oh cool and they're talking about

15:39 like oh cool and they're talking about the same old people and the same old

15:41 the same old people and the same old

15:41 the same old people and the same old places and the same old things they're

15:42 places and the same old things they're

15:42 places and the same old things they're wearing the same outfits I mean I'm

15:44 wearing the same outfits I mean I'm

15:44 wearing the same outfits I mean I'm pretty guilty of that too like I'm

15:45 pretty guilty of that too like I'm

15:45 pretty guilty of that too like I'm wearing like a black T-shirt and this

15:46 wearing like a black T-shirt and this

15:46 wearing like a black T-shirt and this thing and I think I wore these pants

15:48 thing and I think I wore these pants

15:48 thing and I think I wore these pants like 4 days in a row but the point is it

15:52 like 4 days in a row but the point is it

15:52 like 4 days in a row but the point is it was like really surprisingly caught me

15:54 was like really surprisingly caught me

15:54 was like really surprisingly caught me off guard boring like I was listening to

15:57 off guard boring like I was listening to

15:57 off guard boring like I was listening to these people and they were like how' you

15:58 these people and they were like how' you

15:58 these people and they were like how' you do do that man you're so successful

16:01 do do that man you're so successful

16:01 do do that man you're so successful there's all these people who would be

16:04 there's all these people who would be

16:04 there's all these people who would be I'm not saying I think that of myself

16:05 I'm not saying I think that of myself

16:05 I'm not saying I think that of myself I'm quoting these people but they'd be

16:07 I'm quoting these people but they'd be

16:07 I'm quoting these people but they'd be like you know we've been in this band

16:09 like you know we've been in this band

16:09 like you know we've been in this band for 10 years and we have 2,000 followers

16:11 for 10 years and we have 2,000 followers

16:11 for 10 years and we have 2,000 followers on Instagram I don't understand how you

16:12 on Instagram I don't understand how you

16:12 on Instagram I don't understand how you have more Instagram followers than us

16:14 have more Instagram followers than us

16:14 have more Instagram followers than us and I don't understand this I I don't

16:15 and I don't understand this I I don't

16:15 and I don't understand this I I don't understand that and I honestly want to

16:17 understand that and I honestly want to

16:17 understand that and I honestly want to attribute everything that's happened

16:19 attribute everything that's happened

16:19 attribute everything that's happened this year in a way to quitting to

16:23 this year in a way to quitting to

16:23 this year in a way to quitting to quitting the band and the reason is

16:25 quitting the band and the reason is

16:25 quitting the band and the reason is because while I wanted to be like I

16:28 because while I wanted to be like I

16:28 because while I wanted to be like I there's a side of my personality is like

16:29 there's a side of my personality is like

16:29 there's a side of my personality is like the serious thoughtful I have all these

16:31 the serious thoughtful I have all these

16:31 the serious thoughtful I have all these deep thoughts and things to say and and

16:34 deep thoughts and things to say and and

16:34 deep thoughts and things to say and and things to feel I wanted to be this

16:36 things to feel I wanted to be this

16:36 things to feel I wanted to be this serious musician artist person that

16:39 serious musician artist person that

16:39 serious musician artist person that people looked up to I am a spaz I am a

16:43 people looked up to I am a spaz I am a

16:43 people looked up to I am a spaz I am a dorky

16:44 dorky

16:44 dorky ridiculous spasm matron who it turns out

16:48 ridiculous spasm matron who it turns out

16:49 ridiculous spasm matron who it turns out is into really nerdy stuff and connects

16:50 is into really nerdy stuff and connects

16:50 is into really nerdy stuff and connects with people on a completely different

16:52 with people on a completely different

16:52 with people on a completely different level than I thought I was going to

16:53 level than I thought I was going to

16:53 level than I thought I was going to connect with people at if that makes any

16:55 connect with people at if that makes any

16:55 connect with people at if that makes any sense and if I hadn't quit my band in

16:57 sense and if I hadn't quit my band in

16:57 sense and if I hadn't quit my band in 2013

16:59 2013

16:59 2013 and freed up my time and my mental

17:02 and freed up my time and my mental

17:02 and freed up my time and my mental energy and my limited amount of talent

17:05 energy and my limited amount of talent

17:05 energy and my limited amount of talent uh towards making videos and doing all

17:08 uh towards making videos and doing all

17:08 uh towards making videos and doing all this creative stuff and going on the

17:09 this creative stuff and going on the

17:09 this creative stuff and going on the social media and meeting people and

17:12 social media and meeting people and

17:12 social media and meeting people and hanging out with my friend Adam the woo

17:13 hanging out with my friend Adam the woo

17:13 hanging out with my friend Adam the woo and doing all this weird stuff if I

17:15 and doing all this weird stuff if I

17:15 and doing all this weird stuff if I hadn't quit that band I honestly

17:20 hadn't quit that band I honestly

17:20 hadn't quit that band I honestly probably would still be in the same boat

17:21 probably would still be in the same boat

17:21 probably would still be in the same boat doing the same thing being bored because

17:23 doing the same thing being bored because

17:23 doing the same thing being bored because here's the thing I'm not talking about

17:25 here's the thing I'm not talking about

17:25 here's the thing I'm not talking about people who are still psyched there's

17:27 people who are still psyched there's

17:27 people who are still psyched there's some people and again I'm just using

17:29 some people and again I'm just using

17:29 some people and again I'm just using music as the example there are some

17:30 music as the example there are some

17:30 music as the example there are some people I know who 10 years later will go

17:33 people I know who 10 years later will go

17:33 people I know who 10 years later will go to play the show at C's bar in Anaheim

17:36 to play the show at C's bar in Anaheim

17:36 to play the show at C's bar in Anaheim or some little place and they're playing

17:38 or some little place and they're playing

17:38 or some little place and they're playing to five people still and they're selling

17:40 to five people still and they're selling

17:40 to five people still and they're selling one t-shirt a year and they are sighted

17:43 one t-shirt a year and they are sighted

17:43 one t-shirt a year and they are sighted they are pumped they love it some of my

17:45 they are pumped they love it some of my

17:45 they are pumped they love it some of my favorite bands are that way and more

17:47 favorite bands are that way and more

17:48 favorite bands are that way and more power to them I'm all about that I'm

17:50 power to them I'm all about that I'm

17:50 power to them I'm all about that I'm talking about for me and for a lot of

17:52 talking about for me and for a lot of

17:52 talking about for me and for a lot of these people I know there's this weird

17:54 these people I know there's this weird

17:54 these people I know there's this weird creeping sense of Despair and bitterness

17:56 creeping sense of Despair and bitterness

17:56 creeping sense of Despair and bitterness like I've been trying and trying trying

17:59 like I've been trying and trying trying

17:59 like I've been trying and trying trying and nothing's working and I keep having

18:00 and nothing's working and I keep having

18:00 and nothing's working and I keep having to try it's almost like it's one thing

18:04 to try it's almost like it's one thing

18:04 to try it's almost like it's one thing not to give up on your dream it's one

18:05 not to give up on your dream it's one

18:05 not to give up on your dream it's one thing not to give up on your passion but

18:07 thing not to give up on your passion but

18:07 thing not to give up on your passion but there's a there's a dark side of saying

18:09 there's a there's a dark side of saying

18:09 there's a there's a dark side of saying that our whole culture and our whole

18:11 that our whole culture and our whole

18:11 that our whole culture and our whole like not to pick on Disney but the whole

18:13 like not to pick on Disney but the whole

18:13 like not to pick on Disney but the whole like Disney happily ever after thing and

18:15 like Disney happily ever after thing and

18:15 like Disney happily ever after thing and our whole like thing is always don't

18:17 our whole like thing is always don't

18:17 our whole like thing is always don't give up on your dream everyone can live

18:19 give up on your dream everyone can live

18:19 give up on your dream everyone can live their dreams and have their dreams but

18:21 their dreams and have their dreams but

18:21 their dreams and have their dreams but the thing is you can have more than one

18:24 the thing is you can have more than one

18:24 the thing is you can have more than one dream you can have more than one

18:26 dream you can have more than one

18:26 dream you can have more than one inspiration and you can have more than

18:28 inspiration and you can have more than

18:28 inspiration and you can have more than one passion and if you do one thing and

18:32 one passion and if you do one thing and

18:32 one passion and if you do one thing and you're sticking to one thing and you're

18:34 you're sticking to one thing and you're

18:34 you're sticking to one thing and you're never opening up your mind as to what's

18:37 never opening up your mind as to what's

18:37 never opening up your mind as to what's beyond that one thing or what other

18:39 beyond that one thing or what other

18:39 beyond that one thing or what other possibilities there might be in life

18:40 possibilities there might be in life

18:40 possibilities there might be in life especially if you're failing at the one

18:42 especially if you're failing at the one

18:42 especially if you're failing at the one thing you are going to be stuck there so

18:45 thing you are going to be stuck there so

18:45 thing you are going to be stuck there so what happens is I know a lot of people a

18:47 what happens is I know a lot of people a

18:47 what happens is I know a lot of people a lot of people were musicians that was

18:48 lot of people were musicians that was

18:48 lot of people were musicians that was the big thing in the '90s and then last

18:50 the big thing in the '90s and then last

18:50 the big thing in the '90s and then last decade was like get a guitar being a

18:53 decade was like get a guitar being a

18:53 decade was like get a guitar being a rock and roll band you know what I mean

18:54 rock and roll band you know what I mean

18:54 rock and roll band you know what I mean everyone can do it being a rock and roll

18:56 everyone can do it being a rock and roll

18:56 everyone can do it being a rock and roll anyone can do it being a punk band or

18:57 anyone can do it being a punk band or

18:57 anyone can do it being a punk band or something like that so this is my

18:59 something like that so this is my

18:59 something like that so this is my experience and my friends again um and

19:02 experience and my friends again um and

19:02 experience and my friends again um and what happened was there was a lot of

19:03 what happened was there was a lot of

19:03 what happened was there was a lot of people that just really sucked at it

19:05 people that just really sucked at it

19:05 people that just really sucked at it like they just being honest like I was

19:07 like they just being honest like I was

19:07 like they just being honest like I was one of them a lot of people who just

19:08 one of them a lot of people who just

19:08 one of them a lot of people who just really sucked at it they just weren't

19:10 really sucked at it they just weren't

19:10 really sucked at it they just weren't that talented they weren't that

19:11 that talented they weren't that

19:11 that talented they weren't that extraordinary in that field for whatever

19:14 extraordinary in that field for whatever

19:14 extraordinary in that field for whatever reason they weren't their song lyrics

19:16 reason they weren't their song lyrics

19:16 reason they weren't their song lyrics maybe weren't interesting there's a lot

19:17 maybe weren't interesting there's a lot

19:17 maybe weren't interesting there's a lot of singers who probably just shouldn't

19:18 of singers who probably just shouldn't

19:18 of singers who probably just shouldn't have been singers and the thing was

19:20 have been singers and the thing was

19:20 have been singers and the thing was because there's this whole mentality of

19:22 because there's this whole mentality of

19:22 because there's this whole mentality of never give up on your dream if you give

19:23 never give up on your dream if you give

19:23 never give up on your dream if you give up you're selling out man like whatever

19:26 up you're selling out man like whatever

19:26 up you're selling out man like whatever whatever I know a lot of people who just

19:28 whatever I know a lot of people who just

19:28 whatever I know a lot of people who just kept going I met a lot of people who

19:31 kept going I met a lot of people who

19:31 kept going I met a lot of people who were really talented writers uh even

19:33 were really talented writers uh even

19:33 were really talented writers uh even songwriters but also writer writers

19:35 songwriters but also writer writers

19:35 songwriters but also writer writers really talented photographers really

19:38 really talented photographers really

19:38 really talented photographers really talented graphic designers really really

19:40 talented graphic designers really really

19:40 talented graphic designers really really talented like almost like poets really

19:42 talented like almost like poets really

19:42 talented like almost like poets really people that were really good with words

19:44 people that were really good with words

19:44 people that were really good with words people who were really good at Art

19:45 people who were really good at Art

19:45 people who were really good at Art creating things with their hands people

19:47 creating things with their hands people

19:47 creating things with their hands people who were really good probably at taxes

19:49 who were really good probably at taxes

19:49 who were really good probably at taxes and other boring stuff too that I'm not

19:50 and other boring stuff too that I'm not

19:50 and other boring stuff too that I'm not interested in but people who were had

19:52 interested in but people who were had

19:52 interested in but people who were had all these skills and talents and were

19:54 all these skills and talents and were

19:54 all these skills and talents and were really unique and unique thinkers who

19:56 really unique and unique thinkers who

19:56 really unique and unique thinkers who all were trying to do the same exact

19:59 all were trying to do the same exact

19:59 all were trying to do the same exact thing they were all trying to play

20:00 thing they were all trying to play

20:00 thing they were all trying to play guitar they were all trying to be the

20:02 guitar they were all trying to be the

20:02 guitar they were all trying to be the lead singer they were all trying to be

20:04 lead singer they were all trying to be

20:04 lead singer they were all trying to be in the same punk band and they were all

20:06 in the same punk band and they were all

20:06 in the same punk band and they were all trying to copy the same artist we were

20:08 trying to copy the same artist we were

20:08 trying to copy the same artist we were all trying to copy the same we were

20:09 all trying to copy the same we were

20:09 all trying to copy the same we were trying to copy the remones trying to

20:10 trying to copy the remones trying to

20:10 trying to copy the remones trying to copy the class trying to copy these

20:11 copy the class trying to copy these

20:11 copy the class trying to copy these different fans cuz we wanted to be that

20:13 different fans cuz we wanted to be that

20:13 different fans cuz we wanted to be that thing if you like something you kind of

20:16 thing if you like something you kind of

20:16 thing if you like something you kind of want to emulate it and be it right

20:18 want to emulate it and be it right

20:18 want to emulate it and be it right that's that's the idea and so you strike

20:20 that's that's the idea and so you strike

20:20 that's that's the idea and so you strike out I'm going to be that I want to live

20:22 out I'm going to be that I want to live

20:22 out I'm going to be that I want to live that dream I want to have that thing and

20:24 that dream I want to have that thing and

20:24 that dream I want to have that thing and there's nothing wrong with trying but I

20:26 there's nothing wrong with trying but I

20:26 there's nothing wrong with trying but I kind of feel like there's something

20:27 kind of feel like there's something

20:27 kind of feel like there's something wrong with not at least asking the

20:30 wrong with not at least asking the

20:30 wrong with not at least asking the question is this really what I want to

20:32 question is this really what I want to

20:32 question is this really what I want to do is this really what I'm good at is

20:34 do is this really what I'm good at is

20:34 do is this really what I'm good at is this really what I should be doing I

20:36 this really what I should be doing I

20:36 this really what I should be doing I started doing the video thing because I

20:40 started doing the video thing because I

20:40 started doing the video thing because I like to play around with video I always

20:42 like to play around with video I always

20:42 like to play around with video I always have even since probably I don't know

20:44 have even since probably I don't know

20:44 have even since probably I don't know the late 90s my dad bought this computer

20:46 the late 90s my dad bought this computer

20:46 the late 90s my dad bought this computer and we had whatever the old before Adobe

20:49 and we had whatever the old before Adobe

20:49 and we had whatever the old before Adobe did Premiere there was some other

20:50 did Premiere there was some other

20:50 did Premiere there was some other program way before that we had this old

20:52 program way before that we had this old

20:52 program way before that we had this old editing program and I've always liked to

20:53 editing program and I've always liked to

20:53 editing program and I've always liked to make videos I used to do it with the old

20:55 make videos I used to do it with the old

20:56 make videos I used to do it with the old VHS camcorder things and make vide

20:58 VHS camcorder things and make vide

20:58 VHS camcorder things and make vide videos and tape trade with my friends

21:00 videos and tape trade with my friends

21:00 videos and tape trade with my friends and do stupid things like stand in the

21:01 and do stupid things like stand in the

21:01 and do stupid things like stand in the street we had this sign when I was like

21:03 street we had this sign when I was like

21:03 street we had this sign when I was like in seventh grade honk at the idiots and

21:05 in seventh grade honk at the idiots and

21:05 in seventh grade honk at the idiots and film it and do all kinds of funny stuff

21:07 film it and do all kinds of funny stuff

21:07 film it and do all kinds of funny stuff like that before YouTube existed boy I

21:09 like that before YouTube existed boy I

21:09 like that before YouTube existed boy I wish I had that videotape now anyway

21:12 wish I had that videotape now anyway

21:12 wish I had that videotape now anyway um so I've always dabbled in it and

21:14 um so I've always dabbled in it and

21:15 um so I've always dabbled in it and played around with it but I never liked

21:16 played around with it but I never liked

21:16 played around with it but I never liked being on camera I don't like the sound

21:17 being on camera I don't like the sound

21:17 being on camera I don't like the sound of my own talking voice I just I can't

21:19 of my own talking voice I just I can't

21:19 of my own talking voice I just I can't stand it it's probably why I make so

21:20 stand it it's probably why I make so

21:20 stand it it's probably why I make so many funny voices and all that stuff I

21:22 many funny voices and all that stuff I

21:22 many funny voices and all that stuff I never liked it I never pictured myself

21:25 never liked it I never pictured myself

21:25 never liked it I never pictured myself being a guy that could be on camera or

21:27 being a guy that could be on camera or

21:27 being a guy that could be on camera or any of that stuff so when I started

21:29 any of that stuff so when I started

21:29 any of that stuff so when I started making some YouTube videos with my

21:31 making some YouTube videos with my

21:31 making some YouTube videos with my friends it was all me behind the camera

21:33 friends it was all me behind the camera

21:33 friends it was all me behind the camera I'll write something I'll write a cool

21:34 I'll write something I'll write a cool

21:34 I'll write something I'll write a cool script I'll direct it I'll tell the

21:36 script I'll direct it I'll tell the

21:37 script I'll direct it I'll tell the other person what to say you stand here

21:38 other person what to say you stand here

21:38 other person what to say you stand here and do this and do that and the other

21:39 and do this and do that and the other

21:39 and do this and do that and the other thing and Adam came out I was still in

21:43 thing and Adam came out I was still in

21:43 thing and Adam came out I was still in my band too like oh my main focus is my

21:44 my band too like oh my main focus is my

21:44 my band too like oh my main focus is my band man you know my band it's part of

21:46 band man you know my band it's part of

21:46 band man you know my band it's part of it becomes part of your identity too

21:47 it becomes part of your identity too

21:47 it becomes part of your identity too like well if I'm not a photographer then

21:48 like well if I'm not a photographer then

21:48 like well if I'm not a photographer then what am I if I'm not the guy in the band

21:50 what am I if I'm not the guy in the band

21:50 what am I if I'm not the guy in the band then what I'm just in scarred I'm in the

21:52 then what I'm just in scarred I'm in the

21:52 then what I'm just in scarred I'm in the scar the band that's who I am um Adam

21:56 scar the band that's who I am um Adam

21:56 scar the band that's who I am um Adam comes out and goes dude why don't you

21:59 comes out and goes dude why don't you

21:59 comes out and goes dude why don't you be in the videos I was like no man you

22:02 be in the videos I was like no man you

22:02 be in the videos I was like no man you know like I'm not good on camera nobody

22:03 know like I'm not good on camera nobody

22:03 know like I'm not good on camera nobody wants to see me and all this stuff and

22:06 wants to see me and all this stuff and

22:06 wants to see me and all this stuff and he goes I think the literally the exact

22:09 he goes I think the literally the exact

22:09 he goes I think the literally the exact words the way I remember was bro I'm

22:10 words the way I remember was bro I'm

22:10 words the way I remember was bro I'm doing the same stick that you're doing

22:12 doing the same stick that you're doing

22:12 doing the same stick that you're doing in real life to nobody on camera and

22:16 in real life to nobody on camera and

22:16 in real life to nobody on camera and it's fine like I'm basically we're

22:17 it's fine like I'm basically we're

22:17 it's fine like I'm basically we're basically the same person I'm running

22:19 basically the same person I'm running

22:19 basically the same person I'm running around doing this stuff people watch it

22:20 around doing this stuff people watch it

22:20 around doing this stuff people watch it and like it if you want to make some

22:22 and like it if you want to make some

22:22 and like it if you want to make some videos why not be in the videos you know

22:24 videos why not be in the videos you know

22:24 videos why not be in the videos you know like I don't know you know whatever like

22:26 like I don't know you know whatever like

22:26 like I don't know you know whatever like I was thinking about maybe doing some

22:27 I was thinking about maybe doing some

22:27 I was thinking about maybe doing some videos about this or doing about that I

22:28 videos about this or doing about that I

22:28 videos about this or doing about that I guess I could be in those ones some of

22:30 guess I could be in those ones some of

22:30 guess I could be in those ones some of them ended up being the Disneyland ones

22:32 them ended up being the Disneyland ones

22:32 them ended up being the Disneyland ones and lo and behold for whatever reason at

22:34 and lo and behold for whatever reason at

22:34 and lo and behold for whatever reason at least for now that's the thing that has

22:37 least for now that's the thing that has

22:37 least for now that's the thing that has worked the best out of all the things

22:39 worked the best out of all the things

22:39 worked the best out of all the things I've ever done I've had the most fun

22:41 I've ever done I've had the most fun

22:41 I've ever done I've had the most fun doing it I've met the radest radest

22:44 doing it I've met the radest radest

22:44 doing it I've met the radest radest people all these like-minded people who

22:45 people all these like-minded people who

22:45 people all these like-minded people who are into old toys and action figures and

22:48 are into old toys and action figures and

22:48 are into old toys and action figures and Disney rides and Star Wars and nerdy

22:51 Disney rides and Star Wars and nerdy

22:51 Disney rides and Star Wars and nerdy stuff with me and I meet all these

22:52 stuff with me and I meet all these

22:52 stuff with me and I meet all these people who give me free hugs and we wear

22:54 people who give me free hugs and we wear

22:55 people who give me free hugs and we wear bracelets and the power of the CRA and

22:56 bracelets and the power of the CRA and

22:56 bracelets and the power of the CRA and we wear the same t-shirts and we rock

22:57 we wear the same t-shirts and we rock

22:57 we wear the same t-shirts and we rock the same hat and we walk around we have

22:59 the same hat and we walk around we have

22:59 the same hat and we walk around we have the funniest inside jokes together and

23:01 the funniest inside jokes together and

23:02 the funniest inside jokes together and we have had a heck of a freaking time

23:04 we have had a heck of a freaking time

23:04 we have had a heck of a freaking time over the past year and a half you and me

23:07 over the past year and a half you and me

23:07 over the past year and a half you and me have had so much fun doing all this

23:09 have had so much fun doing all this

23:09 have had so much fun doing all this stuff and I get to do something now that

23:10 stuff and I get to do something now that

23:10 stuff and I get to do something now that not only is it creative I can do

23:12 not only is it creative I can do

23:12 not only is it creative I can do whatever I want on randomland channel we

23:13 whatever I want on randomland channel we

23:13 whatever I want on randomland channel we can do like Mr Dapper things we can do

23:15 can do like Mr Dapper things we can do

23:15 can do like Mr Dapper things we can do characters we can do all this stuff we

23:16 characters we can do all this stuff we

23:16 characters we can do all this stuff we have these Vlogs we get to hang out

23:18 have these Vlogs we get to hang out

23:18 have these Vlogs we get to hang out together all the time I get to share

23:20 together all the time I get to share

23:20 together all the time I get to share this with all kinds of people there's

23:23 this with all kinds of people there's

23:23 this with all kinds of people there's this weird like there's a one part of me

23:25 this weird like there's a one part of me

23:25 this weird like there's a one part of me that has like a honest to goodness like

23:26 that has like a honest to goodness like

23:26 that has like a honest to goodness like Catholic guilt complex and the kind of

23:29 Catholic guilt complex and the kind of

23:29 Catholic guilt complex and the kind of like self-deprecating where I like to I

23:31 like self-deprecating where I like to I

23:31 like self-deprecating where I like to I like have this thing where I always have

23:33 like have this thing where I always have

23:33 like have this thing where I always have to put myself down and like put myself

23:34 to put myself down and like put myself

23:34 to put myself down and like put myself lower because you can't be above other

23:36 lower because you can't be above other

23:36 lower because you can't be above other people or I never want anyone to think

23:38 people or I never want anyone to think

23:38 people or I never want anyone to think that I would think I'm above them or

23:39 that I would think I'm above them or

23:39 that I would think I'm above them or anything but there's another part of me

23:41 anything but there's another part of me

23:41 anything but there's another part of me that throughout this there's another

23:43 that throughout this there's another

23:43 that throughout this there's another part that was com from the punk rock

23:44 part that was com from the punk rock

23:44 part that was com from the punk rock thing where it was like oh you have to

23:46 thing where it was like oh you have to

23:46 thing where it was like oh you have to be self-deprecating and there's a little

23:48 be self-deprecating and there's a little

23:48 be self-deprecating and there's a little bit of false modesty there too honestly

23:50 bit of false modesty there too honestly

23:50 bit of false modesty there too honestly where you're I'm just saying honestly

23:52 where you're I'm just saying honestly

23:52 where you're I'm just saying honestly all those bands where they're like oh

23:53 all those bands where they're like oh

23:53 all those bands where they're like oh you know we're all the same we're all

23:55 you know we're all the same we're all

23:55 you know we're all the same we're all equal

23:56 equal

23:56 equal like you know oh no one's higher than

23:58 like you know oh no one's higher than

23:58 like you know oh no one's higher than the other we're all equals it's true we

24:00 the other we're all equals it's true we

24:00 the other we're all equals it's true we are all equals as human beings but it's

24:02 are all equals as human beings but it's

24:02 are all equals as human beings but it's that is kind of being disingenuous to

24:04 that is kind of being disingenuous to

24:04 that is kind of being disingenuous to not admit that some really radical

24:06 not admit that some really radical

24:06 not admit that some really radical awesome cool things have happened in the

24:08 awesome cool things have happened in the

24:08 awesome cool things have happened in the past year that we had a lot of fun that

24:10 past year that we had a lot of fun that

24:10 past year that we had a lot of fun that we've gotten to do extraordinary things

24:12 we've gotten to do extraordinary things

24:12 we've gotten to do extraordinary things in an extraordinary way and it would be

24:14 in an extraordinary way and it would be

24:14 in an extraordinary way and it would be disingenuous and dishonest for me not to

24:17 disingenuous and dishonest for me not to

24:17 disingenuous and dishonest for me not to admit or at least that this has been

24:19 admit or at least that this has been

24:19 admit or at least that this has been really kind of partially successful see

24:21 really kind of partially successful see

24:22 really kind of partially successful see it pains me to even like use words like

24:24 it pains me to even like use words like

24:24 it pains me to even like use words like that but it has been it's been so

24:26 that but it has been it's been so

24:26 that but it has been it's been so surprisingly successful hanging out with

24:28 surprisingly successful hanging out with

24:28 surprisingly successful hanging out with you guys doing all this cool stuff

24:30 you guys doing all this cool stuff

24:30 you guys doing all this cool stuff getting to do a creative project that

24:31 getting to do a creative project that

24:31 getting to do a creative project that actually goes somewhere and thousands of

24:33 actually goes somewhere and thousands of

24:33 actually goes somewhere and thousands of people will watch it and we get to hang

24:34 people will watch it and we get to hang

24:35 people will watch it and we get to hang out and make friends and do all kinds of

24:36 out and make friends and do all kinds of

24:36 out and make friends and do all kinds of cool things that's freaking exciting I

24:38 cool things that's freaking exciting I

24:38 cool things that's freaking exciting I don't want to sit here and pretend like

24:39 don't want to sit here and pretend like

24:39 don't want to sit here and pretend like oh it's no big deal it is a big deal

24:41 oh it's no big deal it is a big deal

24:41 oh it's no big deal it is a big deal it's super fun it's super cool it's

24:43 it's super fun it's super cool it's

24:43 it's super fun it's super cool it's super awesome and I'm having a great

24:44 super awesome and I'm having a great

24:44 super awesome and I'm having a great time and all of that I realized when I

24:47 time and all of that I realized when I

24:47 time and all of that I realized when I was talking to this person yesterday who

24:48 was talking to this person yesterday who

24:48 was talking to this person yesterday who I honestly don't like that much like we

24:50 I honestly don't like that much like we

24:50 I honestly don't like that much like we don't like each other there's really no

24:51 don't like each other there's really no

24:51 don't like each other there's really no love loss between us but we're both

24:53 love loss between us but we're both

24:53 love loss between us but we're both polite because we're both the kind of

24:54 polite because we're both the kind of

24:54 polite because we're both the kind of people who are like not Revenge takers

24:56 people who are like not Revenge takers

24:56 people who are like not Revenge takers or evil people but just

24:58 or evil people but just

24:58 or evil people but just not fans of each other right and I'm

25:00 not fans of each other right and I'm

25:00 not fans of each other right and I'm telling this person who's like honestly

25:02 telling this person who's like honestly

25:02 telling this person who's like honestly just like so stressed out and just

25:03 just like so stressed out and just

25:03 just like so stressed out and just miserable and I end up giving this

25:05 miserable and I end up giving this

25:05 miserable and I end up giving this person that I called to yell at a pep

25:08 person that I called to yell at a pep

25:08 person that I called to yell at a pep talk where I explained all the stuff to

25:10 talk where I explained all the stuff to

25:10 talk where I explained all the stuff to him because he has no Touchstone for

25:12 him because he has no Touchstone for

25:12 him because he has no Touchstone for what I'm doing he's still stuck in that

25:13 what I'm doing he's still stuck in that

25:13 what I'm doing he's still stuck in that old band mentality although this person

25:16 old band mentality although this person

25:16 old band mentality although this person with not with a band but with his little

25:17 with not with a band but with his little

25:17 with not with a band but with his little business and stuff where I'm like dude

25:20 business and stuff where I'm like dude

25:20 business and stuff where I'm like dude you have other talents and other skills

25:22 you have other talents and other skills

25:22 you have other talents and other skills you have spent years of your life

25:24 you have spent years of your life

25:24 you have spent years of your life investing in something that never

25:26 investing in something that never

25:26 investing in something that never invests back into you

25:28 invests back into you

25:28 invests back into you open up your mind there might be

25:30 open up your mind there might be

25:30 open up your mind there might be something else in this world that you

25:32 something else in this world that you

25:32 something else in this world that you are capable of doing that's even better

25:33 are capable of doing that's even better

25:33 are capable of doing that's even better that you will have even more fun doing

25:35 that you will have even more fun doing

25:35 that you will have even more fun doing if you had called me on the phone 5

25:37 if you had called me on the phone 5

25:37 if you had called me on the phone 5 years ago and told me hey man you're

25:39 years ago and told me hey man you're

25:39 years ago and told me hey man you're going to quit your band you're going to

25:41 going to quit your band you're going to

25:41 going to quit your band you're going to end up being divorced the whole bad

25:43 end up being divorced the whole bad

25:43 end up being divorced the whole bad thing is going to happen to you all this

25:44 thing is going to happen to you all this

25:44 thing is going to happen to you all this stuff and you're going to quit and

25:45 stuff and you're going to quit and

25:45 stuff and you're going to quit and during that you're going to quit your

25:46 during that you're going to quit your

25:46 during that you're going to quit your bang you're going to take a camera stick

25:48 bang you're going to take a camera stick

25:48 bang you're going to take a camera stick it in your own face which by the way at

25:50 it in your own face which by the way at

25:50 it in your own face which by the way at that time it still does to a degree but

25:52 that time it still does to a degree but

25:52 that time it still does to a degree but at that time would have completely

25:54 at that time would have completely

25:54 at that time would have completely mortified me there's so many people who

25:55 mortified me there's so many people who

25:55 mortified me there's so many people who come out to me and go I don't know how

25:56 come out to me and go I don't know how

25:56 come out to me and go I don't know how you do it man I could never stick a

25:57 you do it man I could never stick a

25:57 you do it man I could never stick a camera in my face and record myself

25:59 camera in my face and record myself

25:59 camera in my face and record myself watch myself back hear myself talk on

26:01 watch myself back hear myself talk on

26:01 watch myself back hear myself talk on camera have people see me on camera oh

26:03 camera have people see me on camera oh

26:03 camera have people see me on camera oh trust me I understand there's a little

26:05 trust me I understand there's a little

26:05 trust me I understand there's a little part of me still that's really like

26:08 part of me still that's really like

26:08 part of me still that's really like there are people right there on the bus

26:09 there are people right there on the bus

26:09 there are people right there on the bus that are looking at me like what the

26:10 that are looking at me like what the

26:10 that are looking at me like what the heck is that guy doing I feel it too I'm

26:12 heck is that guy doing I feel it too I'm

26:12 heck is that guy doing I feel it too I'm not insensible to that kind of weirdness

26:16 not insensible to that kind of weirdness

26:16 not insensible to that kind of weirdness so if you called me 5 years ago and told

26:17 so if you called me 5 years ago and told

26:17 so if you called me 5 years ago and told me you're going to quit your band you're

26:18 me you're going to quit your band you're

26:18 me you're going to quit your band you're not going to be rocking cool shells and

26:20 not going to be rocking cool shells and

26:20 not going to be rocking cool shells and wearing 15 belts and putting up your

26:22 wearing 15 belts and putting up your

26:22 wearing 15 belts and putting up your hair in the Mohawk and singing the old

26:24 hair in the Mohawk and singing the old

26:24 hair in the Mohawk and singing the old songs the same songs over and over to

26:25 songs the same songs over and over to

26:25 songs the same songs over and over to the same people I would have thought you

26:27 the same people I would have thought you

26:27 the same people I would have thought you were insane I would like that doesn't

26:28 were insane I would like that doesn't

26:28 were insane I would like that doesn't sound any fun that doesn't even sound

26:30 sound any fun that doesn't even sound

26:30 sound any fun that doesn't even sound like fun to me it would have sounded

26:32 like fun to me it would have sounded

26:32 like fun to me it would have sounded like work I would have been like that

26:33 like work I would have been like that

26:33 like work I would have been like that sounds like such hard work I wouldn't

26:35 sounds like such hard work I wouldn't

26:35 sounds like such hard work I wouldn't want to do that for other people they'd

26:36 want to do that for other people they'd

26:37 want to do that for other people they'd be like God I would love to do that but

26:38 be like God I would love to do that but

26:38 be like God I would love to do that but for me at that time I would have been

26:39 for me at that time I would have been

26:39 for me at that time I would have been like that sounds miserable I don't want

26:41 like that sounds miserable I don't want

26:41 like that sounds miserable I don't want to do anything like that and I tried

26:44 to do anything like that and I tried

26:44 to do anything like that and I tried something new and it ended up being so

26:47 something new and it ended up being so

26:47 something new and it ended up being so far this has like been this is this has

26:49 far this has like been this is this has

26:49 far this has like been this is this has been workwise or creative project wise

26:51 been workwise or creative project wise

26:51 been workwise or creative project wise or whatever this is like the project of

26:54 or whatever this is like the project of

26:54 or whatever this is like the project of my life so far it's so fun so many many

26:58 my life so far it's so fun so many many

26:58 my life so far it's so fun so many many cool things have happened so many

27:00 cool things have happened so many

27:00 cool things have happened so many blessings honestly there's no other word

27:01 blessings honestly there's no other word

27:01 blessings honestly there's no other word for it so many amazing blessings me so

27:04 for it so many amazing blessings me so

27:04 for it so many amazing blessings me so many amazing people I'm going to France

27:06 many amazing people I'm going to France

27:06 many amazing people I'm going to France in 7 Days the entire time I was in a

27:09 in 7 Days the entire time I was in a

27:09 in 7 Days the entire time I was in a band for 15 years I was in bands and for

27:13 band for 15 years I was in bands and for

27:13 band for 15 years I was in bands and for 15 years my dream was when my band makes

27:17 15 years my dream was when my band makes

27:17 15 years my dream was when my band makes it to me like making it to me wasn't

27:19 it to me like making it to me wasn't

27:19 it to me like making it to me wasn't going to be like making millions of

27:20 going to be like making millions of

27:20 going to be like making millions of dollars I never expected to do that but

27:22 dollars I never expected to do that but

27:22 dollars I never expected to do that but making it to me was going to

27:25 making it to me was going to

27:25 making it to me was going to be my band is going to go to Europe I am

27:28 be my band is going to go to Europe I am

27:28 be my band is going to go to Europe I am going to go on tour to Europe just like

27:30 going to go on tour to Europe just like

27:30 going to go on tour to Europe just like I just like Ricky Ricardo and Lucy I'm

27:32 I just like Ricky Ricardo and Lucy I'm

27:32 I just like Ricky Ricardo and Lucy I'm going to go to Europe one day and I'm

27:34 going to go to Europe one day and I'm

27:34 going to go to Europe one day and I'm going to get to tour and play in a

27:37 going to get to tour and play in a

27:37 going to get to tour and play in a foreign country and it never happened I

27:39 foreign country and it never happened I

27:39 foreign country and it never happened I put out records in Europe I almost got

27:42 put out records in Europe I almost got

27:42 put out records in Europe I almost got to there a bunch of times I toured the

27:43 to there a bunch of times I toured the

27:43 to there a bunch of times I toured the United States mold mult believe me I've

27:46 United States mold mult believe me I've

27:46 United States mold mult believe me I've been all over this country I've been

27:47 been all over this country I've been

27:47 been all over this country I've been everywhere I've Been Everywhere man and

27:51 everywhere I've Been Everywhere man and

27:51 everywhere I've Been Everywhere man and uh I never made it to Europe with my

27:53 uh I never made it to Europe with my

27:53 uh I never made it to Europe with my band like one thing after another kept

27:55 band like one thing after another kept

27:55 band like one thing after another kept happening one bad record deal after

27:56 happening one bad record deal after

27:56 happening one bad record deal after another a disappointing record sales we

27:58 another a disappointing record sales we

27:58 another a disappointing record sales we would get ripped off we would lose money

28:00 would get ripped off we would lose money

28:00 would get ripped off we would lose money somebody would quit the band you'd have

28:01 somebody would quit the band you'd have

28:01 somebody would quit the band you'd have to start over with a new second guitar

28:03 to start over with a new second guitar

28:03 to start over with a new second guitar player for one reason after another

28:05 player for one reason after another

28:05 player for one reason after another after another never got to Europe now

28:07 after another never got to Europe now

28:07 after another never got to Europe now I'm making crazy weird videos for a year

28:09 I'm making crazy weird videos for a year

28:09 I'm making crazy weird videos for a year and people are calling me up hello would

28:11 and people are calling me up hello would

28:11 and people are calling me up hello would you like to go to France I would really

28:13 you like to go to France I would really

28:13 you like to go to France I would really enjoy seeing you make videos in France

28:15 enjoy seeing you make videos in France

28:15 enjoy seeing you make videos in France and I will pay for it like the craziest

28:18 and I will pay for it like the craziest

28:18 and I will pay for it like the craziest opportunities and the wildest stuff is

28:21 opportunities and the wildest stuff is

28:21 opportunities and the wildest stuff is happening to me in my life because I

28:26 happening to me in my life because I

28:26 happening to me in my life because I quit so I'm putting this out there not

28:28 quit so I'm putting this out there not

28:28 quit so I'm putting this out there not for the people who are struggling with a

28:29 for the people who are struggling with a

28:30 for the people who are struggling with a dream that you're really passionate

28:31 dream that you're really passionate

28:31 dream that you're really passionate about I I honestly believe that there's

28:33 about I I honestly believe that there's

28:33 about I I honestly believe that there's a lot to don't give up keep following

28:35 a lot to don't give up keep following

28:35 a lot to don't give up keep following your dream keep following your passion

28:37 your dream keep following your passion

28:37 your dream keep following your passion you know uh work really hard and you

28:40 you know uh work really hard and you

28:40 you know uh work really hard and you will achieve success I believe that's

28:42 will achieve success I believe that's

28:42 will achieve success I believe that's all

28:43 all

28:43 all true but I'm talking about the people

28:46 true but I'm talking about the people

28:46 true but I'm talking about the people who are really struggling like if you

28:48 who are really struggling like if you

28:48 who are really struggling like if you have

28:49 have

28:50 have spent let's say 15 years trying to be a

28:54 spent let's say 15 years trying to be a

28:54 spent let's say 15 years trying to be a professional painter and it hasn't

28:56 professional painter and it hasn't

28:56 professional painter and it hasn't happened and you're getting to the point

28:57 happened and you're getting to the point

28:57 happened and you're getting to the point and I'm asking

28:58 and I'm asking

28:58 and I'm asking those these those of you who are in this

29:00 those these those of you who are in this

29:00 those these those of you who are in this boat to really look inside yourself it

29:02 boat to really look inside yourself it

29:02 boat to really look inside yourself it could be one year it doesn't have to be

29:03 could be one year it doesn't have to be

29:03 could be one year it doesn't have to be 15 years it could be 3 months and you

29:05 15 years it could be 3 months and you

29:05 15 years it could be 3 months and you look inside yourself and you find

29:07 look inside yourself and you find

29:07 look inside yourself and you find yourself becoming like honestly kind of

29:09 yourself becoming like honestly kind of

29:09 yourself becoming like honestly kind of bitter at the thing that you love you

29:11 bitter at the thing that you love you

29:11 bitter at the thing that you love you find yourself honestly starting to hate

29:13 find yourself honestly starting to hate

29:13 find yourself honestly starting to hate the thing you love because you struggle

29:15 the thing you love because you struggle

29:15 the thing you love because you struggle with it so much and it's not successful

29:17 with it so much and it's not successful

29:17 with it so much and it's not successful and it's not working um yeah there's a

29:20 and it's not working um yeah there's a

29:20 and it's not working um yeah there's a lot to say for art for art sake and all

29:22 lot to say for art for art sake and all

29:22 lot to say for art for art sake and all that stuff but when you're trying to

29:23 that stuff but when you're trying to

29:23 that stuff but when you're trying to make it you know what I mean and it's

29:25 make it you know what I mean and it's

29:25 make it you know what I mean and it's not working you find yourself getting

29:27 not working you find yourself getting

29:27 not working you find yourself getting frustrated and ha ending up hating the

29:29 frustrated and ha ending up hating the

29:29 frustrated and ha ending up hating the thing that you love look inside of

29:31 thing that you love look inside of

29:31 thing that you love look inside of yourself and ask yourself like should I

29:33 yourself and ask yourself like should I

29:33 yourself and ask yourself like should I maybe do this part time should I maybe

29:35 maybe do this part time should I maybe

29:35 maybe do this part time should I maybe look for other creative projects should

29:37 look for other creative projects should

29:37 look for other creative projects should I maybe look for something

29:39 I maybe look for something

29:39 I maybe look for something else that I should be doing this is not

29:42 else that I should be doing this is not

29:42 else that I should be doing this is not meant to be a discouraging talk but that

29:46 meant to be a discouraging talk but that

29:46 meant to be a discouraging talk but that whole the old saying is the definition

29:48 whole the old saying is the definition

29:48 whole the old saying is the definition of insanity is trying the same thing

29:51 of insanity is trying the same thing

29:51 of insanity is trying the same thing over and over and expecting different

29:53 over and over and expecting different

29:53 over and over and expecting different results this person I happened to be

29:54 results this person I happened to be

29:54 results this person I happened to be talking to yesterday has was telling me

29:57 talking to yesterday has was telling me

29:57 talking to yesterday has was telling me like I'm just like a failure man I'm I'm

29:58 like I'm just like a failure man I'm I'm

29:58 like I'm just like a failure man I'm I'm a failure at this thing I've been trying

30:00 a failure at this thing I've been trying

30:00 a failure at this thing I've been trying this thing that I've been doing over and

30:02 this thing that I've been doing over and

30:02 this thing that I've been doing over and over and over again for a million years

30:04 over and over again for a million years

30:04 over and over again for a million years and it's not working and I was like well

30:05 and it's not working and I was like well

30:05 and it's not working and I was like well isn't that the definition of insanity

30:08 isn't that the definition of insanity

30:08 isn't that the definition of insanity what I said was if you weren't you but

30:11 what I said was if you weren't you but

30:11 what I said was if you weren't you but knowing all the things that you know now

30:12 knowing all the things that you know now

30:12 knowing all the things that you know now if you could be your nextd door neighbor

30:13 if you could be your nextd door neighbor

30:14 if you could be your nextd door neighbor and your next door neighbor I'm going to

30:14 and your next door neighbor I'm going to

30:14 and your next door neighbor I'm going to start a business just like yours what

30:16 start a business just like yours what

30:16 start a business just like yours what would you give your advice to your next

30:18 would you give your advice to your next

30:18 would you give your advice to your next door neighbor if he was like I'm going

30:19 door neighbor if he was like I'm going

30:19 door neighbor if he was like I'm going to go into 2016 and do everything you

30:20 to go into 2016 and do everything you

30:20 to go into 2016 and do everything you were going to do what would you say to

30:22 were going to do what would you say to

30:22 were going to do what would you say to him like oh I would tell him to quit and

30:24 him like oh I would tell him to quit and

30:24 him like oh I would tell him to quit and I'm like then isn't the right answer

30:25 I'm like then isn't the right answer

30:25 I'm like then isn't the right answer maybe that you want to quit isn't the

30:28 maybe that you want to quit isn't the

30:28 maybe that you want to quit isn't the right answer maybe that you want to quit

30:29 right answer maybe that you want to quit

30:29 right answer maybe that you want to quit so there's a lot of people I know that

30:31 so there's a lot of people I know that

30:31 so there's a lot of people I know that are that way with YouTube videos as like

30:33 are that way with YouTube videos as like

30:33 are that way with YouTube videos as like I said I came to it by accident oh

30:35 I said I came to it by accident oh

30:35 I said I came to it by accident oh YouTube you stick them on there and then

30:36 YouTube you stick them on there and then

30:36 YouTube you stick them on there and then people will see them I don't know I

30:38 people will see them I don't know I

30:38 people will see them I don't know I never watched PewDiePie I never watched

30:40 never watched PewDiePie I never watched

30:40 never watched PewDiePie I never watched Shay Carl I've learned about all these

30:42 Shay Carl I've learned about all these

30:42 Shay Carl I've learned about all these people and by the way look at these

30:42 people and by the way look at these

30:43 people and by the way look at these amazing houses oh my gosh I love this

30:45 amazing houses oh my gosh I love this

30:45 amazing houses oh my gosh I love this street this sh this is a Schafer it's

30:47 street this sh this is a Schafer it's

30:47 street this sh this is a Schafer it's the craziest Street in Orange and I just

30:49 the craziest Street in Orange and I just

30:49 the craziest Street in Orange and I just love all the little houses on it it's so

30:51 love all the little houses on it it's so

30:51 love all the little houses on it it's so cool um I know a lot of people now I

30:54 cool um I know a lot of people now I

30:54 cool um I know a lot of people now I learned about all that stuff all these

30:56 learned about all that stuff all these

30:56 learned about all that stuff all these YouTubers and stuff I'm still learning

30:57 YouTubers and stuff I'm still learning

30:57 YouTubers and stuff I'm still learning about them um through Aly through all of

30:59 about them um through Aly through all of

31:00 about them um through Aly through all of you guys like oh have you seen this

31:01 you guys like oh have you seen this

31:01 you guys like oh have you seen this person's videos and that person videos I

31:02 person's videos and that person videos I

31:02 person's videos and that person videos I never said I never watched that stuff I

31:05 never said I never watched that stuff I

31:05 never said I never watched that stuff I didn't know I didn't know what a

31:06 didn't know I didn't know what a

31:06 didn't know I didn't know what a YouTuber was I never heard that word

31:08 YouTuber was I never heard that word

31:08 YouTuber was I never heard that word until after I started putting up videos

31:10 until after I started putting up videos

31:10 until after I started putting up videos on the internet but I've met a lot of

31:11 on the internet but I've met a lot of

31:11 on the internet but I've met a lot of people now who are like my goal is to be

31:13 people now who are like my goal is to be

31:13 people now who are like my goal is to be a YouTuber I really want to be a

31:15 a YouTuber I really want to be a

31:15 a YouTuber I really want to be a YouTuber I really want to be a vlogger

31:16 YouTuber I really want to be a vlogger

31:16 YouTuber I really want to be a vlogger and then they start doing their Vlogs

31:18 and then they start doing their Vlogs

31:18 and then they start doing their Vlogs and then within a couple months they'll

31:20 and then within a couple months they'll

31:20 and then within a couple months they'll be at lunch with me or they'll come up

31:22 be at lunch with me or they'll come up

31:22 be at lunch with me or they'll come up to me in the park or something like that

31:23 to me in the park or something like that

31:23 to me in the park or something like that and they'll start talking to me and go I

31:24 and they'll start talking to me and go I

31:24 and they'll start talking to me and go I don't understand man like I just hate it

31:26 don't understand man like I just hate it

31:26 don't understand man like I just hate it so much just hate hate what like I just

31:29 so much just hate hate what like I just

31:29 so much just hate hate what like I just I'm putting up videos and nobody's

31:30 I'm putting up videos and nobody's

31:30 I'm putting up videos and nobody's watching them so then I tried doing

31:31 watching them so then I tried doing

31:31 watching them so then I tried doing videos about this then I tried doing

31:33 videos about this then I tried doing

31:33 videos about this then I tried doing videos about this I tried doing about

31:34 videos about this I tried doing about

31:34 videos about this I tried doing about this and just nobody watched them and

31:35 this and just nobody watched them and

31:35 this and just nobody watched them and nobody cares and you can hear like the

31:37 nobody cares and you can hear like the

31:37 nobody cares and you can hear like the bitterness in their own voice that

31:39 bitterness in their own voice that

31:39 bitterness in their own voice that something that they really admired other

31:41 something that they really admired other

31:41 something that they really admired other people doing that they really wanted to

31:43 people doing that they really wanted to

31:43 people doing that they really wanted to do and they were I want to do that too

31:45 do and they were I want to do that too

31:45 do and they were I want to do that too something that they thought they were

31:46 something that they thought they were

31:46 something that they thought they were going to be passionate about they really

31:47 going to be passionate about they really

31:47 going to be passionate about they really aren't and you hear somebody who doesn't

31:49 aren't and you hear somebody who doesn't

31:49 aren't and you hear somebody who doesn't want to create a video that doesn't want

31:51 want to create a video that doesn't want

31:51 want to create a video that doesn't want to make something they just wanted to be

31:53 to make something they just wanted to be

31:53 to make something they just wanted to be the end result of the thing so in other

31:56 the end result of the thing so in other

31:56 the end result of the thing so in other words like I wanted to be Jo Strummer

31:58 words like I wanted to be Jo Strummer

31:59 words like I wanted to be Jo Strummer right Joe Strummer from The Clash that's

32:01 right Joe Strummer from The Clash that's

32:01 right Joe Strummer from The Clash that's what I wanted to be if I could have

32:02 what I wanted to be if I could have

32:02 what I wanted to be if I could have picked a guy and pointed to a celebrity

32:04 picked a guy and pointed to a celebrity

32:04 picked a guy and pointed to a celebrity and said here's my influence here's my

32:06 and said here's my influence here's my

32:06 and said here's my influence here's my guy that's what I want to be I'm not

32:07 guy that's what I want to be I'm not

32:07 guy that's what I want to be I'm not even kidding you and by the way that's

32:08 even kidding you and by the way that's

32:08 even kidding you and by the way that's Big Mama's House from the movie Big

32:10 Big Mama's House from the movie Big

32:10 Big Mama's House from the movie Big Mama's House take a look at it while I

32:11 Mama's House take a look at it while I

32:11 Mama's House take a look at it while I continue to talk to you but I'm going to

32:13 continue to talk to you but I'm going to

32:13 continue to talk to you but I'm going to go avoid the portrait the acoustic

32:14 go avoid the portrait the acoustic

32:14 go avoid the portrait the acoustic guitar guy over there who's staring at

32:16 guitar guy over there who's staring at

32:16 guitar guy over there who's staring at me funny um if I could have picked one

32:18 me funny um if I could have picked one

32:18 me funny um if I could have picked one guy I was like I want to be Joe Strummer

32:20 guy I was like I want to be Joe Strummer

32:20 guy I was like I want to be Joe Strummer I'm going to be Joe Strummer from The

32:22 I'm going to be Joe Strummer from The

32:22 I'm going to be Joe Strummer from The Clash I'm going to write lyricss like

32:23 Clash I'm going to write lyricss like

32:23 Clash I'm going to write lyricss like that I want to be like quasi political

32:26 that I want to be like quasi political

32:26 that I want to be like quasi political and philosophical can talk about

32:28 and philosophical can talk about

32:28 and philosophical can talk about Theology and comparative religions and

32:29 Theology and comparative religions and

32:30 Theology and comparative religions and just be like Mr clever pants and I just

32:32 just be like Mr clever pants and I just

32:32 just be like Mr clever pants and I just want to be like a Street poet you know

32:33 want to be like a Street poet you know

32:33 want to be like a Street poet you know like I'm just going to like people are

32:35 like I'm just going to like people are

32:35 like I'm just going to like people are just going to appreciate my art and I'm

32:37 just going to appreciate my art and I'm

32:37 just going to appreciate my art and I'm going to be like legit and like

32:38 going to be like legit and like

32:38 going to be like legit and like StreetWise and I don't know that's who I

32:40 StreetWise and I don't know that's who I

32:40 StreetWise and I don't know that's who I would have picked I thought I could be

32:42 would have picked I thought I could be

32:42 would have picked I thought I could be Joe Strummer well I couldn't it turns

32:44 Joe Strummer well I couldn't it turns

32:44 Joe Strummer well I couldn't it turns out that my talents or any kind of

32:47 out that my talents or any kind of

32:47 out that my talents or any kind of talents my the only thing I'm good at is

32:50 talents my the only thing I'm good at is

32:50 talents my the only thing I'm good at is being me the only thing I'm good at is

32:53 being me the only thing I'm good at is

32:53 being me the only thing I'm good at is being a total spazmoid being me for now

32:56 being a total spazmoid being me for now

32:56 being a total spazmoid being me for now that is the thing that was a lot more

32:57 that is the thing that was a lot more

32:57 that is the thing that was a lot more successful that I was a lot better at I

33:00 successful that I was a lot better at I

33:00 successful that I was a lot better at I mean everything I I get letters all the

33:03 mean everything I I get letters all the

33:03 mean everything I I get letters all the time now from people who are like hey

33:05 time now from people who are like hey

33:05 time now from people who are like hey your Vlogs got me through a really tough

33:07 your Vlogs got me through a really tough

33:07 your Vlogs got me through a really tough time the Vlogs the Vlogs were even an

33:09 time the Vlogs the Vlogs were even an

33:09 time the Vlogs the Vlogs were even an extra these were an extra thing that I

33:11 extra these were an extra thing that I

33:11 extra these were an extra thing that I did in between so my kid could see what

33:12 did in between so my kid could see what

33:13 did in between so my kid could see what I was doing I just to keep people up to

33:14 I was doing I just to keep people up to

33:14 I was doing I just to keep people up to date oh people were curious what I was

33:15 date oh people were curious what I was

33:16 date oh people were curious what I was doing in between randomland videos and

33:17 doing in between randomland videos and

33:17 doing in between randomland videos and other stuff oh here's what I'm doing now

33:18 other stuff oh here's what I'm doing now

33:18 other stuff oh here's what I'm doing now here's what I'm doing today and it's

33:19 here's what I'm doing today and it's

33:19 here's what I'm doing today and it's turned into its own thing where people

33:21 turned into its own thing where people

33:21 turned into its own thing where people are sending me letters like your Vlog

33:22 are sending me letters like your Vlog

33:22 are sending me letters like your Vlog really made me happy it inspired me it

33:24 really made me happy it inspired me it

33:24 really made me happy it inspired me it got me through some tough times I was

33:25 got me through some tough times I was

33:26 got me through some tough times I was depressed you know I didn't really have

33:27 depressed you know I didn't really have

33:27 depressed you know I didn't really have anyone around and I was able to watch

33:28 anyone around and I was able to watch

33:28 anyone around and I was able to watch the Vlogs and able to do the stuff or

33:30 the Vlogs and able to do the stuff or

33:30 the Vlogs and able to do the stuff or people tell me like oh I met my best

33:32 people tell me like oh I met my best

33:32 people tell me like oh I met my best friend because of your Vlogs we were

33:33 friend because of your Vlogs we were

33:33 friend because of your Vlogs we were both commenting on your Vlogs we liked

33:35 both commenting on your Vlogs we liked

33:35 both commenting on your Vlogs we liked them and all this stuff really cool

33:37 them and all this stuff really cool

33:37 them and all this stuff really cool stuff has happened because I gave up

33:40 stuff has happened because I gave up

33:40 stuff has happened because I gave up trying to be somebody else and just

33:42 trying to be somebody else and just

33:42 trying to be somebody else and just accepted being myself and doing

33:46 accepted being myself and doing

33:46 accepted being myself and doing something that I never would have

33:49 something that I never would have

33:49 something that I never would have thought was me I don't know it's really

33:51 thought was me I don't know it's really

33:51 thought was me I don't know it's really hard to explain the thought process

33:53 hard to explain the thought process

33:53 hard to explain the thought process behind it but that's the thing I just

33:56 behind it but that's the thing I just

33:57 behind it but that's the thing I just because I talked to him because I meet

33:58 because I talked to him because I meet

33:58 because I talked to him because I meet so many people now who are like man I

34:00 so many people now who are like man I

34:00 so many people now who are like man I really tried to do a vlog thing or I

34:01 really tried to do a vlog thing or I

34:01 really tried to do a vlog thing or I wanted to be a photographer I wanted to

34:03 wanted to be a photographer I wanted to

34:03 wanted to be a photographer I wanted to be this or that and the other thing

34:05 be this or that and the other thing

34:05 be this or that and the other thing there's nothing wrong with trying

34:06 there's nothing wrong with trying

34:07 there's nothing wrong with trying anything there's nothing wrong with

34:09 anything there's nothing wrong with

34:09 anything there's nothing wrong with trying and not giving up and being

34:11 trying and not giving up and being

34:11 trying and not giving up and being persistent but if you're trying

34:13 persistent but if you're trying

34:13 persistent but if you're trying something long enough that you have the

34:15 something long enough that you have the

34:15 something long enough that you have the voice in your head that's like don't

34:16 voice in your head that's like don't

34:16 voice in your head that's like don't give up don't give up but at the same

34:17 give up don't give up but at the same

34:17 give up don't give up but at the same time inside like you really want to give

34:19 time inside like you really want to give

34:19 time inside like you really want to give up all I want to say is it's okay to

34:22 up all I want to say is it's okay to

34:22 up all I want to say is it's okay to give yourself

34:23 give yourself

34:23 give yourself permission to try new things you don't

34:27 permission to try new things you don't

34:27 permission to try new things you don't even necessar necessarily have to quit

34:28 even necessar necessarily have to quit

34:28 even necessar necessarily have to quit the thing that you really wanted to do

34:29 the thing that you really wanted to do

34:29 the thing that you really wanted to do or whatever I'm not saying that I'm not

34:30 or whatever I'm not saying that I'm not

34:30 or whatever I'm not saying that I'm not saying quit I'm not saying if you don't

34:33 saying quit I'm not saying if you don't

34:33 saying quit I'm not saying if you don't immediately have immediate success with

34:35 immediately have immediate success with

34:35 immediately have immediate success with something that you should quit that is

34:36 something that you should quit that is

34:36 something that you should quit that is not what I am saying at all let's be

34:38 not what I am saying at all let's be

34:38 not what I am saying at all let's be very clear about this but there are

34:40 very clear about this but there are

34:40 very clear about this but there are people out there I know just like me who

34:43 people out there I know just like me who

34:43 people out there I know just like me who have been doing the same thing over and

34:45 have been doing the same thing over and

34:45 have been doing the same thing over and over again and just praying and just

34:47 over again and just praying and just

34:47 over again and just praying and just with every fiber of their being that

34:49 with every fiber of their being that

34:49 with every fiber of their being that something changes nothing will change

34:52 something changes nothing will change

34:52 something changes nothing will change unless you change it what I've

34:55 unless you change it what I've

34:55 unless you change it what I've discovered is what I've learned is for

34:56 discovered is what I've learned is for

34:56 discovered is what I've learned is for the most part I mean

34:58 the most part I mean

34:58 the most part I mean some things can drop out of the clear

34:59 some things can drop out of the clear

34:59 some things can drop out of the clear blue sky but for the most part my

35:01 blue sky but for the most part my

35:02 blue sky but for the most part my experience leads me to believe that

35:03 experience leads me to believe that

35:03 experience leads me to believe that nothing in your life will change unless

35:05 nothing in your life will change unless

35:05 nothing in your life will change unless you change it or unless you at least

35:08 you change it or unless you at least

35:08 you change it or unless you at least open yourself up and make room for

35:10 open yourself up and make room for

35:10 open yourself up and make room for change if you don't even have room in

35:12 change if you don't even have room in

35:12 change if you don't even have room in your life for change if you are so

35:14 your life for change if you are so

35:14 your life for change if you are so fixated and stuck on even something that

35:16 fixated and stuck on even something that

35:16 fixated and stuck on even something that might have been good that you really

35:17 might have been good that you really

35:17 might have been good that you really wanted but you like if you let that

35:19 wanted but you like if you let that

35:19 wanted but you like if you let that thing become such an idol to such a

35:22 thing become such an idol to such a

35:22 thing become such an idol to such a crazy degree that you can't let go of it

35:24 crazy degree that you can't let go of it

35:24 crazy degree that you can't let go of it you're never going to have your hands

35:26 you're never going to have your hands

35:26 you're never going to have your hands empty enough to grab on to the next

35:28 empty enough to grab on to the next

35:28 empty enough to grab on to the next thing does that make sense like there

35:30 thing does that make sense like there

35:30 thing does that make sense like there could be a rope coming down to save you

35:32 could be a rope coming down to save you

35:32 could be a rope coming down to save you from your misery but because your hands

35:34 from your misery but because your hands

35:34 from your misery but because your hands are full of idols and things that even

35:36 are full of idols and things that even

35:36 are full of idols and things that even you may have cherished at one point you

35:38 you may have cherished at one point you

35:38 you may have cherished at one point you may have really loved but you have

35:39 may have really loved but you have

35:39 may have really loved but you have become a sick attachment to something

35:41 become a sick attachment to something

35:41 become a sick attachment to something you're not going to be able to reach out

35:43 you're not going to be able to reach out

35:43 you're not going to be able to reach out and grab the rope and if I hadn't been

35:45 and grab the rope and if I hadn't been

35:45 and grab the rope and if I hadn't been willing to go you know what I'm going

35:47 willing to go you know what I'm going

35:47 willing to go you know what I'm going put this band on the back burner even

35:49 put this band on the back burner even

35:49 put this band on the back burner even though we weren't playing shows every

35:50 though we weren't playing shows every

35:50 though we weren't playing shows every day or anything like that but just to

35:51 day or anything like that but just to

35:51 day or anything like that but just to mentally say I'm going to remove this

35:53 mentally say I'm going to remove this

35:53 mentally say I'm going to remove this from my mind and try something

35:54 from my mind and try something

35:54 from my mind and try something completely different I would have never

35:56 completely different I would have never

35:56 completely different I would have never ever ever been sitting sitting here on

35:58 ever ever been sitting sitting here on

35:58 ever ever been sitting sitting here on this weird curb talking to you while

35:59 this weird curb talking to you while

36:00 this weird curb talking to you while people stare at me and think that I'm

36:02 people stare at me and think that I'm

36:02 people stare at me and think that I'm super weird and try to run over my feet

36:04 super weird and try to run over my feet

36:04 super weird and try to run over my feet because my shoes are really bright and

36:07 because my shoes are really bright and

36:07 because my shoes are really bright and they don't like them so don't you want

36:10 they don't like them so don't you want

36:10 they don't like them so don't you want to be like me that's another thing too

36:14 to be like me that's another thing too

36:14 to be like me that's another thing too is people leave me comments they're like

36:16 is people leave me comments they're like

36:16 is people leave me comments they're like man tell me how to be just like you I

36:18 man tell me how to be just like you I

36:18 man tell me how to be just like you I want to be just like you and I don't

36:20 want to be just like you and I don't

36:20 want to be just like you and I don't want you to be just like me honestly

36:22 want you to be just like me honestly

36:22 want you to be just like me honestly tell me how to do things just like you

36:23 tell me how to do things just like you

36:23 tell me how to do things just like you do them or people will come up to me and

36:25 do them or people will come up to me and

36:25 do them or people will come up to me and say I started a YouTube channel and I

36:27 say I started a YouTube channel and I

36:27 say I started a YouTube channel and I want to exactly what you did with

36:28 want to exactly what you did with

36:28 want to exactly what you did with randomland I want to do the exact same

36:30 randomland I want to do the exact same

36:30 randomland I want to do the exact same thing but I'm and I'm going to make

36:31 thing but I'm and I'm going to make

36:31 thing but I'm and I'm going to make Disneyland videos just like you and my

36:33 Disneyland videos just like you and my

36:33 Disneyland videos just like you and my thing is like I mean that's cool do

36:35 thing is like I mean that's cool do

36:35 thing is like I mean that's cool do whatever you want but at the same time

36:38 whatever you want but at the same time

36:38 whatever you want but at the same time it's like I don't want to be the best

36:40 it's like I don't want to be the best

36:40 it's like I don't want to be the best I've learned that I don't want to be the

36:43 I've learned that I don't want to be the

36:44 I've learned that I don't want to be the best Joe Strummer that I can be I don't

36:46 best Joe Strummer that I can be I don't

36:46 best Joe Strummer that I can be I don't want to be the best Fred a St that I can

36:49 want to be the best Fred a St that I can

36:49 want to be the best Fred a St that I can be I don't want to be the best anything

36:51 be I don't want to be the best anything

36:51 be I don't want to be the best anything but the best me that I can be and I

36:55 but the best me that I can be and I

36:55 but the best me that I can be and I guess part of it is knowing yourself and

36:57 guess part of it is knowing yourself and

36:57 guess part of it is knowing yourself and going I just want to be the best me that

36:59 going I just want to be the best me that

36:59 going I just want to be the best me that I want to be I don't want you guys to be

37:01 I want to be I don't want you guys to be

37:01 I want to be I don't want you guys to be like I want to be the best Justin that I

37:03 like I want to be the best Justin that I

37:03 like I want to be the best Justin that I can be or the best Adam D woo that I can

37:05 can be or the best Adam D woo that I can

37:05 can be or the best Adam D woo that I can be or the best Mig V I can be or the

37:09 be or the best Mig V I can be or the

37:09 be or the best Mig V I can be or the best Tyler or the best

37:11 best Tyler or the best

37:11 best Tyler or the best whoever like there's a lot of girls that

37:14 whoever like there's a lot of girls that

37:14 whoever like there's a lot of girls that I know who are like oh I want to look

37:15 I know who are like oh I want to look

37:15 I know who are like oh I want to look just like this girl look at this girl's

37:18 just like this girl look at this girl's

37:18 just like this girl look at this girl's outfit and her makeup and her face and I

37:19 outfit and her makeup and her face and I

37:19 outfit and her makeup and her face and I want to look just like this girl I need

37:21 want to look just like this girl I need

37:21 want to look just like this girl I need to look just like her I need the same

37:22 to look just like her I need the same

37:22 to look just like her I need the same clothes I need the same outfit be

37:24 clothes I need the same outfit be

37:24 clothes I need the same outfit be yourself be the best you find out what

37:27 yourself be the best you find out what

37:27 yourself be the best you find out what looks the best on you find out what you

37:29 looks the best on you find out what you

37:29 looks the best on you find out what you think looks the best on you and have the

37:32 think looks the best on you and have the

37:32 think looks the best on you and have the courage honestly have the courage to let

37:35 courage honestly have the courage to let

37:35 courage honestly have the courage to let go

37:36 go

37:36 go of trying and struggling to be something

37:40 of trying and struggling to be something

37:40 of trying and struggling to be something that you like without letting yourself

37:43 that you like without letting yourself

37:43 that you like without letting yourself be yourself if that makes sense so I'm

37:45 be yourself if that makes sense so I'm

37:45 be yourself if that makes sense so I'm not saying don't try to be like what

37:46 not saying don't try to be like what

37:47 not saying don't try to be like what Mickey Mantle if you want to try to be

37:48 Mickey Mantle if you want to try to be

37:48 Mickey Mantle if you want to try to be Mickey Mantle and break his record go

37:49 Mickey Mantle and break his record go

37:49 Mickey Mantle and break his record go ahead and try and be Mickey Mantle dress

37:51 ahead and try and be Mickey Mantle dress

37:51 ahead and try and be Mickey Mantle dress the same as him do exactly the same

37:52 the same as him do exactly the same

37:52 the same as him do exactly the same thing as him I don't even think there's

37:54 thing as him I don't even think there's

37:54 thing as him I don't even think there's wrong with any anything wrong with

37:55 wrong with any anything wrong with

37:55 wrong with any anything wrong with really honestly with copying all is

37:57 really honestly with copying all is

37:57 really honestly with copying all is plagiarism to a degree it's plagiarism

38:01 plagiarism to a degree it's plagiarism

38:01 plagiarism to a degree it's plagiarism adapted so I'm not saying something like

38:03 adapted so I'm not saying something like

38:03 adapted so I'm not saying something like that I'm not saying everything has to be

38:04 that I'm not saying everything has to be

38:04 that I'm not saying everything has to be original in the entire world I'm wearing

38:05 original in the entire world I'm wearing

38:05 original in the entire world I'm wearing the same shoes everybody else is wearing

38:06 the same shoes everybody else is wearing

38:06 the same shoes everybody else is wearing I'm wearing Levis like everybody else

38:08 I'm wearing Levis like everybody else

38:08 I'm wearing Levis like everybody else I'm not saying oh you got to be super

38:09 I'm not saying oh you got to be super

38:09 I'm not saying oh you got to be super unique cuz in the punk world this is a

38:11 unique cuz in the punk world this is a

38:11 unique cuz in the punk world this is a total digression here but in the whole

38:12 total digression here but in the whole

38:12 total digression here but in the whole Punk world the whole thing was like

38:14 Punk world the whole thing was like

38:14 Punk world the whole thing was like everyone has to be 100% unique if you do

38:16 everyone has to be 100% unique if you do

38:16 everyone has to be 100% unique if you do anything that anybody else is doing

38:17 anything that anybody else is doing

38:17 anything that anybody else is doing you're copying them and yet from the

38:19 you're copying them and yet from the

38:19 you're copying them and yet from the outside everybody looks at the punk

38:21 outside everybody looks at the punk

38:21 outside everybody looks at the punk scene in the entire world and goes well

38:22 scene in the entire world and goes well

38:22 scene in the entire world and goes well they all look the same look at them all

38:24 they all look the same look at them all

38:24 they all look the same look at them all being different the same way right you

38:25 being different the same way right you

38:25 being different the same way right you know what I'm saying so

38:28 know what I'm saying so

38:28 know what I'm saying so you can take the whole like oh don't be

38:29 you can take the whole like oh don't be

38:29 you can take the whole like oh don't be like anyone else to a complete fault

38:31 like anyone else to a complete fault

38:31 like anyone else to a complete fault like for example Adam and I are friends

38:34 like for example Adam and I are friends

38:34 like for example Adam and I are friends he was the one that was like dude you

38:35 he was the one that was like dude you

38:35 he was the one that was like dude you should do vlogs like me do unedited

38:36 should do vlogs like me do unedited

38:36 should do vlogs like me do unedited Vlogs you hold the camera you hold the

38:38 Vlogs you hold the camera you hold the

38:38 Vlogs you hold the camera you hold the phone there's only so many ways you can

38:39 phone there's only so many ways you can

38:39 phone there's only so many ways you can hold a phone and gesture with one hand

38:41 hold a phone and gesture with one hand

38:41 hold a phone and gesture with one hand then people be you're doing the same

38:42 then people be you're doing the same

38:42 then people be you're doing the same thing you guys are copying each other I

38:44 thing you guys are copying each other I

38:44 thing you guys are copying each other I guarantee you we hang out all the time

38:46 guarantee you we hang out all the time

38:46 guarantee you we hang out all the time we talk alike we think alike we watch

38:48 we talk alike we think alike we watch

38:48 we talk alike we think alike we watch the same movies we make the same jokes

38:50 the same movies we make the same jokes

38:50 the same movies we make the same jokes we have inside jokes together and all

38:51 we have inside jokes together and all

38:51 we have inside jokes together and all that stuff neither one of us wants to

38:53 that stuff neither one of us wants to

38:53 that stuff neither one of us wants to copy the other one it just ends up

38:55 copy the other one it just ends up

38:55 copy the other one it just ends up happening that way so I'm not saying

38:56 happening that way so I'm not saying

38:56 happening that way so I'm not saying anything bad about that there's nothing

38:57 anything bad about that there's nothing

38:57 anything bad about that there's nothing wrong with vlogging cuz other people are

38:58 wrong with vlogging cuz other people are

38:58 wrong with vlogging cuz other people are vlogging there's nothing wrong with

38:59 vlogging there's nothing wrong with

38:59 vlogging there's nothing wrong with playing music cuz other people are

39:00 playing music cuz other people are

39:00 playing music cuz other people are playing music and all that stuff but

39:02 playing music and all that stuff but

39:02 playing music and all that stuff but what I'm really saying is have the

39:04 what I'm really saying is have the

39:04 what I'm really saying is have the courage take heart and have the courage

39:06 courage take heart and have the courage

39:06 courage take heart and have the courage to think like just because your Vlog

39:08 to think like just because your Vlog

39:08 to think like just because your Vlog isn't working just because your

39:10 isn't working just because your

39:10 isn't working just because your Instagram account that you wanted to do

39:12 Instagram account that you wanted to do

39:12 Instagram account that you wanted to do isn't working or your fashion idea isn't

39:14 isn't working or your fashion idea isn't

39:14 isn't working or your fashion idea isn't working doesn't mean that you're done as

39:16 working doesn't mean that you're done as

39:16 working doesn't mean that you're done as a person I guess that's what I'm getting

39:17 a person I guess that's what I'm getting

39:17 a person I guess that's what I'm getting to I probably should have started with

39:18 to I probably should have started with

39:18 to I probably should have started with this it doesn't mean that you're

39:19 this it doesn't mean that you're

39:19 this it doesn't mean that you're finished it doesn't mean that you're

39:20 finished it doesn't mean that you're

39:20 finished it doesn't mean that you're washed up it doesn't mean that there's

39:21 washed up it doesn't mean that there's

39:21 washed up it doesn't mean that there's no hope honestly it may just mean that

39:24 no hope honestly it may just mean that

39:24 no hope honestly it may just mean that that one thing doesn't work if you're uh

39:28 that one thing doesn't work if you're uh

39:28 that one thing doesn't work if you're uh I don't know if you're in a bad

39:29 I don't know if you're in a bad

39:29 I don't know if you're in a bad relationship it doesn't mean that you as

39:30 relationship it doesn't mean that you as

39:30 relationship it doesn't mean that you as a person aren't working it means that

39:32 a person aren't working it means that

39:32 a person aren't working it means that that relationship doesn't work if you

39:34 that relationship doesn't work if you

39:34 that relationship doesn't work if you trying to be a painter and you're trying

39:36 trying to be a painter and you're trying

39:36 trying to be a painter and you're trying over and over again you can never sell a

39:38 over and over again you can never sell a

39:38 over and over again you can never sell a painting it doesn't mean that you as a

39:40 painting it doesn't mean that you as a

39:40 painting it doesn't mean that you as a creative person isn't working it means

39:41 creative person isn't working it means

39:41 creative person isn't working it means that painting isn't working for you if

39:43 that painting isn't working for you if

39:43 that painting isn't working for you if you've been struggling and struggling

39:44 you've been struggling and struggling

39:44 you've been struggling and struggling you've been in a band for 20 years and

39:46 you've been in a band for 20 years and

39:46 you've been in a band for 20 years and you can't get any traction you're

39:47 you can't get any traction you're

39:47 you can't get any traction you're selling less albums than you ever had

39:49 selling less albums than you ever had

39:49 selling less albums than you ever had before maybe being in a band is done

39:51 before maybe being in a band is done

39:51 before maybe being in a band is done maybe isn't working anymore maybe being

39:54 maybe isn't working anymore maybe being

39:54 maybe isn't working anymore maybe being in that band or doing that thing much

39:56 in that band or doing that thing much

39:56 in that band or doing that thing much like for me maybe that was the thing

39:58 like for me maybe that was the thing

39:58 like for me maybe that was the thing that prepared you for what you were

40:00 that prepared you for what you were

40:00 that prepared you for what you were eventually going to do this is Mark

40:02 eventually going to do this is Mark

40:02 eventually going to do this is Mark Twain right here on my arm no it's not

40:04 Twain right here on my arm no it's not

40:04 Twain right here on my arm no it's not Tesla and it's not Edgar alen Poe that's

40:06 Tesla and it's not Edgar alen Poe that's

40:06 Tesla and it's not Edgar alen Poe that's Mark Twain there Mark Twain is the

40:08 Mark Twain there Mark Twain is the

40:09 Mark Twain there Mark Twain is the greatest American author in history ever

40:12 greatest American author in history ever

40:12 greatest American author in history ever he wrote The Great American novel is

40:13 he wrote The Great American novel is

40:13 he wrote The Great American novel is Huckleberry Finn there's a lot of people

40:14 Huckleberry Finn there's a lot of people

40:14 Huckleberry Finn there's a lot of people who will disagree with me with that we

40:15 who will disagree with me with that we

40:15 who will disagree with me with that we can have a whole disagreement a separate

40:17 can have a whole disagreement a separate

40:17 can have a whole disagreement a separate time but he was called the Lincoln of

40:19 time but he was called the Lincoln of

40:19 time but he was called the Lincoln of our literature for a reason this is the

40:21 our literature for a reason this is the

40:21 our literature for a reason this is the guy that gave America a voice he was the

40:23 guy that gave America a voice he was the

40:23 guy that gave America a voice he was the big the first rock star in the United

40:26 big the first rock star in the United

40:26 big the first rock star in the United States I mean the massive celebrity Mark

40:28 States I mean the massive celebrity Mark

40:28 States I mean the massive celebrity Mark Twain cigars Mark Twain freaking elastic

40:30 Twain cigars Mark Twain freaking elastic

40:30 Twain cigars Mark Twain freaking elastic pants straps like they really marketed

40:32 pants straps like they really marketed

40:32 pants straps like they really marketed the heck out of that guy in his own time

40:33 the heck out of that guy in his own time

40:34 the heck out of that guy in his own time he was one of the first pop culture

40:36 he was one of the first pop culture

40:36 he was one of the first pop culture phenomenon really in the world Mark

40:39 phenomenon really in the world Mark

40:39 phenomenon really in the world Mark Twain very successful guy did not start

40:41 Twain very successful guy did not start

40:41 Twain very successful guy did not start writing his books till his 30s did not

40:43 writing his books till his 30s did not

40:43 writing his books till his 30s did not get married until he was in his mid-30s

40:45 get married until he was in his mid-30s

40:45 get married until he was in his mid-30s to the love of his life who was I think

40:49 to the love of his life who was I think

40:49 to the love of his life who was I think 19 didn't start writing the novels that

40:52 19 didn't start writing the novels that

40:52 19 didn't start writing the novels that he's known for like Tom Sawyer and

40:54 he's known for like Tom Sawyer and

40:54 he's known for like Tom Sawyer and Huckleberry vintel his 40s and 50s his

40:56 Huckleberry vintel his 40s and 50s his

40:57 Huckleberry vintel his 40s and 50s his first books which were really successful

40:59 first books which were really successful

40:59 first books which were really successful were travel books Mark Twain didn't have

41:02 were travel books Mark Twain didn't have

41:02 were travel books Mark Twain didn't have his children that he loved until he was

41:04 his children that he loved until he was

41:04 his children that he loved until he was way older like your life isn't over he

41:06 way older like your life isn't over he

41:06 way older like your life isn't over he tried so many things he was a Riverboat

41:08 tried so many things he was a Riverboat

41:08 tried so many things he was a Riverboat pilot he was a silver Miner he worked in

41:13 pilot he was a silver Miner he worked in

41:13 pilot he was a silver Miner he worked in a courts Mill he was a newspaper

41:14 a courts Mill he was a newspaper

41:14 a courts Mill he was a newspaper journalist he tried all kinds of

41:16 journalist he tried all kinds of

41:16 journalist he tried all kinds of different things before he ended up

41:18 different things before he ended up

41:18 different things before he ended up becoming a writer first by writing for

41:21 becoming a writer first by writing for

41:21 becoming a writer first by writing for newspapers and then by writing travel

41:22 newspapers and then by writing travel

41:22 newspapers and then by writing travel letters to newspapers then by putting

41:24 letters to newspapers then by putting

41:24 letters to newspapers then by putting them together in books and you know

41:26 them together in books and you know

41:26 them together in books and you know what's really funny is that Mark Twain

41:28 what's really funny is that Mark Twain

41:28 what's really funny is that Mark Twain was this amazing author he wrote These

41:29 was this amazing author he wrote These

41:30 was this amazing author he wrote These amazing stories that are beloved by

41:32 amazing stories that are beloved by

41:32 amazing stories that are beloved by millions of people love those stories

41:34 millions of people love those stories

41:34 millions of people love those stories Walt Disney was inspired by them

41:35 Walt Disney was inspired by them

41:35 Walt Disney was inspired by them creating Tom soyers Island the Mark

41:36 creating Tom soyers Island the Mark

41:36 creating Tom soyers Island the Mark Twain river boat all that kind of stuff

41:38 Twain river boat all that kind of stuff

41:38 Twain river boat all that kind of stuff all these people that took inspiration

41:39 all these people that took inspiration

41:39 all these people that took inspiration from that and became writers and authors

41:41 from that and became writers and authors

41:41 from that and became writers and authors and creative people because of Mark TW

41:43 and creative people because of Mark TW

41:43 and creative people because of Mark TW were inspired by him pretty much after

41:45 were inspired by him pretty much after

41:45 were inspired by him pretty much after he became a successful author all Mark

41:48 he became a successful author all Mark

41:48 he became a successful author all Mark Twain could ever think about for the

41:49 Twain could ever think about for the

41:49 Twain could ever think about for the rest of his life was how he wanted to be

41:51 rest of his life was how he wanted to be

41:51 rest of his life was how he wanted to be a businessman I want to invent something

41:53 a businessman I want to invent something

41:53 a businessman I want to invent something I want to be an inventor and he was

41:54 I want to be an inventor and he was

41:54 I want to be an inventor and he was always completely unsuccessful and kept

41:57 always completely unsuccessful and kept

41:57 always completely unsuccessful and kept losing entire fortunes over and over

42:00 losing entire fortunes over and over

42:00 losing entire fortunes over and over again he once went to bankruptcy and had

42:02 again he once went to bankruptcy and had

42:02 again he once went to bankruptcy and had to tour the world giving lectures which

42:04 to tour the world giving lectures which

42:04 to tour the world giving lectures which he hated oh he was also a lecturer by

42:05 he hated oh he was also a lecturer by

42:05 he hated oh he was also a lecturer by the way and a good one uh basically

42:07 the way and a good one uh basically

42:07 the way and a good one uh basically going on tour which he hated dragging

42:09 going on tour which he hated dragging

42:09 going on tour which he hated dragging his family around the world to get out

42:11 his family around the world to get out

42:11 his family around the world to get out of debt because he kept investing in bad

42:13 of debt because he kept investing in bad

42:13 of debt because he kept investing in bad companies because he wanted to be like

42:15 companies because he wanted to be like

42:15 companies because he wanted to be like an inventor and a and a business tycoon

42:18 an inventor and a and a business tycoon

42:18 an inventor and a and a business tycoon and all this stuff and he could not

42:19 and all this stuff and he could not

42:19 and all this stuff and he could not accept like you know what the thing that

42:21 accept like you know what the thing that

42:21 accept like you know what the thing that I'm good at is this you know so it's

42:24 I'm good at is this you know so it's

42:24 I'm good at is this you know so it's funny because we're not always

42:26 funny because we're not always

42:26 funny because we're not always self-aware enough to say do you know

42:28 self-aware enough to say do you know

42:28 self-aware enough to say do you know this thing that I'm doing here is fun I

42:30 this thing that I'm doing here is fun I

42:30 this thing that I'm doing here is fun I like it uh but it's starting to turn to

42:32 like it uh but it's starting to turn to

42:32 like it uh but it's starting to turn to bitterness inside of me because I'm not

42:35 bitterness inside of me because I'm not

42:35 bitterness inside of me because I'm not maybe any good at it and it's really not

42:37 maybe any good at it and it's really not

42:37 maybe any good at it and it's really not working out that well so what I'm saying

42:40 working out that well so what I'm saying

42:40 working out that well so what I'm saying is it's really good to be encouraged and

42:42 is it's really good to be encouraged and

42:43 is it's really good to be encouraged and strong and keep you know building a wall

42:44 strong and keep you know building a wall

42:44 strong and keep you know building a wall Brick by Brick and remembering that the

42:47 Brick by Brick and remembering that the

42:47 Brick by Brick and remembering that the man who says he can't do something and

42:48 man who says he can't do something and

42:48 man who says he can't do something and the man who says he can are usually both

42:50 the man who says he can are usually both

42:50 the man who says he can are usually both right and all that stuff and so there's

42:51 right and all that stuff and so there's

42:51 right and all that stuff and so there's nothing wrong with trying there's

42:52 nothing wrong with trying there's

42:52 nothing wrong with trying there's nothing wrong with struggling I'm

42:53 nothing wrong with struggling I'm

42:53 nothing wrong with struggling I'm certainly trying all the time I'm still

42:55 certainly trying all the time I'm still

42:55 certainly trying all the time I'm still trying to make everyday count doing the

42:56 trying to make everyday count doing the

42:56 trying to make everyday count doing the Vlog and doing the videos and trying as

42:58 Vlog and doing the videos and trying as

42:58 Vlog and doing the videos and trying as hard as I can to do what I'm doing and

43:01 hard as I can to do what I'm doing and

43:01 hard as I can to do what I'm doing and I'm not going to give up but at the same

43:03 I'm not going to give up but at the same

43:03 I'm not going to give up but at the same time I I wouldn't have got to do

43:06 time I I wouldn't have got to do

43:06 time I I wouldn't have got to do anything anything cool that I've got to

43:08 anything anything cool that I've got to

43:09 anything anything cool that I've got to do in the past year or two that people

43:10 do in the past year or two that people

43:10 do in the past year or two that people are like oh my gosh that's so cool I

43:12 are like oh my gosh that's so cool I

43:12 are like oh my gosh that's so cool I wouldn't have got to do any of that if I

43:13 wouldn't have got to do any of that if I

43:13 wouldn't have got to do any of that if I hadn't let go of that thing that just

43:18 hadn't let go of that thing that just

43:18 hadn't let go of that thing that just was stuck in my head that I got to be

43:20 was stuck in my head that I got to be

43:20 was stuck in my head that I got to be this guy there might be something

43:22 this guy there might be something

43:22 this guy there might be something completely amazing completely different

43:25 completely amazing completely different

43:25 completely amazing completely different completely wonderful around the corner

43:27 completely wonderful around the corner

43:27 completely wonderful around the corner for you and that goes for everything

43:28 for you and that goes for everything

43:28 for you and that goes for everything that goes for uh relationships maybe

43:31 that goes for uh relationships maybe

43:31 that goes for uh relationships maybe you're lonely maybe you have no

43:32 you're lonely maybe you have no

43:32 you're lonely maybe you have no girlfriend no boyfriend no whatever it

43:33 girlfriend no boyfriend no whatever it

43:33 girlfriend no boyfriend no whatever it is and you don't even you think I better

43:35 is and you don't even you think I better

43:35 is and you don't even you think I better call up my old ex and get back together

43:37 call up my old ex and get back together

43:37 call up my old ex and get back together with them because they're the only

43:39 with them because they're the only

43:39 with them because they're the only person's going to talk to me or friends

43:41 person's going to talk to me or friends

43:41 person's going to talk to me or friends maybe you hate your friend I always had

43:42 maybe you hate your friend I always had

43:42 maybe you hate your friend I always had a point before in my life where I

43:44 a point before in my life where I

43:44 a point before in my life where I couldn't stand my friends I didn't even

43:45 couldn't stand my friends I didn't even

43:45 couldn't stand my friends I didn't even like them and I've made completely

43:48 like them and I've made completely

43:48 like them and I've made completely different new friends there's you have

43:50 different new friends there's you have

43:50 different new friends there's you have to be willing to let go of the past a

43:53 to be willing to let go of the past a

43:53 to be willing to let go of the past a little bit or at least let go of it

43:55 little bit or at least let go of it

43:55 little bit or at least let go of it enough to open yourself up to

43:57 enough to open yourself up to

43:57 enough to open yourself up to opportunities that's basically the tldr

43:58 opportunities that's basically the tldr

43:58 opportunities that's basically the tldr of it I'm sorry that it took me so long

44:00 of it I'm sorry that it took me so long

44:00 of it I'm sorry that it took me so long to talk about it I really appreciate you

44:02 to talk about it I really appreciate you

44:02 to talk about it I really appreciate you guys as ever coming with me to talk

44:04 guys as ever coming with me to talk

44:04 guys as ever coming with me to talk about all this stuff I really wish that

44:05 about all this stuff I really wish that

44:05 about all this stuff I really wish that I could have like put that into words

44:08 I could have like put that into words

44:08 I could have like put that into words better

44:10 better

44:10 better better I feel like there's a lot of

44:12 better I feel like there's a lot of

44:12 better I feel like there's a lot of people who are probably misinterpret me

44:13 people who are probably misinterpret me

44:13 people who are probably misinterpret me and get angry like you're saying I

44:14 and get angry like you're saying I

44:14 and get angry like you're saying I should just quit nobody should live

44:16 should just quit nobody should live

44:16 should just quit nobody should live their dreams that's exactly that's not

44:18 their dreams that's exactly that's not

44:18 their dreams that's exactly that's not what I'm saying at all I'm saying you

44:20 what I'm saying at all I'm saying you

44:20 what I'm saying at all I'm saying you might have a bigger and better dream if

44:21 might have a bigger and better dream if

44:21 might have a bigger and better dream if you let go of the first thing if Walt

44:23 you let go of the first thing if Walt

44:23 you let go of the first thing if Walt Disney had been

44:25 Disney had been

44:25 Disney had been stuck on Alice comedies and said the

44:28 stuck on Alice comedies and said the

44:28 stuck on Alice comedies and said the Alice comedies really didn't you know

44:29 Alice comedies really didn't you know

44:29 Alice comedies really didn't you know like I got to make those work I better

44:32 like I got to make those work I better

44:32 like I got to make those work I better make the live action mix with the

44:34 make the live action mix with the

44:34 make the live action mix with the animation Alice comedies work right for

44:36 animation Alice comedies work right for

44:36 animation Alice comedies work right for those of you who know about the Walt

44:37 those of you who know about the Walt

44:37 those of you who know about the Walt Disney thing if you don't know about

44:38 Disney thing if you don't know about

44:38 Disney thing if you don't know about Walt Disney Google Walt Disney the Alice

44:41 Walt Disney Google Walt Disney the Alice

44:41 Walt Disney Google Walt Disney the Alice comedies if he had said I'm going to

44:42 comedies if he had said I'm going to

44:42 comedies if he had said I'm going to make that work come hella high water and

44:44 make that work come hella high water and

44:44 make that work come hella high water and there's nothing else that's going to

44:45 there's nothing else that's going to

44:45 there's nothing else that's going to happen here he would have never come up

44:47 happen here he would have never come up

44:47 happen here he would have never come up with Oswald and he would have never come

44:48 with Oswald and he would have never come

44:48 with Oswald and he would have never come up with Mickey Mouse and we would never

44:50 up with Mickey Mouse and we would never

44:50 up with Mickey Mouse and we would never have Disneyland if he was like I got to

44:52 have Disneyland if he was like I got to

44:52 have Disneyland if he was like I got to make animation work no matter what I'm

44:53 make animation work no matter what I'm

44:53 make animation work no matter what I'm going to make this color animation pay

44:54 going to make this color animation pay

44:54 going to make this color animation pay for me and I'm just going to stick with

44:55 for me and I'm just going to stick with

44:55 for me and I'm just going to stick with that only that and only do that we

44:58 that only that and only do that we

44:58 that only that and only do that we wouldn't have Disneyland would we and

45:01 wouldn't have Disneyland would we and

45:01 wouldn't have Disneyland would we and then we really wouldn't have these Vlogs

45:03 then we really wouldn't have these Vlogs

45:03 then we really wouldn't have these Vlogs together so you got to be open-minded

45:06 together so you got to be open-minded

45:06 together so you got to be open-minded because there might be something else

45:07 because there might be something else

45:07 because there might be something else around the corner life is not just one

45:09 around the corner life is not just one

45:09 around the corner life is not just one note life is a symphony and it's got all

45:11 note life is a symphony and it's got all

45:11 note life is a symphony and it's got all kinds of amazing parts to play in it so

45:15 kinds of amazing parts to play in it so

45:16 kinds of amazing parts to play in it so maybe you're the base section and you

45:18 maybe you're the base section and you

45:18 maybe you're the base section and you can't just play one note forever or you

45:19 can't just play one note forever or you

45:19 can't just play one note forever or you won't have a part in the course do you

45:21 won't have a part in the course do you

45:21 won't have a part in the course do you know what I'm saying feel free to be

45:23 know what I'm saying feel free to be

45:23 know what I'm saying feel free to be creative think of something new if your

45:25 creative think of something new if your

45:25 creative think of something new if your Vlogs and your videos aren't working or

45:26 Vlogs and your videos aren't working or

45:26 Vlogs and your videos aren't working or something like cuz that's a lot of what

45:27 something like cuz that's a lot of what

45:27 something like cuz that's a lot of what people ask me about lately I would just

45:29 people ask me about lately I would just

45:29 people ask me about lately I would just say try something different try doing

45:31 say try something different try doing

45:31 say try something different try doing something else try being a photographer

45:33 something else try being a photographer

45:33 something else try being a photographer maybe be a filmmaker maybe you're a good

45:35 maybe be a filmmaker maybe you're a good

45:35 maybe be a filmmaker maybe you're a good editor and you should be editing for

45:36 editor and you should be editing for

45:36 editor and you should be editing for somebody else maybe you're a good host

45:37 somebody else maybe you're a good host

45:37 somebody else maybe you're a good host and you should only be hosting videos

45:39 and you should only be hosting videos

45:39 and you should only be hosting videos and somebody else should be writing

45:40 and somebody else should be writing

45:40 and somebody else should be writing content for you maybe you'd be doing

45:42 content for you maybe you'd be doing

45:42 content for you maybe you'd be doing maybe instead of vlogging you would be

45:43 maybe instead of vlogging you would be

45:43 maybe instead of vlogging you would be better in a skit show or in a food show

45:46 better in a skit show or in a food show

45:46 better in a skit show or in a food show or maybe instead of oh how come nobody

45:48 or maybe instead of oh how come nobody

45:48 or maybe instead of oh how come nobody watches my Disney videos maybe you

45:50 watches my Disney videos maybe you

45:50 watches my Disney videos maybe you shouldn't be doing videos about Disney

45:52 shouldn't be doing videos about Disney

45:52 shouldn't be doing videos about Disney maybe your thing is you should be doing

45:53 maybe your thing is you should be doing

45:53 maybe your thing is you should be doing videos about trees I don't know but

45:56 videos about trees I don't know but

45:56 videos about trees I don't know but there's a lot out there in this world

45:57 there's a lot out there in this world

45:57 there's a lot out there in this world not just two things so just because

45:59 not just two things so just because

45:59 not just two things so just because you're inspired by something doesn't

46:01 you're inspired by something doesn't

46:01 you're inspired by something doesn't mean that you have to do that thing you

46:02 mean that you have to do that thing you

46:02 mean that you have to do that thing you can go and find something else to be

46:04 can go and find something else to be

46:04 can go and find something else to be passionate about something else to be

46:05 passionate about something else to be

46:05 passionate about something else to be creative about something else to be

46:06 creative about something else to be

46:06 creative about something else to be talented about you're not limited you're

46:08 talented about you're not limited you're

46:08 talented about you're not limited you're only limited by this the breadth and the

46:11 only limited by this the breadth and the

46:11 only limited by this the breadth and the scope of your imagination and if your

46:13 scope of your imagination and if your

46:13 scope of your imagination and if your imagination's only focused on one thing

46:14 imagination's only focused on one thing

46:15 imagination's only focused on one thing and you're not opening yourself up to

46:16 and you're not opening yourself up to

46:16 and you're not opening yourself up to other possibilities you will probably

46:18 other possibilities you will probably

46:18 other possibilities you will probably fail there's something to be there's one

46:20 fail there's something to be there's one

46:20 fail there's something to be there's one track mind is good if you're on the

46:22 track mind is good if you're on the

46:22 track mind is good if you're on the right track but if you're on the wrong

46:24 right track but if you're on the wrong

46:24 right track but if you're on the wrong track one track mind can be pretty

46:26 track one track mind can be pretty

46:26 track one track mind can be pretty pretty dangerous right so just saying

46:29 pretty dangerous right so just saying

46:29 pretty dangerous right so just saying just trying to offer a little bit of a

46:30 just trying to offer a little bit of a

46:30 just trying to offer a little bit of a different perspective because normally

46:31 different perspective because normally

46:32 different perspective because normally I'm the guy that's like go for your

46:32 I'm the guy that's like go for your

46:32 I'm the guy that's like go for your dreams but

46:35 dreams but

46:35 dreams but just having dealt with somebody who is

46:37 just having dealt with somebody who is

46:37 just having dealt with somebody who is in the same place the same kind of money

46:39 in the same place the same kind of money

46:39 in the same place the same kind of money troubles the same kind of creative

46:41 troubles the same kind of creative

46:41 troubles the same kind of creative struggle the same stress the same

46:43 struggle the same stress the same

46:43 struggle the same stress the same nervous breakdown happening over and

46:44 nervous breakdown happening over and

46:44 nervous breakdown happening over and over again after 5 years man and like I

46:46 over again after 5 years man and like I

46:46 over again after 5 years man and like I said there's no love loss between me and

46:47 said there's no love loss between me and

46:47 said there's no love loss between me and this person but it just made me honestly

46:49 this person but it just made me honestly

46:49 this person but it just made me honestly like my heart went out to him because

46:50 like my heart went out to him because

46:51 like my heart went out to him because I've been in that spot before where I

46:52 I've been in that spot before where I

46:52 I've been in that spot before where I spent 15 years in mentoring and doing

46:54 spent 15 years in mentoring and doing

46:54 spent 15 years in mentoring and doing this all I wanted to do was be able to

46:56 this all I wanted to do was be able to

46:56 this all I wanted to do was be able to work hard I wanted something that I

46:58 work hard I wanted something that I

46:58 work hard I wanted something that I could work hard at but also be able to

47:00 could work hard at but also be able to

47:00 could work hard at but also be able to be creative and have Adventures cuz I

47:02 be creative and have Adventures cuz I

47:02 be creative and have Adventures cuz I can't sit still I mean look at me I

47:03 can't sit still I mean look at me I

47:03 can't sit still I mean look at me I can't sit still I have to wiggle and

47:05 can't sit still I have to wiggle and

47:05 can't sit still I have to wiggle and move around and all that stuff and I

47:06 move around and all that stuff and I

47:07 move around and all that stuff and I like that in a bigger sense like I like

47:08 like that in a bigger sense like I like

47:08 like that in a bigger sense like I like to move around I like to travel I like

47:09 to move around I like to travel I like

47:09 to move around I like to travel I like to go do this different stuff it's the

47:11 to go do this different stuff it's the

47:11 to go do this different stuff it's the only way that I can get my brain fired

47:12 only way that I can get my brain fired

47:13 only way that I can get my brain fired up and my juic is flowing and all the

47:15 up and my juic is flowing and all the

47:15 up and my juic is flowing and all the weirdness will come out of me is by

47:17 weirdness will come out of me is by

47:17 weirdness will come out of me is by moving around and wiggling and being

47:18 moving around and wiggling and being

47:18 moving around and wiggling and being weird and that was the thing is I sat

47:21 weird and that was the thing is I sat

47:21 weird and that was the thing is I sat still and did the same thing over and

47:22 still and did the same thing over and

47:22 still and did the same thing over and over again I thought I have to be in a

47:23 over again I thought I have to be in a

47:23 over again I thought I have to be in a band to do that there's no other way to

47:25 band to do that there's no other way to

47:25 band to do that there's no other way to do that what am I going to be a

47:25 do that what am I going to be a

47:25 do that what am I going to be a traveling salesman the only way I can

47:27 traveling salesman the only way I can

47:27 traveling salesman the only way I can ever do anything creative the only thing

47:29 ever do anything creative the only thing

47:29 ever do anything creative the only thing that works is if I'm in a band that's it

47:31 that works is if I'm in a band that's it

47:31 that works is if I'm in a band that's it and I was wrong I was wrong and my if

47:36 and I was wrong I was wrong and my if

47:36 and I was wrong I was wrong and my if You' to asked me then I would have said

47:37 You' to asked me then I would have said

47:37 You' to asked me then I would have said no because you can never give up man you

47:39 no because you can never give up man you

47:39 no because you can never give up man you got to never give up that's giving up

47:40 got to never give up that's giving up

47:40 got to never give up that's giving up sometimes it's not giving up sometimes

47:42 sometimes it's not giving up sometimes

47:42 sometimes it's not giving up sometimes it's simply accepting that okay this is

47:44 it's simply accepting that okay this is

47:44 it's simply accepting that okay this is what it is now I'm going to try

47:45 what it is now I'm going to try

47:45 what it is now I'm going to try something else I've taken this as far as

47:47 something else I've taken this as far as

47:47 something else I've taken this as far as I can go and now I'm going to try

47:49 I can go and now I'm going to try

47:49 I can go and now I'm going to try something else so just don't be afraid

47:50 something else so just don't be afraid

47:50 something else so just don't be afraid to try new things that's the point don't

47:52 to try new things that's the point don't

47:52 to try new things that's the point don't be afraid to try anything let's start

47:53 be afraid to try anything let's start

47:53 be afraid to try anything let's start the whole Vlog over it's a sometimes

47:54 the whole Vlog over it's a sometimes

47:54 the whole Vlog over it's a sometimes Vlog it's a vlog it happens some times

47:57 Vlog it's a vlog it happens some times

47:57 Vlog it's a vlog it happens some times hello everybody don't be afraid to try

47:59 hello everybody don't be afraid to try

47:59 hello everybody don't be afraid to try new things all right make sure to

48:01 new things all right make sure to

48:01 new things all right make sure to subscribe for some more Vlogs I will see

48:03 subscribe for some more Vlogs I will see

48:03 subscribe for some more Vlogs I will see you guys in the future screwing around

48:05 you guys in the future screwing around

48:05 you guys in the future screwing around or screw around too much we'll be

48:07 or screw around too much we'll be

48:07 or screw around too much we'll be screwing around tomorrow because I don't

48:08 screwing around tomorrow because I don't

48:08 screwing around tomorrow because I don't want to have any more long-winded pep

48:10 want to have any more long-winded pep

48:10 want to have any more long-winded pep talks with anybody but that's my pep

48:12 talks with anybody but that's my pep

48:12 talks with anybody but that's my pep talk for the day is watch out for

48:19 bees

48:19 bees bees watch out for the

48:22 bees watch out for the

48:22 bees watch out for the bees don't be afraid to try new things

48:27 bees don't be afraid to try new things

48:27 bees don't be afraid to try new things do your duty then you can go home and

48:31 do your duty then you can go home and

48:31 do your duty then you can go home and sleep well and by the way I just bought

48:34 sleep well and by the way I just bought

48:34 sleep well and by the way I just bought this house I'm totally lying cuz I could

48:37 this house I'm totally lying cuz I could

48:37 this house I'm totally lying cuz I could never afford it but I want to so

48:40 never afford it but I want to so

48:40 never afford it but I want to so hopefully you know my dream is to live

48:42 hopefully you know my dream is to live

48:42 hopefully you know my dream is to live there but I'm going to be open-minded

48:44 there but I'm going to be open-minded

48:44 there but I'm going to be open-minded about it just in case someday I get the

48:46 about it just in case someday I get the

48:46 about it just in case someday I get the opportunity to to live right there or

48:48 opportunity to to live right there or

48:48 opportunity to to live right there or maybe in Big Mama's house because Martin

48:50 maybe in Big Mama's house because Martin

48:50 maybe in Big Mama's house because Martin Lawrence made a movie there once so we

48:52 Lawrence made a movie there once so we

48:52 Lawrence made a movie there once so we can talk about that on another time go

48:55 can talk about that on another time go

48:55 can talk about that on another time go home or sleep well Li fast iport at

48:57 home or sleep well Li fast iport at

48:57 home or sleep well Li fast iport at spreadshirt.com if you use the code St

48:58 spreadshirt.com if you use the code St

48:59 spreadshirt.com if you use the code St patties St p a d d Ys St Patty right now

49:02 patties St p a d d Ys St Patty right now

49:02 patties St p a d d Ys St Patty right now I think you get 15% off which everyone's

49:04 I think you get 15% off which everyone's

49:04 I think you get 15% off which everyone's like I'll wait for free shipping I'm

49:05 like I'll wait for free shipping I'm

49:05 like I'll wait for free shipping I'm pretty sure if you get 15% off a big

49:06 pretty sure if you get 15% off a big

49:07 pretty sure if you get 15% off a big order and there's no minimum for this

49:08 order and there's no minimum for this

49:08 order and there's no minimum for this thing it's actually cheaper than if you

49:10 thing it's actually cheaper than if you

49:10 thing it's actually cheaper than if you get to free shipping I don't know but

49:12 get to free shipping I don't know but

49:12 get to free shipping I don't know but people always ask me when's the coupon

49:13 people always ask me when's the coupon

49:13 people always ask me when's the coupon code coming there it is and that kind of

49:15 code coming there it is and that kind of

49:15 code coming there it is and that kind of ruin the ending of the Vlog but it's

49:16 ruin the ending of the Vlog but it's

49:17 ruin the ending of the Vlog but it's okay because we were able to walk a

49:18 okay because we were able to walk a

49:18 okay because we were able to walk a little bit closer to the house Paul

49:19 little bit closer to the house Paul

49:19 little bit closer to the house Paul Gatti is in in the movie Big Mama's

49:22 Gatti is in in the movie Big Mama's

49:22 Gatti is in in the movie Big Mama's House peering out at Big Mama's House

49:25 House peering out at Big Mama's House

49:25 House peering out at Big Mama's House itself right there where Martin Lawrence

49:27 itself right there where Martin Lawrence

49:27 itself right there where Martin Lawrence wore a fat suit and was obnoxiously

49:28 wore a fat suit and was obnoxiously

49:28 wore a fat suit and was obnoxiously annoying in a hilarious way right there

49:31 annoying in a hilarious way right there

49:31 annoying in a hilarious way right there in Orange

49:32 in Orange

49:32 in Orange California how

49:35 California how

49:35 California how about that right here on the corner of

49:38 about that right here on the corner of

49:38 about that right here on the corner of Maple and schaer in Orange California

49:41 Maple and schaer in Orange California

49:41 Maple and schaer in Orange California come see it for yourself if you come see

49:42 come see it for yourself if you come see

49:42 come see it for yourself if you come see this for yourself tag me on Instagram

49:44 this for yourself tag me on Instagram

49:44 this for yourself tag me on Instagram Big Mama's house not the greatest movie

49:46 Big Mama's house not the greatest movie

49:46 Big Mama's house not the greatest movie of a

49:48 of a

49:48 of a generation but probably the second

49:52 generation but probably the second

49:52 generation but probably the second greatest

49:54 greatest

49:54 greatest after after I don't know

49:57 after after I don't know

49:57 after after I don't know something good than Mouse hunt

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