Origins of The Quest for Positivity

0:02 Good afternoon everybody.

0:02 Good afternoon everybody. How are you doing? I am doing well. You

0:06 How are you doing? I am doing well. You

0:06 How are you doing? I am doing well. You can see I've got a seat. I'm hanging out

0:08 can see I've got a seat. I'm hanging out

0:08 can see I've got a seat. I'm hanging out here on the streets by myself. So

0:12 here on the streets by myself. So

0:12 here on the streets by myself. So clearly doing pretty well for myself.

0:13 clearly doing pretty well for myself.

0:13 clearly doing pretty well for myself. It's the sometimes vlog.

0:17 It's the sometimes vlog.

0:17 It's the sometimes vlog. It's a vlog that happens sometimes. And

0:19 It's a vlog that happens sometimes. And

0:19 It's a vlog that happens sometimes. And I am sitting on the corner of Chapman

0:21 I am sitting on the corner of Chapman

0:21 I am sitting on the corner of Chapman and Lemon here right adjacent to the

0:23 and Lemon here right adjacent to the

0:24 and Lemon here right adjacent to the Orange Circle which we have wandered

0:25 Orange Circle which we have wandered

0:25 Orange Circle which we have wandered through many times together on this

0:26 through many times together on this

0:26 through many times together on this sometimes vlog. leaning against the wall

0:29 sometimes vlog. leaning against the wall

0:29 sometimes vlog. leaning against the wall of the post office because I was

0:31 of the post office because I was

0:31 of the post office because I was dropping off some of your envelopes with

0:33 dropping off some of your envelopes with

0:33 dropping off some of your envelopes with your stamps on them to return them to

0:35 your stamps on them to return them to

0:35 your stamps on them to return them to you carrying the precious cargo of live

0:38 you carrying the precious cargo of live

0:38 you carrying the precious cargo of live fast stickers. It's known as a

0:40 fast stickers. It's known as a

0:40 fast stickers. It's known as a self-address stamped envelope. And if

0:41 self-address stamped envelope. And if

0:41 self-address stamped envelope. And if you missed it, you can go to our

0:43 you missed it, you can go to our

0:43 you missed it, you can go to our Facebook page, facebook.com/livefast.

0:45 Facebook page, facebook.com/livefast.

0:45 Facebook page, facebook.com/livefast. Scroll down the timeline and look for

0:47 Scroll down the timeline and look for

0:47 Scroll down the timeline and look for the little picture which details how you

0:49 the little picture which details how you

0:49 the little picture which details how you can get some free stickers while we

0:51 can get some free stickers while we

0:51 can get some free stickers while we still have some left.

0:53 still have some left.

0:53 still have some left. Yes, I was sitting there at the post

0:55 Yes, I was sitting there at the post

0:56 Yes, I was sitting there at the post office having all these conversations

0:57 office having all these conversations

0:57 office having all these conversations with all these strangers because my

0:58 with all these strangers because my

0:58 with all these strangers because my phone was on airplane mode. So, my phone

1:00 phone was on airplane mode. So, my phone

1:00 phone was on airplane mode. So, my phone wasn't interrupting my brain.

1:04 wasn't interrupting my brain.

1:04 wasn't interrupting my brain. I'm sorry. I was distracted by these

1:05 I'm sorry. I was distracted by these

1:05 I'm sorry. I was distracted by these people over there. They just look so

1:07 people over there. They just look so

1:07 people over there. They just look so happy. I was having all kinds of

1:09 happy. I was having all kinds of

1:09 happy. I was having all kinds of conversations with strangers. There was

1:10 conversations with strangers. There was

1:10 conversations with strangers. There was a bunch of strangers from this church

1:11 a bunch of strangers from this church

1:11 a bunch of strangers from this church over here coming over. We were having a

1:13 over here coming over. We were having a

1:13 over here coming over. We were having a good old time talking about it. Many

1:15 good old time talking about it. Many

1:15 good old time talking about it. Many people wish me very good blessings. I

1:17 people wish me very good blessings. I

1:17 people wish me very good blessings. I was very happy about that. It's positive

1:19 was very happy about that. It's positive

1:19 was very happy about that. It's positive to have some nice conversations.

1:20 to have some nice conversations.

1:20 to have some nice conversations. Conversations with strangers. Maybe I

1:22 Conversations with strangers. Maybe I

1:22 Conversations with strangers. Maybe I should have started the vlog then. You

1:23 should have started the vlog then. You

1:23 should have started the vlog then. You could have met all the cool strangers.

1:25 could have met all the cool strangers.

1:25 could have met all the cool strangers. But I thought today it should just be

1:26 But I thought today it should just be

1:26 But I thought today it should just be you and me hanging out in the old town

1:31 you and me hanging out in the old town

1:31 you and me hanging out in the old town of Orange,

1:33 of Orange,

1:33 of Orange, California. We're right near the

1:34 California. We're right near the

1:34 California. We're right near the intersection of Gell and Chapman, which

1:36 intersection of Gell and Chapman, which

1:36 intersection of Gell and Chapman, which is where that roundabout is, the traffic

1:38 is where that roundabout is, the traffic

1:38 is where that roundabout is, the traffic circle known, of course, as the Orange

1:41 circle known, of course, as the Orange

1:41 circle known, of course, as the Orange Circle. They try to call it the Plaza at

1:43 Circle. They try to call it the Plaza at

1:43 Circle. They try to call it the Plaza at Orange or the Orange Plaza. Now, I will

1:45 Orange or the Orange Plaza. Now, I will

1:45 Orange or the Orange Plaza. Now, I will never refer to it as that. My entire

1:47 never refer to it as that. My entire

1:47 never refer to it as that. My entire life, it was known as the Orange Circle,

1:49 life, it was known as the Orange Circle,

1:50 life, it was known as the Orange Circle, and that is always how I'm going to

1:51 and that is always how I'm going to

1:51 and that is always how I'm going to think of And so it's the orange circle.

1:53 think of And so it's the orange circle.

1:53 think of And so it's the orange circle. This is where Chapman and Glacell, two

1:56 This is where Chapman and Glacell, two

1:56 This is where Chapman and Glacell, two fellas, started the town of Orange,

1:58 fellas, started the town of Orange,

1:58 fellas, started the town of Orange, which was originally called Richland,

2:00 which was originally called Richland,

2:00 which was originally called Richland, California. All of this area of Southern

2:03 California. All of this area of Southern

2:03 California. All of this area of Southern California. Look at these roses. Wow.

2:04 California. Look at these roses. Wow.

2:04 California. Look at these roses. Wow. See, speaking of distractions, look at

2:06 See, speaking of distractions, look at

2:06 See, speaking of distractions, look at these roses. They smell pretty good, but

2:08 these roses. They smell pretty good, but

2:08 these roses. They smell pretty good, but they need to paint those roses red.

2:09 they need to paint those roses red.

2:09 they need to paint those roses red. Anyway, started a town called Richland,

2:12 Anyway, started a town called Richland,

2:12 Anyway, started a town called Richland, California. They wanted to promote the

2:14 California. They wanted to promote the

2:14 California. They wanted to promote the idea of people coming to this rich land

2:16 idea of people coming to this rich land

2:16 idea of people coming to this rich land and growing their produce. But it turned

2:19 and growing their produce. But it turned

2:19 and growing their produce. But it turned out that the name of Richland was taken

2:21 out that the name of Richland was taken

2:22 out that the name of Richland was taken when they tried to establish the post

2:23 when they tried to establish the post

2:23 when they tried to establish the post office. So they went with orange because

2:26 office. So they went with orange because

2:26 office. So they went with orange because it was the new wonderfruit being grown

2:28 it was the new wonderfruit being grown

2:28 it was the new wonderfruit being grown all over Southern California. And they

2:29 all over Southern California. And they

2:29 all over Southern California. And they thought that would attract new farmers

2:31 thought that would attract new farmers

2:31 thought that would attract new farmers and investors to come here and put their

2:32 and investors to come here and put their

2:32 and investors to come here and put their money into establishing a new town. And

2:36 money into establishing a new town. And

2:36 money into establishing a new town. And it worked. It took 30 years and almost

2:38 it worked. It took 30 years and almost

2:38 it worked. It took 30 years and almost their entire family fortune to realize

2:40 their entire family fortune to realize

2:40 their entire family fortune to realize the vision of that day. But it worked.

2:43 the vision of that day. But it worked.

2:44 the vision of that day. But it worked. This we I wish we could go back in time

2:45 This we I wish we could go back in time

2:45 This we I wish we could go back in time and show them all of this. would really

2:47 and show them all of this. would really

2:47 and show them all of this. would really give him something to shoot for. Okay,

2:49 give him something to shoot for. Okay,

2:49 give him something to shoot for. Okay, that's enough with the Back to the

2:50 that's enough with the Back to the

2:50 that's enough with the Back to the Future references. Anyway, so I was

2:53 Future references. Anyway, so I was

2:53 Future references. Anyway, so I was looking through those letters this

2:54 looking through those letters this

2:54 looking through those letters this morning. I was sending some stickers

2:55 morning. I was sending some stickers

2:55 morning. I was sending some stickers away and I was reading some of the

2:56 away and I was reading some of the

2:56 away and I was reading some of the letters that you guys sent me. And I

2:57 letters that you guys sent me. And I

2:57 letters that you guys sent me. And I don't want to get all choked up and

2:58 don't want to get all choked up and

2:58 don't want to get all choked up and emotional, but some of those letters are

3:00 emotional, but some of those letters are

3:00 emotional, but some of those letters are very open, very honest,

3:03 very open, very honest,

3:03 very open, very honest, telling me a lot of crazy things. And I

3:05 telling me a lot of crazy things. And I

3:05 telling me a lot of crazy things. And I really, really, really just want to put

3:06 really, really, really just want to put

3:06 really, really, really just want to put out there that I'm really, really

3:07 out there that I'm really, really

3:07 out there that I'm really, really touched, not just by the detailed

3:09 touched, not just by the detailed

3:09 touched, not just by the detailed letters from people, but I'm really,

3:10 letters from people, but I'm really,

3:10 letters from people, but I'm really, really honestly touched that anyone

3:13 really honestly touched that anyone

3:13 really honestly touched that anyone watches us being silly at all. My friend

3:15 watches us being silly at all. My friend

3:15 watches us being silly at all. My friend Adam the Woo and I were having Well,

3:17 Adam the Woo and I were having Well,

3:17 Adam the Woo and I were having Well, speaking of which, he did a mail vlog

3:19 speaking of which, he did a mail vlog

3:19 speaking of which, he did a mail vlog this morning on the Daily Woo. So, it's

3:20 this morning on the Daily Woo. So, it's

3:20 this morning on the Daily Woo. So, it's sort of a male themed day. Not only are

3:23 sort of a male themed day. Not only are

3:23 sort of a male themed day. Not only are we males, but also we've been answering

3:25 we males, but also we've been answering

3:25 we males, but also we've been answering mail. I'm looking at someone's in that

3:27 mail. I'm looking at someone's in that

3:27 mail. I'm looking at someone's in that basement right there. That was kind of

3:28 basement right there. That was kind of

3:28 basement right there. That was kind of weird. My feet were walking by someone's

3:29 weird. My feet were walking by someone's

3:29 weird. My feet were walking by someone's head.

3:31 head.

3:31 head. We were talking about the fact that we

3:33 We were talking about the fact that we

3:33 We were talking about the fact that we start doing these videos, we never

3:35 start doing these videos, we never

3:35 start doing these videos, we never thought anyone would watch it. Maybe

3:36 thought anyone would watch it. Maybe

3:36 thought anyone would watch it. Maybe just a couple of our friends or a few

3:37 just a couple of our friends or a few

3:38 just a couple of our friends or a few people that would think it's funny that

3:39 people that would think it's funny that

3:39 people that would think it's funny that we knew. And now there are thousands of

3:42 we knew. And now there are thousands of

3:42 we knew. And now there are thousands of people who watch some of these videos.

3:44 people who watch some of these videos.

3:44 people who watch some of these videos. And I could not be more touched or

3:47 And I could not be more touched or

3:47 And I could not be more touched or humbled or excited about all the

3:49 humbled or excited about all the

3:50 humbled or excited about all the comments and all the wonderful presents.

3:52 comments and all the wonderful presents.

3:52 comments and all the wonderful presents. Some some of you have sent presents and

3:54 Some some of you have sent presents and

3:54 Some some of you have sent presents and letters. And I just wanted to say I'm

3:57 letters. And I just wanted to say I'm

3:57 letters. And I just wanted to say I'm very bad at thank yous. You know, like

3:58 very bad at thank yous. You know, like

3:58 very bad at thank yous. You know, like Christmas day, I'm the worst. Oh, hello.

4:03 Christmas day, I'm the worst. Oh, hello.

4:03 Christmas day, I'm the worst. Oh, hello. I was distracted by that woman there.

4:04 I was distracted by that woman there.

4:04 I was distracted by that woman there. And this guy's trying to back up. So,

4:05 And this guy's trying to back up. So,

4:05 And this guy's trying to back up. So, I'm going in a circle because I don't

4:07 I'm going in a circle because I don't

4:07 I'm going in a circle because I don't know where to put my body right now.

4:08 know where to put my body right now.

4:08 know where to put my body right now. What was I saying? Oh, yes. I am the

4:11 What was I saying? Oh, yes. I am the

4:11 What was I saying? Oh, yes. I am the worst at Christmas.

4:14 worst at Christmas.

4:14 worst at Christmas. Christmas in particular will highlight

4:16 Christmas in particular will highlight

4:16 Christmas in particular will highlight how terrible I am at thank yous. I get a

4:19 how terrible I am at thank yous. I get a

4:19 how terrible I am at thank yous. I get a present. I'm excited about the present.

4:21 present. I'm excited about the present.

4:22 present. I'm excited about the present. I like the present. I really like the

4:23 I like the present. I really like the

4:23 I like the present. I really like the person that gave me the present. I

4:25 person that gave me the present. I

4:25 person that gave me the present. I really genuinely inside feel like like

4:28 really genuinely inside feel like like

4:28 really genuinely inside feel like like uh you know pussing boots from Shrek. I

4:29 uh you know pussing boots from Shrek. I

4:30 uh you know pussing boots from Shrek. I want to get the big tearary eyes and be

4:31 want to get the big tearary eyes and be

4:31 want to get the big tearary eyes and be like thank you. And then this awkward

4:34 like thank you. And then this awkward

4:34 like thank you. And then this awkward feeling comes over me that if I'm say

4:36 feeling comes over me that if I'm say

4:36 feeling comes over me that if I'm say thank you, I'm not going to say it good

4:38 thank you, I'm not going to say it good

4:38 thank you, I'm not going to say it good enough. and my thank you is not going to

4:40 enough. and my thank you is not going to

4:40 enough. and my thank you is not going to be adequate and I get really awkward.

4:42 be adequate and I get really awkward.

4:42 be adequate and I get really awkward. I'm like, "Oh, cool. Thanks." And then I

4:44 I'm like, "Oh, cool. Thanks." And then I

4:44 I'm like, "Oh, cool. Thanks." And then I know I look completely ungrateful and

4:46 know I look completely ungrateful and

4:46 know I look completely ungrateful and then I have this complex about it. So

4:48 then I have this complex about it. So

4:48 then I have this complex about it. So anyway, I'm really bad at thank yous and

4:50 anyway, I'm really bad at thank yous and

4:50 anyway, I'm really bad at thank yous and conveying that I am grateful. It makes

4:52 conveying that I am grateful. It makes

4:52 conveying that I am grateful. It makes me awkward. It makes me I'd rather make

4:53 me awkward. It makes me I'd rather make

4:53 me awkward. It makes me I'd rather make a joke than say thank you sincerely and

4:55 a joke than say thank you sincerely and

4:55 a joke than say thank you sincerely and make eye contact with somebody. But I

4:57 make eye contact with somebody. But I

4:57 make eye contact with somebody. But I really really do appreciate all of that

4:59 really really do appreciate all of that

4:59 really really do appreciate all of that stuff. This I'm going somewhere with

5:02 stuff. This I'm going somewhere with

5:02 stuff. This I'm going somewhere with this.

5:04 this.

5:04 this. One thing I noticed is because we talk a

5:05 One thing I noticed is because we talk a

5:05 One thing I noticed is because we talk a lot about the quest for positivity,

5:08 lot about the quest for positivity,

5:08 lot about the quest for positivity, which I'm going to circle back to you in

5:09 which I'm going to circle back to you in

5:09 which I'm going to circle back to you in a second. Get it? Orange circle. Tying

5:11 a second. Get it? Orange circle. Tying

5:11 a second. Get it? Orange circle. Tying it all together, huh? In a nice little

5:12 it all together, huh? In a nice little

5:12 it all together, huh? In a nice little loop. Oh, see what I did there?

5:18 Anyway,

5:18 Anyway, reading a lot of these letters because

5:19 reading a lot of these letters because

5:19 reading a lot of these letters because of the quest for positivity. A lot of

5:21 of the quest for positivity. A lot of

5:21 of the quest for positivity. A lot of you have written and talked about some

5:23 you have written and talked about some

5:23 you have written and talked about some of the crazy crazy stuff you're going

5:26 of the crazy crazy stuff you're going

5:26 of the crazy crazy stuff you're going through this year, like wearing those

5:27 through this year, like wearing those

5:28 through this year, like wearing those shorts. How you doing, sir?

5:29 shorts. How you doing, sir?

5:29 shorts. How you doing, sir? I like your sunglasses. I need a pair of

5:31 I like your sunglasses. I need a pair of

5:31 I like your sunglasses. I need a pair of sunglasses so I don't squint constantly.

5:34 sunglasses so I don't squint constantly.

5:34 sunglasses so I don't squint constantly. Anyway, detailing some of the crazy

5:36 Anyway, detailing some of the crazy

5:36 Anyway, detailing some of the crazy gnarly gnarly stuff that you've been

5:38 gnarly gnarly stuff that you've been

5:38 gnarly gnarly stuff that you've been going through. And I just want to remind

5:40 going through. And I just want to remind

5:40 going through. And I just want to remind you that your circumstances

5:44 you that your circumstances

5:44 you that your circumstances don't have you don't the circumstances

5:45 don't have you don't the circumstances

5:45 don't have you don't the circumstances don't have to control you. You can

5:47 don't have to control you. You can

5:47 don't have to control you. You can control the circumstances a little bit.

5:49 control the circumstances a little bit.

5:49 control the circumstances a little bit. Sometimes you can control the

5:50 Sometimes you can control the

5:50 Sometimes you can control the circumstances and they're going insane,

5:52 circumstances and they're going insane,

5:52 circumstances and they're going insane, but they don't make you who you are.

5:55 but they don't make you who you are.

5:55 but they don't make you who you are. Some other people have written me

5:56 Some other people have written me

5:56 Some other people have written me talking about mistakes they've made and

5:57 talking about mistakes they've made and

5:57 talking about mistakes they've made and horrible things that they've done and

5:59 horrible things that they've done and

5:59 horrible things that they've done and how they want to be a positive person

6:00 how they want to be a positive person

6:00 how they want to be a positive person now. They want to turn it around and go

6:02 now. They want to turn it around and go

6:02 now. They want to turn it around and go on the quest for positivity.

6:06 on the quest for positivity.

6:06 on the quest for positivity. That is awesome. That is super awesome.

6:08 That is awesome. That is super awesome.

6:08 That is awesome. That is super awesome. Just remember fuel and food for thought.

6:12 Just remember fuel and food for thought.

6:12 Just remember fuel and food for thought. Your mistakes are not who you are. You

6:14 Your mistakes are not who you are. You

6:14 Your mistakes are not who you are. You are not your mistakes. You can overcome

6:16 are not your mistakes. You can overcome

6:16 are not your mistakes. You can overcome your mistakes. You're also not your

6:17 your mistakes. You're also not your

6:17 your mistakes. You're also not your past. You're not your parents. You're

6:20 past. You're not your parents. You're

6:20 past. You're not your parents. You're not your situation. You're not your

6:22 not your situation. You're not your

6:22 not your situation. You're not your circumstances. You are you. And even the

6:25 circumstances. You are you. And even the

6:26 circumstances. You are you. And even the ones of you that I've never met and I do

6:27 ones of you that I've never met and I do

6:27 ones of you that I've never met and I do not know, I believe in you, I believe

6:30 not know, I believe in you, I believe

6:30 not know, I believe in you, I believe that you have the power to take control

6:34 that you have the power to take control

6:34 that you have the power to take control of your feelings. I was writing somebody

6:37 of your feelings. I was writing somebody

6:37 of your feelings. I was writing somebody back today and I said something to the

6:39 back today and I said something to the

6:39 back today and I said something to the effect of I sort of canned it better in

6:41 effect of I sort of canned it better in

6:41 effect of I sort of canned it better in writing than I am now.

6:44 writing than I am now.

6:44 writing than I am now. I really really sincerely believe that

6:47 I really really sincerely believe that

6:47 I really really sincerely believe that we can through a lot of effort get

6:49 we can through a lot of effort get

6:49 we can through a lot of effort get control of our feelings. We can get

6:50 control of our feelings. We can get

6:50 control of our feelings. We can get control of our feelings. We can get

6:52 control of our feelings. We can get control of our attitude. If we can get

6:53 control of our attitude. If we can get

6:53 control of our attitude. If we can get control of our attitude, make our

6:54 control of our attitude, make our

6:54 control of our attitude, make our attitude positive, then we can affect

6:57 attitude positive, then we can affect

6:57 attitude positive, then we can affect our actions. Well, we can affect our

6:58 our actions. Well, we can affect our

6:58 our actions. Well, we can affect our decisions and our actions. If we can

7:00 decisions and our actions. If we can

7:00 decisions and our actions. If we can affect our actions and our decisions and

7:02 affect our actions and our decisions and

7:02 affect our actions and our decisions and make those positive, we're going to

7:04 make those positive, we're going to

7:04 make those positive, we're going to infect infect well, let's infect it with

7:07 infect infect well, let's infect it with

7:07 infect infect well, let's infect it with positivity. We're going to affect our

7:08 positivity. We're going to affect our

7:08 positivity. We're going to affect our circumstances, make our circumstances

7:10 circumstances, make our circumstances

7:10 circumstances, make our circumstances more positive and our environment more

7:12 more positive and our environment more

7:12 more positive and our environment more positive. If we can make our environment

7:13 positive. If we can make our environment

7:13 positive. If we can make our environment more positive, then we may hopefully

7:16 more positive, then we may hopefully

7:16 more positive, then we may hopefully can't control anybody, but we may in

7:18 can't control anybody, but we may in

7:18 can't control anybody, but we may in fact influence the people around us in

7:20 fact influence the people around us in

7:20 fact influence the people around us in that environment, maybe their attitude

7:22 that environment, maybe their attitude

7:22 that environment, maybe their attitude will be more positive. So, I really

7:24 will be more positive. So, I really

7:24 will be more positive. So, I really think the first step is really

7:26 think the first step is really

7:26 think the first step is really recognizing like I am negative. Either

7:28 recognizing like I am negative. Either

7:28 recognizing like I am negative. Either something bad happened to me or I've

7:30 something bad happened to me or I've

7:30 something bad happened to me or I've been being negative or haven't been

7:32 been being negative or haven't been

7:32 been being negative or haven't been paying attention. I've just kind of let

7:33 paying attention. I've just kind of let

7:33 paying attention. I've just kind of let myself get into a slump. That's the

7:35 myself get into a slump. That's the

7:35 myself get into a slump. That's the first step. But rather than getting

7:36 first step. But rather than getting

7:36 first step. But rather than getting depressed about or saying, "I'm

7:38 depressed about or saying, "I'm

7:38 depressed about or saying, "I'm depressed." Like I used to do for years

7:40 depressed." Like I used to do for years

7:40 depressed." Like I used to do for years and years and years. So, I'm speaking

7:41 and years and years. So, I'm speaking

7:41 and years and years. So, I'm speaking 100% from experience here or being

7:44 100% from experience here or being

7:44 100% from experience here or being negative or trying to find some negative

7:45 negative or trying to find some negative

7:45 negative or trying to find some negative outlet or taking it out on yourself or

7:47 outlet or taking it out on yourself or

7:47 outlet or taking it out on yourself or other people. It's important to

7:49 other people. It's important to

7:49 other people. It's important to recognize, you know what, something

7:50 recognize, you know what, something

7:50 recognize, you know what, something really horrible happened to me. A family

7:52 really horrible happened to me. A family

7:52 really horrible happened to me. A family member died or I got divorced or my wife

7:54 member died or I got divorced or my wife

7:54 member died or I got divorced or my wife cheated on me or something crazy

7:56 cheated on me or something crazy

7:56 cheated on me or something crazy happened to me.

7:58 happened to me.

7:58 happened to me. Rather than letting it get to me,

7:59 Rather than letting it get to me,

7:59 Rather than letting it get to me, letting it affect me and make me a

8:01 letting it affect me and make me a

8:01 letting it affect me and make me a bitter person, a sour person, make me go

8:02 bitter person, a sour person, make me go

8:02 bitter person, a sour person, make me go around and interfere in other people's

8:04 around and interfere in other people's

8:04 around and interfere in other people's lives and mess with other people's

8:05 lives and mess with other people's

8:05 lives and mess with other people's lives, make myself feel better about

8:06 lives, make myself feel better about

8:06 lives, make myself feel better about myself. Instead, what I'm going to do is

8:08 myself. Instead, what I'm going to do is

8:08 myself. Instead, what I'm going to do is recognize the horrible thing happened.

8:10 recognize the horrible thing happened.

8:10 recognize the horrible thing happened. It happened. You can't do anything about

8:12 It happened. You can't do anything about

8:12 It happened. You can't do anything about the fact that something horrible

8:13 the fact that something horrible

8:13 the fact that something horrible happened or you made a mistake and it

8:15 happened or you made a mistake and it

8:15 happened or you made a mistake and it happened. Accept the fact that it

8:17 happened. Accept the fact that it

8:18 happened. Accept the fact that it happened.

8:19 happened.

8:19 happened. Try to understand that your feelings are

8:21 Try to understand that your feelings are

8:21 Try to understand that your feelings are separate from the incident. Try to

8:23 separate from the incident. Try to

8:23 separate from the incident. Try to control your feelings. Understand you

8:24 control your feelings. Understand you

8:24 control your feelings. Understand you can control your reaction. Even if

8:26 can control your reaction. Even if

8:26 can control your reaction. Even if you've reacted poorly to something, you

8:28 you've reacted poorly to something, you

8:28 you've reacted poorly to something, you can always turn it around. If you've

8:29 can always turn it around. If you've

8:29 can always turn it around. If you've offended someone, you can ask for

8:30 offended someone, you can ask for

8:30 offended someone, you can ask for forgiveness.

8:32 forgiveness.

8:32 forgiveness. If you've done something wrong, you can

8:34 If you've done something wrong, you can

8:34 If you've done something wrong, you can try your best to make up for it in other

8:35 try your best to make up for it in other

8:35 try your best to make up for it in other ways. If you've had something horrible

8:37 ways. If you've had something horrible

8:37 ways. If you've had something horrible happen to you, you may not be able to

8:38 happen to you, you may not be able to

8:38 happen to you, you may not be able to change it. You lost somebody important

8:40 change it. You lost somebody important

8:40 change it. You lost somebody important in your life. You may not be able to get

8:41 in your life. You may not be able to get

8:41 in your life. You may not be able to get that person back or resurrect them from

8:43 that person back or resurrect them from

8:43 that person back or resurrect them from the grave. But you can always try to

8:45 the grave. But you can always try to

8:45 the grave. But you can always try to control your circumstances. Look for the

8:47 control your circumstances. Look for the

8:47 control your circumstances. Look for the silver lining. Think of the things that

8:48 silver lining. Think of the things that

8:48 silver lining. Think of the things that you're grateful for. Change your

8:50 you're grateful for. Change your

8:50 you're grateful for. Change your attitude. I promise you that all of it

8:52 attitude. I promise you that all of it

8:52 attitude. I promise you that all of it sounds cliche and I repeat it over and

8:54 sounds cliche and I repeat it over and

8:54 sounds cliche and I repeat it over and over. Some people have been like, "Oh,

8:55 over. Some people have been like, "Oh,

8:55 over. Some people have been like, "Oh, come on, man. Oh, be positive." Yeah.

8:56 come on, man. Oh, be positive." Yeah.

8:56 come on, man. Oh, be positive." Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. I promise you that it works.

8:59 Yeah. Yeah. I promise you that it works.

8:59 Yeah. Yeah. I promise you that it works. I promise you, promise you, promise you

9:01 I promise you, promise you, promise you

9:01 I promise you, promise you, promise you that it works. I was married

9:04 that it works. I was married

9:04 that it works. I was married for 11 years. I was 100% 100% completely

9:08 for 11 years. I was 100% 100% completely

9:08 for 11 years. I was 100% 100% completely devoted to one person for years to the

9:11 devoted to one person for years to the

9:11 devoted to one person for years to the point where I really I really didn't

9:12 point where I really I really didn't

9:12 point where I really I really didn't have a lot of friends that I hung out

9:13 have a lot of friends that I hung out

9:13 have a lot of friends that I hung out with a lot of all the time on a daily

9:15 with a lot of all the time on a daily

9:15 with a lot of all the time on a daily basis.

9:17 basis.

9:17 basis. Very very very devoted, very very

9:19 Very very very devoted, very very

9:19 Very very very devoted, very very specific. I was sick and ill for years

9:20 specific. I was sick and ill for years

9:20 specific. I was sick and ill for years and years and years, too. So, I became

9:22 and years and years, too. So, I became

9:22 and years and years, too. So, I became the de facto stayathome parent part of

9:25 the de facto stayathome parent part of

9:25 the de facto stayathome parent part of being married with one child. I was ill.

9:29 being married with one child. I was ill.

9:29 being married with one child. I was ill. So, my entire universe revolved around

9:32 So, my entire universe revolved around

9:32 So, my entire universe revolved around my life as it was in this little tiny

9:35 my life as it was in this little tiny

9:35 my life as it was in this little tiny bubble. After 11 years, which I mean

9:38 bubble. After 11 years, which I mean

9:38 bubble. After 11 years, which I mean this is we're talking about starting to

9:40 this is we're talking about starting to

9:40 this is we're talking about starting to date this person in high school. After

9:41 date this person in high school. After

9:41 date this person in high school. After 11 years, turns out this person really

9:44 11 years, turns out this person really

9:44 11 years, turns out this person really just didn't like me so much. That's

9:45 just didn't like me so much. That's

9:46 just didn't like me so much. That's really what it was at the end of the

9:47 really what it was at the end of the

9:47 really what it was at the end of the day. But rather than handling it in a

9:49 day. But rather than handling it in a

9:49 day. But rather than handling it in a good way, the other person handled it in

9:51 good way, the other person handled it in

9:52 good way, the other person handled it in a terrible way. I'm The intention is not

9:53 a terrible way. I'm The intention is not

9:53 a terrible way. I'm The intention is not to talk crap on anybody. I'm not bitter.

9:55 to talk crap on anybody. I'm not bitter.

9:55 to talk crap on anybody. I'm not bitter. I'm not trying to say anything angry or

9:56 I'm not trying to say anything angry or

9:56 I'm not trying to say anything angry or negative. You don't have to go try and

9:57 negative. You don't have to go try and

9:57 negative. You don't have to go try and find a Google my ex or be negative. I'm

10:00 find a Google my ex or be negative. I'm

10:00 find a Google my ex or be negative. I'm not even trying to bash anybody. I'm

10:02 not even trying to bash anybody. I'm

10:02 not even trying to bash anybody. I'm just talking about what happens to

10:03 just talking about what happens to

10:03 just talking about what happens to illustrate a point because I want you to

10:04 illustrate a point because I want you to

10:04 illustrate a point because I want you to know that in this instance, for once, I

10:07 know that in this instance, for once, I

10:07 know that in this instance, for once, I actually know what I'm talking about.

10:10 actually know what I'm talking about.

10:10 actually know what I'm talking about. Rather than telling me this, this person

10:12 Rather than telling me this, this person

10:12 Rather than telling me this, this person decided that it was a good idea to just

10:13 decided that it was a good idea to just

10:13 decided that it was a good idea to just go around and do whatever the heck they

10:15 go around and do whatever the heck they

10:15 go around and do whatever the heck they want. You can fill in the blanks there.

10:17 want. You can fill in the blanks there.

10:17 want. You can fill in the blanks there. grown-ups, children. It means that she

10:18 grown-ups, children. It means that she

10:18 grown-ups, children. It means that she was out dancing

10:21 was out dancing

10:22 was out dancing for a long time without telling me.

10:25 for a long time without telling me.

10:25 for a long time without telling me. Anyway, by the time I was only informed

10:28 Anyway, by the time I was only informed

10:28 Anyway, by the time I was only informed that, oh, we we maybe we should not be

10:29 that, oh, we we maybe we should not be

10:30 that, oh, we we maybe we should not be married anymore. I spent 6 months trying

10:32 married anymore. I spent 6 months trying

10:32 married anymore. I spent 6 months trying to do my best, do everything I could

10:34 to do my best, do everything I could

10:34 to do my best, do everything I could because I didn't believe in divorce. I

10:36 because I didn't believe in divorce. I

10:36 because I didn't believe in divorce. I didn't believe in all these things to

10:37 didn't believe in all these things to

10:37 didn't believe in all these things to try and save it. I was very devoted to

10:39 try and save it. I was very devoted to

10:39 try and save it. I was very devoted to this person. I cared about this person a

10:40 this person. I cared about this person a

10:40 this person. I cared about this person a lot. And it was all for no reason cuz at

10:44 lot. And it was all for no reason cuz at

10:44 lot. And it was all for no reason cuz at the end of that 6 months after trying

10:45 the end of that 6 months after trying

10:45 the end of that 6 months after trying and trying going I have done literally

10:47 and trying going I have done literally

10:47 and trying going I have done literally every possible thing here to try to save

10:50 every possible thing here to try to save

10:50 every possible thing here to try to save this. I don't understand why none of

10:52 this. I don't understand why none of

10:52 this. I don't understand why none of this is working. It all came out that

10:53 this is working. It all came out that

10:54 this is working. It all came out that the person had been dancing around

10:56 the person had been dancing around

10:56 the person had been dancing around smooching with everybody and just was

10:58 smooching with everybody and just was

10:58 smooching with everybody and just was completely over and had been over it for

11:00 completely over and had been over it for

11:00 completely over and had been over it for a very very very long time. So, not only

11:03 a very very very long time. So, not only

11:03 a very very very long time. So, not only had I sort of sacrificed and from my

11:05 had I sort of sacrificed and from my

11:05 had I sort of sacrificed and from my perspective, there's always two sides of

11:06 perspective, there's always two sides of

11:06 perspective, there's always two sides of every story, a lot to be the

11:09 every story, a lot to be the

11:09 every story, a lot to be the stay-at-home person and support the

11:10 stay-at-home person and support the

11:10 stay-at-home person and support the other person's career and not have a

11:12 other person's career and not have a

11:12 other person's career and not have a career of my own and stay home with the

11:13 career of my own and stay home with the

11:13 career of my own and stay home with the family and all this stuff, which by the

11:15 family and all this stuff, which by the

11:15 family and all this stuff, which by the way does not come with a pension or a

11:16 way does not come with a pension or a

11:16 way does not come with a pension or a retirement plan. There is no severance

11:18 retirement plan. There is no severance

11:18 retirement plan. There is no severance package for that.

11:21 package for that.

11:21 package for that. Not only did all that happen, but I

11:22 Not only did all that happen, but I

11:22 Not only did all that happen, but I lost, you know, basically the only

11:24 lost, you know, basically the only

11:24 lost, you know, basically the only person who I was close to. I had to lose

11:28 person who I was close to. I had to lose

11:28 person who I was close to. I had to lose my car, my house, everything gone.

11:30 my car, my house, everything gone.

11:30 my car, my house, everything gone. everything gone. And it was pretty

11:33 everything gone. And it was pretty

11:33 everything gone. And it was pretty terrible. It was a pretty terrible,

11:36 terrible. It was a pretty terrible,

11:36 terrible. It was a pretty terrible, horrible, awful situation because like I

11:40 horrible, awful situation because like I

11:40 horrible, awful situation because like I said, I had devoted myself to the one

11:41 said, I had devoted myself to the one

11:41 said, I had devoted myself to the one person when you're married and married

11:43 person when you're married and married

11:43 person when you're married and married people will understand this. It's not

11:45 people will understand this. It's not

11:45 people will understand this. It's not that your friends aren't important or

11:46 that your friends aren't important or

11:46 that your friends aren't important or you don't care about your friends, but

11:47 you don't care about your friends, but

11:47 you don't care about your friends, but they are not the priority. So, you don't

11:50 they are not the priority. So, you don't

11:50 they are not the priority. So, you don't have a lot of close friends after a

11:51 have a lot of close friends after a

11:51 have a lot of close friends after a while. You may have a select few, but

11:53 while. You may have a select few, but

11:53 while. You may have a select few, but really you're devoted to the one person.

11:55 really you're devoted to the one person.

11:55 really you're devoted to the one person. You always have a plan with the one

11:56 You always have a plan with the one

11:56 You always have a plan with the one person. You're always going somewhere

11:57 person. You're always going somewhere

11:57 person. You're always going somewhere with the one. Your whole life revolves

11:59 with the one. Your whole life revolves

11:59 with the one. Your whole life revolves around this tiny little bubble basically

12:04 around this tiny little bubble basically

12:04 around this tiny little bubble basically was the only person I had ever been

12:05 was the only person I had ever been

12:05 was the only person I had ever been with. I had never been with anybody else

12:06 with. I had never been with anybody else

12:06 with. I had never been with anybody else before. I have not been with anybody

12:08 before. I have not been with anybody

12:08 before. I have not been with anybody else since in a romantic uh you know you

12:12 else since in a romantic uh you know you

12:12 else since in a romantic uh you know you know what I'm talking about grown-ups.

12:13 know what I'm talking about grown-ups.

12:14 know what I'm talking about grown-ups. You know what I'm talking about. So it

12:15 You know what I'm talking about. So it

12:15 You know what I'm talking about. So it was a little bubble that I lived in

12:16 was a little bubble that I lived in

12:16 was a little bubble that I lived in there for a long time. And when it burst

12:18 there for a long time. And when it burst

12:18 there for a long time. And when it burst unexpectedly and this person is the

12:21 unexpectedly and this person is the

12:21 unexpectedly and this person is the closest person to you in the world

12:22 closest person to you in the world

12:22 closest person to you in the world almost in a extremely cruel way

12:26 almost in a extremely cruel way

12:26 almost in a extremely cruel way did I learn about all this stuff and

12:28 did I learn about all this stuff and

12:28 did I learn about all this stuff and since then by the way there is

12:29 since then by the way there is

12:29 since then by the way there is absolutely no remorse no nothing being

12:32 absolutely no remorse no nothing being

12:32 absolutely no remorse no nothing being friendly now things are getting cool

12:34 friendly now things are getting cool

12:34 friendly now things are getting cool with the being nice and all that but it

12:37 with the being nice and all that but it

12:37 with the being nice and all that but it was it was not cool it was not a cool

12:39 was it was not cool it was not a cool

12:39 was it was not cool it was not a cool thing that happened funny cuz Tyler was

12:40 thing that happened funny cuz Tyler was

12:40 thing that happened funny cuz Tyler was my roommate so Tyler watched all this

12:42 my roommate so Tyler watched all this

12:42 my roommate so Tyler watched all this craziness go down and watched me you

12:44 craziness go down and watched me you

12:44 craziness go down and watched me you know basically

12:46 know basically

12:46 know basically about to sink into a crazy pit of

12:48 about to sink into a crazy pit of

12:48 about to sink into a crazy pit of despair. I had spent years of my life

12:49 despair. I had spent years of my life

12:49 despair. I had spent years of my life before that while I was ill, while I was

12:51 before that while I was ill, while I was

12:51 before that while I was ill, while I was sick or frustrated about things, always

12:54 sick or frustrated about things, always

12:54 sick or frustrated about things, always channeling everything that happened to

12:56 channeling everything that happened to

12:56 channeling everything that happened to me into a negative. Usually, I'm the

12:58 me into a negative. Usually, I'm the

12:58 me into a negative. Usually, I'm the type of person who takes it out on

13:00 type of person who takes it out on

13:00 type of person who takes it out on myself rather than other people. So,

13:01 myself rather than other people. So,

13:01 myself rather than other people. So, I'll internalize it. I'll get very very

13:03 I'll internalize it. I'll get very very

13:03 I'll internalize it. I'll get very very depressed or I'll get very very angry. I

13:05 depressed or I'll get very very angry. I

13:05 depressed or I'll get very very angry. I would sometimes channel that into songs

13:07 would sometimes channel that into songs

13:07 would sometimes channel that into songs and playing shows and being angry and

13:08 and playing shows and being angry and

13:08 and playing shows and being angry and being cool and punk rock. So, I usually

13:11 being cool and punk rock. So, I usually

13:11 being cool and punk rock. So, I usually internalize it, get all very, very

13:12 internalize it, get all very, very

13:12 internalize it, get all very, very depressed, very, very sad, and very,

13:13 depressed, very, very sad, and very,

13:14 depressed, very, very sad, and very, very fatalistic. There's nothing I can

13:15 very fatalistic. There's nothing I can

13:16 very fatalistic. There's nothing I can do about it, right? There's nothing I

13:18 do about it, right? There's nothing I

13:18 do about it, right? There's nothing I can do about it. I'm just going to be

13:19 can do about it. I'm just going to be

13:19 can do about it. I'm just going to be sad. I'm just going to be depressed.

13:20 sad. I'm just going to be depressed.

13:20 sad. I'm just going to be depressed. There's nothing I can do about it. But

13:22 There's nothing I can do about it. But

13:22 There's nothing I can do about it. But this was a biggie. This was a biggie.

13:24 this was a biggie. This was a biggie.

13:24 this was a biggie. This was a biggie. This happened last year on Valentine's

13:26 This happened last year on Valentine's

13:26 This happened last year on Valentine's Day, by the way. It was a huge bomb

13:31 Day, by the way. It was a huge bomb

13:31 Day, by the way. It was a huge bomb exploding in your life. Every single

13:32 exploding in your life. Every single

13:32 exploding in your life. Every single piece of my life changed. Every single

13:35 piece of my life changed. Every single

13:35 piece of my life changed. Every single everything that I knew, the ground under

13:36 everything that I knew, the ground under

13:36 everything that I knew, the ground under my feet gone. Kaboom.

13:40 my feet gone. Kaboom.

13:40 my feet gone. Kaboom. gone. And listen, I know a lot of you

13:41 gone. And listen, I know a lot of you

13:41 gone. And listen, I know a lot of you have been through some breakups. You're

13:42 have been through some breakups. You're

13:42 have been through some breakups. You're thinking, "Oh, come on, man. I've been

13:43 thinking, "Oh, come on, man. I've been

13:43 thinking, "Oh, come on, man. I've been through a million breakups. What's the

13:44 through a million breakups. What's the

13:44 through a million breakups. What's the big deal?" Well, a lost toy is of no

13:47 big deal?" Well, a lost toy is of no

13:47 big deal?" Well, a lost toy is of no consequence to a king, and a lost crown

13:49 consequence to a king, and a lost crown

13:49 consequence to a king, and a lost crown is of no consequence to a child, but

13:51 is of no consequence to a child, but

13:51 is of no consequence to a child, but it's of great consequence to the

13:52 it's of great consequence to the

13:52 it's of great consequence to the individuals involved. That's

13:53 individuals involved. That's

13:53 individuals involved. That's paraphrasing poorly, Mark Twain, but

13:55 paraphrasing poorly, Mark Twain, but

13:56 paraphrasing poorly, Mark Twain, but it's true. In my world, it was a

13:58 it's true. In my world, it was a

13:58 it's true. In my world, it was a humongous, horrible, heartbreaking

14:01 humongous, horrible, heartbreaking

14:01 humongous, horrible, heartbreaking explosion. It was also very practically

14:03 explosion. It was also very practically

14:03 explosion. It was also very practically difficult. So, I had to make the choice.

14:05 difficult. So, I had to make the choice.

14:05 difficult. So, I had to make the choice. I had to make the choice. I'm either

14:06 I had to make the choice. I'm either

14:06 I had to make the choice. I'm either going to literally give up. I'd already

14:09 going to literally give up. I'd already

14:09 going to literally give up. I'd already started doing random land. I think I had

14:10 started doing random land. I think I had

14:10 started doing random land. I think I had done one or two sometimes vlogs to the

14:13 done one or two sometimes vlogs to the

14:13 done one or two sometimes vlogs to the point where all of this really was like,

14:14 point where all of this really was like,

14:14 point where all of this really was like, "Oh, this isn't going to work. This is

14:16 "Oh, this isn't going to work. This is

14:16 "Oh, this isn't going to work. This is really over. There is no amount of

14:17 really over. There is no amount of

14:17 really over. There is no amount of effort that can save this."

14:20 effort that can save this."

14:20 effort that can save this." And I had to choose. Do I just let all

14:21 And I had to choose. Do I just let all

14:21 And I had to choose. Do I just let all this die, go away, walk away from

14:24 this die, go away, walk away from

14:24 this die, go away, walk away from everything, just go be miserable

14:25 everything, just go be miserable

14:25 everything, just go be miserable somewhere, curl up in a ball, and die?

14:27 somewhere, curl up in a ball, and die?

14:27 somewhere, curl up in a ball, and die? Or do I choose

14:30 Or do I choose

14:30 Or do I choose to have control over the only thing I

14:32 to have control over the only thing I

14:32 to have control over the only thing I can have control of, which is to try to

14:33 can have control of, which is to try to

14:34 can have control of, which is to try to have control of my reaction? So for the

14:35 have control of my reaction? So for the

14:35 have control of my reaction? So for the past almost a year I have been

14:38 past almost a year I have been

14:38 past almost a year I have been struggling very mightily

14:41 struggling very mightily

14:41 struggling very mightily against being depressed, against being

14:43 against being depressed, against being

14:44 against being depressed, against being angry, against being bitter, uh you know

14:47 angry, against being bitter, uh you know

14:47 angry, against being bitter, uh you know against poverty,

14:50 against poverty,

14:50 against poverty, against circumstance, against anger, all

14:52 against circumstance, against anger, all

14:52 against circumstance, against anger, all that kind of stuff. And I'm telling you

14:54 that kind of stuff. And I'm telling you

14:54 that kind of stuff. And I'm telling you all this stuff that I talk about in

14:56 all this stuff that I talk about in

14:56 all this stuff that I talk about in terms of you have to get up every day

14:57 terms of you have to get up every day

14:58 terms of you have to get up every day and make up your mind. I'm not going to

14:59 and make up your mind. I'm not going to

14:59 and make up your mind. I'm not going to be negative today. I'm going to be

15:00 be negative today. I'm going to be

15:00 be negative today. I'm going to be positive today. I'm going to do

15:01 positive today. I'm going to do

15:01 positive today. I'm going to do everything possible within my power to

15:03 everything possible within my power to

15:03 everything possible within my power to try my best to love everybody that I

15:06 try my best to love everybody that I

15:06 try my best to love everybody that I can. That's my first rule.

15:09 can. That's my first rule.

15:09 can. That's my first rule. To forgive everything that comes across

15:10 To forgive everything that comes across

15:10 To forgive everything that comes across my path that I don't like. I'm going to

15:12 my path that I don't like. I'm going to

15:12 my path that I don't like. I'm going to try my best to forgive everybody. I'm

15:14 try my best to forgive everybody. I'm

15:14 try my best to forgive everybody. I'm going to try my best to pour everything

15:15 going to try my best to pour everything

15:15 going to try my best to pour everything that I've got into my friends and the

15:17 that I've got into my friends and the

15:17 that I've got into my friends and the people around me. Sometimes to the point

15:19 people around me. Sometimes to the point

15:20 people around me. Sometimes to the point of exhaustion. Sometimes that can be a

15:21 of exhaustion. Sometimes that can be a

15:21 of exhaustion. Sometimes that can be a negative, but for, you know, in general,

15:23 negative, but for, you know, in general,

15:23 negative, but for, you know, in general, that's a good thing to do is try to put

15:24 that's a good thing to do is try to put

15:24 that's a good thing to do is try to put other people before myself and try to

15:26 other people before myself and try to

15:26 other people before myself and try to put my problems. Wow,

15:28 put my problems. Wow,

15:28 put my problems. Wow, that guy's got a sweet bandana. I want

15:30 that guy's got a sweet bandana. I want

15:30 that guy's got a sweet bandana. I want to sweep it, man. So, anyway, that is in

15:33 to sweep it, man. So, anyway, that is in

15:33 to sweep it, man. So, anyway, that is in paraphrase as detailed as I'm going to

15:34 paraphrase as detailed as I'm going to

15:34 paraphrase as detailed as I'm going to make it. Honestly, it was a lot gnarlier

15:36 make it. Honestly, it was a lot gnarlier

15:36 make it. Honestly, it was a lot gnarlier than that. And there was a heck of a lot

15:37 than that. And there was a heck of a lot

15:37 than that. And there was a heck of a lot more tragic, horrible incidents and

15:41 more tragic, horrible incidents and

15:41 more tragic, horrible incidents and crazy things that really made that a lot

15:43 crazy things that really made that a lot

15:43 crazy things that really made that a lot harder than I just made it sound. But I

15:46 harder than I just made it sound. But I

15:46 harder than I just made it sound. But I really, that's as much as I can say, and

15:47 really, that's as much as I can say, and

15:47 really, that's as much as I can say, and it's taken me almost a year to say it

15:49 it's taken me almost a year to say it

15:49 it's taken me almost a year to say it because I just don't I don't feel like

15:52 because I just don't I don't feel like

15:52 because I just don't I don't feel like reliving it, number one. And number two,

15:54 reliving it, number one. And number two,

15:54 reliving it, number one. And number two, I don't really feel like talking badly

15:55 I don't really feel like talking badly

15:56 I don't really feel like talking badly about another person where if another

15:57 about another person where if another

15:57 about another person where if another person did something horrible to you,

15:58 person did something horrible to you,

15:58 person did something horrible to you, it's kind of hard to tell the story

15:59 it's kind of hard to tell the story

15:59 it's kind of hard to tell the story without talking badly about them and I

16:01 without talking badly about them and I

16:01 without talking badly about them and I really didn't want to talk about while I

16:02 really didn't want to talk about while I

16:02 really didn't want to talk about while I was bitter. And honestly, at the end of

16:04 was bitter. And honestly, at the end of

16:04 was bitter. And honestly, at the end of the day now, just in case you were

16:06 the day now, just in case you were

16:06 the day now, just in case you were concerned, ma'am,

16:08 concerned, ma'am,

16:08 concerned, ma'am, I'm really glad because it turns out if

16:11 I'm really glad because it turns out if

16:11 I'm really glad because it turns out if the person doesn't like you that much,

16:12 the person doesn't like you that much,

16:12 the person doesn't like you that much, they don't have to be with you. Nobody

16:13 they don't have to be with you. Nobody

16:13 they don't have to be with you. Nobody has to be with anybody. You know what I

16:15 has to be with anybody. You know what I

16:15 has to be with anybody. You know what I mean? There's just ways to go about it.

16:17 mean? There's just ways to go about it.

16:17 mean? There's just ways to go about it. And those ways were not the correct ways

16:19 And those ways were not the correct ways

16:19 And those ways were not the correct ways in my humble opinion.

16:22 in my humble opinion.

16:22 in my humble opinion. Anyway, so there you go. So, I know what

16:24 Anyway, so there you go. So, I know what

16:24 Anyway, so there you go. So, I know what I'm talking about. I know I very much

16:26 I'm talking about. I know I very much

16:26 I'm talking about. I know I very much understand and sympathize when you guys

16:27 understand and sympathize when you guys

16:27 understand and sympathize when you guys send me letters about the struggle.

16:29 send me letters about the struggle.

16:29 send me letters about the struggle. You're talking about depression. You're

16:30 You're talking about depression. You're

16:30 You're talking about depression. You're talking about mental illness. You're

16:32 talking about mental illness. You're

16:32 talking about mental illness. You're talking about whether caused you, you

16:34 talking about whether caused you, you

16:34 talking about whether caused you, you know, temporary mental illness caused by

16:36 know, temporary mental illness caused by

16:36 know, temporary mental illness caused by anguish and a stressful situation or

16:38 anguish and a stressful situation or

16:38 anguish and a stressful situation or some ongoing thing. Plenty of family

16:40 some ongoing thing. Plenty of family

16:40 some ongoing thing. Plenty of family members and close people of mine, close

16:43 members and close people of mine, close

16:43 members and close people of mine, close close people to me with those kind of

16:45 close people to me with those kind of

16:46 close people to me with those kind of issues, breakups, grieving, losing

16:48 issues, breakups, grieving, losing

16:48 issues, breakups, grieving, losing people. I've had people commit suicide

16:50 people. I've had people commit suicide

16:50 people. I've had people commit suicide in my life. I've had people die. So, I

16:52 in my life. I've had people die. So, I

16:52 in my life. I've had people die. So, I very very much sympathize and understand

16:55 very very much sympathize and understand

16:55 very very much sympathize and understand with what you're talking about. And

16:56 with what you're talking about. And

16:56 with what you're talking about. And honestly, it's very touching,

16:59 honestly, it's very touching,

16:59 honestly, it's very touching, sincerely, very touching to me that you

17:01 sincerely, very touching to me that you

17:01 sincerely, very touching to me that you guys feel like you can open up and say

17:03 guys feel like you can open up and say

17:03 guys feel like you can open up and say that kind of stuff to me to few of you

17:04 that kind of stuff to me to few of you

17:04 that kind of stuff to me to few of you that have written letters like that. I

17:05 that have written letters like that. I

17:05 that have written letters like that. I really, really appreciate it. I just

17:07 really, really appreciate it. I just

17:07 really, really appreciate it. I just want you to know that's why I'm sharing

17:09 want you to know that's why I'm sharing

17:09 want you to know that's why I'm sharing back. It's a little bit different than

17:11 back. It's a little bit different than

17:11 back. It's a little bit different than most sometimes vlogs. Tomorrow, we'll

17:12 most sometimes vlogs. Tomorrow, we'll

17:12 most sometimes vlogs. Tomorrow, we'll just be wacky and silly. We'll run

17:13 just be wacky and silly. We'll run

17:13 just be wacky and silly. We'll run around and we'll make all kinds of

17:14 around and we'll make all kinds of

17:14 around and we'll make all kinds of jokes, which I'm sure will accidentally

17:16 jokes, which I'm sure will accidentally

17:16 jokes, which I'm sure will accidentally offend somebody out there.

17:18 offend somebody out there.

17:18 offend somebody out there. But I just wanted to give a little back,

17:20 But I just wanted to give a little back,

17:20 But I just wanted to give a little back, open up a little, as much as I can. I'm

17:22 open up a little, as much as I can. I'm

17:22 open up a little, as much as I can. I'm sorry I can't say more and be more

17:24 sorry I can't say more and be more

17:24 sorry I can't say more and be more specific and be completely open book.

17:25 specific and be completely open book.

17:25 specific and be completely open book. I'm a pretty open book with about 99% of

17:28 I'm a pretty open book with about 99% of

17:28 I'm a pretty open book with about 99% of my life, but just involves other people.

17:30 my life, but just involves other people.

17:30 my life, but just involves other people. Like I said, I have a child. I would

17:31 Like I said, I have a child. I would

17:31 Like I said, I have a child. I would never want to say anything bad about my

17:33 never want to say anything bad about my

17:33 never want to say anything bad about my own child's mother or get too specific,

17:35 own child's mother or get too specific,

17:35 own child's mother or get too specific, but I just wanted you to know that I

17:37 but I just wanted you to know that I

17:37 but I just wanted you to know that I have experienced quite a few crazy

17:41 have experienced quite a few crazy

17:41 have experienced quite a few crazy hardships in recent times. And I do know

17:44 hardships in recent times. And I do know

17:44 hardships in recent times. And I do know that this stuff works. So, number one,

17:47 that this stuff works. So, number one,

17:47 that this stuff works. So, number one, gratefulness. I said that before. So, I

17:49 gratefulness. I said that before. So, I

17:49 gratefulness. I said that before. So, I think you guys talked about that around

17:50 think you guys talked about that around

17:50 think you guys talked about that around Thanksgiving time, of course. Look for

17:53 Thanksgiving time, of course. Look for

17:53 Thanksgiving time, of course. Look for things to be grateful for. Every

17:54 things to be grateful for. Every

17:54 things to be grateful for. Every psychologist, every counselor will tell

17:56 psychologist, every counselor will tell

17:56 psychologist, every counselor will tell you the same exact thing. Look for

17:58 you the same exact thing. Look for

17:58 you the same exact thing. Look for things to be grateful for. Try your

17:59 things to be grateful for. Try your

17:59 things to be grateful for. Try your hardest honestly to list them out

18:01 hardest honestly to list them out

18:01 hardest honestly to list them out because it it's almost always true that

18:04 because it it's almost always true that

18:04 because it it's almost always true that it could be a lot worse. So, when you

18:07 it could be a lot worse. So, when you

18:07 it could be a lot worse. So, when you actually stop and think about, I know it

18:08 actually stop and think about, I know it

18:08 actually stop and think about, I know it sounds cliche. I know it's difficult.

18:09 sounds cliche. I know it's difficult.

18:09 sounds cliche. I know it's difficult. It's like when you're having a panic

18:10 It's like when you're having a panic

18:10 It's like when you're having a panic attack or something and people tell you,

18:11 attack or something and people tell you,

18:11 attack or something and people tell you, "Breathe." Oh, easy for you to say,

18:13 "Breathe." Oh, easy for you to say,

18:13 "Breathe." Oh, easy for you to say, right? But it really honestly does work

18:15 right? But it really honestly does work

18:15 right? But it really honestly does work if you could stop, think of the things

18:16 if you could stop, think of the things

18:16 if you could stop, think of the things you're grateful for, and honestly think

18:20 you're grateful for, and honestly think

18:20 you're grateful for, and honestly think this is what helped me a lot.

18:23 this is what helped me a lot.

18:23 this is what helped me a lot. I can't change what happened. I can't

18:26 I can't change what happened. I can't

18:26 I can't change what happened. I can't change the circumstance that I got put

18:27 change the circumstance that I got put

18:27 change the circumstance that I got put into. All I could control is, well,

18:31 into. All I could control is, well,

18:31 into. All I could control is, well, where do I want to be now? Well, you

18:33 where do I want to be now? Well, you

18:33 where do I want to be now? Well, you have to take it day by day. So, you have

18:34 have to take it day by day. So, you have

18:34 have to take it day by day. So, you have to work on this day by day, but hold on.

18:38 to work on this day by day, but hold on.

18:38 to work on this day by day, but hold on. Where do I want to be a year from now?

18:39 Where do I want to be a year from now?

18:39 Where do I want to be a year from now? Because sometimes it's really hard to

18:40 Because sometimes it's really hard to

18:40 Because sometimes it's really hard to see directly in front of you. You know

18:42 see directly in front of you. You know

18:42 see directly in front of you. You know what I mean? So you go where do I want

18:44 what I mean? So you go where do I want

18:44 what I mean? So you go where do I want to be a year from now? What if I'm a

18:46 to be a year from now? What if I'm a

18:46 to be a year from now? What if I'm a character? What kind of story do I want

18:48 character? What kind of story do I want

18:48 character? What kind of story do I want to write for myself a year from now? I

18:50 to write for myself a year from now? I

18:50 to write for myself a year from now? I would like to be happy. You know, I

18:51 would like to be happy. You know, I

18:51 would like to be happy. You know, I would like to have if I can't go

18:53 would like to have if I can't go

18:53 would like to have if I can't go backwards and have the life that I

18:55 backwards and have the life that I

18:55 backwards and have the life that I wanted to have. Well, what can I do now?

18:57 wanted to have. Well, what can I do now?

18:57 wanted to have. Well, what can I do now? What do I want in the future? How do I

18:59 What do I want in the future? How do I

18:59 What do I want in the future? How do I want to feel? What kind of life quality

19:02 want to feel? What kind of life quality

19:02 want to feel? What kind of life quality of life do you want to have? What do you

19:04 of life do you want to have? What do you

19:04 of life do you want to have? What do you want to accomplish?

19:06 want to accomplish?

19:06 want to accomplish? And then you try day by day to wake up.

19:09 And then you try day by day to wake up.

19:09 And then you try day by day to wake up. First, all I wanted to do was not be in

19:11 First, all I wanted to do was not be in

19:11 First, all I wanted to do was not be in pain to be honest with you. First, all I

19:13 pain to be honest with you. First, all I

19:13 pain to be honest with you. First, all I wanted to do was to not be stressed out,

19:15 wanted to do was to not be stressed out,

19:15 wanted to do was to not be stressed out, to not be in pain, to not feel like my

19:16 to not be in pain, to not feel like my

19:16 to not be in pain, to not feel like my entire world had exploded. To feel like

19:17 entire world had exploded. To feel like

19:18 entire world had exploded. To feel like there was ground underneath my feet. And

19:20 there was ground underneath my feet. And

19:20 there was ground underneath my feet. And so, I would wake up every day and go,

19:22 so, I would wake up every day and go,

19:22 so, I would wake up every day and go, I'm not going to let this destroy me. I

19:25 I'm not going to let this destroy me. I

19:25 I'm not going to let this destroy me. I am not going to be negative. I'm not

19:27 am not going to be negative. I'm not

19:27 am not going to be negative. I'm not going to be bitter. I'm going to really

19:29 going to be bitter. I'm going to really

19:29 going to be bitter. I'm going to really try not to be angry. Anger was the

19:30 try not to be angry. Anger was the

19:30 try not to be angry. Anger was the hardest thing to get rid of, to be

19:31 hardest thing to get rid of, to be

19:31 hardest thing to get rid of, to be honest. That was the hardest one. Being

19:34 honest. That was the hardest one. Being

19:34 honest. That was the hardest one. Being hurt, being sad, and missing that

19:36 hurt, being sad, and missing that

19:36 hurt, being sad, and missing that person. That went away actually pretty

19:37 person. That went away actually pretty

19:37 person. That went away actually pretty pretty quickly. It was the anger. the

19:41 pretty quickly. It was the anger. the

19:41 pretty quickly. It was the anger. the anger, the sense of injustice because it

19:43 anger, the sense of injustice because it

19:43 anger, the sense of injustice because it was unfair. But you know what? Life

19:45 was unfair. But you know what? Life

19:45 was unfair. But you know what? Life isn't fair. I used to teach my son that

19:47 isn't fair. I used to teach my son that

19:47 isn't fair. I used to teach my son that that's a bad word because nothing is

19:49 that's a bad word because nothing is

19:49 that's a bad word because nothing is fair. There is no fair, right? Let's

19:52 fair. There is no fair, right? Let's

19:52 fair. There is no fair, right? Let's just sit down here. It's actually kind

19:53 just sit down here. It's actually kind

19:53 just sit down here. It's actually kind of nice, beautiful day.

19:56 of nice, beautiful day.

19:56 of nice, beautiful day. So that was the first thing. So I'd wake

19:57 So that was the first thing. So I'd wake

19:57 So that was the first thing. So I'd wake up every day and go, I'm not going to

19:58 up every day and go, I'm not going to

19:58 up every day and go, I'm not going to let this control me. I'm going to do my

20:00 let this control me. I'm going to do my

20:00 let this control me. I'm going to do my best to control it. And let me tell you,

20:02 best to control it. And let me tell you,

20:02 best to control it. And let me tell you, for the first several weeks, it was

20:05 for the first several weeks, it was

20:05 for the first several weeks, it was absolutely fake it till you make it.

20:06 absolutely fake it till you make it.

20:06 absolutely fake it till you make it. 100% fake it till you make it. In fact,

20:08 100% fake it till you make it. In fact,

20:08 100% fake it till you make it. In fact, that was why I was referring to you last

20:10 that was why I was referring to you last

20:10 that was why I was referring to you last week when I was saying that sometimes

20:11 week when I was saying that sometimes

20:11 week when I was saying that sometimes you have to stop though. You have to

20:13 you have to stop though. You have to

20:13 you have to stop though. You have to stop doing that and say, "Okay, some bad

20:15 stop doing that and say, "Okay, some bad

20:15 stop doing that and say, "Okay, some bad things have happened to me." Because

20:17 things have happened to me." Because

20:17 things have happened to me." Because otherwise, you're going to get

20:17 otherwise, you're going to get

20:17 otherwise, you're going to get disappointed when you start to fail at

20:19 disappointed when you start to fail at

20:19 disappointed when you start to fail at being positive. You're going to go, "Ah,

20:21 being positive. You're going to go, "Ah,

20:21 being positive. You're going to go, "Ah, I had a really bad day today. I sucked

20:22 I had a really bad day today. I sucked

20:22 I had a really bad day today. I sucked at being positive. I suck." No, you

20:25 at being positive. I suck." No, you

20:25 at being positive. I suck." No, you don't. Just recognize bad things happen

20:27 don't. Just recognize bad things happen

20:27 don't. Just recognize bad things happen to you. Stress builds up. Sometimes

20:29 to you. Stress builds up. Sometimes

20:29 to you. Stress builds up. Sometimes stress builds up on us. We don't even

20:30 stress builds up on us. We don't even

20:30 stress builds up on us. We don't even notice it. We had a hard day at work.

20:31 notice it. We had a hard day at work.

20:31 notice it. We had a hard day at work. We've been doing a lot. We've doing a

20:32 We've been doing a lot. We've doing a

20:32 We've been doing a lot. We've doing a lot of positive stuff even, but we've

20:34 lot of positive stuff even, but we've

20:34 lot of positive stuff even, but we've been really burning ourselves out. It's

20:36 been really burning ourselves out. It's

20:36 been really burning ourselves out. It's all right to have bad days. You don't

20:37 all right to have bad days. You don't

20:37 all right to have bad days. You don't have to hate yourself for having a bad

20:38 have to hate yourself for having a bad

20:38 have to hate yourself for having a bad day. So, not hating yourself is probably

20:40 day. So, not hating yourself is probably

20:40 day. So, not hating yourself is probably number two. Be grateful. Choose every

20:42 number two. Be grateful. Choose every

20:42 number two. Be grateful. Choose every day. Or number three, whatever. There's

20:44 day. Or number three, whatever. There's

20:44 day. Or number three, whatever. There's no numbers. There's no there's no plan

20:45 no numbers. There's no there's no plan

20:45 no numbers. There's no there's no plan here. We're just all winging it. I'm

20:47 here. We're just all winging it. I'm

20:47 here. We're just all winging it. I'm just sharing with you some of what

20:49 just sharing with you some of what

20:49 just sharing with you some of what worked for me because apparently some of

20:51 worked for me because apparently some of

20:51 worked for me because apparently some of you were listening. Who knew? Um,

20:55 you were listening. Who knew? Um,

20:55 you were listening. Who knew? Um, but that was really it. Day by day by

20:57 but that was really it. Day by day by

20:57 but that was really it. Day by day by day. And I only talk about the beginning

20:58 day. And I only talk about the beginning

20:58 day. And I only talk about the beginning chunk of this because like I said, the

21:00 chunk of this because like I said, the

21:00 chunk of this because like I said, the letters, you can do it. I honestly do

21:03 letters, you can do it. I honestly do

21:03 letters, you can do it. I honestly do actually believe in you. Even those of

21:05 actually believe in you. Even those of

21:05 actually believe in you. Even those of you I do not know, I believe that you

21:06 you I do not know, I believe that you

21:06 you I do not know, I believe that you have the power

21:08 have the power

21:08 have the power to take control

21:11 to take control

21:11 to take control of your own reaction at least. And at

21:14 of your own reaction at least. And at

21:14 of your own reaction at least. And at the end of the day, speaking

21:15 the end of the day, speaking

21:15 the end of the day, speaking specifically to those of you who have

21:17 specifically to those of you who have

21:17 specifically to those of you who have either lost someone um

21:20 either lost someone um

21:20 either lost someone um through like a death or something like

21:21 through like a death or something like

21:21 through like a death or something like that or lost somebody in a breakup or

21:23 that or lost somebody in a breakup or

21:23 that or lost somebody in a breakup or someone you were really close to or you

21:26 someone you were really close to or you

21:26 someone you were really close to or you know that kind of a thing.

21:28 know that kind of a thing.

21:28 know that kind of a thing. Speaking specifically to the lonely

21:30 Speaking specifically to the lonely

21:30 Speaking specifically to the lonely people, at the end of the day, we cannot

21:32 people, at the end of the day, we cannot

21:32 people, at the end of the day, we cannot let other people be responsible for our

21:35 let other people be responsible for our

21:35 let other people be responsible for our happiness. Other people could definitely

21:37 happiness. Other people could definitely

21:37 happiness. Other people could definitely make you happy and other people could

21:38 make you happy and other people could

21:38 make you happy and other people could definitely make you miserable,

21:40 definitely make you miserable,

21:40 definitely make you miserable, but at the end of the day,

21:42 but at the end of the day,

21:42 but at the end of the day, it's really not fair to make somebody to

21:44 it's really not fair to make somebody to

21:44 it's really not fair to make somebody to yourself to make somebody else

21:46 yourself to make somebody else

21:46 yourself to make somebody else responsible for your happiness. You have

21:48 responsible for your happiness. You have

21:48 responsible for your happiness. You have to be responsible for your own happiness

21:50 to be responsible for your own happiness

21:50 to be responsible for your own happiness because you own yourself. You're in

21:52 because you own yourself. You're in

21:52 because you own yourself. You're in charge of yourself.

21:55 charge of yourself.

21:55 charge of yourself. So, that's a hard that's a it's an easy

21:57 So, that's a hard that's a it's an easy

21:57 So, that's a hard that's a it's an easy thing to say, but a very very hard thing

21:59 thing to say, but a very very hard thing

21:59 thing to say, but a very very hard thing to live and accept and take on board is

22:01 to live and accept and take on board is

22:01 to live and accept and take on board is that yes, you're lonely, you're single,

22:03 that yes, you're lonely, you're single,

22:03 that yes, you're lonely, you're single, or the person that you really wanted is

22:05 or the person that you really wanted is

22:05 or the person that you really wanted is gone. Or maybe you hate the person now,

22:06 gone. Or maybe you hate the person now,

22:06 gone. Or maybe you hate the person now, but they're gone. Or you miss someone

22:08 but they're gone. Or you miss someone

22:08 but they're gone. Or you miss someone who has died and you think, "How can I

22:09 who has died and you think, "How can I

22:09 who has died and you think, "How can I go on? That was my best friend that was

22:11 go on? That was my best friend that was

22:11 go on? That was my best friend that was the closest person to me or my mother or

22:12 the closest person to me or my mother or

22:12 the closest person to me or my mother or my father, my brother, my uncle,

22:14 my father, my brother, my uncle,

22:14 my father, my brother, my uncle, sister's cousin."

22:17 sister's cousin."

22:17 sister's cousin." Yes, a sad thing happened in all those

22:19 Yes, a sad thing happened in all those

22:19 Yes, a sad thing happened in all those situations, but at the end of the day,

22:21 situations, but at the end of the day,

22:21 situations, but at the end of the day, you have to recognize you do have the

22:22 you have to recognize you do have the

22:22 you have to recognize you do have the strength to be happy. You have the mater

22:24 strength to be happy. You have the mater

22:24 strength to be happy. You have the mater you have the raw material and the

22:26 you have the raw material and the

22:26 you have the raw material and the ability to be happy. If I'm not talking

22:28 ability to be happy. If I'm not talking

22:28 ability to be happy. If I'm not talking about a happy happily ever after kind of

22:31 about a happy happily ever after kind of

22:31 about a happy happily ever after kind of happy. I'm talking about an everyday.

22:33 happy. I'm talking about an everyday.

22:33 happy. I'm talking about an everyday. You have what it takes. I believe this.

22:36 You have what it takes. I believe this.

22:36 You have what it takes. I believe this. You have what it takes to get on your

22:39 You have what it takes to get on your

22:39 You have what it takes to get on your feet and change your circumstances. You

22:41 feet and change your circumstances. You

22:42 feet and change your circumstances. You have what it takes to find new friends,

22:44 have what it takes to find new friends,

22:44 have what it takes to find new friends, to meet new people, but ultimately you

22:46 to meet new people, but ultimately you

22:46 to meet new people, but ultimately you have what it takes to be content and

22:48 have what it takes to be content and

22:48 have what it takes to be content and happy within yourself. This is why

22:49 happy within yourself. This is why

22:49 happy within yourself. This is why material possessions are cool. Hey, I

22:51 material possessions are cool. Hey, I

22:51 material possessions are cool. Hey, I love this random land shirt that I

22:52 love this random land shirt that I

22:52 love this random land shirt that I bought. Look at it. It's awesome. I love

22:54 bought. Look at it. It's awesome. I love

22:54 bought. Look at it. It's awesome. I love these red socks. I like my car. I don't

22:57 these red socks. I like my car. I don't

22:57 these red socks. I like my car. I don't have a lot of money, so I don't have a

22:58 have a lot of money, so I don't have a

22:58 have a lot of money, so I don't have a lot of stuff. And I don't say it just

23:00 lot of stuff. And I don't say it just

23:00 lot of stuff. And I don't say it just because I'm bitter that I don't have a

23:01 because I'm bitter that I don't have a

23:01 because I'm bitter that I don't have a lot of stuff. Material possessions

23:02 lot of stuff. Material possessions

23:02 lot of stuff. Material possessions really can't make you content. They can

23:04 really can't make you content. They can

23:04 really can't make you content. They can make you happy. Cool. I got this

23:06 make you happy. Cool. I got this

23:06 make you happy. Cool. I got this lollipop. Yum, yum, yum. But it's not

23:08 lollipop. Yum, yum, yum. But it's not

23:08 lollipop. Yum, yum, yum. But it's not going to make you content. The lollipop

23:09 going to make you content. The lollipop

23:09 going to make you content. The lollipop will eventually go away. The cool new TV

23:11 will eventually go away. The cool new TV

23:11 will eventually go away. The cool new TV will eventually be the old TV that's not

23:13 will eventually be the old TV that's not

23:13 will eventually be the old TV that's not the the brand new HD TV anymore. The

23:17 the the brand new HD TV anymore. The

23:17 the the brand new HD TV anymore. The 1080p video won't make you happy because

23:18 1080p video won't make you happy because

23:18 1080p video won't make you happy because there's 4K videos around. So material

23:22 there's 4K videos around. So material

23:22 there's 4K videos around. So material possessions and things and objects can

23:23 possessions and things and objects can

23:23 possessions and things and objects can only make you happy for so long. And

23:25 only make you happy for so long. And

23:26 only make you happy for so long. And honestly, sometimes it's that way with

23:27 honestly, sometimes it's that way with

23:27 honestly, sometimes it's that way with people. I mean, even your best friends

23:28 people. I mean, even your best friends

23:28 people. I mean, even your best friends in your life are going to have days

23:29 in your life are going to have days

23:29 in your life are going to have days where they're grumpy or they're cranky

23:31 where they're grumpy or they're cranky

23:31 where they're grumpy or they're cranky and they're going to make you angry. So

23:33 and they're going to make you angry. So

23:33 and they're going to make you angry. So people will let you down. That's a fact.

23:35 people will let you down. That's a fact.

23:35 people will let you down. That's a fact. But believe we all have what it takes

23:37 But believe we all have what it takes

23:37 But believe we all have what it takes within us to not let ourselves down. To

23:39 within us to not let ourselves down. To

23:39 within us to not let ourselves down. To wake up every day, say, "All right, I'm

23:42 wake up every day, say, "All right, I'm

23:42 wake up every day, say, "All right, I'm going to do this. I'm not going to be

23:43 going to do this. I'm not going to be

23:43 going to do this. I'm not going to be negative. I'm not going to be positive.

23:44 negative. I'm not going to be positive.

23:44 negative. I'm not going to be positive. I'm not going to let it all get to me.

23:46 I'm not going to let it all get to me.

23:46 I'm not going to let it all get to me. At least to the point where I become a

23:47 At least to the point where I become a

23:47 At least to the point where I become a bad person. I can control my own story.

23:50 bad person. I can control my own story.

23:50 bad person. I can control my own story. I can't control my circumstances. Maybe

23:52 I can't control my circumstances. Maybe

23:52 I can't control my circumstances. Maybe I'll be put in a Guatemalan prison and

23:54 I'll be put in a Guatemalan prison and

23:54 I'll be put in a Guatemalan prison and tortured until I die, but I can't

23:56 tortured until I die, but I can't

23:56 tortured until I die, but I can't control how I react. Really, I can be

23:57 control how I react. Really, I can be

23:57 control how I react. Really, I can be either be a horrible bitter person while

23:58 either be a horrible bitter person while

23:58 either be a horrible bitter person while that's happening or try to, you know,

23:59 that's happening or try to, you know,

23:59 that's happening or try to, you know, put up with it.

24:02 put up with it.

24:02 put up with it. That's a crazy analogy, but you know

24:03 That's a crazy analogy, but you know

24:03 That's a crazy analogy, but you know what I mean. So, anyway, there's a bunch

24:06 what I mean. So, anyway, there's a bunch

24:06 what I mean. So, anyway, there's a bunch of emotionally

24:08 of emotionally

24:08 of emotionally charged sharing and opening things that

24:12 charged sharing and opening things that

24:12 charged sharing and opening things that I put in my diary on the internet

24:14 I put in my diary on the internet

24:14 I put in my diary on the internet partially. So, I hope you're happy. I

24:16 partially. So, I hope you're happy. I

24:16 partially. So, I hope you're happy. I hope you're happy. I like all of you a

24:19 hope you're happy. I like all of you a

24:19 hope you're happy. I like all of you a lot. I really appreciate all of you a

24:20 lot. I really appreciate all of you a

24:20 lot. I really appreciate all of you a lot. We're going to make some wacky

24:22 lot. We're going to make some wacky

24:22 lot. We're going to make some wacky videos. We're going to go back to

24:23 videos. We're going to go back to

24:23 videos. We're going to go back to Disneyland and talk about Disneyland

24:24 Disneyland and talk about Disneyland

24:24 Disneyland and talk about Disneyland history. We're going to hang out with

24:25 history. We're going to hang out with

24:25 history. We're going to hang out with all the gang. Jeff Heinbuck and Tyler

24:27 all the gang. Jeff Heinbuck and Tyler

24:27 all the gang. Jeff Heinbuck and Tyler sick boy Evans. He's actually has a

24:30 sick boy Evans. He's actually has a

24:30 sick boy Evans. He's actually has a cold. So, if you're watching this out of

24:31 cold. So, if you're watching this out of

24:31 cold. So, if you're watching this out of sequence or a week later, Tyler has a

24:33 sequence or a week later, Tyler has a

24:33 sequence or a week later, Tyler has a cold right now. I'm not saying he's sick

24:34 cold right now. I'm not saying he's sick

24:34 cold right now. I'm not saying he's sick in the head. Or is he? Well, we're all

24:37 in the head. Or is he? Well, we're all

24:37 in the head. Or is he? Well, we're all sick in the head. Really? We're all

24:39 sick in the head. Really? We're all

24:39 sick in the head. Really? We're all crazy. There is no normal. And Adam the

24:42 crazy. There is no normal. And Adam the

24:42 crazy. There is no normal. And Adam the Woo and all the whole gang. So, we'll be

24:43 Woo and all the whole gang. So, we'll be

24:43 Woo and all the whole gang. So, we'll be back doing silly things, interacting

24:45 back doing silly things, interacting

24:45 back doing silly things, interacting with these strangers. Maybe not these

24:46 with these strangers. Maybe not these

24:46 with these strangers. Maybe not these particular strangers, but strangers in

24:48 particular strangers, but strangers in

24:48 particular strangers, but strangers in general. and doing all kinds of

24:49 general. and doing all kinds of

24:49 general. and doing all kinds of wonderful things. But today, I just

24:51 wonderful things. But today, I just

24:51 wonderful things. But today, I just wanted to have a conversation. You and

24:54 wanted to have a conversation. You and

24:54 wanted to have a conversation. You and me, tell you some horribly personal

24:56 me, tell you some horribly personal

24:56 me, tell you some horribly personal things, but for the most part, I'm okay

24:58 things, but for the most part, I'm okay

24:58 things, but for the most part, I'm okay with them. I'm comfortable with my own

25:00 with them. I'm comfortable with my own

25:00 with them. I'm comfortable with my own life. It doesn't bother me

25:02 life. It doesn't bother me

25:02 life. It doesn't bother me anymore.

25:04 anymore.

25:04 anymore. So, there you go. The quest for

25:06 So, there you go. The quest for

25:06 So, there you go. The quest for positivity is very, very real. It's not

25:08 positivity is very, very real. It's not

25:08 positivity is very, very real. It's not like I woke up one day and somebody had

25:09 like I woke up one day and somebody had

25:09 like I woke up one day and somebody had slashed my tire and I started the quest

25:11 slashed my tire and I started the quest

25:11 slashed my tire and I started the quest for positivity because I was feeling a

25:13 for positivity because I was feeling a

25:13 for positivity because I was feeling a little grumpy. There was definitely some

25:14 little grumpy. There was definitely some

25:14 little grumpy. There was definitely some crazy stuff going on in my life. My

25:15 crazy stuff going on in my life. My

25:15 crazy stuff going on in my life. My whole world as I knew it from the age of

25:18 whole world as I knew it from the age of

25:18 whole world as I knew it from the age of 16 all the way up till 30 had exploded

25:21 16 all the way up till 30 had exploded

25:21 16 all the way up till 30 had exploded and blown up in my face. Shards of

25:24 and blown up in my face. Shards of

25:24 and blown up in my face. Shards of broken heart everywhere. You know,

25:26 broken heart everywhere. You know,

25:26 broken heart everywhere. You know, losing basically your family, your your

25:29 losing basically your family, your your

25:29 losing basically your family, your your job, everything all at the same time.

25:30 job, everything all at the same time.

25:30 job, everything all at the same time. Kind of your entire context of your life

25:33 Kind of your entire context of your life

25:33 Kind of your entire context of your life disappears and you're floating. It was a

25:35 disappears and you're floating. It was a

25:35 disappears and you're floating. It was a crazy situation.

25:37 crazy situation.

25:37 crazy situation. And I am not I'm very distractable. I'm

25:39 And I am not I'm very distractable. I'm

25:39 And I am not I'm very distractable. I'm very ADHD. I am prone to being depressed

25:42 very ADHD. I am prone to being depressed

25:42 very ADHD. I am prone to being depressed and artistic and moody and tumblery. You

25:44 and artistic and moody and tumblery. You

25:44 and artistic and moody and tumblery. You know what I mean? So, for something

25:46 know what I mean? So, for something

25:46 know what I mean? So, for something crazy like that to happen to me, I sat

25:48 crazy like that to happen to me, I sat

25:48 crazy like that to happen to me, I sat there. I figured out some rules for

25:50 there. I figured out some rules for

25:50 there. I figured out some rules for myself, which I can't think of all the

25:52 myself, which I can't think of all the

25:52 myself, which I can't think of all the rules at the moment. I wish I could have

25:53 rules at the moment. I wish I could have

25:53 rules at the moment. I wish I could have told you. I broke down a fivepoint plan

25:56 told you. I broke down a fivepoint plan

25:56 told you. I broke down a fivepoint plan for positivity. I followed the plan

26:00 for positivity. I followed the plan

26:00 for positivity. I followed the plan pretty religiously. I know one of the

26:02 pretty religiously. I know one of the

26:02 pretty religiously. I know one of the first things was hello.

26:06 first things was hello.

26:06 first things was hello. Some people are very weirded out by me

26:07 Some people are very weirded out by me

26:08 Some people are very weirded out by me saying hello while I point a camera at

26:09 saying hello while I point a camera at

26:09 saying hello while I point a camera at them and while I wear this beanie.

26:11 them and while I wear this beanie.

26:11 them and while I wear this beanie. That's okay. I'm still going to say

26:12 That's okay. I'm still going to say

26:12 That's okay. I'm still going to say hello anyway. What was I saying? Oh, the

26:15 hello anyway. What was I saying? Oh, the

26:15 hello anyway. What was I saying? Oh, the five-point plan. I remember the first

26:16 five-point plan. I remember the first

26:16 five-point plan. I remember the first point of the plan was turn positive

26:19 point of the plan was turn positive

26:19 point of the plan was turn positive feelings into words, which is part of

26:22 feelings into words, which is part of

26:22 feelings into words, which is part of why we do the sometimes blog, do all

26:25 why we do the sometimes blog, do all

26:25 why we do the sometimes blog, do all kinds of things. So, if you're feeling

26:27 kinds of things. So, if you're feeling

26:27 kinds of things. So, if you're feeling something positive, say it out loud. A

26:29 something positive, say it out loud. A

26:29 something positive, say it out loud. A lot of times, somebody will make you

26:30 lot of times, somebody will make you

26:30 lot of times, somebody will make you happy, they'll give something to you,

26:32 happy, they'll give something to you,

26:32 happy, they'll give something to you, they'll do something for you and it

26:33 they'll do something for you and it

26:33 they'll do something for you and it makes you really happy and you're happy

26:34 makes you really happy and you're happy

26:34 makes you really happy and you're happy inside. We don't say anything, do we? We

26:36 inside. We don't say anything, do we? We

26:36 inside. We don't say anything, do we? We don't even think about it. something

26:38 don't even think about it. something

26:38 don't even think about it. something awesome will happen like for example my

26:39 awesome will happen like for example my

26:40 awesome will happen like for example my wallet gets returned to me or I find a

26:41 wallet gets returned to me or I find a

26:41 wallet gets returned to me or I find a shiny quarter on the street or a friend

26:43 shiny quarter on the street or a friend

26:43 shiny quarter on the street or a friend compliments me or and the woo pays for

26:45 compliments me or and the woo pays for

26:45 compliments me or and the woo pays for my red robin last night and I won't even

26:47 my red robin last night and I won't even

26:47 my red robin last night and I won't even acknowledge that it happened. I'll go

26:48 acknowledge that it happened. I'll go

26:48 acknowledge that it happened. I'll go cool something good happened. I like

26:50 cool something good happened. I like

26:50 cool something good happened. I like that and continue on with my day. Well,

26:52 that and continue on with my day. Well,

26:52 that and continue on with my day. Well, what happens when something negative

26:54 what happens when something negative

26:54 what happens when something negative happens? When my wallet's missing, what

26:55 happens? When my wallet's missing, what

26:55 happens? When my wallet's missing, what happens? A stream

26:58 happens? A stream

26:58 happens? A stream Hey, I'm not ashamed to admit it. I'm

26:59 Hey, I'm not ashamed to admit it. I'm

26:59 Hey, I'm not ashamed to admit it. I'm not perfect. A stream of profanities and

27:01 not perfect. A stream of profanities and

27:02 not perfect. A stream of profanities and panic was coming out of my mouth. Oh no.

27:04 panic was coming out of my mouth. Oh no.

27:04 panic was coming out of my mouth. Oh no. You know, oh poopy.

27:07 You know, oh poopy.

27:07 You know, oh poopy. Just made myself laugh there. Laughing

27:09 Just made myself laugh there. Laughing

27:09 Just made myself laugh there. Laughing at my own jokes. What a jerk. Stream of

27:12 at my own jokes. What a jerk. Stream of

27:12 at my own jokes. What a jerk. Stream of horrible things comes out of my mouth. I

27:14 horrible things comes out of my mouth. I

27:14 horrible things comes out of my mouth. I make a huge deal out of it. It becomes

27:15 make a huge deal out of it. It becomes

27:15 make a huge deal out of it. It becomes the biggest deal in the world. When I

27:16 the biggest deal in the world. When I

27:16 the biggest deal in the world. When I find it, I go, "Oh, cool."

27:19 find it, I go, "Oh, cool."

27:19 find it, I go, "Oh, cool." Well, that's no way to live, is it?

27:21 Well, that's no way to live, is it?

27:21 Well, that's no way to live, is it? Because that means that everything bad

27:25 Because that means that everything bad

27:25 Because that means that everything bad I understand.

27:27 I understand.

27:27 I understand. I didn't know she was talking to me or

27:28 I didn't know she was talking to me or

27:28 I didn't know she was talking to me or not for a second, so I just had to pause

27:29 not for a second, so I just had to pause

27:29 not for a second, so I just had to pause and and and find out. That means

27:31 and and and find out. That means

27:31 and and and find out. That means everything bad that happens to us gets a

27:32 everything bad that happens to us gets a

27:32 everything bad that happens to us gets a whole bunch of attention that becomes a

27:34 whole bunch of attention that becomes a

27:34 whole bunch of attention that becomes a monument. We build a huge monument to it

27:38 monument. We build a huge monument to it

27:38 monument. We build a huge monument to it in our day in our conversation and our

27:40 in our day in our conversation and our

27:40 in our day in our conversation and our hearts and our minds without even

27:41 hearts and our minds without even

27:42 hearts and our minds without even realizing we've turned the problem into

27:44 realizing we've turned the problem into

27:44 realizing we've turned the problem into this flag pole. Oh, you'll never believe

27:46 this flag pole. Oh, you'll never believe

27:46 this flag pole. Oh, you'll never believe what kind of day I had. And it's usually

27:48 what kind of day I had. And it's usually

27:48 what kind of day I had. And it's usually this negative, this negative, this

27:49 this negative, this negative, this

27:49 this negative, this negative, this negative. We forget to even acknowledge

27:51 negative. We forget to even acknowledge

27:51 negative. We forget to even acknowledge that positive things like saying hello,

27:53 that positive things like saying hello,

27:53 that positive things like saying hello, hello have happened at all during our

27:55 hello have happened at all during our

27:55 hello have happened at all during our day for you.

27:58 day for you.

27:58 day for you. See, I've been talking for so long. I'm

27:59 See, I've been talking for so long. I'm

28:00 See, I've been talking for so long. I'm kind of running out of talk. I need to

28:01 kind of running out of talk. I need to

28:01 kind of running out of talk. I need to go buy a Mountain Dew. So, I'm going to

28:02 go buy a Mountain Dew. So, I'm going to

28:02 go buy a Mountain Dew. So, I'm going to do that right this second. I'm going to

28:04 do that right this second. I'm going to

28:04 do that right this second. I'm going to go do my duty.

28:06 go do my duty.

28:06 go do my duty. But this this is kind of important. This

28:08 But this this is kind of important. This

28:08 But this this is kind of important. This first point, this is the only point I

28:09 first point, this is the only point I

28:09 first point, this is the only point I can remember off the top of my head.

28:10 can remember off the top of my head.

28:10 can remember off the top of my head. Now, I've been talking for a while and I

28:11 Now, I've been talking for a while and I

28:11 Now, I've been talking for a while and I honestly have not had any soda yet today

28:13 honestly have not had any soda yet today

28:13 honestly have not had any soda yet today and I need to.

28:16 and I need to.

28:16 and I need to. But you understand what I'm saying. You

28:17 But you understand what I'm saying. You

28:18 But you understand what I'm saying. You say a whole bunch of stuff about the

28:19 say a whole bunch of stuff about the

28:19 say a whole bunch of stuff about the negative thing that happens. You build

28:20 negative thing that happens. You build

28:20 negative thing that happens. You build it up into this big giant thing. You

28:21 it up into this big giant thing. You

28:22 it up into this big giant thing. You never even acknowledge the positive

28:23 never even acknowledge the positive

28:23 never even acknowledge the positive stuff.

28:24 stuff.

28:24 stuff. I heard the funniest joke. It was funny.

28:27 I heard the funniest joke. It was funny.

28:27 I heard the funniest joke. It was funny. It made me happy. So, not only to turn

28:29 It made me happy. So, not only to turn

28:29 It made me happy. So, not only to turn that into words, to make it a thing, to

28:31 that into words, to make it a thing, to

28:31 that into words, to make it a thing, to make it a monument in your own day, that

28:32 make it a monument in your own day, that

28:32 make it a monument in your own day, that something positive happened. I found

28:33 something positive happened. I found

28:33 something positive happened. I found this quarter. I really like that I found

28:35 this quarter. I really like that I found

28:35 this quarter. I really like that I found this quarter. Not only are you telling

28:36 this quarter. Not only are you telling

28:36 this quarter. Not only are you telling yourself why you're happy about

28:37 yourself why you're happy about

28:37 yourself why you're happy about something, which will also help you to

28:39 something, which will also help you to

28:40 something, which will also help you to understand what makes you happy. By the

28:41 understand what makes you happy. By the

28:41 understand what makes you happy. By the way, hello. I love that jacket. That is

28:44 way, hello. I love that jacket. That is

28:44 way, hello. I love that jacket. That is a cool jacket. Cool sunglasses. She was

28:47 a cool jacket. Cool sunglasses. She was

28:47 a cool jacket. Cool sunglasses. She was wearing cool boots. Did you see those

28:48 wearing cool boots. Did you see those

28:48 wearing cool boots. Did you see those boots? I think they were boots. I

28:50 boots? I think they were boots. I

28:50 boots? I think they were boots. I honestly wasn't actually paying

28:51 honestly wasn't actually paying

28:51 honestly wasn't actually paying attention, but in the corner of mine, I

28:52 attention, but in the corner of mine, I

28:52 attention, but in the corner of mine, I thought I saw boots. Yes, they were

28:55 thought I saw boots. Yes, they were

28:55 thought I saw boots. Yes, they were boots. And they were awesome. They look

28:56 boots. And they were awesome. They look

28:56 boots. And they were awesome. They look like crazy Imperial Star Wars officer

28:59 like crazy Imperial Star Wars officer

28:59 like crazy Imperial Star Wars officer boots. Anyway,

29:01 boots. Anyway,

29:01 boots. Anyway, so that becomes important not just for

29:03 so that becomes important not just for

29:03 so that becomes important not just for yourself but also for the people around

29:04 yourself but also for the people around

29:04 yourself but also for the people around you to acknowledge when they have put

29:06 you to acknowledge when they have put

29:06 you to acknowledge when they have put some sort of blessing or some sort of

29:08 some sort of blessing or some sort of

29:08 some sort of blessing or some sort of positive thing in your day to say, "Hey

29:09 positive thing in your day to say, "Hey

29:09 positive thing in your day to say, "Hey man, the thing you said to me earlier

29:11 man, the thing you said to me earlier

29:11 man, the thing you said to me earlier about the joke being really funny,

29:12 about the joke being really funny,

29:12 about the joke being really funny, really made me feel good." Or, "Hey,

29:13 really made me feel good." Or, "Hey,

29:13 really made me feel good." Or, "Hey, really thank you for buying me the

29:15 really thank you for buying me the

29:15 really thank you for buying me the meal." Not just thank you for buying me

29:16 meal." Not just thank you for buying me

29:16 meal." Not just thank you for buying me the meal as a courtesy. Thank you, Adam

29:18 the meal as a courtesy. Thank you, Adam

29:18 the meal as a courtesy. Thank you, Adam the Woo out there right now. I'll do

29:21 the Woo out there right now. I'll do

29:21 the Woo out there right now. I'll do Oxy. Look, I'll practice what I preach

29:22 Oxy. Look, I'll practice what I preach

29:22 Oxy. Look, I'll practice what I preach right here on the sometimes vlog because

29:23 right here on the sometimes vlog because

29:23 right here on the sometimes vlog because I know Adam will probably watch this

29:25 I know Adam will probably watch this

29:25 I know Adam will probably watch this once I tell him to.

29:28 once I tell him to.

29:28 once I tell him to. Thanks for buying the Red Robin, buddy.

29:30 Thanks for buying the Red Robin, buddy.

29:30 Thanks for buying the Red Robin, buddy. Not just because you spent your money

29:32 Not just because you spent your money

29:32 Not just because you spent your money when I wasn't expecting it, but also

29:33 when I wasn't expecting it, but also

29:33 when I wasn't expecting it, but also because it made me feel good and

29:34 because it made me feel good and

29:34 because it made me feel good and appreciated as a person. That kind of a

29:36 appreciated as a person. That kind of a

29:36 appreciated as a person. That kind of a thing. That's exactly what I'm talking

29:37 thing. That's exactly what I'm talking

29:37 thing. That's exactly what I'm talking about. And that was totally sincere.

29:39 about. And that was totally sincere.

29:39 about. And that was totally sincere. Like I said, I'm awkward about thank

29:40 Like I said, I'm awkward about thank

29:40 Like I said, I'm awkward about thank yous. Could do that for somebody else

29:42 yous. Could do that for somebody else

29:42 yous. Could do that for somebody else because now you've made them positive.

29:43 because now you've made them positive.

29:43 because now you've made them positive. Now you put something positive into

29:44 Now you put something positive into

29:44 Now you put something positive into their day, too. And probably the person

29:47 their day, too. And probably the person

29:47 their day, too. And probably the person that you're going to interact with is

29:48 that you're going to interact with is

29:48 that you're going to interact with is somebody that's somewhat close to you,

29:50 somebody that's somewhat close to you,

29:50 somebody that's somewhat close to you, even if they're on the periphery of your

29:51 even if they're on the periphery of your

29:51 even if they're on the periphery of your existence. That's going to make them a

29:53 existence. That's going to make them a

29:53 existence. That's going to make them a lot more positive. This is what I'm

29:54 lot more positive. This is what I'm

29:54 lot more positive. This is what I'm talking about. You're going to be able

29:55 talking about. You're going to be able

29:55 talking about. You're going to be able to affect your entire environment with

29:57 to affect your entire environment with

29:57 to affect your entire environment with your positive attitude. I'm not saying

29:59 your positive attitude. I'm not saying

29:59 your positive attitude. I'm not saying it's a end all beall cure for

30:01 it's a end all beall cure for

30:01 it's a end all beall cure for circumstances. I'm not saying that it

30:04 circumstances. I'm not saying that it

30:04 circumstances. I'm not saying that it changes right and wrong. You could do

30:05 changes right and wrong. You could do

30:05 changes right and wrong. You could do so. I'm not saying it turns a wrong into

30:07 so. I'm not saying it turns a wrong into

30:07 so. I'm not saying it turns a wrong into a right just to think positive about it.

30:09 a right just to think positive about it.

30:09 a right just to think positive about it. Look on the bright side. You know, you

30:10 Look on the bright side. You know, you

30:10 Look on the bright side. You know, you can't be flippant about it.

30:13 can't be flippant about it.

30:13 can't be flippant about it. But it's a it's a the positive mental

30:15 But it's a it's a the positive mental

30:15 But it's a it's a the positive mental attitude thing does make a whole lot of

30:17 attitude thing does make a whole lot of

30:17 attitude thing does make a whole lot of difference. Many priests and rabbis and

30:19 difference. Many priests and rabbis and

30:19 difference. Many priests and rabbis and monks and

30:21 monks and

30:21 monks and psychologists and psychiatrists

30:24 psychologists and psychiatrists

30:24 psychologists and psychiatrists counselors will agree and also millions

30:27 counselors will agree and also millions

30:27 counselors will agree and also millions of people who depressed and sort of

30:28 of people who depressed and sort of

30:28 of people who depressed and sort of lifted themselves up out of depression

30:30 lifted themselves up out of depression

30:30 lifted themselves up out of depression will agree that it does make a huge huge

30:33 will agree that it does make a huge huge

30:33 will agree that it does make a huge huge difference if you wake up. It's like the

30:35 difference if you wake up. It's like the

30:36 difference if you wake up. It's like the old saying, I'm pretty sure it's loun

30:37 old saying, I'm pretty sure it's loun

30:37 old saying, I'm pretty sure it's loun that said, the man who says he can't do

30:39 that said, the man who says he can't do

30:39 that said, the man who says he can't do something and the man who says he can

30:41 something and the man who says he can

30:41 something and the man who says he can are usually both right. It's that kind

30:44 are usually both right. It's that kind

30:44 are usually both right. It's that kind of thing. You wake up in the morning and

30:45 of thing. You wake up in the morning and

30:45 of thing. You wake up in the morning and say, "This is going to be miserable. I'm

30:47 say, "This is going to be miserable. I'm

30:47 say, "This is going to be miserable. I'm miserable. Nothing good ever happens to

30:48 miserable. Nothing good ever happens to

30:48 miserable. Nothing good ever happens to me." You're not even going to be open to

30:50 me." You're not even going to be open to

30:50 me." You're not even going to be open to the possibility of anything good

30:51 the possibility of anything good

30:51 the possibility of anything good happening. And I guarantee you, I have

30:54 happening. And I guarantee you, I have

30:54 happening. And I guarantee you, I have lived this for many years. I guarantee

30:56 lived this for many years. I guarantee

30:56 lived this for many years. I guarantee you nothing good is going to happen to

30:57 you nothing good is going to happen to

30:57 you nothing good is going to happen to you that day because even if it does,

30:58 you that day because even if it does,

30:58 you that day because even if it does, you're not going to know that it did at

31:00 you're not going to know that it did at

31:00 you're not going to know that it did at all. You win the lottery and find a way

31:02 all. You win the lottery and find a way

31:02 all. You win the lottery and find a way to be grumpy about it. If you wake up

31:03 to be grumpy about it. If you wake up

31:03 to be grumpy about it. If you wake up every day and going, "The world is

31:04 every day and going, "The world is

31:04 every day and going, "The world is beautiful or there's a beautiful planet

31:06 beautiful or there's a beautiful planet

31:06 beautiful or there's a beautiful planet full of beautiful people doing beautiful

31:08 full of beautiful people doing beautiful

31:08 full of beautiful people doing beautiful things." Like, look at that. They're

31:09 things." Like, look at that. They're

31:09 things." Like, look at that. They're holding hands. They're so happy. Doesn't

31:10 holding hands. They're so happy. Doesn't

31:10 holding hands. They're so happy. Doesn't matter if they're going to break up next

31:11 matter if they're going to break up next

31:11 matter if they're going to break up next week. A grumpy person was like, "Those

31:13 week. A grumpy person was like, "Those

31:13 week. A grumpy person was like, "Those young people will probably break up next

31:15 young people will probably break up next

31:15 young people will probably break up next week and break each other's hearts. They

31:17 week and break each other's hearts. They

31:17 week and break each other's hearts. They shouldn't be together ever. No love."

31:20 shouldn't be together ever. No love."

31:20 shouldn't be together ever. No love." Why not look at it and say they're

31:21 Why not look at it and say they're

31:21 Why not look at it and say they're really happy right now? That's okay.

31:23 really happy right now? That's okay.

31:23 really happy right now? That's okay. Sometimes all we have is right now. So,

31:26 Sometimes all we have is right now. So,

31:26 Sometimes all we have is right now. So, there's a huge beautiful world out

31:27 there's a huge beautiful world out

31:27 there's a huge beautiful world out there. And like Obi-Wan Kenobi tells

31:30 there. And like Obi-Wan Kenobi tells

31:30 there. And like Obi-Wan Kenobi tells Luke Skywalker, "Luke, you're going to

31:32 Luke Skywalker, "Luke, you're going to

31:32 Luke Skywalker, "Luke, you're going to find that many of the truths we cling to

31:35 find that many of the truths we cling to

31:35 find that many of the truths we cling to depend entirely on one's point of view."

31:38 depend entirely on one's point of view."

31:38 depend entirely on one's point of view." So, it's about shifting the paradigm,

31:40 So, it's about shifting the paradigm,

31:40 So, it's about shifting the paradigm, shifting your point of view, being

31:41 shifting your point of view, being

31:41 shifting your point of view, being positive, getting ice from an ancient

31:44 positive, getting ice from an ancient

31:44 positive, getting ice from an ancient rusty ice machine, and getting a

31:46 rusty ice machine, and getting a

31:46 rusty ice machine, and getting a Mountain Dew right now before your

31:47 Mountain Dew right now before your

31:48 Mountain Dew right now before your parched mouth starts spitting foam and

31:50 parched mouth starts spitting foam and

31:50 parched mouth starts spitting foam and then blood from just no moisture.

31:54 then blood from just no moisture.

31:54 then blood from just no moisture. That's a very I gave myself a very

31:55 That's a very I gave myself a very

31:55 That's a very I gave myself a very disgusting visual from that. Anyway, I'm

31:58 disgusting visual from that. Anyway, I'm

31:58 disgusting visual from that. Anyway, I'm going into Rod's liquor now because I'm

32:00 going into Rod's liquor now because I'm

32:00 going into Rod's liquor now because I'm only in the 30 minute parking. Pretty

32:03 only in the 30 minute parking. Pretty

32:03 only in the 30 minute parking. Pretty sure I'm already late. Don't need a

32:04 sure I'm already late. Don't need a

32:04 sure I'm already late. Don't need a second ticket. I still got one ticket I

32:06 second ticket. I still got one ticket I

32:06 second ticket. I still got one ticket I can't pay for. Plenty of stuff on eBay.

32:07 can't pay for. Plenty of stuff on eBay.

32:07 can't pay for. Plenty of stuff on eBay. Plenty of stuff getting close to the

32:08 Plenty of stuff getting close to the

32:08 Plenty of stuff getting close to the website live bestport.com. Of course,

32:10 website live bestport.com. Of course,

32:10 website live bestport.com. Of course, live.spreadshirt.com. We got all kinds

32:12 live.spreadshirt.com. We got all kinds

32:12 live.spreadshirt.com. We got all kinds of crazy stuff going on, but all that

32:14 of crazy stuff going on, but all that

32:14 of crazy stuff going on, but all that stuff is sort of secondary. We sort of

32:16 stuff is sort of secondary. We sort of

32:16 stuff is sort of secondary. We sort of do everything for fun. We like sharing

32:18 do everything for fun. We like sharing

32:18 do everything for fun. We like sharing it with you. We like that you guys like

32:20 it with you. We like that you guys like

32:20 it with you. We like that you guys like it. really appreciate all the comments,

32:22 it. really appreciate all the comments,

32:22 it. really appreciate all the comments, all the feedback, all the presents, the

32:24 all the feedback, all the presents, the

32:24 all the feedback, all the presents, the donations, the purchasing of the shirts,

32:27 donations, the purchasing of the shirts,

32:27 donations, the purchasing of the shirts, but most of all the watching of the

32:28 but most of all the watching of the

32:28 but most of all the watching of the videos and the interacting and being

32:30 videos and the interacting and being

32:30 videos and the interacting and being part of the quest for positivity.

32:31 part of the quest for positivity.

32:31 part of the quest for positivity. Honestly, look at that. It was something

32:33 Honestly, look at that. It was something

32:33 Honestly, look at that. It was something that I started to not go mad

32:36 that I started to not go mad

32:36 that I started to not go mad truthfully. I was talking to myself at

32:39 truthfully. I was talking to myself at

32:39 truthfully. I was talking to myself at first, really preaching at myself. And

32:41 first, really preaching at myself. And

32:41 first, really preaching at myself. And so many of you have joined me on the

32:43 so many of you have joined me on the

32:43 so many of you have joined me on the quest for positivity. And you guys say

32:45 quest for positivity. And you guys say

32:45 quest for positivity. And you guys say positive things to me, and I try my best

32:46 positive things to me, and I try my best

32:46 positive things to me, and I try my best to get back to you and say positive

32:47 to get back to you and say positive

32:47 to get back to you and say positive things to you. And it's become like a

32:49 things to you. And it's become like a

32:49 things to you. And it's become like a whole different thing. My entire life is

32:51 whole different thing. My entire life is

32:51 whole different thing. My entire life is completely different. I'm no longer

32:52 completely different. I'm no longer

32:52 completely different. I'm no longer bitter and upset about my old life. I am

32:54 bitter and upset about my old life. I am

32:54 bitter and upset about my old life. I am pretty stoked about my new life. It's

32:57 pretty stoked about my new life. It's

32:57 pretty stoked about my new life. It's entirely better than my old life. I got

32:59 entirely better than my old life. I got

32:59 entirely better than my old life. I got many of you people in it. It's amazing.

33:02 many of you people in it. It's amazing.

33:02 many of you people in it. It's amazing. I get to meet all of you. We get to give

33:04 I get to meet all of you. We get to give

33:04 I get to meet all of you. We get to give each other hugs. We have all kinds of

33:05 each other hugs. We have all kinds of

33:05 each other hugs. We have all kinds of inside jokes with each other now and

33:07 inside jokes with each other now and

33:07 inside jokes with each other now and memes and all kinds of things. We get to

33:08 memes and all kinds of things. We get to

33:08 memes and all kinds of things. We get to make people very, very confused because

33:10 make people very, very confused because

33:10 make people very, very confused because they don't know you're in the little

33:11 they don't know you're in the little

33:11 they don't know you're in the little box. So, life is pretty good right now.

33:14 box. So, life is pretty good right now.

33:14 box. So, life is pretty good right now. I'm feeling pretty excited. I don't

33:15 I'm feeling pretty excited. I don't

33:15 I'm feeling pretty excited. I don't care. that there's only $40 in my bank

33:17 care. that there's only $40 in my bank

33:17 care. that there's only $40 in my bank account. I don't care that I have a

33:19 account. I don't care that I have a

33:20 account. I don't care that I have a speeding ticket to pay for. I don't care

33:22 speeding ticket to pay for. I don't care

33:22 speeding ticket to pay for. I don't care that I'm ugly.

33:25 that I'm ugly.

33:25 that I'm ugly. I do care that I don't know this

33:26 I do care that I don't know this

33:26 I do care that I don't know this handsome stranger here. I don't care

33:28 handsome stranger here. I don't care

33:28 handsome stranger here. I don't care that I don't have Mountain Dew cuz I'm

33:29 that I don't have Mountain Dew cuz I'm

33:29 that I don't have Mountain Dew cuz I'm going to get one in a second. You get

33:32 going to get one in a second. You get

33:32 going to get one in a second. You get the point. So, I'm pretty positive. I'm

33:34 the point. So, I'm pretty positive. I'm

33:34 the point. So, I'm pretty positive. I'm feeling pretty good. Thank you for the

33:36 feeling pretty good. Thank you for the

33:36 feeling pretty good. Thank you for the letters. Thank you for everything you

33:37 letters. Thank you for everything you

33:37 letters. Thank you for everything you guys do for us because we just put silly

33:40 guys do for us because we just put silly

33:40 guys do for us because we just put silly videos and art and different stuff on

33:43 videos and art and different stuff on

33:43 videos and art and different stuff on the internet because we like to. That's

33:44 the internet because we like to. That's

33:44 the internet because we like to. That's just what we do. So, we really

33:47 just what we do. So, we really

33:47 just what we do. So, we really appreciate the fact that you're sharing

33:49 appreciate the fact that you're sharing

33:50 appreciate the fact that you're sharing uh in the whole thing with us, reading

33:51 uh in the whole thing with us, reading

33:51 uh in the whole thing with us, reading it, talking back, sending us cool stuff.

33:53 it, talking back, sending us cool stuff.

33:53 it, talking back, sending us cool stuff. You guys send us cool stuff all the

33:54 You guys send us cool stuff all the

33:54 You guys send us cool stuff all the time. And by the way, the website

33:57 time. And by the way, the website

33:57 time. And by the way, the website live.com, we do take submissions. So, if

33:58 live.com, we do take submissions. So, if

33:58 live.com, we do take submissions. So, if you write a blog or articles or you, you

34:00 you write a blog or articles or you, you

34:00 you write a blog or articles or you, you know, you want to write a review of

34:01 know, you want to write a review of

34:01 know, you want to write a review of something or artwork or something like

34:03 something or artwork or something like

34:03 something or artwork or something like that, there is a submission form or

34:05 that, there is a submission form or

34:05 that, there is a submission form or something on the thing and it goes to

34:06 something on the thing and it goes to

34:06 something on the thing and it goes to Tyler and them and they look at it and

34:08 Tyler and them and they look at it and

34:08 Tyler and them and they look at it and we don't have the time or ability to

34:10 we don't have the time or ability to

34:10 we don't have the time or ability to post everything, but we do like the

34:12 post everything, but we do like the

34:12 post everything, but we do like the interaction. We do like people

34:13 interaction. We do like people

34:13 interaction. We do like people participating and the fact that it sort

34:16 participating and the fact that it sort

34:16 participating and the fact that it sort of turned into like a little family. I

34:18 of turned into like a little family. I

34:18 of turned into like a little family. I don't want to get emotional, but you

34:20 don't want to get emotional, but you

34:20 don't want to get emotional, but you guys have really honestly been a huge

34:22 guys have really honestly been a huge

34:22 guys have really honestly been a huge huge part of my life for the last long

34:24 huge part of my life for the last long

34:24 huge part of my life for the last long time and you continue to be part of my

34:26 time and you continue to be part of my

34:26 time and you continue to be part of my life sometimes. Get it? See what I did

34:28 life sometimes. Get it? See what I did

34:28 life sometimes. Get it? See what I did there? Sometimes vlog. There was some

34:31 there? Sometimes vlog. There was some

34:31 there? Sometimes vlog. There was some sort of orange circle reference I was

34:32 sort of orange circle reference I was

34:32 sort of orange circle reference I was going to bring it back to when this was

34:33 going to bring it back to when this was

34:33 going to bring it back to when this was all said and done, but I can't think of

34:35 all said and done, but I can't think of

34:35 all said and done, but I can't think of what it is cuz I just really need soda.

34:37 what it is cuz I just really need soda.

34:37 what it is cuz I just really need soda. And now I'm rambling cuz I've

34:38 And now I'm rambling cuz I've

34:38 And now I'm rambling cuz I've embarrassed myself with my own feels.

34:42 embarrassed myself with my own feels.

34:42 embarrassed myself with my own feels. So, I'm going to go. Thank you for

34:44 So, I'm going to go. Thank you for

34:44 So, I'm going to go. Thank you for watching. Subscribe for some more

34:45 watching. Subscribe for some more

34:45 watching. Subscribe for some more sometimes vlogs. And we don't do this

34:47 sometimes vlogs. And we don't do this

34:47 sometimes vlogs. And we don't do this very often. Normally, we're running

34:49 very often. Normally, we're running

34:49 very often. Normally, we're running around sniffing the trash can. Not

34:51 around sniffing the trash can. Not

34:51 around sniffing the trash can. Not today, though, but tomorrow. So, we'll

34:54 today, though, but tomorrow. So, we'll

34:54 today, though, but tomorrow. So, we'll be back on the sometimes vlog. It's a

34:56 be back on the sometimes vlog. It's a

34:56 be back on the sometimes vlog. It's a vlog that happens sometimes. I'm now

34:58 vlog that happens sometimes. I'm now

34:58 vlog that happens sometimes. I'm now going to get some Mountain Dew and go to

35:00 going to get some Mountain Dew and go to

35:00 going to get some Mountain Dew and go to Disneyland. Goodbye.

Origins of The Quest for Positivity

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